SFtoBKtoYVR. Don't forget to take care of yourself. When it rains, it pours and it really sounds like you need an umbrella. Stay positive and remember what made you a strong team in the first place. Much love.
Oh my gosh @SFtoBKtoYVR I'm so so sorry to hear all you're going through! My heart goes out to you I'm not sure I have advice right now but just wanted to lend you some support and comfort. unrelated: based on your username are you living in Vancouver? I'm just a bit east from there
@SFtoBKtoYVR I am so sorry you are having to deal with the added stress. I hope you and DH can spend the time you both need to determine what is best for both of you. Thoughts and hugs to you both.
**TW - Loss & Child mentioned** Me: 40 DH: 47 Married: 10/2015 DSD: 17 BFP #1: 6/2/15, ectopic, metho 7/15 BFP #2: 12/4/15, cp 12/7/15 BFP #3: 8/5/16, MMC discovered 9/1, Misoprostol 9/19 BFP #4: 5/10/17, EDD 1/20/2018 Baby boy born January 12, 2018, 6 lbs 3.3 oz, 20.5 in.
@SFtoBKtoYVR So many hugs to you. The emotions around this journey are so varied and I know sometimes you never know what the next day might bring. I hope you two are able to have some fun together and really get on the same page about your future.
Me: 32 DH: 36 Married 5/08 BFP #1: 1/27/13 DS #1 born 10/16/13 BFP #2: 1/20/16, ectopic discovered 1/23/16 Surgery 1/23/16 to remove ruptured tube TTCAL 3/16 BFP #3: 3/24/17 EDD 12/5/17 DS #2 born 12/11/17
@SFtoBKtoYVR I echo the others in saying I am so sorry you are having to manage the relationship stress on top of a loss. I am sorry that your DH voiced such an extreme solution, I can only imagine how that shook you especially considering the circumstances you described! I am happy to hear that y'all talked it through and are willing to try an alternative before separating. My DH and I have paused several times in this process to help ourselves get through the grief and the anxiety that comes with loss(es). Taking a trip to re-set sounds awesome! The stress level you must have from the giving up home, hobbies, and friends is enough! Stay and vent as you feel necessary, you are welcome here.
@Taggarab I will keep hope alive for you even if yours is starting to fade.
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Oh @SFtoBKtoYVR I'm so sorry you're going through this! I hope you don't make decisions while you are going through a grieving process. Maybe you and your husband can take a break from TTC, and go to couples counseling or something, try to save your relationship first.
I hope we can help you at least listening to what you have to say. Hugs!
Married 06.21.14 / TTC since 11.15 / BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16 Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky. BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017 DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate. Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017. Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
@SFtoBKtoYVR- Im so sorry! You are really just dealing with a lot. Just the move itself is enough but a mc on top that would be really difficult. You are still so fresh out of having a mc that I hope that time ( & maybe counselling and a vacation) will help matters.
Please feel free to hang out here! Im currently benched after an August mc and some days I just avoid the TWW and WTO threads if I feel like its too much for me. There is a Benched thread on here for people that are benched for medical, emotional and personal reasons for varying amounts of time. This journey is so tough & we can all use all the support we can get so I do hope you stick around!
Hey @chloe97, how are you feeling?? It is a little early for PMS but sometimes I think thinking about it constantly brings symptoms on earlier, for me at least. The mind is a powerful thing! Right now (5dpo) my ovaries ache/feel crampy constantly, especially if I have to go to the bathroom. I didn't get my 5dpo temp rise like I normally do, not sure if that's good or bad or nothing at all. My post-O temps have floated btwn 97.2-97.6....typically I get a big increase on day 5 (98.0-98.2) and then it slowly goes down. So who knows....
btw I think I may have convinced myself to go out and buy three of the Wal-Mart cheapie tests for cd 9-11
DH - 34, Me - 32 Married 7/13 TTC #1 since 10/13 BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15 IUI #1 2/25/16
I didn't get my 6 DPO temp rise either @SoonToBeMommaHowe. I just feel blah. Bloated and gross.Went to bed at 9:30- which is usually my first sign, but it's also a sign of progesterone. I'm super weepy this week. DH walked in to the room and found me crying at a video our Marcia from the Brady Bunch being surprised by her TV mom Florence Henderson on Dancing with the Stars. Ha!
I may or may not have tested yesterday at 5 DPO- those cheapies make it so easy! And yes, I will definitely be testing at 9 -11DPO too!
ETA last pregnancy I felt intense punching/cramping for 1-2 minutes at 7 DPO. I will be looking for it the next 2 days!
I shouldn't laugh because hormonal emotions are so real but reading your comment about crying over the mini Brady Bunch reunion made me chuckle. I'll join you on the bloated and gross train...I was at the gym last night and looked in the mirror only to see that it truly looks like I have an innertube around my midsection, so bloated and it will not go away. I tried probiotics, yogurt, tons of water, no gluten...nope still there.
My hubby's bday is Friday so I was hoping I'd be at a point where I could test that morning but I'll only be 7dpo and everywhere I looked says don't even bother, guaranteed BFN. Have you had luck testing earlier? Just say the word and I'll pick up a cpl more tests
DH - 34, Me - 32 Married 7/13 TTC #1 since 10/13 BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15 IUI #1 2/25/16
I don't know if it is time to move over here yet but I am pretty sure I O'd yesterday. It could have been Sunday based on my temps but I didn't trigger until that evening and this morning I had a large temp jump so we'll see if it stays up.
Emotionally, I am right there with you @chloe97. Super hormonal this week, lots of tears for no reason or the smallest thing sets me off. I am nervous about getting BFP b/c I fear my TTCAL brain will give me horrible anxiety the entire time. But I know if it's a BFN, I will be disappointed again.
@chloe97 dancing with the stars always plays with my emotions, regardless of where I am in my cycle. They have some good producers who know how to give viewers all the feels!
@soontobemommahowe you can never have enough tests, right?? Better get a few more, juuuust in case
As for me, I'm at 5 dpo waiting for my usual dip at 7 dpo then rise again, so I still have a bit to go. I'm really promising myself that I'm not testing till 11 dpo/temp drop below coverline. 6 more days to go!
@Aera11 I feel you on being nervous about a BFP. PGAL brain will be intense for me. I'm not sure I'm ready for it. In fact, if I'm honest, I'm probably hoping for a BFN.
Ha! @SoonToBeMommaHowe my 2nd pregnancy, I got the BFP at either 10 or 11 DPO- wasnt 100% sure which date was ovulation. I got a fsint fsint fsint squinter at 9/10 DPO which I swore was an Evap line.
Im also having slight slight nausea too. Again, this could be anything. Sigh,
Oh I know @chloe97, PGAL brain is going to be HORRIBLE! I don't know if I or DH will be ready for that, ever... but time is ticking and we've already been at this for longer than I would have ever imagined just for #1.
Sigh...11DPO and BFN this morning. I am a serious mess. My due date is this Saturday and I cried all afternoon yesterday after a friend announced her pregnancy on FB. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, but I also wish I could find a way to be happy for friends who don't have the struggles I do. One of my friends is coming up on 2 years of secondary IF. No losses, but just unexplained IF. That makes me feel even worse because she has dealt with these feelings so much longer and I should have my shit together. It's a good thing I have a ton of things going on this week because otherwise I think I would just disappear under my covers and never come out again.
Me: 32 DH: 36 Married 5/08 BFP #1: 1/27/13 DS #1 born 10/16/13 BFP #2: 1/20/16, ectopic discovered 1/23/16 Surgery 1/23/16 to remove ruptured tube TTCAL 3/16 BFP #3: 3/24/17 EDD 12/5/17 DS #2 born 12/11/17
Oh darlings! I am still WTO but just wanted to send some good energy your way!!!! Will move to this board in some days ...
Married 06.21.14 / TTC since 11.15 / BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16 Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky. BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017 DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate. Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017. Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
Oh @Taggarab I'm so so sorry for the BFN and EDD. Try not to judge your own feelings or be hard on yourself. Your feelings are valid and it's okay to be sad
@chloe97 and @area11 I'm right there will you on being nervous for a positive.
Just had my second FET yesterday, so now in the TWW. I'm terrified that it will be BFN, but I am also terrified about how crazy & concerned I will be if it is a BFP.
@taggarab I'm so sorry for the BFN before your EDD. Don't try to minimize how you are feeling just because someone else is in a different situation than you that you perceive to be "worse" than yours. I know it's harder done than said as I am guilty of it as well. Take care of yourself in the upcoming days.
@taggarab - oohh I'm so sorry! Finding a way to be happy for people who don't have these problems is something I struggle with as well. Then I feel guilt for feeling that way. Its a roller coaster of emotions for sure but I think it's normal. Be kind to yourself this weekend.
@Taggarab I'm so so sorry for your BFN. I know how much this all sucks. I have a friend who is due the same month as my 2nd loss and I hate that I can't be there for her in anyway. I spend all my time avoiding her and it sucks.
Not being able to be the friend I want to be is the worst part about all of this. I've totally isolated myself from so many friendships because it hurts so much. I have a weird experience with my 1st EDD since I lost my 2nd pregnancy a month before it, but I had 5 friends have babies around that time and it's getting easier to hear about them and see them. For some reason the pregnancy of the friend with my 2nd due date is what bothers me the most right now.
I haven't really been on TB boards since my bfp in July... but I had my first MC Aug 19 and I'm attempting to conceive before my first period (my midwife gave to go ahead if we wanted to). I think O occurred on Sept 8/9 so I'm in the middle of my TWW. I'm feeling quite positive about this one, but of course I've felt like that during months I got a bfn but... I did have my first extreme fatigue day today so I'm wondering if that's a sign of implantation or preparing to implant at least. I'm trying to wait until Sept 22 to test though, as that's our anniversary. So hard waiting!
I think I have been drinking more water during the day which translates into having to pee in the middle of the night and makes my brain think I'm totes KU. For the past three nights I've only been sleeping in 2.5-3 hr increments before I have to get up to go to the bathroom, which has made temping difficult and is causing me to examine my charts at least 18363601 a day!!
Can an acceptable test date just get here already?!? I'm only 6dpo so I have a ways to go!
DH - 34, Me - 32 Married 7/13 TTC #1 since 10/13 BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15 IUI #1 2/25/16
Right with you on the acceptable test date getting here @SoonToBeMommaHowe and the poor sleep. I woke up at 4:45 and fell asleep about 11, so a tired day. And I have a stupid charity event to go to tonight. DH is pissy at me because I woke him up.
I had another ridiculous temp drop to the cover line. I'm not sure what that means.
@SoonToBeMommaHowe and @chloe97 my sleep and temps have been all messed up lately too! FF doesn't know what to make of it and keeps moving my ch around (even though I'm fairly sure I'm 10dpo today). I woke up 3 hours early and am soooo ready to head home.
I wish I could just hang around the house this weekend but I have to travel for a stupid wedding instead. Planning on testing tomorrow morning before we head out and I'm anxious about it. I think a bfp would really make me enjoy this weekend more but I don't want to pin my hopes on it.
Well in 6 or 7 dpo today. I had weird period like cramps this mornings, so of course I googled the crap out of that. I think I have about 4 cycle buddies, one more week ladies. About 2 more days for my first urge to poas kicks in, lets pretend I will hold out though!
I think I'm gonna try to wait til Tuesday so that I have time to get a beta if necessary before DH and I head out of town on Friday. I really want to take one tomorrow for DHs bday but it will be 7dpo and 99% will be BFN so I don't want to be in a crappy mood on his big day!
It doesn't sound like I have any cycle buddies with self-control though, lol, so we'll probably all be testing on Sunday!
DH - 34, Me - 32 Married 7/13 TTC #1 since 10/13 BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15 IUI #1 2/25/16
@soontobemommahowe@chloe97@lin0442 add me to the poor sleep bandwagon! Been going to bed at 11ish and waking up between 4-5 for the past two days which is annoying bc my alarm goes off at 6. Of course I'm temping when I wake up at 4, again at 6, and adjusting the F out of my temps from that website to see if it makes my 4am temp the same as my 6am temp (spoiler alert: it does!). My temp actually went up by .05 today instead of down like past cycles, but I'm still waiting for my 7 DPO drop I usually have so my hopes aren't up yet.
@soontobemommahowe I'm probably waiting until tuesday, too! For real. Maybe Monday. But def not this weekend. I'll be strong with you
*edited for grammar bc the bump mobile font is so small I can't see.
@SoonToBeMommaHowe and @szwill86 I will be testing on Sunday at 10dpo and Monday at 11 DPO. I've mentioned this before- I'm actually kind of hoping for a BFN. It's this weird, twisted logic that I have that if I get pregnant right away its bc my body accepts all embryos and so therefore there is no possibility that embryo could be any good. If I don't get pregnant after well timed sex in the FW, it means my body didn't take a bad embryo and it actually has the capability of denying them improving my chance of a good embryo when I do get pregnant.
Ive been taking my temp at 5:45 the last few days and this morning at 4::45, so maybe that's why it's messed up? I never have had a 7 DPO temp drop, I usually have a secondary spike at 6 DPO. I also had one at 5 DPO. Could be sleep-related. I just keep telling myself that it's temping for ovulation that matters and so if my charts messed up in the LP- so be it!
Re: ****september two week wait***
Don't forget to take care of yourself. When it rains, it pours and it really sounds like you need an umbrella. Stay positive and remember what made you a strong team in the first place. Much love.
unrelated: based on your username are you living in Vancouver? I'm just a bit east from there
Me: 40 DH: 47
Married: 10/2015
DSD: 17
BFP #1: 6/2/15, ectopic, metho 7/15
BFP #2: 12/4/15, cp 12/7/15
BFP #3: 8/5/16, MMC discovered 9/1, Misoprostol 9/19
BFP #4: 5/10/17, EDD 1/20/2018
Baby boy born January 12, 2018, 6 lbs 3.3 oz, 20.5 in.
Married 5/08
BFP #1: 1/27/13 DS #1 born 10/16/13
BFP #2: 1/20/16, ectopic discovered 1/23/16
Surgery 1/23/16 to remove ruptured tube
TTCAL 3/16
BFP #3: 3/24/17 EDD 12/5/17
DS #2 born 12/11/17
Married 5/08
BFP #1: 1/27/13 DS #1 born 10/16/13
BFP #2: 1/20/16, ectopic discovered 1/23/16
Surgery 1/23/16 to remove ruptured tube
TTCAL 3/16
BFP #3: 3/24/17 EDD 12/5/17
DS #2 born 12/11/17
@Taggarab I will keep hope alive for you even if yours is starting to fade.
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
I hope we can help you at least listening to what you have to say.
Hugs!
BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16
Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky.
BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok
Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017
DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate.
Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017.
Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
Please feel free to hang out here! Im currently benched after an August mc and some days I just avoid the TWW and WTO threads if I feel like its too much for me. There is a Benched thread on here for people that are benched for medical, emotional and personal reasons for varying amounts of time. This journey is so tough & we can all use all the support we can get so I do hope you stick around!
Right now (5dpo) my ovaries ache/feel crampy constantly, especially if I have to go to the bathroom. I didn't get my 5dpo temp rise like I normally do, not sure if that's good or bad or nothing at all. My post-O temps have floated btwn 97.2-97.6....typically I get a big increase on day 5 (98.0-98.2) and then it slowly goes down. So who knows....
btw I think I may have convinced myself to go out and buy three of the Wal-Mart cheapie tests for cd 9-11
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
I may or may not have tested yesterday at 5 DPO- those cheapies make it so easy! And yes, I will definitely be testing at 9 -11DPO too!
ETA last pregnancy I felt intense punching/cramping for 1-2 minutes at 7 DPO. I will be looking for it the next 2 days!
My hubby's bday is Friday so I was hoping I'd be at a point where I could test that morning but I'll only be 7dpo and everywhere I looked says don't even bother, guaranteed BFN. Have you had luck testing earlier? Just say the word and I'll pick up a cpl more tests
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
Emotionally, I am right there with you @chloe97. Super hormonal this week, lots of tears for no reason or the smallest thing sets me off. I am nervous about getting BFP b/c I fear my TTCAL brain will give me horrible anxiety the entire time. But I know if it's a BFN, I will be disappointed again.
@soontobemommahowe you can never have enough tests, right?? Better get a few more, juuuust in case
As for me, I'm at 5 dpo waiting for my usual dip at 7 dpo then rise again, so I still have a bit to go. I'm really promising myself that I'm not testing till 11 dpo/temp drop below coverline. 6 more days to go!
Ha! @SoonToBeMommaHowe my 2nd pregnancy, I got the BFP at either 10 or 11 DPO- wasnt 100% sure which date was ovulation. I got a fsint fsint fsint squinter at 9/10 DPO which I swore was an Evap line.
Im also having slight slight nausea too. Again, this could be anything. Sigh,
@chloe97 Hugs for you in your first TWW!
One of my friends is coming up on 2 years of secondary IF. No losses, but just unexplained IF. That makes me feel even worse because she has dealt with these feelings so much longer and I should have my shit together. It's a good thing I have a ton of things going on this week because otherwise I think I would just disappear under my covers and never come out again.
Married 5/08
BFP #1: 1/27/13 DS #1 born 10/16/13
BFP #2: 1/20/16, ectopic discovered 1/23/16
Surgery 1/23/16 to remove ruptured tube
TTCAL 3/16
BFP #3: 3/24/17 EDD 12/5/17
DS #2 born 12/11/17
BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16
Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky.
BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok
Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017
DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate.
Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017.
Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
Married 10/12
DS 11/14
Ectopic 2/16
PCOS/Ovulation Dysfunction 11/16
IUI x 3- BFN
Laparoscopy 3/17 Endo and tubal damage
IVF- 4/17- 40 eggs retrieved, 10 blasts, 7 pgs tested embryos
FET- 6/17- BFP!
Due Feb 15, 2017
Just had my second FET yesterday, so now in the TWW. I'm terrified that it will be BFN, but I am also terrified about how crazy & concerned I will be if it is a BFP.
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
Not being able to be the friend I want to be is the worst part about all of this. I've totally isolated myself from so many friendships because it hurts so much. I have a weird experience with my 1st EDD since I lost my 2nd pregnancy a month before it, but I had 5 friends have babies around that time and it's getting easier to hear about them and see them. For some reason the pregnancy of the friend with my 2nd due date is what bothers me the most right now.
Me: 40, DH: 35 / Married: 2009; TTC #1: 2013
2013 - 2015: 5 pregnancies —> 5 miscarriages
TTCAL with RE (RPL specialist): February 2016
2016: 3 medicated TI cycles —> 3 medicated IUI cycles: All BFN
Donor Egg IVF Transfer: May 1, 2017
May 11, 2017: BFP!! Beta #1: 449.1, Beta #2: 844, Beta #3: 1714
EDD: 1/17/18, it's a GIRL!
E. L. A. born 12/7/2017
Can an acceptable test date just get here already?!? I'm only 6dpo so I have a ways to go!
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
I had another ridiculous temp drop to the cover line. I'm not sure what that means.
I wish I could just hang around the house this weekend but I have to travel for a stupid wedding instead. Planning on testing tomorrow morning before we head out and I'm anxious about it. I think a bfp would really make me enjoy this weekend more but I don't want to pin my hopes on it.
Well in 6 or 7 dpo today. I had weird period like cramps this mornings, so of course I googled the crap out of that. I think I have about 4 cycle buddies, one more week ladies. About 2 more days for my first urge to poas kicks in, lets pretend I will hold out though!
It doesn't sound like I have any cycle buddies with self-control though, lol, so we'll probably all be testing on Sunday!
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
@soontobemommahowe I'm probably waiting until tuesday, too! For real. Maybe Monday. But def not this weekend. I'll be strong with you
*edited for grammar bc the bump mobile font is so small I can't see.
Ive been taking my temp at 5:45 the last few days and this morning at 4::45, so maybe that's why it's messed up? I never have had a 7 DPO temp drop, I usually have a secondary spike at 6 DPO. I also had one at 5 DPO. Could be sleep-related. I just keep telling myself that it's temping for ovulation that matters and so if my charts messed up in the LP- so be it!