So I made the decision a while ago that when I started IVF I was going to put it on social media- the good and the bad. I just felt/feel like infertility is never talked about, and I can tell you guys that without all of you, I would have lost my damn mind because this journey is so lonely, and I would love to be able to reach people who may be in the same position at some point.
Anyway- I am currently looking for funny pictures to put up about it and I found this and it literally made me belly laugh out loud and I wanted to share.
@purplg8r So it was amazing. So many streets were just dirt alleyways which was beautiful in a very gritty kinda way. You would be walking down a dirt alley with clay buildings everywhere, and turn a corner and find a building that had an entryway that looked like this: (btw these are all my pics)
We spent 2 days in Marrakech looking at the old palaces, wandering the souks and we did a food tour where I ate lamb tanjie (a special kind of tagging from Marrakech), but also ate sheep eyeball (it tasted like bone marrow!), cow spleen (quite nicely seasoned), a snail soup, Moroccan pizza which is this specific bread cooked with onions and paprika...it was all so yummy.
We then went up into the high atlas mountains. This is the view from my room
And we had massages and did this:
Then we ended our trip in Madrid where we just wandered around for a day.
@50Wife Its not finished yet. I want it to be a combination of funny and realistic, so I am still trying to decide if this is the right picture, but I think I am gonna go with this:
So it is time to come clean. H and I have been trying (and trying and trying) for a long time to add to our family with no success. It has been a long, weird, lonely, sad road to get to where we are now. Where are we? Well, we just started meds for IVF (In Vitro Fertilization aka test tube babies). Fertility, or more specifically, infertility is something not talked about often, which is sad as it affects 1 in 8 couples. It makes it incredibly lonely and isolating. I have made the decision to show our journey- not all of it, but a bit of the funny and the scary, in the hopes that if any of my friends are dealing with it or ever do, that they will feel a little bit less lonely than I have during this process. So over the next few weeks, please laugh with us and enjoy pictures of pills, H poking me with needles (he likes it more than he should…), ultrasounds, me after surgery and if we are lucky, at the end of this we will have a larger family than we do now. (I just ask that no one asks me if it works- if it works, you will know, trust me). Wish us luck!
*lurker* @BusinessWife I am so excited for your transfer. Will be sending you good vibes tomorrow. @kiwi2628 You are doing such a kindness by sharing publicly what you are going through with IF and IVF. I bet you will get messages from people you had no idea had struggled or are struggling. There will be people on your feed who will feel less alone just by you sharing, even if they never tell you how much you helped them. TW I have not regretted my decision to be more open about my struggles with loss and was amazed to see how many people reached out and shared about their losses when I shared publicly in October that I had experienced mc. I have also tried to be more open IRL about my RPL and I have generally felt really well supported. end TW. Also those pictures are amazing, I'm glad you had such a good trip.
@kiwi2628 amazing!! Perfectly worded and I'm also willing to bet that you have at least a few of your FB friends reaching out saying they're in the same boat.
I've also been debating whether or not to do something similar when we're closer to IVF and you made me want to do it more!
I hope the whole process goes as smooth as possible for you guys!!
@zamora_spin I have shared the journey with some friends starting back with IUI and it has been really helpful to have someone to talk to. I mean, they don't get it (they are single women- like, not even anywhere close to thinking about any of this yet), but it still helps.
@50Wife I posted it 5 minutes ago and already the outpouring of love has been amazing. People I haven't talked to in YEARS have posted well wishes. It feels great. I know sharing isn't for anyone, and if this doesn't end well, of course I may change my opinion, but I am glad I did, and I think even if IVF doesn't work for us, I will still be happy to have such a big part of my life not shrouded in secrecy.
@kiwi2628 Those pictures are so pretty! What an awesome time! I'm glad you got to go and have some fun before starting IVF.
I love that you went public, and that you've had so much well wishers already! I agree with @50Wife - your post is inspirational in making me want to be more public about IVF too. As you go along, I've love to hear more about your posts and your experience with being public about IVF. My main reason for wanting to go public is similar to what you posted about - if there's someone else out there going through this crap that I know, I don't want them to be alone! I don't know anyone IRL who has IF - thank god for you guys!
@kiwi2628 that's awesome!!! I'm glad that everyone is showing their love and support!
I hate how secretive it becomes. How it's something that you're almost ashamed of. I don't understand why it turns into that. I'd also love to hear about some of your future posts.
Eee! It’s already tomorrow where you are, @BusinessWife! I know I may still be sleeping/just waking up when it all goes down, so I hope everything is amazing!
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
@AlohaKumu aww, that's true! It is already after midnight, and I'm still up! Lol but TODAY!!! Is Transfer Day!!! :D <img src="https://us.v-cdn.net/5020794/uploads/editor/qy/j45rc7cnjvzq.gif" alt="">
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
Thank you!!!! @LadyMillil @nitnat007 @lulu1180 @RVAmom515 @kiwi2628 @JuneRoseRuby @AlohaKumu and everyone here! <img src="https://us.v-cdn.net/5020794/uploads/editor/a4/27ocg0sjzd8x.gif" alt=""> I should get a call within the next less-than two hours with my official transfer time... Enjoying my whole pineapple slices and pom juice with breakfast! Lol Whatever may help! Have a busy morning in store here at home (I took the day off!!!) to keep my mind occupied as much as possible until then...
@kiwi2628 incredible pictures. I’m so glad @purplg8r asked you to share. As for sharing about IVF I love what you wrote and I’m so glad to see it was well received. This whole IF thing really does become this big secret that we carry around virtually alone. I am in awe of your bravery to share your journey. Thank you. And like @50Wife I’d love to hear about the continued responses.
@BusinessWife today’s the day!!!! Sending you all the good vibes.
TTC#1 10/2016 TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each. BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021 planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks, some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
@kiwi2628 trip really does sound awesome and sounds like you've come back ready to kick ass for your IVF cycle. It's so great what you shared and that you shared. I hope you get lots of positive support! (And not too many people asking every day if it worked or not yet lol!) Someone else told about the IVF but didn't tell about when the FET took place so they had lots of general support, but nobody asking every day around Beta time.
@skilledsailor pleased to hear your DH has taken some action himself. That's a great step.
@kristokekerooni I think everyone gave you good input already on the question of the number to transfer. Number, quality, age, previous history of PG or loss, PGS tested or not. Definitely worth talking to @beary67. You could reach out to @hopeful_mom too. Also check out the the3meatballs blog. But on the other hand you need to take each situation as it comes. And if time is of the essence then that can sway things one way or another. With my DOR and age if we ever got two in one cycle we would consider it depending on quality and which day transfer (i.e. 2 day 3 or 1 day 5) - as my RE has said he expects only 1/20 of my eggs to be capable of leading to a successful PG.
@becca07024411 thanks - I managed with the work schedule, though now with the ER result below I probably didn't need to rearrange anything after all as we probably won't have anything to transfer this time. Murphy's law.
@darkstar42 keeping everything crossed for your beta on 27th
@ndz2018 good news I guess on it "only" being a septum. Hope you can get the surgery asap and back off that bench!
@alohakumu hope you managed to get the rest of the meds they didn't deliver!
@beachbunnyxo123 hope you confirmed O by now and keeping fx that you don't even need to start IVF
@flashley-2 hope you get those SA results back soon. I have no idea what they're doing for four weeks!!!
@50wife first cycle I stimmed only 7 days and second one just now 13 days. So the answer is, nobody knows for sure until you do it, and then it can vary from cycle to cycle, even with the same protocol let alone with different ones. Sorry. Not at all helpful I guess.
@madspunk you're one third of the way through the two weeks until your next cycle and the IUI... you'll soon be there!
AFM back home on the couch after ER. But we only got one mature egg :-(. The big follie had collapsed and the other one had an immature egg. So one mature egg. Now have to wait for the call tomorrow to know if it fertilized or not. Feeling a bit bummed. But even if we can only get one egg at a time we want to keep going. Maybe it takes ten or more retrievals to find a good enough egg. We have one more round with insurance where I'm keen to experiment with a new protocol, if not discuss mini or natural IVF. Lets see!
Me 43 DH 45 Married 12/2016 TTC #1 since 04/2015 AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis 7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Jun19 FET BFP, due date 7th March 2020, DD born Feb20
Sep17 IVF1 - 1ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high) May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality) Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality) Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst) Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality) Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH) Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Sep17 - Pergoveris 10-17 Sep, Orgalutran 15-18 Sep, Ovitrelle 18 Sep, ER 20 Sep for 2 follies, 1 mature egg, fertilized, ET 1x 2d 4-cell embryo 22/09, 05/10 BFN Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
Fav Quote: The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
@BusinessWife Thinking of you today! Fx that everything goes perfectly. @emmasemm I'm so sorry you didn't get as many eggs as you'd hoped. Keeping my fx that it fertilizes!
@BusinessWife, GL today, I hope everything goes well.
@emmasemm, I'm sorry to hear that you only got one egg, but I hope it's "the one."
I have had more monitoring, we're up to daily now that I've started the ganirelix. Yesterday was, shall we say, not fun. It took three tries in three different veins to get blood. I am not looking forward to today. My estradiol levels are still sort of low, but they're climbing so RE's not too worried. ER is still set for Tues, but we'll see if that changes. L ovary is still hanging out behind the top of my uterus, and since it hasn't moved at all as it's gotten bigger, my RE thinks that it might actually be adhered to my uterus with scar tissue. They're going to try to push it out from behind my uterus during ER, but if not, they're going through. Good thing we weren't planning a fresh transfer!
Thanks for all your input, guys. Mobile isn't letting me tag, but I so appreciate all your opinions. I think we have mostly decided on transferring one, but that might change depending on quantity & quality.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@emmasemm. Oh, luvv. I'm so sorry you're feeling bummed right now. But you have a great attitude! Rest up and be well, and will be praying for perfect fertilization and the rest!
@zwink1 owch. So sorry your last apt was so rough with the labs. Stimming is such a frigging gauntlet. Just hang in there - you got this!!! (((Hugs)))
@kiwi2628 I absolutely love your post and how brave you are. It is so true that nobody talks about IF and I hope your post opens up more conversations about it. @BusinessWife good luck today!!! @emmasemm I'm sorry you only got the one egg but fx that it fertilizes.
AFM: IUI went well yesterday. The nurse said that my cervical fluid was "beautiful" and the timing was perfect. She told me to call her when I get my positive pregnancy test and I had to bite my lip not to say "you mean when I get my period". Oh well. We'll see what happens.
TTC History
Me: 35 DH: 34 Married 07/2012 DD born 07/2014 DD2 born 10/2018 DS born 10/2022
IF history: TTC #2 since January 2016 June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018 FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
AFM, I broke down and tested Wednesday even though I talked up my game of how strong I am, the underwear debacle threw me for a loop. BFN. Tested when I got home tonight and BFN. I haven't used FMU or SMU yet, so I will tomorrow morning but I am expecting more of the same BFN I have been seeing. I've had some back pain and a headache today which usually means AF is coming within a few hours, but she just hasn't yet. So AF will probably be here by Sunday at the latest.
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
Congratulations @shortstack930 !!! Fx for a wonderful test and a happy phone all .... in like 10 days lol. TWW??? What two week wait lol
@JuneRoseRuby. Oh no... I'm so sorry... any chance it's just still too early?
FAM - We did it! DH was running late from trying to get out of work, but my doctor swapped me around with the other patients and came back to us after he'd arrived. Phew! We went the diner to eat after, and got home and into cozy clothes not too long ago... now here's hoping we can get a funny movie to put on here, break for tonight's pio, and soak up the PASP bliss... keeping everything crossed...
@BusinessWife yes, girl, PASP!!!!! Fx so hard for you.
TTC History
Me: 35 DH: 34 Married 07/2012 DD born 07/2014 DD2 born 10/2018 DS born 10/2022
IF history: TTC #2 since January 2016 June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018 FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@JuneRoseRuby. So many hugs to you... do you think you'll be able to try again right away next cycle? I really just hate this for you... hoping so hard for your bfp soon ❤❤❤
@businesswife I can do another IUI this next cycle but it just sucks because the due date for this cycle was my dads birthday so it just makes it that much harder
32 years old (both H and I) Dating 7/2008 Married 7/2014 H Type I Diabetic TTC 1/2016
12/2016
mental break from TTC-NTNP
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL) 1/17/2017
SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility) 1/18/2017
STP tubes clear 2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements 6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility 7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm) 8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup 9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze 9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid 9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
Good morning everyone!!! So we found out this week that we will be doing our egg retrieval next cycle! So last night I sat down with my SO and said to him “ I’m so glad I trusted my instincts and pull the trigger to go to the RE a little earlier than we had planned.” LADIES always listen to yourself! Not only does SO have low sperm count and 0% morph but I have A septum that needs to be surgically removed BUT first egg retrieval in Dec! My cycle starts around the 12/3 and the pharmacy called me last night to verify everything and get this, my prescription plan covers everything except $124 worth, ummmm honestly had no clue how fantastic my insurance is till we began this journey. All the IVF is covered up to 4 times , the Pgs and freeze are obviously not cover but again totally ok with that! Looking like a Feb/ March FET
@JuneRoseRuby So sorry for the BFN! It is disappointing when it seems like everything is lining up perfectly with due dates and everything... and then it doesn't work out. Hugs to you. I hope your next cycle brings that BFP.
@ndz2018 jealous that you have such good insurance!
AF showed up yesterday. Sigh. For now, I'm not going to use opks. Gonna temp every 5th day (just to see if temp spiked) and BD every Friday & Sunday (since I don't see him Mon-Friday evening). I'm tired of waking up at 2:30 am and am just hoping I ovulate on a weekend lol. Then come Jan, I'll be on his insurance and we'll move on to IUI.
Re: IF Testing and Treatment - week of 11/13
Anyway- I am currently looking for funny pictures to put up about it and I found this and it literally made me belly laugh out loud and I wanted to share.
@kiwi2628 I wanna hear vacation stories!! What was your favorite part??
We spent 2 days in Marrakech looking at the old palaces, wandering the souks and we did a food tour where I ate lamb tanjie (a special kind of tagging from Marrakech), but also ate sheep eyeball (it tasted like bone marrow!), cow spleen (quite nicely seasoned), a snail soup, Moroccan pizza which is this specific bread cooked with onions and paprika...it was all so yummy.
We then went up into the high atlas mountains. This is the view from my room
And we had massages and did this:
Then we ended our trip in Madrid where we just wandered around for a day.
All and all, it was a great baby moon (#3).
@BusinessWife I am so excited for your transfer. Will be sending you good vibes tomorrow.
@kiwi2628 You are doing such a kindness by sharing publicly what you are going through with IF and IVF. I bet you will get messages from people you had no idea had struggled or are struggling. There will be people on your feed who will feel less alone just by you sharing, even if they never tell you how much you helped them. TW I have not regretted my decision to be more open about my struggles with loss and was amazed to see how many people reached out and shared about their losses when I shared publicly in October that I had experienced mc. I have also tried to be more open IRL about my RPL and I have generally felt really well supported. end TW.
Also those pictures are amazing, I'm glad you had such a good trip.
I've also been debating whether or not to do something similar when we're closer to IVF and you made me want to do it more!
I hope the whole process goes as smooth as possible for you guys!!
@50Wife I posted it 5 minutes ago and already the outpouring of love has been amazing. People I haven't talked to in YEARS have posted well wishes. It feels great. I know sharing isn't for anyone, and if this doesn't end well, of course I may change my opinion, but I am glad I did, and I think even if IVF doesn't work for us, I will still be happy to have such a big part of my life not shrouded in secrecy.
I love that you went public, and that you've had so much well wishers already! I agree with @50Wife - your post is inspirational in making me want to be more public about IVF too. As you go along, I've love to hear more about your posts and your experience with being public about IVF. My main reason for wanting to go public is similar to what you posted about - if there's someone else out there going through this crap that I know, I don't want them to be alone! I don't know anyone IRL who has IF - thank god for you guys!
I hate how secretive it becomes. How it's something that you're almost ashamed of. I don't understand why it turns into that.
I'd also love to hear about some of your future posts.
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
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Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
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I should get a call within the next less-than two hours with my official transfer time... Enjoying my whole pineapple slices and pom juice with breakfast! Lol Whatever may help! Have a busy morning in store here at home (I took the day off!!!) to keep my mind occupied as much as possible until then...
@BusinessWife today’s the day!!!! Sending you all the good vibes.
TTC#1 10/2016
TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each.
BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021
planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks,
some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
@kiwi2628 trip really does sound awesome and sounds like you've come back ready to kick ass for your IVF cycle. It's so great what you shared and that you shared. I hope you get lots of positive support! (And not too many people asking every day if it worked or not yet lol!) Someone else told about the IVF but didn't tell about when the FET took place so they had lots of general support, but nobody asking every day around Beta time.
@laurad75 I love the idea of your donor mirroring @kiwi2628
@purplg8r so sorry again, but if your schedule decides for you re next cycle then hopefully that takes some of the stress out of it.
@zwink1 have you had another monitoring? Any idea on ER day? PS loved your chinchillas on Monday :-)
@juneroseruby hope your "Period underwear" conundrum has been answered and AF didn't arrive and testing goes well tomorrow
@shortstack930 hope the IUI went smoothly!
@skilledsailor pleased to hear your DH has taken some action himself. That's a great step.
@kristokekerooni I think everyone gave you good input already on the question of the number to transfer. Number, quality, age, previous history of PG or loss, PGS tested or not. Definitely worth talking to @beary67. You could reach out to @hopeful_mom too. Also check out the the3meatballs blog. But on the other hand you need to take each situation as it comes. And if time is of the essence then that can sway things one way or another. With my DOR and age if we ever got two in one cycle we would consider it depending on quality and which day transfer (i.e. 2 day 3 or 1 day 5) - as my RE has said he expects only 1/20 of my eggs to be capable of leading to a successful PG.
@becca07024411 thanks - I managed with the work schedule, though now with the ER result below I probably didn't need to rearrange anything after all as we probably won't have anything to transfer this time. Murphy's law.
@darkstar42 keeping everything crossed for your beta on 27th
@ndz2018 good news I guess on it "only" being a septum. Hope you can get the surgery asap and back off that bench!
@alohakumu hope you managed to get the rest of the meds they didn't deliver!
@thecolddoesnotherme welcome and hope your US and BW goes well today
@avrilmai did you get the repeat tests done and back?
@rvamom315 good for you on taking a second opinion. We have enough to deal with without crappy service and care.
@hollyyyy hope AF came so you can get started!
@beachbunnyxo123 hope you confirmed O by now and keeping fx that you don't even need to start IVF
@flashley-2 hope you get those SA results back soon. I have no idea what they're doing for four weeks!!!
@50wife first cycle I stimmed only 7 days and second one just now 13 days. So the answer is, nobody knows for sure until you do it, and then it can vary from cycle to cycle, even with the same protocol let alone with different ones. Sorry. Not at all helpful I guess.
@madspunk you're one third of the way through the two weeks until your next cycle and the IUI... you'll soon be there!
AFM back home on the couch after ER. But we only got one mature egg :-(. The big follie had collapsed and the other one had an immature egg. So one mature egg. Now have to wait for the call tomorrow to know if it fertilized or not.
Feeling a bit bummed. But even if we can only get one egg at a time we want to keep going. Maybe it takes ten or more retrievals to find a good enough egg. We have one more round with insurance where I'm keen to experiment with a new protocol, if not discuss mini or natural IVF.
Lets see!
Married 12/2016
TTC #1 since 04/2015
AMA, DOR (AMH 0.65, AFC 2-4) and autoimmune issues (RA, APS), low TSH, adenomyosis
7 retrievals, 3 transfers
Nov17 IVF2 - 1ER, 0F
Jan18 IVF3 - 3ER, 1F, 1ET, BFN
Feb18 - second opinion and additional testing
Apr18 IVF4 - cancelled (E2 too high)
May/Jun18 IVF4 - 4ER, 0M, 1F, 1 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - 5 ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (not best quality)
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - 4ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen day 3 (good quality)
Aug/Sep18 IVF7 - cancelled (cyst)
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - 3ER, 3M, 2F, 2 frozen Day 3 (excellent quality)
Oct18 IVF8 - Cancelled (cyst and too low TSH)
Oct18-Jan19 bringing TSH under control
Feb19 ERA and hysteroscopy
Mar19 Investigation for fibroid and adenomyosis
Apr19 adenomyosis confirmed, polyps removed
Jun19 FET after 2 months Lupron, autoimmune protocol, transferred two day 3 frozen embryos
Nov17 IVF2 - Pergoveris 2-14 Nov, Orgalutran 5-14 Nov, Ovitrelle 15 Nov, ER 17 Nov for 3 follies, 1 mature egg, did not fertilize
Jan18 IVF3 - Pergoveris 30 Dec - 8 Jan, Orgalutran 5-8 Jan, Ovitrelle 9 Jan, ER 11 Jan 3 eggs, 2 mature, 1 fertilized, ET 1x 4d 12-cell embryo 15/01, 24/01 BFN
May/Jun18 IVF4 - Rekovelle 25-29 May, Menogon 30May - 2Jun, Zomacton 25 27 29 31 May and 2Jun, Cetrotide 30May - 3Jun, Gonasi 3Jun, ER 5Jun 4 eggs, none mature, two matured overnight, 1 fertilized with ICSI, Frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jun/Jul18 IVF5 - Rekovelle 21-24 June, Menogon 25Jun-3Jul, Puregon 4-5Jul, Zomacton 21 23 25 27 29 Jun, Cetrotide 25Jun-5Jul, Gonasi 6Jul, ER 8Jul 5 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 but not good quality
Jul/Aug18 IVF6 - Rekovelle 26-29 Jul, Menogon 30Jul-7Aug, Buserelin 26Jul-7Aug, Zomacton 26 28 30 Jul 1 3 Aug, Gonasi 7Aug, ER 9Aug 4 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized (normal IVF), 2 frozen day 3 good quality
Sep/Oct18 IVF7 - Menogon 19-30Sep, Buserelin 19-30Sep, Zomacton 19 21 23 25 27 Sep, Ovitrelle 1 Oct, ER 3 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized with ICSI, 2 frozen day 3 excellent quality
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@emmasemm I'm so sorry you didn't get as many eggs as you'd hoped. Keeping my fx that it fertilizes!
@BusinessWife, GL today, I hope everything goes well.
@emmasemm, I'm sorry to hear that you only got one egg, but I hope it's "the one."
I have had more monitoring, we're up to daily now that I've started the ganirelix. Yesterday was, shall we say, not fun. It took three tries in three different veins to get blood. I am not looking forward to today. My estradiol levels are still sort of low, but they're climbing so RE's not too worried. ER is still set for Tues, but we'll see if that changes. L ovary is still hanging out behind the top of my uterus, and since it hasn't moved at all as it's gotten bigger, my RE thinks that it might actually be adhered to my uterus with scar tissue. They're going to try to push it out from behind my uterus during ER, but if not, they're going through. Good thing we weren't planning a fresh transfer!
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
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BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@zwink1 owch. So sorry your last apt was so rough with the labs. Stimming is such a frigging gauntlet. Just hang in there - you got this!!! (((Hugs)))
@BusinessWife Keeping FX and sending all the good vibes your way today!
@emmasemm - sorry to hear you could only get 1 egg but FX it fertilizes beautifully.
@BusinessWife good luck today!!!
@emmasemm I'm sorry you only got the one egg but fx that it fertilizes.
AFM:
IUI went well yesterday. The nurse said that my cervical fluid was "beautiful" and the timing was perfect. She told me to call her when I get my positive pregnancy test and I had to bite my lip not to say "you mean when I get my period". Oh well. We'll see what happens.
Married 07/2012
DD born 07/2014
DD2 born 10/2018
DS born 10/2022
IF history:
TTC #2 since January 2016
June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN
Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis
Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing
Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018
FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks
FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
@shortstack930 yay for a great IUI! FX the nurse is right!
@BusinessWife thinking of you!!
AFM, I broke down and tested Wednesday even though I talked up my game of how strong I am, the underwear debacle threw me for a loop. BFN. Tested when I got home tonight and BFN. I haven't used FMU or SMU yet, so I will tomorrow morning but I am expecting more of the same BFN I have been seeing. I've had some back pain and a headache today which usually means AF is coming within a few hours, but she just hasn't yet. So AF will probably be here by Sunday at the latest.
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
@JuneRoseRuby. Oh no... I'm so sorry... any chance it's just still too early?
FAM - We did it! DH was running late from trying to get out of work, but my doctor swapped me around with the other patients and came back to us after he'd arrived. Phew! We went the diner to eat after, and got home and into cozy clothes not too long ago... now here's hoping we can get a funny movie to put on here, break for tonight's pio, and soak up the PASP bliss... keeping everything crossed...
Married 07/2012
DD born 07/2014
DD2 born 10/2018
DS born 10/2022
IF history:
TTC #2 since January 2016
June-Aug 2017: 3 IUIs w/Clomid = BFN
Sept 2017: Dx w/Endometriosis
Oct 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Nov 2017: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Dec 2017: pre-IVF testing
Jan-Feb 2018: IVF--17 eggs retrieved, 13 fertilized, 9 frozen and 1 transferred on 2/10 = BFP on 2/19!!! EDD 10/29/2018
FET Oct 2021: BFP on 10/31! MC at 5 weeks
FET Feb 2022: BFP on 2/15! EDD 10/29/22
AFM: BFN 14 DPO WFAF
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
Dating 7/2008
Married 7/2014
H Type I Diabetic
TTC 1/2016
1/10/2017 initial appt with RE (all BW results WNL)
1/17/2017 SA DX Virtual Azoo (3 sperm 0%morph 0%motility)
1/18/2017 STP tubes clear
2/1/2017 initial appt with Urologist
2/15/2017 DX H Robertsonian Translocation
H is on clomid and Theralogix Supplements
6/26/17 repeat SA: 47 sperm 0% morph 13% motility
7/26/17 IVF Consult, repeat SA (4 sperm)
8/21/17 Starting IVF cycle with Donor Sperm backup
9/1/17 ER ICSI PGS: only 2 donor embryos made it to freeze
9/13/17 Started cycle for IUI with donor and clomid
9/27/17 IUI canceled for overstim
October Plan IUI with donor and low dose clomid
began this journey. All the IVF is covered up to 4 times , the Pgs and freeze are obviously not cover but again totally ok with that!
Looking like a Feb/ March FET
@BusinessWife PASP! Woo! FX so hard for you!!
@BusinessWife so glad everything went so well!!
@ndz2018 jealous that you have such good insurance!
AF showed up yesterday. Sigh. For now, I'm not going to use opks. Gonna temp every 5th day (just to see if temp spiked) and BD every Friday & Sunday (since I don't see him Mon-Friday evening). I'm tired of waking up at 2:30 am and am just hoping I ovulate on a weekend lol. Then come Jan, I'll be on his insurance and we'll move on to IUI.