People think we become mothers when we give birth but the truth is we become mothers the moment we start calling our babies to us in our thoughts, dreams and prayers. Some paths are short and some are so long that you can easily forget where you were headed.
How I feel all of the time. My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI Back on Levothyroxine FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt, 1st Beta on 7dpt 93 2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule. Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017 New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
When I’m traveling solo, I like to go to the airport extra early and sit by myself. No one at the airport knows me or wants anything from me. I can’t accomplish anything on my many lists. It is the perfect opportunity to read or reflect or stare at blank space and drool. I also really dislike people who try to make conversation at the airport or on the plane. This is my time, people.
(*Personal travel. When I was traveling for work, I had to do work and emails at the airport.)
@spottedginger OMG, yesssss. I hate people that want to talk the entire time! I want to listen to music, or watch netflix, or read. It's the only "me" time I ever get! I have a rule. I will play nice and be friendly and chit chat during boarding. The ONLY reason I even do this is because I am afraid that if something terrible happens and the plane goes down, I wouldn't know anything about the person sitting next to me. It makes me sad to think about the people who have died in plane crashes where not a single soul that perished next to them knows anything. Just that tiny bit of a connection means something, you know? Even if it's just something really surface-level. As soon as the safety stuff is over though, headphones go on and I am DONE. No more. Let me read.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
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Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
I don't like flying with my husband (to an extent) because he refuses to get there early and just sit around at the airport. I prefer to get there way earlier than I need to in order to be able to relax knowing there's no way I can miss my flight.
DD1: June '16 DD2: March ‘19 :::: Married since 2011 :::: USN Wife ::::
Ah, that's one of my favorite things about flying... no phone signal, no one bothering me, and an excuse to introvert for a couple hours while sipping a cocktail (I have a SW credit card and get 4 drink coupons a year! It's one of my favorite things to get in the mail ) I think most people feel that way. Only time I've ever chatted with anyone on a plane and been happy about it is when I've done the trans-pacific flight. Sitting quietly for 2-3 hours = so peaceful. Sitting quietly for 10 hours = kind of going nuts. There's usually a standing area in the center of the plane and I've met some interesting people when taking a stretch break.
I don't like flying with my husband (to an extent) because he refuses to get there early and just sit around at the airport. I prefer to get there way earlier than I need to in order to be able to relax knowing there's no way I can miss my flight.
Agh, my H is the same way. And for life in general. We're always late since he came around. He actually missed a flight once. I made it (and had to wrangle our two-month-old through check-in with four bags and security alone!), but he was parking the car and didn't make it because we didn't budget enough time. Fortunately, he got on the next flight, and we weren't charged extra.
It bugs me because he can't seem to comprehend getting stuff done ahead of time and then chilling backwards. I'm like, "I woke up early and have an extra hour, so I'm going to shower and do my makeup and etc. right now, and if I end up having extra time, I'll sit and phone or whatever until it's time to go." He, on the other hand, will say, "I woke up an hour early so I'm going to mess on my phone and sit around until I actually need to get ready to go" and then if something takes longer than he thought (it always does), then he's screwed and running late.
Hate getting to the airport early. Hate small talk with strangers. DH is always trying to get there like 4 hours early. Like wtf? If I wanted to spend that much time traveling I’d consider a trip to Australia.
@doxiemoxie212 This is me too. I want to get to the airport at the last possible second. I hate waiting to board. I just want to get to where I'm going with as little time spent waiting as possible. I will also go to great lengths to avoid small talk with strangers.
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Me: 33 DH: 32 DS: March 2014 DD: May 2015 BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
I hate flying with my H too... he is also ALWAYS late, which makes me late and I'm internally screaming at him the whole time. Plus... he's 6'2" and loves to sit in the window seat, guess what so do I! I always end up in the middle though because I'm smaller and he ends up taking up all the room in the row. I hate it. I'm constantly pushing him back in his own space. We really try to get seats where there are only 2 in a row so we avoid middle seat hell.
DH and I just hate flying, period. We try not to go anywhere we can't drive to. If I have to fly, I'm team get there super early. I do cardio walking around the concourse with my carry on and get any kinks out before I'm stuck in an uncomfortable airline seat. also team "don't talk to me on the plane". i'll be polite while everyone's boarding, but the headphones go in and book open as soon as safety demo's over and I zone out.
I hates flying w/ H as he was always anxious about getting to the gate, where’s this, let’s sit here. Nope- I have flown hundreds of times. Once I make it through security & locate my gate, I want to roam. Airport snacks are amazing. He also wants to sit next to the window bc he’s as amused as a child
Have I yet confessed that recently I ate so much chocolate I threw up in the trash can at my desk? Oops.
@wishiwaspreggo Okay, how come I don't get these drink coupons??????
I don't like flying with my husband either because it's stressful. We always have to pack a ton of stuff and all of the technology that I'd rather leave at home because I only need my phone. He sees work to do everywhere we go so always feels the need to bring both of our cameras, tripods, and at least one drone. I like to be at the airport 1.5 hours before my flight. Flying for me is me time too. I do like to chat sometimes like if I decide to have a drink or two, but mostly I like to play app word games to work my brain or read. We mostly fly southwest and they don't allow you to choose seats. He is 6'4" so that is always an issue. I do however, love going places with him and when we can, we road trip it all the way. So much fun.
People think we become mothers when we give birth but the truth is we become mothers the moment we start calling our babies to us in our thoughts, dreams and prayers. Some paths are short and some are so long that you can easily forget where you were headed.
How I feel all of the time. My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI Back on Levothyroxine FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt, 1st Beta on 7dpt 93 2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule. Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017 New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
Yes to not wanting to talk to anyone at the airport. Yes to getting there early. Love flying with my H. He's HORRIBLE to go one road trips with. Awful. Needs to stop every hour. Also, there's one stop for gas, then another stop to use the restroom, then another stop for food. Ugh. Flying is the only way we can travel together.
FFFC: I am very excited for H to come home tonight. But a big reason is because I'm tired of doing all his chores. It makes it hard to also keep up with mine. I miss my down time. Mad props to the military wives!
@SkilledSailor It's tough doing all chores when you need a stepladder to reach anything and have a bump that won't let you get to the sink. Lol thank you.
Re: Confessions
(*Personal travel. When I was traveling for work, I had to do work and emails at the airport.)
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
It bugs me because he can't seem to comprehend getting stuff done ahead of time and then chilling backwards. I'm like, "I woke up early and have an extra hour, so I'm going to shower and do my makeup and etc. right now, and if I end up having extra time, I'll sit and phone or whatever until it's time to go." He, on the other hand, will say, "I woke up an hour early so I'm going to mess on my phone and sit around until I actually need to get ready to go" and then if something takes longer than he thought (it always does), then he's screwed and running late.
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
Married: 2016
BFP #1 4/23/18, blighted ovum 5/29/18
BFP#2 7/14/18, DS 4/5/19
Have I yet confessed that recently I ate so much chocolate I threw up in the trash can at my desk? Oops.
I don't like flying with my husband either because it's stressful. We always have to pack a ton of stuff and all of the technology that I'd rather leave at home because I only need my phone. He sees work to do everywhere we go so always feels the need to bring both of our cameras, tripods, and at least one drone. I like to be at the airport 1.5 hours before my flight. Flying for me is me time too. I do like to chat sometimes like if I decide to have a drink or two, but mostly I like to play app word games to work my brain or read. We mostly fly southwest and they don't allow you to choose seats. He is 6'4" so that is always an issue. I do however, love going places with him and when we can, we road trip it all the way. So much fun.
My 7 Year Journey ***Tw in spoiler***
IVF #1 - September 2018; Follistim, Menopur, Cetrotide & Lupron/HCG combo trigger; PGS; ICSI
Back on Levothyroxine
FET #1 - October 2018; cancelled, all PGS aneuploid
FET #1 - November 30th, transferred anyway
Wondfo BFP 5dp5dt, CB Digi 6dpt,
1st Beta on 7dpt 93
2nd Beta on 10dpt 510!
TTC #1 since 2011. Tried for 5 years before we knew there was a one year rule.
Diag w/MS 2016; w/PCOS & IF 2017
New RE 2018; PCOS diagnosis taken away, IF due to ovary adhesions, but prev. RE insists PCOS IF
IUI
IUI #1 July 2017 w/100mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #2 October 2017 w/50mg Clo+trigger; BFN; benched w/big cysts
IUI #3 February 2018 w/5mg Femara+trigger; low P
BFP February; mc March; Subclinical hypothyroid started Levothyroxine
IUI #4 March 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Medicated cycle & TI April 2018 w/7.5mg Femara+trigger; BFN
Tried several cycles on our own; all BFN
FFFC: I am very excited for H to come home tonight. But a big reason is because I'm tired of doing all his chores. It makes it hard to also keep up with mine. I miss my down time. Mad props to the military wives!