Ladies...I'm here. I'm keeping up with you guys, reading everyone's news and clicking some "love its" while I've been trying to keep my head on straight. This past month has been CRAZY at work, I've traveled a ton with work and my state dietetic association. I was in Houston for days and I've just been exhausted. I've basically been "mobile bumping" for the most part in between flights and lectures and clinics. Just been on long enough to keep up to date with you friends, but not really long enough to respond to many things or post anything of my own. Things are calming down now, but October gutted me away.
Thinking of you all...congrats to all of you with great news and (((hugs))) to those that have gotten sad news. Whether good or bad, your words haven't gone unnoticed by me.
Here's my update:
I started Clomid yesterday (CD3) so our last DS IUI will be sometimes in 10-12 days or so. This is it for us. If we're supposed to have a child after this attempt, God will have to wake up DH's swimmers and let one do work! I have the greatest husband who I adore and am completely in love with. We even like each other, very much. He cracks me up and makes my heart smile. It's not fair to our marriage to keep wanting something that may not happen, so I'm prepared to move forward and enjoy life with him. We haven't really enjoyed life the past 4 years, as I'm sure you guys have struggled with too at times, it's filled with appts, research, temperatures, OPKs, medications, injections all on top of your every day responsibilities. So, we decided if this doesn't work (and I"m hoping like heck it does) then we'll move on. I'll likely need some counseling because I'll just be angry, I know. But, I'll be ready to stop watching for AF to show because I'll expect her to instead of hoping she doesn't, then crying when she does. We're older, I'll be 39 in February and he's 44. I realize it's still plenty young to have a child, that doesn't concern me, what does concern me is missing out on more life with my husband while grieving something not happening every month. Make sense?
So...here's where we are with this DS/IUI...I'll do Clomid and ultra sound monitoring, trigger injection and start progesterone the day of IUI. We'll see what happens.
I love you all and am honored you were thinking of me...
This is too long, and I'm not "proofing" it...please look over any typos