Because I feel like a shitty person for not traveling an hour to see my aunt/ grandparents for Christmas dinner. I have really bad anxiety when it comes to driving. Pregnancy just makes this way way worse, like irrationally. I made up so many excuses instead of telling her the truth, which doesn't help my anxiety. She wouldn't leave it be and she's found ways around all my excuses so now I feel like I don't have a choice and it got to the point where I was like "ok I'm going to tell her I'm going and fake being sick Christmas eve to get out of it"...which is just crazy when I could just be honest and it would all make more sense to everyone. I know this all sounds so childish, which is why I couldn't help but cry.