June TWW

vlagrl29

Lets get some June BFPs!

ladipale

YES!! 

SP128

Here here!!

Mack2342

Agreed we need some positives around here!!!!

vlagrl29

I'm on spotting patrol today ha!  If it doesn't start by lunch time I'll be getting some tests at dollar store.  AF should start by Sunday if it's a 29 day cycle like last month.

Mack2342

@vlagrl29. FX 

tlq0726

FX for sure @vlagrl29!!!  Keep us posted

ladipale

FX @vlagrl29

I'm 8 or so dpo. the dreaded time when its way too early to test and way to late to do anything about the outcome.

vlagrl29

A bit of creamy cm this morning no spotting. Bought a test and it was negative. Maybe spotting will start tomorrow. The longest cycle I've had is 31 days. 2 days spotting before is normal for me.

SP128

@vlagrl29. Maybe too early still. How many dpo are you?

vlagrl29

I have no idea @SP128 I just need to realize this is how it will always be and come late August I'll possibly consider femera.

do we have less eggs as we age? That's what my neighbor says that it's harder. 

SP128

@vlagrl29 I think we have less eggs as we get older since we are only born with so many. So you lose an egg every month you ovulate. The biggest issue with "age" is the quality of the egg. This is at least what I've heard. 

vlagrl29

Yeah that makes sense because all my blood work came back ok.

i personally know 2 ladies , 38 and 39 who had accident babies from a friend with benefit.

amberruka

There is always hope for us 

SP128

@amberruka  Yessssss!!

vlagrl29

just need to find a friend like that and drink some liquor lol!!

amberruka

I wonder how often the were "benefiting...."

vlagrl29

one of them is my hairstylist and they were really drunk and he forgot to pull out.  the other one is a girl at the yoga studio.  her and her ex husband were at a wedding.  they got drunk and I believe it was just a 1 time thing.  I wish it was just that easy for us.

vlagrl29

So regarding clomid vs femera I hear femera is preferred. Why? I would be doing it with my OB come September cycle if not PG by then. I'll plan to do lots of research on both before my annual in August.

Mack2342

Just a reminder ladies I got pregnant for the first time at 39 and delivered my healthy son at 40 so there is hope!

@vlagrl29 I was told that as we age we have less eggs because we are born with them but the biggest issue is our eggs are as old as we are so their quality may not be as good.  As for the difference with clomid and femara I believe they generally do the same thing but I've read that some women don't respond to clomid but do on femara so I think that is one reason people prefer it and the other is clomid can have bad side effects.  My friend said it gave her horrible mood swings but she didn't experience that with femara.  I have not had any issues with femara   This is 2nd month I've taken it.  

vlagrl29

Thanks for the reminder @Mack2342 - I've also heard clomid can thin your uterine lining and the last thing I want is to make my natural fertility worse.

Chawk17

@vlagrl29 @Mack2342 I'm on Clomid I haven't had issues..I never heard of femara until this bored. I might ask dr. About difference on monday. I wonder if price is the same. 100mg is about $26.
So I have low quality eggs...which is why I'm on Clomid to produce more.  I've read different people take Clomid on different days so I asked:
Dr. Said that if you take it cd5-9 you get less eggs but higher quality  as opposed to cd3-7...which produces more eggs but less quality.
He said our goal is to have a baby not get pregnant. Which made since when he explained Clomid. I'm not sure if it's the same for femara.
He has me take it cd5-9.

vlagrl29

I think OBs use clomid and REs tent to use Femera.  Clomid has been around longer than Femara.

Well I had what I consider questionable spotting yesterday.  It was basically creamy CM with a tinge of very light brown yesterday afternoon.   DH and I had sex last night and it didn't make a mess.  I thought the sex would make it worse but it didn't.  Today so far I haven't noticed any spotting but it may come later.  I'll call it when spotting requires a panty liner.

hdaley

I have my fingers crossed no more spotting @vlagrl29

vlagrl29

Thank you @hdaley - this is odd for me.  Who knows though maybe I'll be having a longer cycle this month even though I'm very regular with 29 or 30 days.  Or maybe I'll go straight to AF without spotting which is also odd for me.

vlagrl29

so the coffee I was drinking this morning didn't sit too well with me so I sucked on a peppermint then right before lunch I dry heaved a bit

amberruka

Jesus, Mary and Joseph @vlagrl29 will you test already?! 

ETA: yeah, I forgot you don't turn tests very quickly....my bad. 

jchpg

@vlagrl29 I've got my FX for you! Before this whole experience I never would have thought coffee making your stomach turn and dry heaving could be so promising

vlagrl29

Yep I bought 3 more tests at dollar store and took 1 this afternoon - bfn. No spotting either. I'll test again tomorrow AM and take my first morning temp.

im all sorts of anxious today. Tired and not feeling great. It is possible maybe I got something from the neighbor kid but who knows.

also if by chance yesterday was implantation it could take another 6 days for hcg to show up.

hdaley

Eeeek I hope it means what I hope it means!

vlagrl29

Well I'm feeling better after doing some yoga at home.  I'm sure this is all nothing and my cycle is changing it up on me. Although if nothing come Monday I'm calling the doctor.

tlq0726

I'm so hopeful for you @vlagrl29!

vlagrl29

I thought I was fine but when I laid to bed I got all anxious again. Ended up talking to DH and realized I'm at a very high anxiety right now and then I threw up this time but it's nerves. If AF comes in next couple days I told him I think I need more time. I know I am getting up there in 30s and don't have much time but it's obvious to me after today I still have a lot to sort out. Meaning I won't do clomid in August. I just need to stop thinking about this. 

Im so happy for this strong support of women here and feel so safe with you guys. 

Seriously considering sleeping with DD in her full size bed but I know DH would think I'm crazy. I just love her so much.

hdaley

Awwww totally understandable that feeling but I think no matter which pregnancy and no matter distance between miscarriage and pregnancy you might feel that anxiety.  We have all lost our innocence and those two lines will never be the same for us as it would be for a non loss mommy.  It just is what it is.  

I rushed here this morning hoping for good news @vlagrl29

vlagrl29

at least I got 7 ish hours of sleep but I'm pretty exhausted mentally.  Another test BFN - took temp and it was 98.5 which is pretty high for me.  Tummy was empty so I started dry heaving - probably left over anxiety.  yep I think I totally need a break.

SP128

@vlagrl29  I'm sorry you are feeling anxious.  I'm still very positive for you.  

Mack2342

@vlagrl29 I'm thinking it might be true!  FX

amberruka

I'm sorry you're having to go through this @vlagrl29. Hang in there. 

vlagrl29

Thanks ladies. I'm going to call doc tomorrow and see if I can get blood test. I just hate that I have anxiety and I need to know. Mom thinks I have PTSD from a stressful time in my life 10 years ago. She said it can rear it's head at any time.

vlagrl29

A small amount of spotting late this afternoon. I will still test tomorrow AM and temp. What do you guys think? Should I still get a blood test at OB office? DH wants me too.

Mack2342

I would