PGAL Check-In Week of 1/3

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@starla. This is a huge milestone!  I am so happy for you!  I know you are not feeling too hopeful at this point though, and who could blame you.  You've been through so much.  I will be happy to keep everything crossed for you if it feels too hard to hope. ❤  So next u/s is Monday again?  Hopefully the regular u/s will help give you more peace of mind and confidence as time goes along... (((hugs)))

starla

Thanks @BusinessWife. Unfortunately a HB doesn't give me any reassurance since we had a HB with both of my MMCs.

Wishilivedinflorida

@Starla I’m sorry the SA did not bring great news. I’ll keep everything I’ve got crossed that this little bean has the good sperm! That HB sounds great, though....hopefully it’s a sign of more good things to come. 

Jyoung327

@starla so glad you were able to see a heartbeat at your apt, that is a good start at least! I definitely understand the not wanting to get your hopes up, its so early.  Im at that point too and reading your posts from earlier in the week and the responses you got was helpful for me.  

I have my first ultrasound on Wednesday at what Im expecting to be 6w2d.  Im having the same PTSD like feelings of wanting to go SO bad to know if the baby is growing right, but also the closer it gets the more dread I feel and almost dont want to go because Im scared of what they will tell me.  DH is going to be there with me this time, and we are at a point where we should definitely see something, I did fertility meds and triggered so theres no way the dates could be off at this point (last pregnancy they kept asking me and it was so hard to have hope that *maybe* i implanted later, etc) but im just kind of freaking out at this point. 

starla

Thank you @Wishilivedinflorida.
@Jyoung327 GL at your appointment! I hope everything goes well and that you have nothing to worry about. I went through a similar situation with dates for my first pregnancy. I kept measuring behind and at the time I was still naive and optimistic and kept trying to figure out how it was possible for those dates to work. I know how hard this is. We're here for you if you need reassurance. Is DH or a friend going with you to the appointment?