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Not goodbye, but see you later (long sorry)

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Re: Not goodbye, but see you later (long sorry)

  • OMG, OP. I can relate all too well. Please take the time to take care of yourself. 
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  • Bran, I am so sorry for this crushing ordeal you're having to go through. I'm glad you'll be able to go see your youth pastors this weekend and hopefully find solace and guidance in your safe space. You know we'll all be here for you whenever you're ready, and please take care of yourself until then. Many hugs and best wishes.
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  • Bran, I am so so sorry. My t & p go out to you. Take care of yourself.
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  • I am so sorry you have to go through this.  I hope you feel God's arms wrapped around you soon.  My prayers are with you.
  • Oh Bran, I'm so sorry hun. My T&P's are with you. Hang in there!! (((hugs))) and lots of them!
  • I am so saddened to hear this, Bran.  Find the emotional stability you need and come back when you are ready--we will be here with open arms!  Love ya girl!

     

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  • I am so sorry Bran! My thoughts and prayers will be with you.
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  • If you are up for it read "Mean Mothers" by Peg Streep. It will help you realize that you are not alone, you are not the "problem" and you can be a better mother than your mother. I think there is excerpt on the GMA website and you may be able to get it from the Library.
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  • I'm so sorry to hear that you had such a horrible experience with you mom.  I think you are right, no real mother would say that!  I have only known you to be so kind, helpful, and inspirational in the time that I have known you on TB and I can't even imagine someone not thinking that you are wonderful--let alone your mother.  Just know that all of us here (and I'm sure all of those who actually care about you IRL) know what a great person you are!  ((Big, giant hugs!!!!))

    I truly appreciate your presence here, but I also understand that it might take some time to sort out what's going on in your life.  I wish you the best of luck and I can't wait to see you back here!

    Lots of love to my BFPB, Squishy622 <3

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  • Bran, love I am so very sorry you have to deal with this.  You will be in my thoughts and prayers, please take care...I'll miss you!

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  • I am so sorry, I can't even imagine what you are going through. I hope you find peace in any way that you can. I wish there was more I could offer than just e-hugs and letting you know that I'm here to listen if you need an ear. (( hugs ))
  • Bran I am so sorry that you are going through this tough time. My heart hurts for you. You said that you wanted to be wrapped in God's arms and you are!

    The last time I was going through some really hard things in my life the song Wrap Me in Your Arms really helped me heal. Look it up on Youtube. I hope that it helps you get to that place where you feel God surrounding you and filling you up with His love and His peace. You are in my prayers.

  • It's really sad ho the people who are supposed to love you th e most are the ones to hurt yout the most. Keep you head up and we will all be thinking of you and looking forward to your return. Hugs*
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  • I am so sorry for all that you're going through. I cannot imagine how painful this must be, but know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Thank God you have other people in your life who love and value you, and I'm sure that God will use them to comfort you in the midst of this hard time.

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  • Big, big hugs Bran. I am so sorry that you are dealing with this. It sounds like your mom has some issues and even though this is easier said then done, you should try and not let her words sting so much.

    I hope that you are back on the TTGP bandwagon very, very soon. Best wishes. 

  • I am so sorry you are going through this - no one should ever have to hear words like those, especially from one's own mother.  You seem to be handling the situation with more grace and perspective than is imaginable - I hope you find peace and healing very quickly!
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  • Oh Bran :( That's horrible...I'm so sorry you had to go through this-- it's not something ANYBODY should ever have to deal with from a "mother". ((HUGS)) you will  be a fantastic parent someday, and I hope you come back soon-- the boards won't be the same without your presence!
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  • I have no words, I can't imagine what you are going thru. T&P's to you!!

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  • Bran, this was really painful to read, so I can only imagine how painful it was to suffer through.  It is terrible, and you are absolutely correct that NO mother (or father) should ever make their child feel unloved or unwanted.  I am so glad that you recognize it for what it is...a mental thing.  And, it gives me peace that you know our eternal Father, and are able to give yourself to His unending Love in times when this world seems unbearable.  I pray for your peace right now.  I pray for your mother.  I hope that her mental state improves.  It sounds like she needs medication, and I hope that she has someone there (a husband or family) that can look out for her and direct her to some sort of therapy/psychiatric care.  Know that you are LOVED and will be greatly missed.  I definitely understand your need for a break, and I will continue to follow your blog.  I will PM you my info...I would like to talk more.  I think we have some common ground.  <3  <3<3 xxx bella
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  • Bran, I hate it that you had to go through this. I am so sorry. Wish I could give you a big hug! Just remember that God can carry you through every trial that life throws at you. Praying that He provides you with the comfort you need.
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  • :::hugs:::

    I don't even know what to say.  My T&P are with you.

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  • that makes me so sad, i'm so sorry your mom would say such horrible things to you.  many T&P sent your way during this difficult time.  ((hugs))
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  • I'm literally in tears right now, Bran. Just like you cannot describe in words how much you hurt, I really have no words to describe how deeply sorry that you had to experience this. We will definitely keep in contact over e-mail and IRL, too. Email, call -- whatever you need! I am praying for you that you find the peace that you truly deserve. ((((big hugs))))
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  • {{HUGS}} I'm really sorry Bran. That is awful. I hope you find peace!
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  • I'm so sorry that you are having to deal with this, Bran. Lots of hugs, thoughts, and prayers.

    "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13 

    (((HUGS))) 

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  • Thank you ladies so much, many hugs back to you.

    Those who have PM'd me, I'm out & about right now so I'll reply as soon as possible. Thanks for reaching out, so grateful for this board.

    @karaknr...thank you for the link :)

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  • Oh Bran, I know I don't know you, and I barely "know you" - but please know my heart aches for you in this.  What ugly, hurtful things to say.  You are certainly not "the bad child" and from my own personal experience (my dad), a person who is falling apart tends to target the hate they have for themselves on someone who wont fall apart like they did.  someone who is stronger than they are.  it is no excuse, but hopefully it gives you some peace to know that whatever was said could never be true and was said only to hurt by someone who is clearly in a very dark and hateful place. 

     I wish you peace and comfort in the days ahead and I hope to "see" you around here again soon!

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  • I am so sorry doll. I really am. I hope you realize she clearly needs a lot of help and it doesn't sound like you've done anything to bring this on. Keep living a good life like you have been and doing what's best for you. I wish you lots and lots of happiness to outweigh all this negativity. Keep your head up. Good luck doll <3


     

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  • Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry hun, that's unbearably painful. Enjoy your time off and I hope it offers you peace.
  • I am so sad from reading this... you are right that no one should ever say those words to you, especially family!  You are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you find Him leading you down a good path and supporting your every step of the way.

    It is good to take a break from toxic people in your life.  Hopefully less stress and more support from you pastors will help God show you the way to happiness and a future baby!

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  • I don't know how to PM yet but if you need someone to talk to, please let me know.

     

    My heart aches for you because this almost identical conversation dissolved mine and my mother's relationship six years ago.

    It is so hard but you will realize that giving birth to someone does not make you a mother. If nothing else you are learning how not to be to the beautiful baby you will be blessed with eventually.

    Keep strong in knowing that even though your mother might, our God compares you to no one else.

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  • Oh Bran :( I want to reach out and give you the biggest hug right now. I am so, so sorry sweetie. Please know that you are a wonderful person and we all love you. ((big squishy hugs)) I will stay in touch via your blog and email.

     

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  • Oh my gosh, hon, I'm so so so sorry that you are going through this.  My eyes just welled up thinking of how hurt you must be.  I can't believe she could say such horrific things to her daughter.

    Tons of ((hugs)) for you.  I hope you find peace in your break.

    Please take care of yourself. 

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  • I am so sorry you are going through this with your own mother. I really hope she eats those words and apologize to you one day. My T&Ps are with you.
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  • My heart is breaking for you. I hope you find the strength you need to work through this difficult phase. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
  • I'm so sorry that happened to you ::: hugs :::

    Your mom sounds like she has serious mental problems. Your body is not "broken". Just remember that when it comes time for you to become a mother (by whatever means necessary) you will be the best mom you can be regardless of who gave birth to you.

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  • I'm so sorry this is happening.  Sending T&Ps your way!
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  • I'm so sorry. I hope you find the strength to get through this. You sound like a remarkable woman, and I'm so sorry your mother has disappointed you in so many ways.
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  • I haven't been posting here long but I could tell right away that you're such a positive presence here.  Nobody deserves to be verbally abused by their own mother.  Believe me, I've been there.  I know we're all wishing the best for you and hope to see you back soon. 
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