Today’s my first day back at work after having the summer off (I work at a school) and I’m not looking forward to it. I know I need to do a bunch of cleaning and organizing to get ready for the school year but I spent all summer cleaning up after my kid, so I’m really not looking forward to cleaning up after adults.
It's a provincial holiday here so I am off work. My husband races stock car racing and we had a race last night so I am exhausted this morning.
We are planning on picking up DD from my MIL and going to an event at a local attraction here. They have free admission so we figured it would be a great day to go. Let's hope I survive the day without needing a nap more than my almost 3 year old DD.
My aunt (also my godmother) has been given two weeks to live. I’m so devestated and angry. My family has dealt with so much death in the past three years and all on my moms side. My grandmother, dad, and uncle. Year after year.
i worry about my mom and I’m just so tired of dealing with death. My son is also of an age that he’s going to wonder where “caca” is. We go to her house almost every weekend in ththe summer because she has a big yard and a pool. I’m really struggling.
Im trying alternative means to stress relief like meditation and aroma therapy. I go to talk therapy as well and I’m gonna try yoga tonight. This just sucks.
@BourbonBiscuits I work in a school too. I’m a music teacher. I am heading back in to start putting together my classroom today- we officially start the 16th.
H woke me up today with the terrifying words “shouldn’t you be getting up?”. Instant panic, can’t be late on a Monday, I have three meetings right off the bat, crap! Looked at the clock and it was 4:40. I get up at 5:30. I don’t know what he was thinking, I have never gotten up at 4:40.
Nobody will ever find his body.
DS born 2/18/2019 DD born 4/1/2023 Baby #3 EDD 11/21/2024
@danixbanani24 I am so sorry. Losing family always sucks esp when dealing with it more often than anyone should. They tell us to be low stress when pregnant, but life doesn't seem to understand that. Sending you good vibes and hope the rest of your family is there for each other and you.
TW: 1 infant loss 8/17: Our daughter was born 8/18: Our daughter kicked open heart surgery ass 2/19: We lost our son to Prader-Willi/Paradoxical Vocal Cord/ Noonans at 6wks old 4/26/2020: EDD for baby #3!!!
@danixbanani24 I am so so sorry to hearabout your aunt and all the loses in the last few years. Youre In my thoughts. Xo
Its a holiday here but DH works so its just me and DD. So far we have played with playdough and watched tv. I’m way to lazy to do anything else. And its disgustingly hot out so we arent leaving the air conditioned house.
@danixbanani24 I'm so sorry - that sounds horribly stressful. Thinking of you
@ohsunnydays I'm the admin assistant in a middle school. Our first day is the 21st, but a bunch of new kids come this week for camps and stuff. And of course our school's AC broke this morning so I'm sweating buckets.
@danixbanani24 I’m so sorry to hear that. Dealing with loss is never easy but getting pummeled by it year after year like you have is so much harder and really unfair. I’m glad you are taking steps for taking care of yourself during this time.
@BourbonBiscuits and @ohsunnydays my husband just went back to work today too. He is a 2nd grade teacher and is in a portable this year which he wasn’t allowed access to until today. And meet the teacher is Thursday night so he is scrambling trying to get shit together as well. I feel you all’s pain. Working in a school seems pretty stressful.
@kayjay44 love it.. the new HP Target line hasn’t made it to us yet but I’ve heard it’s cute! I made this for Lou last year and want to make another for this bebe.
@cmjenkies that is amazing! where do you get your patterns?
That is a free hoodie pattern from Brindille & Twig. They have patterns Preemie-5 I think in a lot of great basics/play clothes. And thanks, that fabric makes anything awesome haha
@bleucheeznwine exactly! Every gif was so on point. And it's not like the OP ever checked back in and asked for further advice. Oh well. Guess we'll just have to wait for the next knottie to post.
My second daughter is having bizarre health issues. She’s 18 months old. Today she needed a swallow study which is an x-ray. I had to stand behind an enclosure as my husband tried to soothe our screaming baby. It was heartbreaking. I have always been with her. But being pregnant I cannot. Meanwhile we are no closer to figuring out what’s up with my babe.
@danixbanani24 I’ll be thinking about you, girl, and unfortunately can empathize with the feeling of “will this loss cycle ever end?” My mom died when I was younger and my aunt and grandmother were my people growing up. In 2014, my aunt died suddenly the week of my wedding and my grandma died unexpectedly 6 weeks later. Then, in 2016, my dad was found dead of a heart attack. It was a lot in a 3 year span and it feels like your heart is going to overflow. Grief is a funny thing. Take your time and give yourself some grace. I hope you can take advantage of this opportunity to try to gain some closure and say a proper see ya later to your godmother.
@cmjenkies I am stealing the quote from that graphic for a friend. I haven’t been able to put into words what I’d like to write to her but that sums it up beautifully and so true.
@danixbanani24 I am so sorry for the perpetual feeling of loss. Please give yourself the time and space to grieve
and @ThePax89 how scary!! I hope this at least gets them closer to finding answers.
I am in the office until tomorrow afternoon, then I am off to Atlanta to meet up with all of my college roommates! I have a headache and just want to die at my desk right now instead of prepare for my 2 meetings.
Me and my husband can not agree on a boy name. We had a hard time with DS too...I wish this baby was a girl simply because finding a name would be easier. Right now this kid is probably going to be named “baby boy E.”
Re: Weekly randoms 8/6 - 8/12
We are planning on picking up DD from my MIL and going to an event at a local attraction here. They have free admission so we figured it would be a great day to go. Let's hope I survive the day without needing a nap more than my almost 3 year old DD.
i worry about my mom and I’m just so tired of dealing with death. My son is also of an age that he’s going to wonder where “caca” is. We go to her house almost every weekend in ththe summer because she has a big yard and a pool. I’m really struggling.
Im trying alternative means to stress relief like meditation and aroma therapy. I go to talk therapy as well and I’m gonna try yoga tonight. This just sucks.
Nobody will ever find his body.
DD born 4/1/2023
Baby #3 EDD 11/21/2024
1 infant loss
8/17: Our daughter was born
8/18: Our daughter kicked open heart surgery ass
2/19: We lost our son to Prader-Willi/Paradoxical Vocal Cord/ Noonans at 6wks old
4/26/2020: EDD for baby #3!!!
Its a holiday here but DH works so its just me and DD. So far we have played with playdough and watched tv. I’m way to lazy to do anything else. And its disgustingly hot out so we arent leaving the air conditioned house.
@ohsunnydays I'm the admin assistant in a middle school. Our first day is the 21st, but a bunch of new kids come this week for camps and stuff. And of course our school's AC broke this morning so I'm sweating buckets.
@BourbonBiscuits and @ohsunnydays my husband just went back to work today too. He is a 2nd grade teacher and is in a portable this year which he wasn’t allowed access to until today. And meet the teacher is Thursday night so he is scrambling trying to get shit together as well. I feel you all’s pain. Working in a school seems pretty stressful.
I got a good night's sleep, but I shouldn't have gotten out of bed.
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
DD born 4/1/2023
Baby #3 EDD 11/21/2024
Long live worm!
DD born 4/1/2023
Baby #3 EDD 11/21/2024
My message to the admin:
BFP 6.8.2018 EDD 02.18.2019
@danixbanani24 lots of thoughts and prayers to you.
also so sorry about the worm thread I loved reading it!
@danixbanani24 I am so sorry for the perpetual feeling of loss. Please give yourself the time and space to grieve
and @ThePax89 how scary!! I hope this at least gets them closer to finding answers.