Why My Pregnant Self is Crying 6/9

DuchessOfCambridge

cmessamore

My oldest is going to Middle School next year and I had to go to a parent information night this week and I cried my eyes out. Now, every time I think about my baby(yes, he's still my baby) going to that big school with the big kids, I cry again. I have no idea where the years have gone. It happens so quick. 

bcashaw

I don't even know what I'm crying about half the time anymore. 

NYTino24

Day #4 in a row of crying. This time Miranda Lambert was talking about her dog charity's adoption event on the radio. She said, "All these babies without homes..." and I almost lost it. I made myself snap out of it and stop fast. These second trimester hormones are no joke!!

BayCamp

My friend's husband is about to deploy and this week is their daughters first birthday and she took her first steps. It was so special that he got to be a part of that moment before he leaves for a year. She sent me video and I was full out sobbing at work. 

MississippiCatfish

Call the midwife. Ugh. 

bcashaw

My  friend asked if I wanted to meet a 4 month old baby and I bawled. I was like BABIES ARE SO SMALL AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH . And she was like .... what am I supposed to do right now. 
It was awkward. 
I didn't meet the baby 

cmessamore

Thursday night DH and I watched "Sully". I bawled. Friday night we watched "Hacksaw Ridge". I bawled. We were planning on watching "Patriots Day" last night, but I just couldn't do another night of crying!! 

tashandma

bcashaw said:

My  friend asked if I wanted to meet a 4 month old baby and I bawled. I was like BABIES ARE SO SMALL AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH . And she was like .... what am I supposed to do right now. 
It was awkward. 
I didn't meet the baby 

Omg I laughed so hard at this that I almost cried!! 
Just add that to the 100 other reasons I've cried the last few days.
 Today I read about a lady giving birth to her quad daughters at only 23 weeks pregnant. The babies only weigh a pound a piece and are on ventilators. It's great that they're alive! They have a long road ahead of them, bless their little hearts! 

bcashaw

@tashandma I recently read something about a woman giving birth super early like that and I freaked out and cried because I want to keep my baby in there until they're a bit more ready. 
That being said I cried happy tears because how lucky are we that medicine is at a point where you can deliver a baby that early and the baby can survive 

BayCamp

On the micro-preemie topic: it's crazy how early they can save a baby now. My sister and 2 of my SILs had preeclampsia so we have a few preemies that were in the 31+ week range that had a varying degrees of NICU time. But we have a 25 weeker in my family, she has a few medical conditions but nothing super serious. Mainly vision issues. Seeing pictures of her when she was born it blows my mind that they were able to keep her alive and thriving until she was strong enough to go home. 

Typing that I had a "holy crap that's 5 weeks from now for me" moment. I feel like this pregnancy just started. Now I'm crying thinking of how her poor mom must have felt! 

cmessamore

And we watched Patriot's Day tonight. Being from the Boston area and being an EMT made this a really difficult watch. I was nowhere near the marathon when this happened, but I have numerous coworkers and friends who were there and even a few who ran in the marathon and lost one or both of their legs. I cried through this entire movie.

BayCamp

All the Pulse tributes everywhere have been hitting me hard today. A friend of mine from high school used to be a manager there. Yesterday he married his longtime boyfriend and left open seats for the friends he lost. Right in the feels. 

Knottie53179890

Husband called me at work during lunch to hash out vacation details which should be fun...but we ended up deciding we can't logistically take our dog on vacation. I wasn't even sad really more disappointed... But I had to go hide in the bathroom and cried for several minutes! 

tracydoodles

I was craving angel food cake the other day so bad. I came home after a crappy 12 hour nightshift  (I'm an RN) and the hubby had bought me angel food cake. I sat on the couch and bawled my eyes out because it was so sweet

StephanieP79

I really wanted watermelon and was too tired to cut the watermelon. 

sjadams34

Because my kids look like my husband. 

bcashaw

Thanks to @DuchessOfCambridge I thought it would be a good idea to check out the June board. All the babies=all the tears 

BayCamp

sjadams34 said:

Because my kids look like my husband. 

Yes!! And he still has the nerve to complain that he has my brown eyes instead of his blue eyes. Dude, the kid is your carbon copy otherwise. Deal with it! 

RiverSong15

Somehow I thought it would be a good idea to watch Marley and Me.....

ugoglencoco

cmessamore said:

And we watched Patriot's Day tonight. Being from the Boston area and being an EMT made this a really difficult watch. I was nowhere near the marathon when this happened, but I have numerous coworkers and friends who were there and even a few who ran in the marathon and lost one or both of their legs. I cried through this entire movie.

I cried through this entire movie too @cmessamore . I found it extremely difficult to watch (in fact there were parts I could not watch) but I would recommend it to anyone. It truly shows how strong and amazing people are in the face of something so terrible.

ugoglencoco

I'm on the "why am I not crying" train. Everything. Makes. Me. Cry. 

BayCamp

My mom just told my grandad that we're giving the baby his name for a middle name. He's so excited. She said he keeps repeating the full name over and over. As soon as she told me how happy he was, cue the waterworks! 

car1a

@RiverSong15 I refuse to ever let myself watch that movie.

kalenp

I started crying in the car thinking about how terrible it would be to receive a phone call that your husband had been shot by a lunatic while playing a baseball game. Ugh I can't even with all the mass shootings. 

cmessamore

While I was talking to my husband while he was at work, he got sent on a really bad call involving a child. I immediately started crying. He called me after to tell me there was a language barrier with the caller and it wasn't at all what he was dispatched to and the child was totally fine. I then cried again because I was so thankful the child was okay.

kaitieb14

Because my dream family is being horrible so I have crazy dreams and wake up so mad and I know it's not real but I still want them to apologize.

SweetMelissa4

*TW* This whole thing is one big *TW* so if you're at all anxious about your pregnancy, you might want to avoid.  I'm even going to put it in a spoiler so no one has to read it that doesn't want to.

[spoiler]One of my coworkers has a son/daughter in law that were expecting, just a few weeks ahead of me.  I ran into her last week on the way out of the building to ask how she was and she told me this whole story in the lobby of our building with me crying in front of who-knows-who. Her DILs water broke at just shy of 22 weeks.  She was admitted and she was slightly dilated, but hadn't been feeling any pain or having any contractions. Baby appeared to be doing ok.  From what I understand, this next part all happened in the space of a few days. They were keeping her there trying to figure out what was going on when she felt something on her leg.  It was the umbilical cord.  They kept her there, obviously, and couldn't put the cord back because of bacteria, but the baby appeared to still be doing ok.  A day or two later (I think) she felt something else on her leg.  It was her baby, already halfway out.  They scrambled to get the doctors, and delivered the baby, but he was so early that I guess they didn't even try to save him.  I guess they stayed another night (the docs were trying to send her home THAT DAY, what??) and then packed up an RV to get away for a while and heal.  

I've literally never heard of something like this, she felt no pain/contractions whatsoever.  They don't know what went wrong.  I'm just so heartbroken and hearing stories like this is hard on my PGAL brain.  Also, this woman also just lost her father as well as a couple other personal tragedies, and now she lost a grandson.  I'm just so heartbroken for her and for her son and DIL.  I sent her some support group resources in the area (for her DIL) and talked with her a little about how people can be so weird/say weird things during time like this and everyone should just take time to heal and be kind to themselves and ignore what people say.  But gah.  I wasn't going to share, but I can't stop thinking about it.  And I'm crying again.  I can't wait to see my little girl in our A/S next week just for peace of mind.[/spoiler]

ineedsixeggs

@SweetMelissa4 That's heartbreaking. I'm glad you were able to provide her some helpful resources. 

liz4382

@SweetMelissa4 that is so awful and scary. I am glad you offered support. 

cmessamore

@SweetMelissa4 I have no words for what they must be going through. Absolutely devastating. 

BayCamp

@SweetMelissa4 that's awful! That poor family! 

ariasbabyblog

My DS1 found the baby doll we got him when his brother was born to help him understand and transition to being a big brother and he instantly started playing with it and calling it his baby sister and how much she needed him to feed and rock her and put her to sleep. All of the tears! DS2 watched his big brother doing all these things and started to do them too in his sort of gentle 1 yr old way. All of the rest of the tears!

DuchessOfCambridge

TW

Because a poor girl was brutally murdered and then someone had so much hate in their heart that they drove from South Carolina to DC just to set fire to her memorial. How are people so awful.

bcashaw

My step son graduated grade 8 today. He and I have had a hard time because he was born addicted to drugs and has a difficult time connecting with people ( especially females) he couldn't care less about his mother and has no maternal bond with her. Because of that our relationship has really struggled but now ( 5 years later) he's actually the one that I am closest with. He ran to me when I arrived and gave me the biggest sweetest hug. I just can't believe how much/fast he's grown these past years.  All the tears. 

BayCamp

I feel super disconnected from DH lately. Like we had a few really fun days together and now he's super distant. Idk if it's because I haven't been in the mood to fool around lately, or if it's all in my head, or what. I just feel a lot of space there. He's not even done or said anything that I can put my finger on, but tonight when I got home from work he usually sits in the bathroom with me while I take a bath and we talk about our day and instead he just went to bed. Now I'm sitting in the tub crying and knowing damn well it's probably just the hormones talking. 

BayCamp

@DuchessOfCambridge it's awful. I don't understand how someone can harbor that much hate. 

@bcashaw I'm glad he has you as a positive role model/mother figure! 

DuchessOfCambridge

@BayCamp that's the worst, even if it's all in your head and just the pregnancy feelings talking. Maybe he's just feeling extra tired. No matter what it is, I'm sorry you're going through it and I hope it passes soon. 

NYTino24

@SweetMelissa4 So sorry that was triggering for you and I will send some prayers for her. I can't imagine.

@bcashaw I am so happy for you and him. 

@BayCamp That's really tough and I'll tell you that the bigger my belly, the more distance I feel between me and DH. We used to spoon in bed, but between me using a pregnancy pillow and it being super hot, we don't touch in bed. I hope they snap out of it soon!

@DuchessOfCambridge I saw that. So sad.

bcashaw

@BayCamp I'm sure he was just tired. That being said I hate the feeling of being upset over something and then questioning whether you're valid to feel upset or if it's just hormones.  Your feelings are always valid, even if it is hormones. 
And thanks I love my kids the best I can 

bcashaw

Ed sheeran makes me cry. So much. But also whenever I listen to ed sheeran my baby kicks ... soooo I'm not aboit to stop