June TWW

tlq0726

Dammit AF!!!!! So sorry @vlagrl  We were so hopeful for you.

Chawk17

@vlagrl29 I'm sorry. I don't want you to get discouraged- if you do decide to take a break I understand...
Ttc is Stressful 

Ps did your ob call with lab results...was wondering if they gave you a heads up.....
Was it you that said you get pregnant with period?

vlagrl29

@chawk17 - yes  nurse just called me and it was negative which now that AF has come I'm relieved about because I was starting to think what if it came back low HCG and now my AF starts and now I loose another CP.

All my fertility labs and DH's sperm are all normal so I guess this is just taking longer for whatever reason.  I did tell the nurse to let the OB know about my first AF with both pregnancies.  Told her I don't turn a positive until 4 weeks pregnant.  I told her it wasn't bleeding as in a loss - a normal period and then 2 weeks later I get a positive test.  I was sick to my stomach with DD 2 weeks pregnant but didn't get a positive blood test until 4 weeks.  So I told the nurse all my labs came out fine but now that I'm 37 I wonder if my eggs are weaker and not sticking well.  who the hell knows lol.  She said not to worry about it and give it the full 12 months.

My mom is now telling me because I was so anxious sunday - didn't you say you were happy with 1 kid and yes I am very much so.  I was so anxious on sunday that I was thinking maybe we shouldn't have any more and be happy with what we do have in life.  So she says DH should get fixed.  I can't do that yet.  My stress comes from not knowing if I'll have the same hard crazy pregnancy I did with DD.  I luckily never had PPD but I did have depression when I was pregnant and it was horrible I actually said I'd never get pregnant again.  I was depressed for no reason.  I had a happy healthy kid in my stomach yet I was depressed about life.  I'm nervous it would be the same way so my stress comes in not knowing if we'll be financially fine with me not working like I had to with my last pregnancy.  I don't want to feel financially strapped while pregnant.  DH reassures me it will be fine but I guess I still get nervous about it.

This last cycle we tried the EOD during the prime time so I'm over that.  I'm only going to have sex this month when we feel like it.

I'll also relate it to the 2 marriages I've been in.  After the first there was no way in hell I'd get married again.  Then I met DH saw how secure he made me feel and when he proposed that night I knew he was the one that I should be with but I puked that night out of fear if I could not do it again.  Like I know once a baby is out of my body I'm good to go and very happy but I'm just so afraid to do those 9 months again.  I'm crazy I know it.

SP128

Cue the spotting over here for me..... out again. 

Chawk17

@vlagrl29 I would like to say I can relate, because I get nervous about my life changing.
But I have no where near the life experiences you've had so I'm just going to say that im.sorry you're going through this 

ladipale

Boo @SP128 - we are really on a dry spell over here

vlagrl29

@chawk17 - DH and I talked tonight and he encouraged me to turn those thoughts around to positive when I have them and think of how much better it would make our family. To not be scared and he said he wouldn't want me anxious my entire next pregnancy. As we left it I don't want to be 40 and pregnant so we will just keep trucking on. We are going to enjoy the summer and I'm going to continue to not track or time sex. I just hope it doesn't take 3 years. Geesh considering I'm 37.

Mack2342

Oh no @SP128 I'm sorry 

Chawk17

Dang it @SP128

tlq0726

Sorry @SP128.  A dry spell indeed.

vlagrl29

i have to say i was doing fine until this morning when DD set up her rock collection to look like our family.  There was a rock for me, DH, her, the dog, 2 parakeets and then a little pink rock for what she said "if we have another baby" cue tears to DH later about how I'm a failure and weak.  GAH!  I'm feeling better now though.

tlq0726

Oh @vlagrl29, how heart wrenching!!!!!!!

vlagrl29

hopefully it will all be worth it in the end @tlq0726 - for now I'm enjoying summer break.

hdaley

I have been extremely lucky that my DS(5) has never asked for a brother or sister. 

amberruka

Guess I'll hang here though not optimistic. Day 14 today as I have to leave tomorrow morning. Went for-ev-er this evening and just couldn't make the final, even with the Viagra. The Preseed was starting his friction burn again---dear God. At least I got Day 12--OPKs are really ambiguous for some reason. Onward we go....

Mack2342

@amberruka. Sorry 

SP128

@amberruka. Sorry lady. Fx for you. 

Officially out this cycle

amberruka

@SP128 sorry. What's your next step again?

SP128

@amberruka ivf. Just called re clinic to tell them I'm cd1. Injections start cd2 I think. 

hdaley

Omg I am so bloated and extremely gassy like I am making my DS run from the room asking me if I have to go potty.  CD 20 here.

vlagrl29

@sp128 @amberruka - sorry ladies

Chawk17

@sp128 I haven't looked into IVF but I'm curious about these injections...how often do you do them? Do  you give them yourself?  And most importantly is there a pill option?  I hate needles

SP128

@Chawk17 unfortunately there isn't a pill option. Shots are for about two weeks with a lot of monitoring through bloodwork and ultrasound. You can shoot yourself up, but dh said he will help me. People say it doesn't hurt but I'm super nervous. Tonight is my first night of shots. There's a crap load of shots 

hdaley

@SP128 good luck!  IVF intrigues me, but I easily pass out with shots.  Good luck again.  you are one strong mommy in my needle fearing mind

ladipale

@Chawk17 @SP128 @hdaley- believe me- you get over fear of needles quickly when necessary. I had GD with second pregnancy and had to test blood sugar and give myself insulin for 12 weeks. It was intimidating but totally fine once I got started. 

Mack2342

@sp128 good luck with process.  I gave myself one last night and it was no big deal 

dpjennifer

@hdaley Agreed with dealing with the needles. I have to lay down so I don't pass out and I have a HUGE fear of needles.... yet with as many stabs as I've now had for beta tests for MCs and RPL tests, I've definitely had to learn to suck it up. It still bothers me, but I don't think I have as much fear as I did before.

Chawk17

Omg you are brave @SP128 I envy you. Keep us updated on process.

hdaley

It's quiet around here.  How is everyone doing?  I haven't heard from @justsuzie in awhile either.  

ladipale

How you holding up @hdaley - you're on 2nd half of wiat? 

Yeah, where is @justsuzie?

I'm hanging in WTO-land. DH and I are going for a streak - 4 days in a row so far, going for 10+ 

hdaley

8dpo here. @ladipale. Some of my symptoms have been different.  Cramping but I get that like usual.  This time the TWW has brought crazy gas and bloating, even DS is telling me to go potty! And I have just been feeling a little queezy/dizzy.  It might be the 90 degree heat too.  I'm testing on Tuesday. 

hdaley

@SP128 how did the first set of shots go?

Mack2342

I'm here now.  Insemination yesterday   Now we wait.  I taught my jazzercise class and had a tiny dot of spotting afterwards not sure what that's all about 

Chawk17

CD 31 trying not to jinx anything.
Good point where is @justsuzie.

Mack2342

@Chawk17 I don't think she has been on for a couple weeks 

ladipale

@Chawk17 - any idea how many DPO you are?

SP128

@hdaley the shots so far haven't been bad. It was the anticipation of the first one that was nerve wracking. LEts see how I do when they change up the meds. 

Good luck to everyone in tww. We need some bfps up on here !!!!

Chawk17

@sp128 that's good to know it's not so bad. Whew.

If I go by when I first got non blinking smiley face on opk then I'm something like 16dpo? But I'm not sure.

Mack2342

@Chawk17 do you plan to test? 

ladipale

Seriously @Chawk17 - I mean, I get not wanting to test but this place needs a BFP and I nominate you as tribute!