I'm a new mom. I have an 8 month old son who is simply the greatest. Up until a few days before his birth, I was working full time and had been since I graduated college in 2010. We live far away from family, so when my son was born, my husband and I decided that we did not want to put him in day care. That meant getting by on one income alone. He was making more than I was, so we decided I'd be the stay at home parent. After 3 months of maternity leave, I went back to work full time for one month before finally quitting to take care of my son. I lasted about a month with not working before deciding I needed to interact with people. Also, however I don't like to admit it, I felt defeated giving up my life and dreams to be a stay at home mom. Now I work part time on the weekends as a pharmacy technician, full time Monday through Friday as a mom and it's fulfilling for now.
We knew the risks of me going back to work part time, and we both agreed it'd be hard but manageable. However, sometimes my husband brings it up and says we never spend time together as a family, we three, because one of us is always at work. Then I feel guilty because I think it's my fault. Is it? I wake up at 630 every morning, because that's what time my son wakes up, and my husband would stay in bed til 8, in the shower by 830 and out the door by 9. By then, I'd have fed my son and changed him for the day. My husband usually comes home around 530 or 6, leaving him a window of 1 to 2 hours to spend with our son before his bed time, most of which consists of holding him for a few minutes while mommy does the dishes or puts away the laundry. Because my day consists of cleaning, doing the dishes, laundry and making sure dog and baby are alive, I'm usually in bed by 9 or 10 after a tiring day. But I never get a full nights rest. Then it's repeat the next day. I know he works hard, and I don't doubt that he stresses out being the provider of the family. But it's non stop work for me 24/7, and I don't think he understands that. I let him sleep til 8 every day, I let him sleep longer during the weekend when I go in to work later, and when I come home from work, I free him of our son (who's a mommas boy) meaning he has an average of 13 total hours a weekend alone with our son and yet still he complains about being tired. From the beginning, my son had been a mommas boy leaving my husband feeling defeated when he could never console him (my son just started warming up to him a few months ago). I think that put a damper on things and my husband figured that whenever the baby cried, momma was the only one who could fix it.
Are there any moms out there who work part time (10 to 15 hours a week) or full time who feel this way? Or is it just me?