@carleym93 that made me feel less anxious knowing you felt the same at your last appointment. Thank you!
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Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
I have been feeling a few movements but since backing off the progesterone I haven't felt anything. Logically I know I'm still early and wouldn't feel consistent movement but it still freaks me out.
Thinking of you @coco2787!! I hope the day passes quick for you.
Thinking of you too @meatballs37! If I’m being completely honest, I stopped feeling symptoms at 11 weeks. I went in to my NT scan at 11+6 convinced something was wrong. But nope, there she was, jumping around and perfectly healthy. I know it’s hard to stay out of your own head, but I hope todays appointment gives you some reassurance! ❤️
I’m also in that phase of just not being sure if everything is okay. Unfortunately my ms hasn’t gone away at all (but having had an MMC before makes me not find that completely reassuring). I was feeling a lot of RLP in the past and I haven’t felt much of it in a few weeks and nothing at all in a few days. I know that’s not even a consistent symptom, but I wish there was just something I could feel to make me know everything’s okay.
My NT scan is today. I’m here alone because my husband is so sick I think they would kick him out of here. My daughter walked around the house spilling cereal and milk this morning. When I yelled, she overhanded the entire bowl. I went to get more paper towels and the milk was leaking into the basement. Hopefully I got all my bad luck out of the way with that little episode. Woof
So glad everything went well today @ncm1919! Sorry about the rough start to the day
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
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BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
TB is acting weird and won’t let me tag or love tit. But thank you everyone for the well wishes. Baby girl is looking wonderful. They even got her heart rate on the Doppler! And we got to see her too. I’m starting to think this is really going to happen. DH has already told like ten people since our appointment.
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Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
I’m sorry for the double post but I didn’t want my emotional mess to be in the same post as so much good news
I’m a wreck. I have my 12 week appointment on Friday. I’m so scared of getting bad news. I’ve started feeling better for the most part and that has me convinced something is wrong. I was just starting to believe i’ll get to hold a baby in June and I’m so scared of it all being taken away again. I can’t even adequately describe how I’m feeling but I know you all understand.
@meatballs37 yay for a great appointment! Listening to baby gurl’s heartbeat is so exciting.
@antera23 as my appointments get closer I get super anxious too. The hard part is remembering that just because your anxious mind says something is wrong doesn’t mean it’s true. A lot of the other ladies on the main board posted that their symptoms started to go away around 11 weeks, so that seems normal. But vent it all here, it’s ok to be scared. I hope Friday comes quickly and you can feel reassured with a great appointment.
@antera23 I'm sorry you're struggling this week. It is so hard, but everyone here knows exactly how you're feeling. It's totally normal to have symptoms lessening at this stage, though of course PGAL brain doesn't let us accept that. Have you thought about trying a Doppler at home? I find this reassures me between appointments. I hope this week passes quickly for you!
@antera23 I could have written your post word for word right before my 12 week US. I was also feeling so much better, which made the stress so much worse. Just remember that it's really common to be feeling better around this time. I'm so sorry you are stressed. I hope this week goes quickly for you
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Me: 33 DH: 32 DS: March 2014 DD: May 2015 BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
@antera23 I don’t have any other advice that hasn’t been given but +1 to someone who worried before their appts and that’s why we are here. For you to vent, find some positivity, or just pass the time until the next appt. I hope the next few days go by quickly for you 😊
Thank you for all your well wishes today ladies. Ultrasound went well, baby had a strong HB (162) and was measuring one day ahead . Feeling reassured, at least for now.
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
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BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@coco2787 yay! I just came here to refresh to see an update! Cheers mama! So glad it was a good appointment!
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Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
Something I am really struggling with is feeling excited about this pregnancy. I have zero desire to announce on social media or tell anyone. I feel extremely guilty about it too. I feel like it's not fair to this LO not to do a fun announcements like I did for my other kids. I honestly just have a hard time accepting that this is real and that something won't go wrong. I don't think I'll feel differently until LO is in my arms.
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Me: 33 DH: 32 DS: March 2014 DD: May 2015 BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
@eleven_ I'm exactly the same way with this pregnancy. Usually by this point, I have a name list for each sex, u/s pics on the fridge, etc. I'm 11 weeks today, and I haven't even told my Mom or the older kids. I know logically that this bean doesn't know about the lack of excitement, and that we'll be just as excited when he/she finally arrives, but I still feel guilty.
Right there with you @eleven_. I told several close friends and family after our 1st ultrasound last time and this time I've told almost no one. I told one sister because I was seeing her at Thanksgiving and I'm a horrible liar and I knew she would be suspicious if I wasn't drinking. I finally told my other sister today because I didn't want her to accidentally hear it from my sister. We haven't told either of our parents. If/when I announce on social media it probably won't be until I hit viability. It really sucks to be robbed of that excitement.
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@eleven_ I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. PGAL really messes with our happiness and it’s not fair. With DD I was so excited and told everyone very early. My losses were after her, and I noticed that this pregnancy I wasn’t very excited at all. I think I only really started to get excited this time when we found out it’s a girl and we named her. Now she feels like a real person. Like if we were to lose her now, it wouldn’t feel like my other losses, where I wasn’t connected. I don’t know how to say it without sounding offensive or cold. I just think that (for me) I bond so much better when I know what they are and call them by name. Of course, I realize that if something were to happen, I would be even more devastated at this point and with all the bonding. But I’m at peace with that because (again, just how I am, not for everyone) I feel like I would have loved her as hard as I could for as long as we had her.
*I know you’re team green and in no way am I trying to sway you. ❤️ I just wanted to share that I completely understand not being excited. I hope you reach whatever part in this pregnancy where you can feel excited, wherever that point is ❤️
I totally understand what you guys are saying, but I've been the opposite. We announced the other two pregnancies around 12 weeks, but I wanted to announce this one the minute it happened. I was very open and public about the loss we went through and wrote a blog about it and everything. I really wanted to be able to write about everything I was going through with this pregnancy but DH wanted to wait until after the NT Scan to announce. We did announce after the NT scan and it was nice to enjoy all the people that congratulated us. It doesn't erase my fears, but I feel like I have a lot of support. I do understand not wanting to announce though.
@srscott3 I have the same bonding thing. Once I know what they are and can name them, the bond goes way up.
Also, I am not excited for this pregnancy at all. It still just doesn’t feel real to me, and I can’t seem to shake it. It also means I don’t have even close to the anxiety I had last time, which is awesome, but I feel sooooo guilty. I really hope when I start feeling baby kicks and get a bump and have a name it stars kicking in. Maybe I’m just too distracted by my toddler to have the mental energy to focus on the baby. But that makes me feel even more guilty.
Hubby and Me Friends since 2008 Started dating: July 1st, 2013 Engaged: July 1st, 2014 Married: July 1st, 2016 R born: July 8th, 2017 N born: June 30th, 2019 Baby #3 Due: July 7th, 2022 (maybe I only ovulate in October XD)
Thank you for all the replies It makes me feel so much better knowing that I'm not alone. It's hard because I keep thinking that the next milestone is when I'll start to feel excited and then it doesn't happen
@srscott3 I totally know what you mean about the sex helping you to feel more connected. If I'm not feeling better by the anomaly scan, we may decide to find out.
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Me: 33 DH: 32 DS: March 2014 DD: May 2015 BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
I’m definitely feeling that too. DH wants to announce as soon as we have our 12 week appointment, but I’m wanting to put it off longer. I’m excited for this pregnancy, but not exactly excited about announcing.
Also, a little off topic, but I had dinner with a cousin of mine today. My grandma told me that she already told her I was pregnant (without my permission), so when I saw her, we talked about it a little, and she said she found out nearly a week before I even told anyone but immediate family (mom, dad, brother, and sister). So now I’m wondering who all knows. And I’m a little frustrated that people are apparently going around telling my news.
@kjr9519 that sucks. My mom has a hard time not telling people also. It's mostly something to remember when you go into labor/deliver. If you want to be the one to tell don't tell the people who spread the news until you're ready for the world to know.
Other people feel a strange entitlement over announcing others pregnancy. It's odd.
I posted our social media announcement yesterday. I have not fully processed it yet but it was giving me so much anxiety to post/not post. I have told like 95% of the people in my life anyway. I wanted it out there so I could stop awkwardly telling people in person but at the same time I'm so anxious about this pregnancy that I had this desire to keep it all to myself. It was very weird to feel anxious on both sides. Like riping a bandaiba off.
@dntstpbelieveing I feel the same way. We haven’t announced yet because we’re waiting until we find out the sex on the 20th, but I’m already feeling anxious. But I also feel anxiety over the fact that nobody knows? PGAL brain can go away any time now
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Re: PGAL Check-In Week of 12/3
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
I have been feeling a few movements but since backing off the progesterone I haven't felt anything. Logically I know I'm still early and wouldn't feel consistent movement but it still freaks me out.
Thinking of you too @meatballs37! If I’m being completely honest, I stopped feeling symptoms at 11 weeks. I went in to my NT scan at 11+6 convinced something was wrong. But nope, there she was, jumping around and perfectly healthy. I know it’s hard to stay out of your own head, but I hope todays appointment gives you some reassurance! ❤️
I’m also in that phase of just not being sure if everything is okay. Unfortunately my ms hasn’t gone away at all (but having had an MMC before makes me not find that completely reassuring). I was feeling a lot of RLP in the past and I haven’t felt much of it in a few weeks and nothing at all in a few days. I know that’s not even a consistent symptom, but I wish there was just something I could feel to make me know everything’s okay.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@meatballs37 @coco2787 Im sending you all the goood vibes for your appointments today.
Good luck today @coco2787. I’ll be thinking of you until I see an update!!
I’m a wreck. I have my 12 week appointment on Friday. I’m so scared of getting bad news. I’ve started feeling better for the most part and that has me convinced something is wrong. I was just starting to believe i’ll get to hold a baby in June and I’m so scared of it all being taken away again. I can’t even adequately describe how I’m feeling but I know you all understand.
@antera23 as my appointments get closer I get super anxious too. The hard part is remembering that just because your anxious mind says something is wrong doesn’t mean it’s true. A lot of the other ladies on the main board posted that their symptoms started to go away around 11 weeks, so that seems normal. But vent it all here, it’s ok to be scared. I hope Friday comes quickly and you can feel reassured with a great appointment.
@antera23 I’ll be thinking about you on Friday. I know how nerve wracking it can be waiting for the 12 week appointment.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
Thank you all for understanding and making me feel better @TJtheGoat @bakerstreetboys @kjr9519 @eleven_ @nmbrcrnchr1
I was having a really hard day today and you all helped a lot!
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
*I know you’re team green and in no way am I trying to sway you. ❤️ I just wanted to share that I completely understand not being excited. I hope you reach whatever part in this pregnancy where you can feel excited, wherever that point is ❤️
Also, I am not excited for this pregnancy at all. It still just doesn’t feel real to me, and I can’t seem to shake it. It also means I don’t have even close to the anxiety I had last time, which is awesome, but I feel sooooo guilty. I really hope when I start feeling baby kicks and get a bump and have a name it stars kicking in. Maybe I’m just too distracted by my toddler to have the mental energy to focus on the baby. But that makes me feel even more guilty.
Friends since 2008
Started dating: July 1st, 2013
Engaged: July 1st, 2014
Married: July 1st, 2016
R born: July 8th, 2017
N born: June 30th, 2019
Baby #3 Due: July 7th, 2022
(maybe I only ovulate in October XD)
@srscott3 I totally know what you mean about the sex helping you to feel more connected. If I'm not feeling better by the anomaly scan, we may decide to find out.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
Also, a little off topic, but I had dinner with a cousin of mine today. My grandma told me that she already told her I was pregnant (without my permission), so when I saw her, we talked about it a little, and she said she found out nearly a week before I even told anyone but immediate family (mom, dad, brother, and sister). So now I’m wondering who all knows. And I’m a little frustrated that people are apparently going around telling my news.
Other people feel a strange entitlement over announcing others pregnancy. It's odd.
Anyone else with appointments today?
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022