@sprkls8506 - sometimes OBs just don't understand that you know your body. I was 5 weeks at my CP. OB thought I released a random egg early in the cycle and was only 2 weeks because nothing about the timing made sense to her. It was so annoying. I switched OBs for other reasons too not just that.
@sprkls8506 - I'm sure your RE is great. My OB was actually thinking I was getting false positive pregnancy tests back in December. The entire thing was stressful from beginning. I couldn't get sleep the night before I got the call with the blood tests results. I was doubting myself. I mean not everybody has the same cycle with the same outcomes. I always get my first period that first month I'm pregnant. Don't get a positive pregnancy test until about 4 weeks.
2. Status? 1st pregnancy and first MC in late March- 5th cycle TTCAL now, CD 6 today. I have an appointment with my OB in a few weeks to look into if there is anything we can pinpot that maybe could help us out.
3. R/R? Vaccation! I just finished a three week summer vaccation visiting family and relaxing. It was wonderful. Rant- I "should" have been 6 months pregnant- it made it particularly hard seeing all the new babies of friends and tons of pregnant ladies out and about in the warm weather full tummies showing.
4. GTKY: What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten? Oh this is a good one and hard! Ive had a lot of "unusual" meats. Ill try anything once as long as its not an animal that I'd have as a pet or covered in celantro!
@sprkls8506 I am so sorry. I'm sending good vibbes y"rosemary&thyme"
@jchpg Glad you had a good vacation! I totally get what you're saying, though, that it was hard with knowing how far along you should be When we found out we were pregnant and told my husband's family eventually, everyone was excited that I'd have a big pregnant belly when we visited them in August. Now we leave in two days, I should have been rolling into my third trimester, and there's no belly and no baby. And that makes the whole trip really hard and sad. Hugs to you, I know it really sucks.
@amberruka Yassss, Andina. It can't be beat! All of my major life events while I lived in Portland were celebrated there. I probably lived pretty close to where you live now...we were about a mile away from Cathedral Park and I used to drive over the SJB every day on my way to school downtown!
@jchpg Glad you had a good vacation but sorry about it being kind of hard too. I can understand it being hard with all the bellies and new babies. I hope ur able to pinpoint something at your OB appt that may help you out!
@rosemary&thyme I hope you have a good vacation! I know it must be hard going with no baby belly.
I am wide awake at 3am just feeling crappy about all of this. We are going to Disney soon and I was hoping to finally be able to buy a baby onesie but I guess that won't be happening. It also sucks when nobody even knows what ur going through. Obviously my husband knows but I told one friend and she didn't even respond. She was the only one who even knew I was pregnant.
@sprkls8506 again I'm sorry. It sucks when you have no one to talk to. Sorry your friend didn't respond. Maybe she just didn't know what to say or do. I've had some friends respond with some pretty insensitive comments and I would have rather they said nothing at all. It's hard being in limbo. Hugs to you
@Mack2342 Thanks. Altho I guess I am in limbo -I still tested and the line is so light so I'm just waiting to be done with it all and just start my next cycle.
This friend has also had losses and she is the one of the select few that even knew about my MMC. I just hope the thunderstorms stay away and I can live in my pool today and maybe some shopping!
@rosemaryandthyme Thanks for all the suggestions! They sound great. Food is always good and I love flowers. And I’m
off to google Andina…
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
@sprkls8506 I'm so sorry you are in this stage, it's absolutely unfair. Is there someone who you haven't reached out to yet that would be supportive once you did tell them? I know there's a number of people I don't want to know as I'm sure they would judge me for being older or they just wouldn't understand. But my DH has told a few of our friends and some of the ones I didn't expect to be very compassionate have surprised me and been very helpful. Once you start talking about it, you realize how many other women have gone through the same thing. Big hugs to you
1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): Hey there, I am not new to The Bump (I have an almost 2 yo DS), but I am new to TTCAL. This is our first cycle TTC after a MC in mid-March. My husband deployed about 2 weeks before our loss, so I have been benched for the last several months (Thanks, Air Force). But now he is home, so let the baby making begin!
2. Status? I'm not exactly sure when I O'd, my OPKs this month were never positive, I had EWCM for a week and a half and I had what felt like O pain on the 26th and the 30th. So I'm either DPO3 or DPO7. Now I'm debating when I should start testing (I'm a POAS addict).
3. R/R? Rave - DH is home after 5 long months, which is great. DS has completely transitioned back to having a 2 parent household (not something that is always easy for mil kids) and DH was able to take a month off work to spend time with us. Rant (1) - That time off includes two 14 hour car drives and 2 weeks with my in-laws (not my most favorite people). Rant (2) - I have a friend who's EDD is 2 weeks before mine would have been with our loss. At DH's deployment homecoming, she surprised her DH with a gender reveal. On one hand, I am happy for her, it's their first. But, seeing her there with her little basketball belly and seeing the pink balloons come out of the box made me really sad, because I'd envisioned my own homecoming pictures looking like that.
4. GTKY: What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten? I've eaten chocolate covered crickets, frogs, and lutefisk, fish jello anyone? (I'm Scandinavian and lutefisk is a Christmas tradition.)
@40momma thank you for those words. You are def right. I did end up telling another friend. The week has just been chaotic and I needed to tell someone! Just waiting for the weekend at this point.
1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): Ancient by this point loss at 13 weeks in Feb 2016 and loss at 16 weeks in Jan 2017
2. Status? I'm WTO with an OB appointment to discuss birth control options in two weeks so this is probably our last cycle of unprotected sex. We're really good at it so there is a chance we will get pregnant but not holding my breath. I mostly wanted to update on this thread because we are taking a break after this cycle for sure... my FIL is not doing well, DHs business (which he owns with FIL) is booming but they can't hire people fast enough so he is insanely busy. We are choosing some certainty in some aspect of our life by closing the door on new baby for the time being. This has been one of the hardest decisions I've made EVER in my life. Because I don't quit. I don't give up and I feel like I'm doing both. And its super hard to be a loss mom not searching for a rainbow baby - feels extra isolating and I feel like I'm sitting right back in the grief fresh after my D&E in January.
Anyway - this board is the best for TTCAL but if I'm not TTC I just don't feel like I belong anymore, but for now I continue to lurk like crazy and cheer you all on!
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned **** ~~ married 8.11.07 ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~ ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~ ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC ~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
@ladipale that would be such a hard decision to make! But you guys can always get back into it when it feels right. I've had times where I want a break but heck we aren't getting younger and I don't want a huge gap in between kids so my compromise with my mind is just have sex and not worry about it.
@vlagrl29 - i wish i could just turn off the "don't worry about it" part but its not my personality... and after 4 1st trimesters, I know what and how my body behaves (NOT WELL!) and we would like to take the uncertainty of being pregnant while my FIL dies off the table....
**** TW - kids and loss mentioned **** ~~ married 8.11.07 ~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~ ~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~ ~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC ~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
@ladipale oh with the losses you have I'm sure the worry is real and hard not to think about. Maybe it is not the right time with all that going on. I understand. Last year I was stressed as dh was building his photog studio and money was extra tight. I look back and I'm glad I wasn't pregnant then.
MrsBunz
Welcome. Also, just as an FYI, we usually do a TW before mentioning live
children on the TTCAL board.
ladipale
I’m sorry about the decision you’re making. I understand how hard the decision
you’re making is, for after I’m benched we’re giving in another go (or 2) and
then will decide to live childless not by choice. I’d love to hear more from
you if you do decide to disappear, but completely understand if it’s too hard
to get on TB and TTCAL to update. Fingers crossed for this cycle!
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
Well they told me I have to follow my #s down to zero so I still have to go. (Mind you my HCG was 5 on Tues). Not going until Monday. This morning by the time anyone picked up it was too late for bloodwork. I wish I had just driven down there.
I called back and I'm going to do it tomorrow. Just want to get it over with. I also want to avoid it but I guess I will get it over with. And then I get a call about my mammogram appt and u/s appt. I need Fri
Status?: I'm confused right now! So I had my D&C on May 31, then I got my period on June 30, it seemed normal. But now I didn't get my period yet for this cycle and I took a pregnancy test last night and it was negative. Does it usually take a few cycles for things to "go back to normal"? I never had any issues previously, always very regular, so this is weird.
R/R? It's been so so so hot in south florida. luckily my friend has an amazing resort-worthy pool in her community and she invited me over to swim this weekend.
GTKY: What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten? I've had fried gator -- such a Florida thing, had to try it once.
1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): Just recently joined this board. MC at 6 weeks in 2009, MMC on July 12th at 12 weeks (fetal demise at 9 weeks). No living children.
2. Status? Benched. OB says okay to start trying whenever; however, just saw RE and they would like to do testing first. 3 weeks post D&C, waiting first period.
3. R/R? I'm assuming this is where you can rant? ***TW*** I have a friend that had two children - youngest isn't even one, oldest two. Now she's suddenly adopting her brother's child who will be born in October. I'm trying to be a supportive friend but I'm insanely jealous. Like seriously, I get mad every time I think about how incredibly lucky she is. Guess I'm just bitter at the moment but j can't share this with anyone else without seeming like a jerk. 4. GTKY: What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten? Well I guess I'm not that adventurous because I can't think of one cool thing! Please let me know I wrote anything inappropriate. I'm still learning the culture around here.
This is more of a rant cause I've been puppy shopping online. Granted I haven't bought a puppy in 9 years but when I did it was $300 - how is it ok to sell puppies for more than $1k. Ugh I can tell this process will be frustrating.
I'm back, hopefully not for long (fingers crossed). I think I got myself into a good headspace. I see a therapist every week now. It has done a world of good for me and the DH. He attends some sessions. I am feeling much more hopeful and recovering from all of the grief. Apparently I was suffering from PTS from the multiple losses because I didn't fully grieve for any of them. '
I got my miscarriage results and it was a Triploid Chromosomal Abnormality. (Apparently rare) Knowing that there was nothing I could have done is also helping me grieve and move forward.
Currently we are in the process of trying again. My biggest fear is that my anxiety will interfere with a healthy pregnancy. My therapist keeps reassuring me that there are many of women with anxiety that learn to control it during pregnancy. We are working on many different techniques. She says, "if people with anxiety stopped having kids or couldn't get pregnant, then there would be much fewer babies being born!"
I'm glad to see that many OGs are off of this board now. Sorry to still see some familiar faces.For the newbies (sorry you all are here)...I've been following all of these threads but took a break for mental health reasons. My advice to anyone on here is DEAL WITH YOUR LOSSES. I brushed them off and just started trying again as soon as I could without talking about it. My DH and I have strengthened our relationship throughout this healing process. We are kind and loving everyday now and I think that has to do with how much we had lost and everything we have to gain.
I hope to start participating in threads again. Currently as per doctor's recommendation we are doing the deed every other day! She's a super hippie and thinks that the more we do it the better. I do OPKs but no temping. My anxiety peaks during the TWW.
Currently CD9 WTO
Sorry that was long-winded! And here is a pic of my new hair because I needed and effing change after the sh#t year I've been through...
welcome back @justsuzie ! I'm glad you are doing well and are feeling good about your plan now. I have history of anxiety too for different reasons and I got thru my pregnancy 6 years ago. It still makes me wonder how it will be during my next pregnancy as well. I like your hippie DR I thought this month DH and I would try EOD during my FW this month. Can't hurt I guess. I found a way to come back here too without anxiety getting to me. I'm not participating with tracking cause I could care less what day of the month it is for me. Pretty much just having sex and hoping because that's all you can do.
BTW - love the new hair color. I've kept my hair longer lately and I'm thinking of chopping a few inches off next time I go in. The only color I do is covering greys.
ETA - is there a plan they have for you getting pregnant again to avoid a loss. Seems you don't have issues getting pregnant but keeping it which gives me a little hope because you are about my age.
@vlagrl29 Thank, I'm into the hair as well. Hopefully when school starts nobody has issues with it!. I think you'd really like this therapist I see. She is all about me forgetting what CD I am at and just "making passionate love". I can't stop laughing when I think about her saying it. She's always saying, "just think, your love could be making a baby, what's more fun that that?!" So kookie but she's helped me so much. I know you only track CM really. Wish I had your willpower not to track with OPKs.
As for intervention...since the cornual ectopic and triploidy loss were both rare anomalies and not connectected to genetics my doctor says to try one more time before any intervention. My therapist agrees (she's a child loss and postpartum therapist) She sent us to get blood tested but we are holding off and giving it one last shot naturally. Then, both agree that I should see an RE even though I have no trouble getting PG.
I'm jealous of all your yoga abilities. My therapist says that I "must" start soon. I have this whole "EMBODY" approach to life now to ease anxiety. I haven't managed the yoga part yet. Perhaps soon.
Oh I hear ya @justsuzie - I'd love to be off this board like yesterday! But it is what it is and really without yoga I don't think I'd be doing as well. It helps me stay strong and mindful.
i think back and the months we had the best timing it didn't work and it hasn't worked with bad timing either. Both my pregnancies happened when there was no timing. I mentioned to dh last week maybe in sept I can go back to opks. He said lets see what our ob thinks when I see him. I'm starting to get weak and want try those again. It's just when I used those I felt more pressure and sometimes dh did too. I don't know what to do anymore honestly I'm at a loss.
I had reiki done last month. It's energy work and she encouraged me to keep on the path I'm taking. She said my spirit energy has been like a 3 for a year.
So for now I continue to look for a puppy to add to our family.
@justsuzie glad to see you are doing well. Hate that you are back though just I hate that I'm still here. We are now seeing an RE. We are on 4th cycle well hoping to start 4th cycle of IUI with injections. My body retained follicles so we had to take a break. glad you are in great place and I love the new hair!
@JelloBean1 Yes, it can take up to 6+ months for your cycle to return to normal. Are you temping? If not, you may want to consider it because it can help you determine if you ovulated or not. This can be super helpful after a loss when your cycles can be super wonky!!!
knottie018ff20b1f53599f Woah, you legit need an easier name to tag. Totally understood. Bitter, vile, hag over here! Feel free to rant to my anytime!!!!
@justsuzie Glad the therapy has helped! Going to a therapist was one of the best TTCAL decisions of my life. RPL is definitely rough to work through. And dayum girl... you have the best looking hair in the world. So jealous. I LOVE the colors and hope that one day I'll be brave enough to do something cool like that! But ugh... I've been going through this for almost 2 years now and on this board for over a year and a half. #Depressing
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
@dpjennifer I finally figured out how to change my username - no more knottiest with a million numbers and letters! Thanks for allowing me to rant! Well I thought I did - now I see it's not changed. Ahhh help. How do I change it?
Re: TTCAL Week of 7/31
2. Status? 1st pregnancy and first MC in late March- 5th cycle TTCAL now, CD 6 today. I have an appointment with my OB in a few weeks to look into if there is anything we can pinpot that maybe could help us out.
3. R/R? Vaccation! I just finished a three week summer vaccation visiting family and relaxing. It was wonderful. Rant- I "should" have been 6 months pregnant- it made it particularly hard seeing all the new babies of friends and tons of pregnant ladies out and about in the warm weather full tummies showing.
4. GTKY: What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten?
Oh this is a good one and hard! Ive had a lot of "unusual" meats. Ill try anything once as long as its not an animal that I'd have as a pet or covered in celantro!
@sprkls8506 I am so sorry. I'm sending good vibbes y"rosemary&thyme"
@rosemary&thyme @rosemaryandthyme welcome back into the "game." That ice cream sounds amazing
@Mack2342 I love trying everything, but I agree- If I could life off dessert I would too!
@40momma I hate that you are back here. I'm sorry you are going through this. Lingering hormones really are not helpful in the grieving process.
@tosh24 welcome. I am sorry for your loss. I'm jealous of your garden! Ive been without one for two years and I really miss it!
Sorry for everyone I misses- It's been busy around here while Ive been away!
@amberruka Yassss, Andina. It can't be beat! All of my major life events while I lived in Portland were celebrated there. I probably lived pretty close to where you live now...we were about a mile away from Cathedral Park and I used to drive over the SJB every day on my way to school downtown!
@rosemary&thyme I hope you have a good vacation! I know it must be hard going with no baby belly.
I am wide awake at 3am just feeling crappy about all of this. We are going to Disney soon and I was hoping to finally be able to buy a baby onesie but I guess that won't be happening.
This friend has also had losses and she is the one of the select few that even knew about my MMC. I just hope the thunderstorms stay away and I can live in my pool today and maybe some shopping!
@rosemaryandthyme Thanks for all the suggestions! They sound great. Food is always good and I love flowers. And I’m off to google Andina…
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Hey there, I am not new to The Bump (I have an almost 2 yo DS), but I am new to TTCAL. This is our first cycle TTC after a MC in mid-March. My husband deployed about 2 weeks before our loss, so I have been benched for the last several months (Thanks, Air Force). But now he is home, so let the baby making begin!
2. Status? I'm not exactly sure when I O'd, my OPKs this month were never positive, I had EWCM for a week and a half and I had what felt like O pain on the 26th and the 30th. So I'm either DPO3 or DPO7. Now I'm debating when I should start testing (I'm a POAS addict).
3. R/R? Rave - DH is home after 5 long months, which is great. DS has completely transitioned back to having a 2 parent household (not something that is always easy for mil kids) and DH was able to take a month off work to spend time with us.
Rant (1) - That time off includes two 14 hour car drives and 2 weeks with my in-laws (not my most favorite people).
Rant (2) - I have a friend who's EDD is 2 weeks before mine would have been with our loss. At DH's deployment homecoming, she surprised her DH with a gender reveal. On one hand, I am happy for her, it's their first. But, seeing her there with her little basketball belly and seeing the pink balloons come out of the box made me really sad, because I'd envisioned my own homecoming pictures looking like that.
4. GTKY: What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten? I've eaten chocolate covered crickets, frogs, and lutefisk, fish jello anyone? (I'm Scandinavian and lutefisk is a Christmas tradition.)
***TW Living child and loss mentioned***
13 March 2017: Loss at 4+6
@MrsBunz welcome!
Ancient by this point
2. Status? I'm WTO with an OB appointment to discuss birth control options in two weeks so this is probably our last cycle of unprotected sex. We're really good at it so there is a chance we will get pregnant but not holding my breath. I mostly wanted to update on this thread because we are taking a break after this cycle for sure... my FIL is not doing well, DHs business (which he owns with FIL) is booming but they can't hire people fast enough so he is insanely busy. We are choosing some certainty in some aspect of our life by closing the door on new baby for the time being. This has been one of the hardest decisions I've made EVER in my life. Because I don't quit. I don't give up and I feel like I'm doing both. And its super hard to be a loss mom not searching for a rainbow baby - feels extra isolating and I feel like I'm sitting right back in the grief fresh after my D&E in January.
Anyway - this board is the best for TTCAL but if I'm not TTC I just don't feel like I belong anymore, but for now I continue to lurk like crazy and cheer you all on!
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
~~ married 8.11.07
~~ DD1 1.16.11 ~~ DD2 1.3.14 ~~
~~ BFP3 12.22.15 MMC 2.29.16 @ 13 weeks ~~
~~ 2 D&Cs (3.1.16 and 3.10.16) for MMC
~~ BFP4 10.27.16 MMC 1.23.17 @ 16 weeks ~~ D&E 1.26.17 ~~
MrsBunz Welcome. Also, just as an FYI, we usually do a TW before mentioning live children on the TTCAL board.
ladipale I’m sorry about the decision you’re making. I understand how hard the decision you’re making is, for after I’m benched we’re giving in another go (or 2) and then will decide to live childless not by choice. I’d love to hear more from you if you do decide to disappear, but completely understand if it’s too hard to get on TB and TTCAL to update. Fingers crossed for this cycle!
sprkls8506 I am so sorry.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Status?: I'm confused right now! So I had my D&C on May 31, then I got my period on June 30, it seemed normal. But now I didn't get my period yet for this cycle and I took a pregnancy test last night and it was negative. Does it usually take a few cycles for things to "go back to normal"? I never had any issues previously, always very regular, so this is weird.
R/R? It's been so so so hot in south florida. luckily my friend has an amazing resort-worthy pool in her community and she invited me over to swim this weekend.
GTKY: What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten? I've had fried gator -- such a Florida thing, had to try it once.
Just recently joined this board. MC at 6 weeks in 2009, MMC on July 12th at 12 weeks (fetal demise at 9 weeks). No living children.
2. Status? Benched. OB says okay to start trying whenever; however, just saw RE and they would like to do testing first. 3 weeks post D&C, waiting first period.
3. R/R? I'm assuming this is where you can rant? ***TW*** I have a friend that had two children - youngest isn't even one, oldest two. Now she's suddenly adopting her brother's child who will be born in October. I'm trying to be a supportive friend but I'm insanely jealous. Like seriously, I get mad every time I think about how incredibly lucky she is. Guess I'm just bitter at the moment but j can't share this with anyone else without seeming like a jerk.
4. GTKY: What's the most unusual thing you've ever eaten? Well I guess I'm not that adventurous because I can't think of one cool thing!
Please let me know I wrote anything inappropriate. I'm still learning the culture around here.
I'm back, hopefully not for long (fingers crossed). I think I got myself into a good headspace. I see a therapist every week now. It has done a world of good for me and the DH. He attends some sessions. I am feeling much more hopeful and recovering from all of the grief. Apparently I was suffering from PTS from the multiple losses because I didn't fully grieve for any of them. '
I got my miscarriage results and it was a Triploid Chromosomal Abnormality. (Apparently rare) Knowing that there was nothing I could have done is also helping me grieve and move forward.
Currently we are in the process of trying again. My biggest fear is that my anxiety will interfere with a healthy pregnancy. My therapist keeps reassuring me that there are many of women with anxiety that learn to control it during pregnancy. We are working on many different techniques. She says, "if people with anxiety stopped having kids or couldn't get pregnant, then there would be much fewer babies being born!"
I'm glad to see that many OGs are off of this board now. Sorry to still see some familiar faces.For the newbies (sorry you all are here)...I've been following all of these threads but took a break for mental health reasons. My advice to anyone on here is DEAL WITH YOUR LOSSES. I brushed them off and just started trying again as soon as I could without talking about it. My DH and I have strengthened our relationship throughout this healing process. We are kind and loving everyday now and I think that has to do with how much we had lost and everything we have to gain.
My history:
Ectopic 9/16
CP 1/17
MMC 4/17 D&C @ 9weeks
I hope to start participating in threads again. Currently as per doctor's recommendation we are doing the deed every other day! She's a super hippie and thinks that the more we do it the better. I do OPKs but no temping. My anxiety peaks during the TWW.
Currently CD9 WTO
Sorry that was long-winded! And here is a pic of my new hair because I needed and effing change after the sh#t year I've been through...
BTW - love the new hair color. I've kept my hair longer lately and I'm thinking of chopping a few inches off next time I go in. The only color I do is covering greys.
ETA - is there a plan they have for you getting pregnant again to avoid a loss. Seems you don't have issues getting pregnant but keeping it which gives me a little hope because you are about my age.
As for intervention...since the cornual ectopic and triploidy loss were both rare anomalies and not connectected to genetics my doctor says to try one more time before any intervention. My therapist agrees (she's a child loss and postpartum therapist) She sent us to get blood tested but we are holding off and giving it one last shot naturally. Then, both agree that I should see an RE even though I have no trouble getting PG.
I'm jealous of all your yoga abilities. My therapist says that I "must" start soon. I have this whole "EMBODY" approach to life now to ease anxiety. I haven't managed the yoga part yet. Perhaps soon.
Exercise
Meditation
Breathing
Organization
Diet
Yoga
Glad to be back here. And hoping you and I are off this board next! My first loss was September....can't even imagine being here this long!
i think back and the months we had the best timing it didn't work and it hasn't worked with bad timing either. Both my pregnancies happened when there was no timing. I mentioned to dh last week maybe in sept I can go back to opks. He said lets see what our ob thinks when I see him. I'm starting to get weak and want try those again. It's just when I used those I felt more pressure and sometimes dh did too. I don't know what to do anymore honestly I'm at a loss.
I had reiki done last month. It's energy work and she encouraged me to keep on the path I'm taking. She said my spirit energy has been like a 3 for a year.
So for now I continue to look for a puppy to add to our family.
@vlagrl29 I'm with you on that timing thing!! I feel like we always have good timing but sadly it doesn't mean pregnancy. So frustrating!
knottie018ff20b1f53599f Woah, you legit need an easier name to tag.
@justsuzie Glad the therapy has helped! Going to a therapist was one of the best TTCAL decisions of my life. RPL is definitely rough to work through. And dayum girl... you have the best looking hair in the world. So jealous. I LOVE the colors and hope that one day I'll be brave enough to do something cool like that!
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
Well I thought I did - now I see it's not changed. Ahhh help. How do I change it?