This was a few days ago, but I started sobbing that my husband had abandoned me. He had left me in the kitchen to go pee. I sat outside the bathroom in a full meltdown.
Today I am really sick and crying about how horrible pretzels are.
I was watching an Instagram live of a fitness influencer I follow who is pregnant and she had a Doppler at home and had recorded the sound of her baby’s heartbeat and I started bawling
@JBcakes08. I hear you. I told my husband I am not possessive over any of the food I bought and was craving. Then cried when I went to go get the good crackers and they were gone. But cold water is saving me right now!
So far my breakdowns have been because I was hungry and my husband wasn't making me food, and my dogs didn't stay to snuggle with me when I was laying on the bathroom floor after feeling sick 😂🤷♀️
I was crying because I wanted more attention from my s/o and I felt dumb for crying about that haha. He gave it to me by the way.
I've been crying a lot about everything though. I cried talking to my grandfather and I cry often about making my grandmother a great grand mother I don't know why but it makes me happy that she's going to be in my baby's life. I love her so much.
Today I cried thinking about how spread out our family is. My brother and his family are in Russia and my fiancé’s family lives in Australia. My parents and sister live on the other coast. I started sobbing thinking about how our baby is going to have people that love it all around the world.
Oh, and my best friend and I spent about 4 hours talking last night while neither of us could sleep. She’s going to go through their baby stuff and see if there’s anything she can send us 💜 she had been putting it off because, to her, it meant that they were done with having more kids, so the fact that she’s okay with sending us stuff has me crying 💜
Everything makes me emotional. We were watching a comedy with one sweet scene and I cried. Whenever my son does something new or gets hurt (this one is annoying, he’s a new walker so obviously trips/falls are going to happen but I can’t stop myself)
I’m usually a super high energy person and this pregnancy has kicked me down to a “I want/need to nap everyday” kind of person and DH says today “I hope you don’t get in the habit of napping every day it’s kind of a waste of time” instant tears lol but prior to pregnancy I would have deff agreed because we are both such go-getters lol
@tryingktogku omg he needs to give you a break! First Tri is no joke! The only time I can really be productive at home is when DD is napping, but for the last month or so I have to nap when she does...I figure I’ll have the 2nd and 3rd tri to catch up on things!
TTC History:
Me: 36 H: 40 Married 2015. Together since 2010. TTC: Sept 2016-Oct 2017 BFP Oct 2017. DD born July 2018. TTC: March 2020. BFP March 2020 Due date was Nov 2020 DS born Sept 2020. DS passed away Nov 2020 due to prematurity and birth trauma. TTC: March 2021 IUI #1 Nov 2021, BFN IUI #2 Dec 2021 BFP. MC Jan 2022 IUI #3 Aug 2022 BFN IUI #4 Sept 2022 BFN AMH test came back at .081. Was going to move on to IVF with DE, but have decided not to. Will be leaving it up to the universe now.
@bearmomma1 yeah he doesn’t get it lol I also don’t cry like ever and so that also threw him for a loop lol I just said get used to it lots is going to change from here on out!
Today I cried watching episodes of Momsplaining - not because anything was sentimental or sad, but because I just can’t wait to be able to relate to other moms who complain and joke about how awful their kids are
Today...I have no fucking idea. Literally EVERYTHING is making me cry. Best guess is that it’s hormones plus my anti depressant finally being out of my system.
I'm crying because I'm so over feeling sick all day every day. I don't want to do anything and it's it's upsetting I want to be active but this nausea says no. I want to cut off all my hair I've been trying to grow because I don't want to do ANYTHING not even this mass of curly hair. I'm so tired.
@reljack Oh my god, Some Good News killlllls me! When they had that old gentleman who got his wife’s picture on a pillow!! I’m starting to cry just thinking about it...
I'm crying because all of my friends are drinking their covid blues away, and smoking, and I miss my afternoon wine & smoke so much that I don't even care how bad that sounds. I only just found out I am pregnant and I miss my wine....alot.
Virtually every trip to the grocery store because something is out of stock or something is finally back in stock.
Feeling like I waste so much time sleeping. One day hubs said I should take care of some random thing while our boys napped and I immediately told him I was also planning to nap because "growing a placenta is a lot of freakin' work!" He has not questioned my nap needs since.
I think the easier question for me this week is what isn't making me cry or tear up?! 🤣 I always laugh at myself quickly after and sometimes during my cry because it's literally ridiculous things!
@mom_of_the_vogels. We had that discussion about naps over here as well. But I think my husband does genuinely feel really bad about sick I have been. My mom ended up on bed rest while pregnant and he was joking that I am practically already on bed rest now. I am working to not take it personally and realize that I am literally doing the absolute best I can!! I am so driven that is almost hurts to just lay on the couch all day.
@dobiemom11 hopefully not bad cry, though! 💜 funny thing is that DH said “well, he’s about the size of a newborn” and I immediately replied “honey, he’s EIGHTEEN POUNDS”. Broadway is much bigger than a newborn 🤣
@dreamscapes_. I think it was your comment about your husband's hands holding a being in a onesie. My husband has big hands and it will be so sweet to see him holding a tiny baby in them. (And I mean a tiny baby not an 18 lb newborn! That is like a three or four month old if I am remembering my numbers right!)
And now another reason 🤦🏼♀️ DH and I are both big Marvel fans, and he’s reading trivia about Infinity War and Endgame. I was already an emotional mess watching Endgame in theaters last year, and I asked him if he had any idea how bad I’d be if it came out now. He goes “...I don’t even want to think about that”. My brain went away with it and now I’m sitting here sniffling thinking about it. 🤦🏼♀️
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying...
Today I am really sick and crying about how horrible pretzels are.
Married: May 2008
DD Born: March 2018
DS Born: April 2019
Due with #3 December 2020!
So last pregnancy, this made me cry hysterically, DH likes to play it periodically to mess with me. Yup, crying again today. Baby owls taking a bath,
I've been crying a lot about everything though. I cried talking to my grandfather and I cry often about making my grandmother a great grand mother I don't know why but it makes me happy that she's going to be in my baby's life. I love her so much.
Diminished ovarian reserve
BFP: 4/14/2020 EDD: 12/20/2020
Diminished ovarian reserve
BFP: 4/14/2020 EDD: 12/20/2020
TTC: Sept 2016-Oct 2017
BFP Oct 2017. DD born July 2018.
TTC: March 2020. BFP March 2020
Due date was Nov 2020
DS born Sept 2020. DS passed away Nov 2020 due to prematurity and birth trauma.
TTC: March 2021
IUI #1 Nov 2021, BFN
IUI #2 Dec 2021 BFP. MC Jan 2022
IUI #3 Aug 2022 BFN
IUI #4 Sept 2022 BFN
AMH test came back at .081. Was going to move on to IVF with DE, but have decided not to. Will be leaving it up to the universe now.
Diminished ovarian reserve
BFP: 4/14/2020 EDD: 12/20/2020
https://youtu.be/IweS2CPSnbI
Virtually every trip to the grocery store because something is out of stock or something is finally back in stock.
Feeling like I waste so much time sleeping. One day hubs said I should take care of some random thing while our boys napped and I immediately told him I was also planning to nap because "growing a placenta is a lot of freakin' work!" He has not questioned my nap needs since.
Diminished ovarian reserve
BFP: 4/14/2020 EDD: 12/20/2020
Diminished ovarian reserve
BFP: 4/14/2020 EDD: 12/20/2020
Diminished ovarian reserve
BFP: 4/14/2020 EDD: 12/20/2020
Diminished ovarian reserve
BFP: 4/14/2020 EDD: 12/20/2020