Well we will be heading to the pediatrician this morning. I am pretty sure that DS has an ear infection. He was pulling on his ears and has been congested, so yesterday we tried to put drops in (the ENT gave them to us after his tubes were out in and said to use them if we suspected an infection) and he freaked out! He has never been a fan of the drops, but typically once we are done, he is ok. Yesterday, he screamed for 20 minutes afterward and for the first time in 2.5 years asked to lay in bed. Fx we can get it cleared up quickly!
@morgantu boo work! Maybe reward yourself with ice cream instead?
I'm starting back up in the schools this week. Today is my first day commuting to one of my schools from the new house and it sucks! It's a further drive and I have to pay tolls now!
Been MIA all weekend, sorry. Saturday we went to the jeweler and S O picked out his ring and I finalized mine. It's happening! After that I treated myself to a massage and lunch with one of my besties. Then we went over to our friends to celebrate our upcoming marriage. Yesterday we spent all day at the zoo with my family including my sister, brother-in-law, and two nieces. We had a great time but man was it exhausting. But of course we couldn't end the weekend on a positive note. On our drive back from the zoo, we got news about our dog's biopsy. Turns out that even though the cancer hasn't visibly spread, it is a high grade 2 tumor. That means chances are it may have spread already and just hasn't produced new tumors yet. On the bright side, the doctor said we may have cured it, if we got it in time. Meeting with the oncologist on Friday to discuss other treatment options and prognosis. Fun fun.
@scaredunprepared I am glad you were able to have lots of enjoyable moments this weekend. I am so sorry though, that you did not get better news about your dog. I hope they got it in time.
@katy0990 I hope your DS feels better soon and the ear infection gets cleared up!
@scaredunprepared Glad you had an awesome weekend but so sorry to hear about your doggie! I hope you get good news on Friday when you go in. It's crazy to me that things can still be so unclear (i.e., "either it has spread already" or "we cured it!") I will keep my FX for the latter!
Me: 33, DH: 41 Started IF Feb. 2014 PCOS & MFI (low sperm count and motility) 3 Femara cycles w/natural intercourse over summer 2014, BFN 1 Clomid cycle w/natural intercourse Nov. 2014, BFN IUI March 2015, BFN IUI June 2015, BFN IUI Oct. 2015, BFN IVF Oct. 2016, fresh transfer, 2 day-3 embryos, BFN; nothing to freeze IVF Nov. 2017, fresh transfer, 2 day-5 blasts, BFP; ectopic; 1 blast frozen FET March 2018, 1 day-5 blast, BFP!
@scaredunprepared super fun news about the wedding festivities. Not great about the pup but awesome if you all caught in time. I can't fathom a sick pup
@katy0990 hopefully your little man feels better soon. I swear I always know a ear infection. Like clockwork my kids wont sleep through the night crying all night long about the pain.
So my weekend blew balls. I cooked dinner sat night but couldn't move a bag of ice in the freezer and put a box back in not all the way clearly because Sunday rolled around after I ran around with my boys all day and the entire freezer defrosted! Ugh I was so mad at myself. Than roll around to this morning...I see the bus pass behind my house. Clearly working and not paying attention had to drive like a bat out of hell to make the bus. But..grabbed coffee so I have to be on the ups right?! lol
Married: 5/09 ~ TTC Since: 10/10 ~ PCOS ~ Progesterone from 10/10 - 2/11 ~ HSG on 3/18 - Clear ~ Started Metformin 1000mg & Clomid 50mg 2/11 ~ Metformin upped to 1500mg 4/6 ~ 6/7 Now going to SG and put on Clomid, Ovidrel, Gonal F, Prometrium, Estrace ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP!!!!!! March 6th our little man was born.
6/17/13 - Ovidrel, Follistim, Prometrium ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP! March 17th our St. Pattys day baby arrived
10/29/17 - Started process for IVF, got pregnant & miscarried a 2nd time since summer. 2/22 started stims - Menopur, Gonal F, Cetrotide - retrieval 3/6 - , PIO, estrace 3xday - FET 4/18 = Beta 1: 616; Beta 2: 1342 = BFP
@mag1cbeli3ver we didn't realize there was such a thing as "high grade 2". We thought after speaking to the oncologist last week before the surgery, that it would either be grade 1, 2, or 3. If it was grade 1 or 2, amputation would have cured it. If it was grade 3, it would have already spread. The fact that it's a high grade 2 means that it could pretty much be anywhere from a two to three. So of course that leaves things a very gray. We just want answers damn it!
@mag1cbeli3ver we didn't realize there was such a thing as "high grade 2". We thought after speaking to the oncologist last week before the surgery, that it would either be grade 1, 2, or 3. If it was grade 1 or 2, amputation would have cured it. If it was grade 3, it would have already spread. The fact that it's a high grade 2 means that it could pretty much be anywhere from a two to three. So of course that leaves things a very gray. We just want answers damn it!
Sorry, this isn't encouraging, but just for some context. My mom has been fighting cancer for the past 1.5 years. It's truly shocking how little they know about it, even though she's seeing some of the best doctors in the world. She's had several scans that they've just read incorrectly, and will come back later and say, "oh, it looks like it has spread/grown more than we initially thought based on the scan". She had a scan and a bunch of bloodwork, and saw the doctor at the hospital who knows the most about what she's got, and he's like, "i dunno what any of this means". Cancer is so awful, and I'm just praying for the day that we have better options to diagnose and treat those who come down with it. I'm sorry you're in limbo with your pup.
Speaking of ^^, my mom has a shitty day tomorrow full of tests, and if the cancer has grown and spread a lot, she may be kicked off her clinical trial. If not, she may proceed with the next phase. I have no idea what to expect, but it could be the difference of losing her in a few months and having her cancer managed by the trial drug for another 6 months or so. So clearly, I'm going to be the epitome of concentration and work ethic this week.
hugs @runrinserepeat are you taking the day off? Or is it better for you to be at work and "distracted"?
I'm sorry @scaredunprepared about the pup. hopefully the amputation took care of it!! and yay for the wedding rings! do you have a date you are going to the be officially married?
@katy0990 I’m sorry about your son’s ear pain. I hope the pain is relieved soon. So grateful ear infections become lesson common as they get older. @scaredunprepared so sorry to hear about the in between dx for your pup. You definitely have given him the best chance possible with doing his amputation as soon as you could. Also congrats on the rings! That is exciting! It also may be hard to size yours right now (?). My rings have gotten looser with pregnancy this time- my body is being weird. @runrinserepeat hugs and prayers for you and your mom. What you are going through is really hard.
@katy0990 I hope you can get him in and the meds start working quickly so your DS feels better! I hate ear infections. My kids were/are pretty healthy kids. I would say a huge majority of 1st year sick visits were ear infections until we went ahead and did the tubes. Thank goodness they usually outgrow the infections! @scaredunprepared It sounds like you had a great weekend, except for the news about your pup, I'm sorry that wasn't any better. @mcgeeva I think your day can only go up from here! @runrinserepeat hugs.
My day is starting like @morgantu I have no motivation, there are so many things I'd rather be doing at home, so making lists of those sounds better than actual work. I really need a vacation day and think I'm scheduling a me day soon!
We have been watching The
Office and we finished the last episode last night. By the end I was
crying pretty hard, which I was embarrassed about. They made it so
sentimental! And it's not like I was crying just about The Office, it
just got me thinking about change and that always makes me sad. I'm
happy with our life right now. I'm excited about the baby, but I'm also
nervous about everything changing. I feel like I'm waiting for
something bad to happen. Then I feel guilty for being so upset when things are actually fine. I should be enjoying the good times rather than crying about possible futures in which bad things happen. Thankfully, I am feeling better today and am trying to get some work done before my appointment at 2 this afternoon.
I've decided after being in so much pain yesterday after barely cleaning the house and chasing DD around that I am going to pay for a cleaning lady. My SIL uses one, and I texted her already. Cooking/Cleaning falls squarely in my lap, and we have already agreed that a cleaning person is something that we both agree could be beneficial.
I feel pretty accomplished from the weekend. We might have sold my car (just waiting to arrange all the little things, but FX the sale doesn't fall through last minute). And I knitted myself a winter coat "extender" so I don't have to buy one .
@runrinserepeat I'm so sorry. I really hope she can continue with the clinical trial meds. I'll definitely be keeping you ladies in my thoughts.
@scaredunprepared Yay for a nice weekend and getting rings! I hope you get the best news possible about your pup.
@katy0990 Dang ear infections, I'm sorry! I hope he feels better soon.
I lurked this weekend, but for some reason TB wouldn't let me post from my phone. I had a rough weekend with DD's up and down moods. When she was good, she was awesome, but when she was having a tough time, there was no way she was going to let Mom have a good time, no way. And our morning, was like that today too. If I could make make my coffee an Irish coffee, I would. Wanted to go to the Broncos game yesterday, but I was way too tired and there's no way I knew I could handle another day of doing that much walking and sitting in the sun paying $4 for a bottle of water. So, I made MH take someone else with him while I napped through the boring 1st quarter (while DD also napped).
@katy0990 I hope DS feels better quickly! That's no fun.
I'm feeling ridiculously unmotivated this last week. I feel like a bad mom I don't have the energy to do much with DS. I napped both days this weekend & didn't do much around the house other than cook, so DH is left with a pile of dishes and laundry today. DH and I just feel very off. Neither of us have been good at showing affection for a while now, and I am finding myself annoyed at a lot of things he does.. Like he will slap my ass instead of an affectionate touch or rub. He has been drinking every single freaking day & it's annoying. He doesn't get drunk, but why is it necessary? It's hard enough that I enjoy a few beers & can't have them, but to watch someone else do it all the time is getting old. I'm realizing I should've put this in BF thread, not randoms. Needless to say, I am clearly missing the 2nd tri energy bursts & if anyone has any extra patience can you send it my way?
ETA my constipation is flaring back up even though I've been taking metamucil, miralax & milk of mag daily. I know I feel 1000x better if I am regular and the world just looks brighter.
@kadeephd Don’t feel guilty! I think it’s super normal to mourn the
loss of the status quo. Becoming a parent isn’t an easy transition; it involves
a boatload of sacrifices, and there are absolutely irreversible changes to your
life and your relationship that happen when you go from being partners to being
a family, not all of which are pleasant. It would be silly to pretend
otherwise. Regardless of all the benefits and gains that come along with a new
baby (so much love! a different understanding of and greater appreciation for
your husband! the chance to discover things about yourself, and to grow in ways
you otherwise wouldn’t have!), there are also real losses involved (the concept
of personal space, some degree of freedom and spontaneity, that awesome
just-us-against-the-world feeling that you get from being married without kids)
and it’s okay to be honest with yourself about them, because those things are
beautiful.
The good news is that you’ll change less than you think, and
some of what you dread losing you won’t actually miss. But even so, you're justified in feeling your feels
@runrinserepeat I am sorry about your mom. We went through something similar with my FIL - he was on a clinical trial for a while and then got too sick. They might be able to find something else that works for her anyway - so fingers crossed things will work out for the best.
@scaredunprepared Good luck with your pup!! We went through something similar June 2017 with our dog and his tumor ended up being a hematoma (no cancer) and he made a full recovery, anything is possible even when the odds aren’t in your favor. @runrinserepeat I’m so sorry to hear about your Mom - praying the treatment is working!!
AFM- I have my interview tomorrow morning for a promotion - program manager!! Eeekk! Been working on questions to ask my potential new boss this morning and going to write out answers for anticipated questions for me this afternoon. Fingers crossed! Also I was stalking my registry and someone got me the Owlet sock!!! I’m so excited!!!!
@runrinserepeat I'm so sorry! Hopefully she'll be able to continue the clinical trial. Cancer is no joke and there are still so many unknowns with how it works, how it spreads and how effective various treatments are. My aunt was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer last year. It was diagnosed super late. She had her ovaries and everything removed, and it had already spread, but did a super intense six months of chemo and is now in remission. She was only given a small chance of that happening. Hugs and prayers that things will look up for your mom!
@morgantu@snugglyduckling25 I have no motivation today either! I am doing 10 minutes of work at a time and then checking the bump/email, haha!
@Jens_Hoes If you can get a cleaning lady, even once a month just for the deep cleaning... it is so worth it! We luckily found someone who is awesome and does our house for $100 each time. (I think like 2,000 sq ft for the two-stories sans basement area.) She doesn't tidy - we run around the house for 20-30 minutes tidying the night before she comes, but she deep cleans all bathrooms and the kitchen, vacuums, mops, and changes the sheets (I wash them still). I looooveeee not having to change the bedsheets or deep clean bathrooms/kitchen. My husband is a great helper with chores, but he despises the shower/tub cleaning, so that would be left to me if we didn't hire someone!
I've now officially not had added sugars/processed food for a full week and I'm feeling so good! I actually had energy to exercise this morning, which was a huge win. I have another 2 weeks of completely cutting out those things to "hit my goal" of resetting my carb cravings to good carbs rather than cheetos and skittles... :-p I've still been having a lot of carbs, but it's more like quinoa, bananas, sweet potatoes, etc. rather than fried foods or junk foods.
@ab_canada there aren't any more trials, at least according to her doctors - this is the best thing (and only thing) that they can do for her right now. Even this is a longshot - they have given us maybe a 5% chance that it'll work. Essentially our hope is just that it can manage the cancer to give her a few extra months that she wouldn't otherwise have had. And I mean, she's surpassed my expectations on it already. When the last treatment failed, they expected she'd have 2-3 months to live. It's been 3, and she still seems good, so thank goodness for small miracles, I guess.
@runrinserepeat Sometimes a person's own motivation can keep them fighting for longer than expected. I hope she continues to fight and you can get a lot more extra time with her.
@runrinserepeat thank you for that perspective, even though it's not exactly what I wanted to hear. It's pretty scary how little they actually know about cancer when you think about it. With all the money going toward cancer research, you would think they would be a little further along. I'm having such a hard time dealing with this with my dog. I honestly don't even want to think about how I would be handle it if it was my mom. I am so sorry that you're going through all of this. I will be praying for you and your mom and hoping that all goes well with her upcoming scams so she can stay on her clinical trial. Please keep us updated. I will be hoping for good news for both of us.
@Jens_Hoes thank you, we are trying to remain optimistic. We have officially settled on a date, Sept 28th. On my way now to meet SO at the town hall to fill out our marriage license application! We hired cleaning people at the old house. It was just too much for me to Handle by myself. I highly recommend it! Not worth the stress and strain on your body to try to do it all.
@Activebaby thanks. We really hope we are making thur right decisions. We are willing to do pretty much whatever it takes. As for the rings, my finger size seems to be pretty consistent. When I tried on rings for fun several years ago, I was a size 6. When I went in to get sized again more recently, still a size 6. Fortunately, since size 6 is the stock size, so don't need to get it altered or sized at all. Even if I needed to, the jeweler recommended I wait until couple months after I give birth rather than getting it sized now and then having to get it sized again later. That way, less wear and tear on the ring.
@snugglyduckling25 thanks, it was a good weekend overall. Great to see family and spend time with them. We are also obviously pretty bummed about the bad news. Still trying to be optimistic though. I definitely say take a me day. My massage on Saturday was exactly what I needed! Sometimes you just need to take a little time for yourself.
@kadeephd thank you. I love the office! And your feelings are totally valid. Lately it hasn't taken much to make me cry, but feelings of change and being overwhelmed would certainly do it for me. Even though life is going to change, everybody I know who has children says they wouldn't change it for the world.
@ab_canada yay! Way to be productive! So cool that you knitted your own coat extender. I wish I was talented like that. Instead I will need to shell out money lol
@clbness thank you so much. I'm so sorry DD has been difficult lately. Hopefully today is a better day. The bump has been acting stupid for me lately too. There was an entire day wouldn't even load for me. It's Moody just like us!
@temmetime thank you, us too. Sorry you've been feeling so unproductive lately. I definitely go through phases like that, I'm sure we all do! Sometimes you just need rest. Listen to your body. It doesn't help that you feel like you and YH are out of sync though. Is there anyway that you guys can do a night away together to help you reconnect?
@temmetime I so feel you on almost ALL of that...hugs, girl! MH is the same way when it comes to drinking and it frustrates me SO BAD. And if he has just one too many, he'll forget something we just did 30 minutes ago (like, we did the whole bedtime routine with DD one night...jammies, diaper, toothbrushing and book. And 30 minutes later I went in her room to give her some water and when I came out, he was like, "did you just put her to bed?" Ummm no, drunka** WE put her to bed 30 minutes ago, are you effing kidding me?!) And he has never been a huge affection person, so I feel like he's really desensitized me...and it's really sad. I'm sorry I have no advice to offer, but, solidarity, friend.
@runrinserepeat Hoping tomorrow is full of good news for your mom! @ab_canada That's awesome that you made your own coat extender! Any pics you wanna share?! @countrygirl624 GL with your interview tomorrow!! And way to go on all your preparations for it! @omnommer Wow - great job with cutting out the processed carbs! Glad it's made you feel good! I'm sure you've posted this elsewhere, but I don't remember seeing it... So you are cutting out processed sugars and bad carbs for 3 weeks to reset things? I feel like I should do something similar. I love carbs, but I'm almost always drawn to the bad stuff (hello, pop tarts for breakfast almost every day last week). And I feel sluggish a lot. Being able to reset that would be awesome. Would love to hear more about what you're doing!
Me: 33, DH: 41 Started IF Feb. 2014 PCOS & MFI (low sperm count and motility) 3 Femara cycles w/natural intercourse over summer 2014, BFN 1 Clomid cycle w/natural intercourse Nov. 2014, BFN IUI March 2015, BFN IUI June 2015, BFN IUI Oct. 2015, BFN IVF Oct. 2016, fresh transfer, 2 day-3 embryos, BFN; nothing to freeze IVF Nov. 2017, fresh transfer, 2 day-5 blasts, BFP; ectopic; 1 blast frozen FET March 2018, 1 day-5 blast, BFP!
@mcgeeva Oh no! How much frozen food did you lose? @runrinserepeat I am so sorry that yu and your family are having to experience this awful roller coaster. Cance sucks! Prayers that she gets good results tomorrow! @kadeephd Series finales get me feeling sapy, too! This season of life, especially, is so emotional with so many changes and unknowns. @ab_canada I am super impressed by your knitting abilities! @temmetime I am sorry that you feel like you and your H are not clicking right now. Being a mom and wife is hard enough and pregnancy just makes everything even more challenging. Are you two able to have a date night anytime soon? @countrygirl624 Good luck with the interview!
Thank you everyone for the well wishes for my son. To my surprise, he does not have an ear infection. However, he has 3 molars coming in, so the ped said his ears are probably bothering him. I am just glad that the tubes seem to be doing their job.
Thanks @scaredunprepared@clbness & @katy0990 we could probably try for a date night over the weekend sometime soon. We haven't done anything since BFP because I don't feel like watching him drink at a restaurant haha. I'm a little salty about the drinking right now. Clbness, solidarity all the way
@mag1cbeli3ver I feel you! I was having cheetos and skittles allll the time. Anyways, I'm doing something called the 21-Day Sugar Detox. Basically - it's not a low-calorie or low-carb diet for weight loss. It's entire purpose is to reset your carb/sugar response and cravings. You can find the basic rules and food lists online, but I bought the book (The new "Daily Guide" which is around $20 on Amazon) and it's been a helpful tool to read as each day passes and for prep beforehand. It has recipe ideas which do take time to prepare, or you can do it super simply with your own meal plan.
Putting the rest of the explanation about the 21DSD in the spoiler for anyone who wants to continue reading the novel about it:
I followed the meal plan for a week then decided I didn't want to do that much work this week. There are many blogs about doing it safely during pregnancy and with other meal plan ideas. You can have a "coach" for it for an extra cost (you can find one through their website) or just do it on your own.
I'm doing level 1 (there are 3 levels) which still allows dairy (only full-fat since skim products add extra sugars) and allows 1/2 cup of certain things like legumes or rice/quinoa per day. Otherwise your carbs come from potatoes and other veggies, plus one serving fruit a day. No artificial sweeteners are allowed either (not even stevia) since your body still thinks of it as sweet.
My meals today for instance are: - Breakfast: Giant protein shake - canned pumpkin, half a banana, vanilla whey protein powder, collagen powder, kefir, cinnamon, vanilla extract, and pumpkin pie spice. - Snack: 2 hard boiled eggs - Lunch: Leftover salmon, asparagus and quinoa cooked in butter and oil - Snack: Half a grapefruit and cheese - Dinner: A whole sweet potato with philly cheese steak style meal on top (so no bread, but beef, onion, pepper and a homemade cheese sauce) with a side salad - If I need a snack later: I'll probably have a handful of almonds or something
I have trouble eating it all sometimes... but since the processed things are out, I have to make sure I'm eating enough food especially while pregnant! Good luck with whatever you decide to do!
@scaredunprepared sorry - I didn't mean to make it all about me. It was just so surprising to me how little everyone knew about it, and I imagine you're going through a bit of that too. Just wanted to let you know you're not alone and also that it's not just a vet/animal healthcare problem Will continue thinking of you and your pup and hoping for the best.
@katy0990 a little, but not the extent of irritation that it has become lately. I'm trying to come up with a way of talking to him about it without it blowing up or hurting his feelings. It's an every day thing and we both drink regularly, but him doing it so much when I am not/cannot is a big turn off.
@runrinserepeat I have been wondering how your mom is doing. Glad to hear she seems to be doing as well as she can right now. I really hope she gets good news and can stay on the clinical trial!! Please keep us updated!
@scaredunprepared yay for rings!! So sorry for the news on your pup though. Hopefully they're just being overly cautious with it being a "high stage 2".
Thanks for sharing, @omnommer! I'm definitely going to look more into it. And I don't mind food prep all that much, so hopefully that part won't be too bad.
On the subject of eating all the bad sugary stuff, I had an iced cappuccino on my break today and it was amazing! I haven't had much caffeine throughout pregnancy so far, but this was totally worth it! It might become a permanent part of my Monday routine b/c - Mondays.
Me: 33, DH: 41 Started IF Feb. 2014 PCOS & MFI (low sperm count and motility) 3 Femara cycles w/natural intercourse over summer 2014, BFN 1 Clomid cycle w/natural intercourse Nov. 2014, BFN IUI March 2015, BFN IUI June 2015, BFN IUI Oct. 2015, BFN IVF Oct. 2016, fresh transfer, 2 day-3 embryos, BFN; nothing to freeze IVF Nov. 2017, fresh transfer, 2 day-5 blasts, BFP; ectopic; 1 blast frozen FET March 2018, 1 day-5 blast, BFP!
I'm not going to tag because #lazy, but I'm just here to say cancer sucks and I'm sorry to those of you dealing with it. And hugs to those of you dealing with husband issues. Hopefully it's just a short phase and you guys can figure it out
Re: Weekly Randoms w/o 9/17
Except i already did the coffee part.
@morgantu boo work! Maybe reward yourself with ice cream instead?
I'm starting back up in the schools this week. Today is my first day commuting to one of my schools from the new house and it sucks! It's a further drive and I have to pay tolls now!
Been MIA all weekend, sorry. Saturday we went to the jeweler and S O picked out his ring and I finalized mine. It's happening! After that I treated myself to a massage and lunch with one of my besties. Then we went over to our friends to celebrate our upcoming marriage. Yesterday we spent all day at the zoo with my family including my sister, brother-in-law, and two nieces. We had a great time but man was it exhausting. But of course we couldn't end the weekend on a positive note. On our drive back from the zoo, we got news about our dog's biopsy. Turns out that even though the cancer hasn't visibly spread, it is a high grade 2 tumor. That means chances are it may have spread already and just hasn't produced new tumors yet. On the bright side, the doctor said we may have cured it, if we got it in time. Meeting with the oncologist on Friday to discuss other treatment options and prognosis. Fun fun.
@scaredunprepared Glad you had an awesome weekend but so sorry to hear about your doggie! I hope you get good news on Friday when you go in. It's crazy to me that things can still be so unclear (i.e., "either it has spread already" or "we cured it!") I will keep my FX for the latter!
Started IF Feb. 2014
PCOS & MFI (low sperm count and motility)
3 Femara cycles w/natural intercourse over summer 2014, BFN
1 Clomid cycle w/natural intercourse Nov. 2014, BFN
IUI March 2015, BFN
IUI June 2015, BFN
IUI Oct. 2015, BFN
IVF Oct. 2016, fresh transfer, 2 day-3 embryos, BFN; nothing to freeze
IVF Nov. 2017, fresh transfer, 2 day-5 blasts, BFP; ectopic; 1 blast frozen
FET March 2018, 1 day-5 blast, BFP!
@scaredunprepared super fun news about the wedding festivities. Not great about the pup but awesome if you all caught in time. I can't fathom a sick pup
@katy0990 hopefully your little man feels better soon. I swear I always know a ear infection. Like clockwork my kids wont sleep through the night crying all night long about the pain.
So my weekend blew balls. I cooked dinner sat night but couldn't move a bag of ice in the freezer and put a box back in not all the way clearly because Sunday rolled around after I ran around with my boys all day and the entire freezer defrosted! Ugh I was so mad at myself. Than roll around to this morning...I see the bus pass behind my house. Clearly working and not paying attention had to drive like a bat out of hell to make the bus. But..grabbed coffee so I have to be on the ups right?! lol
Married: 5/09 ~ TTC Since: 10/10 ~ PCOS ~ Progesterone from 10/10 - 2/11 ~ HSG on 3/18 - Clear ~ Started Metformin 1000mg & Clomid 50mg 2/11 ~ Metformin upped to 1500mg 4/6 ~ 6/7 Now going to SG and put on Clomid, Ovidrel, Gonal F, Prometrium, Estrace ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP!!!!!! March 6th our little man was born.
6/17/13 - Ovidrel, Follistim, Prometrium ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP! March 17th our St. Pattys day baby arrived
10/29/17 - Started process for IVF, got pregnant & miscarried a 2nd time since summer. 2/22 started stims - Menopur, Gonal F, Cetrotide - retrieval 3/6 - , PIO, estrace 3xday - FET 4/18 = Beta 1: 616; Beta 2: 1342 = BFP
@mag1cbeli3ver we didn't realize there was such a thing as "high grade 2". We thought after speaking to the oncologist last week before the surgery, that it would either be grade 1, 2, or 3. If it was grade 1 or 2, amputation would have cured it. If it was grade 3, it would have already spread. The fact that it's a high grade 2 means that it could pretty much be anywhere from a two to three. So of course that leaves things a very gray. We just want answers damn it!
I'm sorry @scaredunprepared about the pup. hopefully the amputation took care of it!! and yay for the wedding rings! do you have a date you are going to the be officially married?
@scaredunprepared so sorry to hear about the in between dx for your pup. You definitely have given him the best chance possible with doing his amputation as soon as you could. Also congrats on the rings! That is exciting! It also may be hard to size yours right now (?). My rings have gotten looser with pregnancy this time- my body is being weird.
@runrinserepeat hugs and prayers for you and your mom. What you are going through is really hard.
@scaredunprepared It sounds like you had a great weekend, except for the news about your pup, I'm sorry that wasn't any better.
@mcgeeva I think your day can only go up from here!
@runrinserepeat hugs.
My day is starting like @morgantu I have no motivation, there are so many things I'd rather be doing at home, so making lists of those sounds better than actual work. I really need a vacation day and think I'm scheduling a me day soon!
@scaredunprepared Yay for a nice weekend and getting rings! I hope you get the best news possible about your pup.
@katy0990 Dang ear infections, I'm sorry! I hope he feels better soon.
I lurked this weekend, but for some reason TB wouldn't let me post from my phone. I had a rough weekend with DD's up and down moods. When she was good, she was awesome, but when she was having a tough time, there was no way she was going to let Mom have a good time, no way. And our morning, was like that today too. If I could make make my coffee an Irish coffee, I would.
@scaredunprepared I hope you get good news soon about your pup!
@katy0990 I hope DS feels better quickly! That's no fun.
I'm feeling ridiculously unmotivated this last week. I feel like a bad mom I don't have the energy to do much with DS. I napped both days this weekend & didn't do much around the house other than cook, so DH is left with a pile of dishes and laundry today. DH and I just feel very off. Neither of us have been good at showing affection for a while now, and I am finding myself annoyed at a lot of things he does.. Like he will slap my ass instead of an affectionate touch or rub. He has been drinking every single freaking day & it's annoying. He doesn't get drunk, but why is it necessary? It's hard enough that I enjoy a few beers & can't have them, but to watch someone else do it all the time is getting old.
I'm realizing I should've put this in BF thread, not randoms.
Needless to say, I am clearly missing the 2nd tri energy bursts & if anyone has any extra patience can you send it my way?
ETA my constipation is flaring back up even though I've been taking metamucil, miralax & milk of mag daily. I know I feel 1000x better if I am regular and the world just looks brighter.
DS: 12/20/16
EDD: 11/29/18
The good news is that you’ll change less than you think, and some of what you dread losing you won’t actually miss. But even so, you're justified in feeling your feels
I am sorry about your mom. We went through something similar with my FIL - he was on a clinical trial for a while and then got too sick. They might be able to find something else that works for her anyway - so fingers crossed things will work out for the best.
@runrinserepeat I’m so sorry to hear about your Mom - praying the treatment is working!!
AFM- I have my interview tomorrow morning for a promotion - program manager!! Eeekk! Been working on questions to ask my potential new boss this morning and going to write out answers for anticipated questions for me this afternoon. Fingers crossed! Also I was stalking my registry and someone got me the Owlet sock!!! I’m so excited!!!!
@morgantu @snugglyduckling25 I have no motivation today either! I am doing 10 minutes of work at a time and then checking the bump/email, haha!
@Jens_Hoes If you can get a cleaning lady, even once a month just for the deep cleaning... it is so worth it! We luckily found someone who is awesome and does our house for $100 each time. (I think like 2,000 sq ft for the two-stories sans basement area.) She doesn't tidy - we run around the house for 20-30 minutes tidying the night before she comes, but she deep cleans all bathrooms and the kitchen, vacuums, mops, and changes the sheets (I wash them still). I looooveeee not having to change the bedsheets or deep clean bathrooms/kitchen. My husband is a great helper with chores, but he despises the shower/tub cleaning, so that would be left to me if we didn't hire someone!
I've now officially not had added sugars/processed food for a full week and I'm feeling so good! I actually had energy to exercise this morning, which was a huge win. I have another 2 weeks of completely cutting out those things to "hit my goal" of resetting my carb cravings to good carbs rather than cheetos and skittles... :-p I've still been having a lot of carbs, but it's more like quinoa, bananas, sweet potatoes, etc. rather than fried foods or junk foods.
Sometimes a person's own motivation can keep them fighting for longer than expected. I hope she continues to fight and you can get a lot more extra time with her.
TTC #1 January 2016
BFP April 18 2016 | EDD December 29, 2016
Welcome baby A! January 9, 2017
TTC#2 March 2018
BFP March 30, 2018 | EDD December 12, 2018
@Jens_Hoes thank you, we are trying to remain optimistic. We have officially settled on a date, Sept 28th. On my way now to meet SO at the town hall to fill out our marriage license application!
We hired cleaning people at the old house. It was just too much for me to Handle by myself. I highly recommend it! Not worth the stress and strain on your body to try to do it all.
@Activebaby thanks. We really hope we are making thur right decisions. We are willing to do pretty much whatever it takes. As for the rings, my finger size seems to be pretty consistent. When I tried on rings for fun several years ago, I was a size 6. When I went in to get sized again more recently, still a size 6. Fortunately, since size 6 is the stock size, so don't need to get it altered or sized at all. Even if I needed to, the jeweler recommended I wait until couple months after I give birth rather than getting it sized now and then having to get it sized again later. That way, less wear and tear on the ring.
@snugglyduckling25 thanks, it was a good weekend overall. Great to see family and spend time with them. We are also obviously pretty bummed about the bad news. Still trying to be optimistic though. I definitely say take a me day. My massage on Saturday was exactly what I needed! Sometimes you just need to take a little time for yourself.
@kadeephd thank you. I love the office! And your feelings are totally valid. Lately it hasn't taken much to make me cry, but feelings of change and being overwhelmed would certainly do it for me. Even though life is going to change, everybody I know who has children says they wouldn't change it for the world.
@ab_canada yay! Way to be productive! So cool that you knitted your own coat extender. I wish I was talented like that. Instead I will need to shell out money lol
@clbness thank you so much. I'm so sorry DD has been difficult lately. Hopefully today is a better day. The bump has been acting stupid for me lately too. There was an entire day wouldn't even load for me. It's Moody just like us!
@temmetime thank you, us too. Sorry you've been feeling so unproductive lately. I definitely go through phases like that, I'm sure we all do! Sometimes you just need rest. Listen to your body. It doesn't help that you feel like you and YH are out of sync though. Is there anyway that you guys can do a night away together to help you reconnect?
@temmetime I so feel you on almost ALL of that...hugs, girl! MH is the same way when it comes to drinking and it frustrates me SO BAD. And if he has just one too many, he'll forget something we just did 30 minutes ago (like, we did the whole bedtime routine with DD one night...jammies, diaper, toothbrushing and book. And 30 minutes later I went in her room to give her some water and when I came out, he was like, "did you just put her to bed?" Ummm no, drunka** WE put her to bed 30 minutes ago, are you effing kidding me?!) And he has never been a huge affection person, so I feel like he's really desensitized me...and it's really sad. I'm sorry I have no advice to offer, but, solidarity, friend.
@ab_canada That's awesome that you made your own coat extender! Any pics you wanna share?!
@countrygirl624 GL with your interview tomorrow!! And way to go on all your preparations for it!
@omnommer Wow - great job with cutting out the processed carbs! Glad it's made you feel good! I'm sure you've posted this elsewhere, but I don't remember seeing it... So you are cutting out processed sugars and bad carbs for 3 weeks to reset things? I feel like I should do something similar. I love carbs, but I'm almost always drawn to the bad stuff (hello, pop tarts for breakfast almost every day last week). And I feel sluggish a lot. Being able to reset that would be awesome. Would love to hear more about what you're doing!
Started IF Feb. 2014
PCOS & MFI (low sperm count and motility)
3 Femara cycles w/natural intercourse over summer 2014, BFN
1 Clomid cycle w/natural intercourse Nov. 2014, BFN
IUI March 2015, BFN
IUI June 2015, BFN
IUI Oct. 2015, BFN
IVF Oct. 2016, fresh transfer, 2 day-3 embryos, BFN; nothing to freeze
IVF Nov. 2017, fresh transfer, 2 day-5 blasts, BFP; ectopic; 1 blast frozen
FET March 2018, 1 day-5 blast, BFP!
@runrinserepeat I am so sorry that yu and your family are having to experience this awful roller coaster. Cance sucks! Prayers that she gets good results tomorrow!
@kadeephd Series finales get me feeling sapy, too! This season of life, especially, is so emotional with so many changes and unknowns.
@ab_canada I am super impressed by your knitting abilities!
@temmetime I am sorry that you feel like you and your H are not clicking right now. Being a mom and wife is hard enough and pregnancy just makes everything even more challenging. Are you two able to have a date night anytime soon?
@countrygirl624 Good luck with the interview!
Thank you everyone for the well wishes for my son. To my surprise, he does not have an ear infection. However, he has 3 molars coming in, so the ped said his ears are probably bothering him. I am just glad that the tubes seem to be doing their job.
DS: 12/20/16
EDD: 11/29/18
Putting the rest of the explanation about the 21DSD in the spoiler for anyone who wants to continue reading the novel about it:
I'm doing level 1 (there are 3 levels) which still allows dairy (only full-fat since skim products add extra sugars) and allows 1/2 cup of certain things like legumes or rice/quinoa per day. Otherwise your carbs come from potatoes and other veggies, plus one serving fruit a day. No artificial sweeteners are allowed either (not even stevia) since your body still thinks of it as sweet.
My meals today for instance are:
- Breakfast: Giant protein shake - canned pumpkin, half a banana, vanilla whey protein powder, collagen powder, kefir, cinnamon, vanilla extract, and pumpkin pie spice.
- Snack: 2 hard boiled eggs
- Lunch: Leftover salmon, asparagus and quinoa cooked in butter and oil
- Snack: Half a grapefruit and cheese
- Dinner: A whole sweet potato with philly cheese steak style meal on top (so no bread, but beef, onion, pepper and a homemade cheese sauce) with a side salad
- If I need a snack later: I'll probably have a handful of almonds or something
I have trouble eating it all sometimes... but since the processed things are out, I have to make sure I'm eating enough food especially while pregnant! Good luck with whatever you decide to do!
DS: 12/20/16
EDD: 11/29/18
@scaredunprepared yay for rings!! So sorry for the news on your pup though. Hopefully they're just being overly cautious with it being a "high stage 2".
DS2 due 12/12/18
On the subject of eating all the bad sugary stuff, I had an iced cappuccino on my break today and it was amazing! I haven't had much caffeine throughout pregnancy so far, but this was totally worth it! It might become a permanent part of my Monday routine b/c - Mondays.
Started IF Feb. 2014
PCOS & MFI (low sperm count and motility)
3 Femara cycles w/natural intercourse over summer 2014, BFN
1 Clomid cycle w/natural intercourse Nov. 2014, BFN
IUI March 2015, BFN
IUI June 2015, BFN
IUI Oct. 2015, BFN
IVF Oct. 2016, fresh transfer, 2 day-3 embryos, BFN; nothing to freeze
IVF Nov. 2017, fresh transfer, 2 day-5 blasts, BFP; ectopic; 1 blast frozen
FET March 2018, 1 day-5 blast, BFP!