I am so sorry those things were said to you. I sincerely wish you the best and I hope you find some healing soon. I will continue to pray for you and your family, Bran.
Branmuffin- words cannot describe how sorry I am that you had to hear those words from your mother. However, I am very thankful you have God in your life and know who to seek for comfort. I will be thinking about you and praying for you, hoping you can find some sort of peace in your situation.
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Oh Bran, I don't even know what to say. I'm tearing up thinking how hurt you must be. I don't have any words of wisdom, but please know there are people out there who love you and are so happy that you are a part of their lives and wouldn't know what to do if you weren't. Even simple things like your quotes everyday, I've come to depend on them and you. Please let me know if there's anything I can do..
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It sounds like you've had a life full of uphill battles. I am sure you are a strong individual and with the help from God, you will make it through this obstacle in your life. I hope you find solace and peace within yourself and that your mother sees the err of her ways.
I am sending big hugs to you and will remember you in my daily prayers.
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I am so sorry that your mom has said such terrible things to hurt you. Its important that you reach out to your mentors if seems they were a big part of your life and making you the strong person you are today; I think they will remind you what a great person you are. It is incredible that you were able to get past all of the drugs and partying that you grew up around and become the person you are. I am sending lots of hugs and prayers your way and wishing you all the best. Hugs.
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Off BCP 5/2009
TTC since July 2010
DH's SA = Normal!
Hysteroscopy 2/2011
50mg Clomid / Progesterone 77.5 April 2011 = BFN
25mg Clomid / Progesterone 53 May 2011= BFN
25mg Clomid / Progesterone 44.3 June 2011= BFN
5mg Femara / Progesterone 15.7 July 2011= BFN
5mg Femara / Progesterone 14 August 2011= BFN
5mg Femara + Crinone / Progesterone 32 September 2011=BFN
5mg Femara + Crinone / Progesterone 14.9 October 2011=BFN
First RE Appointment 11/2011
Hysteroscopy 11/2011 & on Med break
12/2011 Diagnosed with PCOS (Insulin Resistant)
12/2011 Adding 1000 MG Metformin per day
12/14/11 BFP
Beta #1 664 Beta #2 3330 Beta #3 6160 Beta #4 19546
Official Due Date 8/18/12 & HB 147 on 1/3; HB 171on 1/19 Pre-term labor @ 29W bed-rest till Emergency C-Section
That is awful. I hope you can heal from this, and it sounds like your mom needs some mental help.
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Wow Bran. I don't even know what to say about this. I am glad you sound like you are taking this as well as you are. I really hope that you are able find the mental clarity and healing that you need to get past this. Nobody deserves to be treated like that . Good luck with everything.
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Wow Bran....such a horrible thing to go through...you are definitely in mt T&P! I cant imagine how some of those things can be said. Im sorry.
If God is for us, who can be against us. (Romans 8:31)
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Oh hunny I am so incredibly sorry that you are going through this. Your mom has a serious mental illness. My aunt did the same thing, said mean and hateful things like this and she even left a baby doll covered in ketchup with a knife through it's heart on my parent's doorstep and said that it was my sister's baby (who was going through infertility struggles at the time). Anyways my aunt has bipolar with borderline tendencies and when she is off her medications she becomes evil. That is the only way I can explain it; she truly becomes evil. She says hurtful things, does hurtful things and in my opinion is dangerous.
At this point you have no mom and I am so incredibly sorry for that. Grieve your loss and move forward. My heart absolutely breaks for you during this very difficult time.
My aunt is now stable and doing well but there is and will always be distance between all of us. The wounds heal but the scars are there.
I hope your mom gets the help she needs. Big big hugs and lots of love.
9 angels in heaven-3 in my arms and 1 in the NICU Mono/di twin girls: Josephine born to heaven and Evangeline born Earthside at 25w
I can't find the worlds. I am so so sorry that this has happened to you. It sounds like you could benefit from some time to decompress, and she could benefit from some serious counseling.
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Bran, i'm so sorry you are going through this, I know someone close to me has gone through a similar experience. If you want to PM me you can, whenever you like. Take care and you will be in my prayers.
Oh Bran, I am so sorry. Your post and your mothers horrible actions brought tears to my eyes. You will be such a better mom than her, of that I am sure. Take care of you.
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I just wanted to say a quick but sincere thank you to every single one of you. I feel an incredible warmth and love from you. Every reply was read-seeds sewn into my heart and hopefully a garden of beauty will soon bloom. Thank you for the wonderful scriptures, kind words, encouragement and hugs-can never get enough of those
Bran - I'm so sorry you are going through this. Even though I don't know you well, I know enough that no one, especially your own mother should say such hatred things. I'll be praying for you. Please take care of yourself.
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What awful things to hear from your own mother. Just know that she is the broken one, and obviously is mentally ill. You are not broken, she is. Just keep focusing on that. And all the hateful things that she said- just cast them away. Don't let those words claim you! You are so much more precious than she realizes right now. Hopefully she can find healing, but in the meantime don't let her words have power over you. I know, so much easier said than done.
Hoping you find some peace very soon. Hugs.
TTC#1 since July '10. DH: Borderline Morph. Me: age 33. Hypothyroidism. FSH #1: 10.9 (E2 80.7). FSH #2: 11.8 (E2 72.6). FSH #3: 9.1 (E2 36) AMH: 2.6. AFC: ranges 9-21. HSG: clear. SHG: normal. After 3 failed TI cycles, 3 failed IUI cycles, a couple of c/ps, we got our sticky baby on IUI #4 (first with injects). Feb '12 Clomid/Menopur/Ganirelix/IVIL/Heparin/Acupuncture + IUI #4= BFP! Baby girl born at 34 weeks on 10/16/12 <a href="http://s36.photobucket.com/albums/e42/cnickis/Nicki Wedding/?action=view
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Cycle 11 - Clomid 100mg + Follistim + hCg trigger + IUI= BFP!
Beta/P4 #1(13dpo): 94.5/47, Beta/P4 #2 (17dpo): 625/19.5, Beta/P4 #3 (19dpo): 1285/18.2
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I am so sorry those things were said to you. I sincerely wish you the best and I hope you find some healing soon. I will continue to pray for you and your family, Bran.
((hugs))
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It breaks my heart to read this, Bran.
It sounds like you've had a life full of uphill battles. I am sure you are a strong individual and with the help from God, you will make it through this obstacle in your life. I hope you find solace and peace within yourself and that your mother sees the err of her ways.
I am sending big hugs to you and will remember you in my daily prayers.
Official Due Date 5/29/15 & HB 143 on 10/13; 11/25 Harmony Results perfect & it's a Girl!
Off BCP 5/2009
TTC since July 2010
DH's SA = Normal!
Hysteroscopy 2/2011
50mg Clomid / Progesterone 77.5 April 2011 = BFN
25mg Clomid / Progesterone 53 May 2011= BFN
25mg Clomid / Progesterone 44.3 June 2011= BFN
5mg Femara / Progesterone 15.7 July 2011= BFN
5mg Femara / Progesterone 14 August 2011= BFN
5mg Femara + Crinone / Progesterone 32 September 2011=BFN
5mg Femara + Crinone / Progesterone 14.9 October 2011=BFN
First RE Appointment 11/2011
Hysteroscopy 11/2011 & on Med break
12/2011 Diagnosed with PCOS (Insulin Resistant)
12/2011 Adding 1000 MG Metformin per day
12/14/11 BFP
Beta #1 664 Beta #2 3330 Beta #3 6160 Beta #4 19546
Official Due Date 8/18/12 & HB 147 on 1/3; HB 171on 1/19
Pre-term labor @ 29W bed-rest till Emergency C-Section
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Trying for #1 since May 2010 l DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011
IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks
November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!
Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26
1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12
**TEAM GREEN!**
Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12
Trying for #2
FET #1 - October '13 - c/p l FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled
l FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN
~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~
Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14
**TEAM GREEN!**
Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14
Together since 5/08 ~ Married 6/19/10 ~ TTC #1 since 8/10
BFP#1 3/26/11 ~ EDD 12/2/11 ~ Ectopic Twins left tube 7w3d
BFP#2 11/2/11 ~ EDD 7/14/12 ~ Robert Edgar born 7/18/12
BFP#3 9/28/13 ~ EDD 5/20/14 ~ Benjamin Clarence born 5/15/14
TTC#1 starting Feb 2011, BFP #1:5/31/11, CP: 6/6/11; BFP #2: 7/9/11, loss confirmed 8/3 with D&C on 8/12 finding complete molar pregnancy. Forced break until Feb 2012. My blog
LOTS of T&P's your way lady. *hugs*
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Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB
baby girl born 5/10/13
TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28.
IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!! Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!
Tons of love and ((hugs)) to my IF sister NMscubagirl
Wow Bran....such a horrible thing to go through...you are definitely in mt T&P! I cant imagine how some of those things can be said. Im sorry.
If God is for us, who can be against us. (Romans 8:31)
My BFP Chart
Aug 19, 2010 ParaGuard IUD Removed
Sept 7, 2010 Dx w/Hypothyroidism (TSH 6.7) Began taking Levothyroxine
Feb 15, 2010 BFP with #1
Nov 1, 2011 DD1 Born
Oh hunny I am so incredibly sorry that you are going through this. Your mom has a serious mental illness. My aunt did the same thing, said mean and hateful things like this and she even left a baby doll covered in ketchup with a knife through it's heart on my parent's doorstep and said that it was my sister's baby (who was going through infertility struggles at the time). Anyways my aunt has bipolar with borderline tendencies and when she is off her medications she becomes evil. That is the only way I can explain it; she truly becomes evil. She says hurtful things, does hurtful things and in my opinion is dangerous.
At this point you have no mom and I am so incredibly sorry for that. Grieve your loss and move forward. My heart absolutely breaks for you during this very difficult time.
My aunt is now stable and doing well but there is and will always be distance between all of us. The wounds heal but the scars are there.
I hope your mom gets the help she needs. Big big hugs and lots of love.
9 angels in heaven-3 in my arms and 1 in the NICU
Mono/di twin girls: Josephine born to heaven and Evangeline born Earthside at 25w
TTC since: September 2010
BFP 1/18/2013 - beta #1 - 174
1/21/2013 beta #2 - 705
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OCT 2011 Moms BlogI just wanted to say a quick but sincere thank you to every single one of you. I feel an incredible warmth and love from you. Every reply was read-seeds sewn into my heart and hopefully a garden of beauty will soon bloom. Thank you for the wonderful scriptures, kind words, encouragement and hugs-can never get enough of those
see you soon
~bran
What awful things to hear from your own mother. Just know that she is the broken one, and obviously is mentally ill. You are not broken, she is. Just keep focusing on that. And all the hateful things that she said- just cast them away. Don't let those words claim you! You are so much more precious than she realizes right now. Hopefully she can find healing, but in the meantime don't let her words have power over you. I know, so much easier said than done.
Hoping you find some peace very soon. Hugs.
FSH #1: 10.9 (E2 80.7). FSH #2: 11.8 (E2 72.6). FSH #3: 9.1 (E2 36)
AMH: 2.6. AFC: ranges 9-21. HSG: clear. SHG: normal.
After 3 failed TI cycles, 3 failed IUI cycles, a couple of c/ps, we got our sticky baby on IUI #4 (first with injects).
Feb '12 Clomid/Menopur/Ganirelix/IVIL/Heparin/Acupuncture + IUI #4= BFP!
Baby girl born at 34 weeks on 10/16/12
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