Here I am on my due date at 3am, 4 weeks after giving birth. My boyfriend hasn't talked to me in a few days (he's kinda stressed at the moment) I just want him to hold me right now and tell me it will be okay. I should have a baby with me right now, they should both be sleeping in the room, I should be up feeding her soon. But instead there's no one here to hold or comfort me, only her blanket. It hurts so bad I just want them here.