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cinderella105

Is there a way I can change my SN and take away all the numbers? Lol

I like the idea of working something salaried, but he just said if he got that car sales job he wouldn't start until the 2nd.... So he would be out of work for 2 weeks AND we would have to wait 2+ weeks for his first check?? Hell no that's not going to work at all..

I'm so stressed out I just want to curl up in a ball. We were doing so well with our incomes. We can't afford him being out of work..

shlittertoots

Sending you hugs Wendy.  

kcbizme

CityBee said:

So I just read through the codysmom shit show. I don't even know what to say. Actually, I do know what to say, but my ass would get banned for sure if I actually said what I'm thinking.

Where is this and what am I missing because I don't know where to look for it?

ngolimento

Squeee @katydid2014‌! Such good u/s pics!!!

chaysefaith

estamos_tomamos said:

@SNLT1012 I'm so sorry.  My FIL and GrandFIL both ride bikes and I really wish they wouldn't.  I know they enjoy it and that they're very capable, but it only takes one asshole driver out there not paying attention to end a life.  Hugs, lady.

S rides too and I was all for it, even with what happened to my dad. You just never really think that after 2 tours overseas and coming home safely that you can still die at 26. Once you've come home from war alive you think you'll live a long life. It's very sobering.



Sorry for being a downer today. Here's some random. A while ago I bitched about constant notifications from Pinterest. I've checked my notifications and they're off for all the shit I don't care about. But here's where I'm getting notifications:



The "news" tab gives me notifications forfuckingeverything. Someone follows a board/person, I get notified. Someone pins 41 new pins to their "nail designs" board...I get notified.

The "you" tab notifies me whenever someone I follow created a new board and then the notifications I actually want go there too.

How the hell do I make it stop?!?!?

MrsLaurenandDan

Hugs @SNLT1012‌ it's so hard when there are triggers at an already sensitive time. Thinking of you.

FrecklesInside

So, @chrain - despite the feelings your H is struggling with, he has NO RIGHT to act that way. I'm sorry to be up in your bizness but I'm very upset about how he handled this. A loving partner should be there to hold you and comfort you when dealing with so much, not angry and accusatory. I mean, how could he blame you for wanting to stay at the ER?? That's just fucked up, IMO. This should have been an incident that scared him, worried him, that he rushed home to you over, that he asked if you could stay longer in the ER because he was worried about you going home and having anything else happen...that is how he should have reacted, again, IMO. 

Your post did not give me good feels about your H. At all.

I'm so sorry this recovery is proving so difficult for you. I hope all the meds help and that you're back to your normal self soon (physically, at least).

So many hugs lady. Lean on us for support any time.

chaysefaith

@chrain‌ that's a lot. It's a lot just to read and I can't imagine what it feels to be living that. I'm so sorry. For everything. Everything that is falling apart right now, I'm sorry. I wish I could make it all better. I'm giving you all of my virtual hugs today.

chaysefaith

Is my siggy too big? I'm always worried I'm going to be one of those people that gets a "holy giant siggy!" comment.

It's such a pain in the ass to resize shit on a Mac.

janda426

Oh @chrain‌ , I know it might not seem like it right now but you are so strong. It's really great that you and your H were able to quickly get down to what was really causing the arguments. I get where he's coming from. He's freaking out and all his problems are swallowing him and he doesn't know where to begin. Some couples take months or years to get to the root issue of what's causing problems between them.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know it doesn't help, but I am. I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you. Keep your head up and keep one foot in front of the other. You've got a great plan to get through this.

goofygoff

@chrain I am so, so sorry that you had to go through all of that.  Both the physical and emotional.  I hope the rest of your recovery is smooth and quick!  ((hugs))

tkbs77

I know you're hubby is hurting too but I hope there is a little bit of a wakeup call in this for him. Timing, man, timing.

I understand if these are things he feels but I find it selfish to heap them on you at such an insanely stressful moment. Apples… rotting apples. Like, really? This is your concern? Rotting apples and workout schedules? I am glad he was able to be honest with you about what might have been driving his overreaction but I hope you in no way think that anything you described that you did was off base. I get you might have been emotional and reactionary but having blood pour out of your huha like a faucet can be a little bit drama inducing. Hopefully some rest and a little space will make hubby rethink his approach and the way he decides to talk to a sick and grieving mama. I get being “honest” but there is a time and a place and it sounds like last night was a time for him to man up, take it on the chin and be supportive.

I love your attitude by the way and really applaud your approach to what I know from experience is a horrendous and stressful situation. I may not agree with the political orientation of the author you championed but I appreciate you recognizing that his ideologies might not be for everyone. However, his message surrounding accountability and happiness are definitely universal. Take care of yourself, friend and I know you and hubby will come out of this stronger. (I just think he owes you a piping hot bowl of “I’m sorry”).

wendyld

@chrain I don't want to pile on, but I love you and it worries me your H was able to deflect from his own completely unacceptable behavior and make you feel like ANY of this was your fault. It's a pretty classic manipulation technique (and one I think people don't necessarily realize they're doing) to avoid taking responsibility.

wendyld

And @jessuhmarie‌ oops. I didn't mean to call you out! you!

cinderella105

Ugh... SO is the worst at reading texts and I was just trying to give him advice and things to consider if he's going to take a sales job, and he got all butt hurt and said he'll just forget about it and look for something else. Then he went as far as bringing up how I quit my job before this one (because I just found out I was pregnant, my back was killing me since I was driving for my job to multiple states/cities, and they paid me shit) and how he never said anything to me about it. Then he pointed out how it took me 2 weeks to find work again but it won't take him that long! X( I'm so sick of him always being like this and being so sensitive all the time, and what he said pissed me off that I went the fuck off on him. Now he's back pedaling claiming he didn't mean what he said in a bad way and that I was taking HIS texts wrong... Lol...

I need a break. He's been too much lately with the constant touching, insecurities, being clingy and whiney, and now texting like an idiot.

I'm sorry.. Rant over..

cinderella105

Oh and I changed my SN on the knot and now my avatar is all messed up. But just a heads up I did change it. Lol

chaysefaith

Cinderella021714 said:

Oh and I changed my SN on the knot and now my avatar is all messed up. But just a heads up I did change it. Lol

It hasn't carried over to TB.  You might need to log out of TB and back in and see if that fixes it.  If it doesn't you'll have to go BACK to TK and change it a second time.

cinderella105

Shit I just realized why my avatar is different. I didn't see that once you change it your comments aren't connected to your account anymore. Ugh. I'm just going to change it back. Lol sorry ladies. @SNLT1012‌ add me to the pain in the ass club.

kcbizme

CityBee said:

kcbizme said:

CityBee said:

So I just read through the codysmom shit show. I don't even know what to say. Actually, I do know what to say, but my ass would get banned for sure if I actually said what I'm thinking.

Where is this and what am I missing because I don't know where to look for it?

She posted a thread on the TTGP board followed by a post in 1st Tri.

ETA: I found it pretty hard to read some of the shit she was saying so just beware.

Thank you.

cinderella105

Trying to see if this worked..

cinderella105

YAY! There ya go loves, shorter numbers haha

redsfan90

I think I have strep throat going to the doctors tomorrow. We have our first ultrasound on Wednesday! Thinking of you Wendy

nannabee21

Hugs to @chrain‌ and @SNLT1012‌ and @wendyld‌ and all others who need hugs today. Just caught up.

wendyld

chrain said:

OH @Wendyld !!! Take a stool softener... take two actually. Right now. Not a laxative. Trust me. They are a gift from G-d after surgery.

Things seems to be moving along without assistance thus far. I'm probably jinxing myself, but you might say it feels like nothing happened (physically) today.

LtColumbo

@chrain‌ : ((hugs)) I am so sorry you are dealing with this. My husband has similar issues dealing with his feelings and has a lot of trouble knowing how to support me when I need it. I'm glad that he was able to admit that his anger was misplaced. I'm also glad you knew you could vent here about him without judgement. And most of all, I am glad/hopeful you are on the mend. 

sjep922

@chrain I'm so very sorry you're having to go through all of this! I can't imagine having to go through any of that and then fighting with H on top of it. So much love and hugs to you. You're outlook is amazing though.

@snlt1012 sending T & P to you and S also. That is just so hard to go through and I'm sorry you both have to after such a great day yesterday!

My husband also rides a motorcycle to work and I worry about him every day. I second you... please everyone watch out for motorcycles. It's an earth shattering thought to have to go through that. Hugs to you as well!

chaysefaith

Guys.  I just did something productive (well, maybe it wasn't productive) for the first time today.  I added all of the siggy badges to the blog.

stepherly

@SNLT1012‌ I'm so sorry to hear about your husband's friend. T&P for you guys.

@chrain‌ I hope you have a smooth recovery going forward. It's very uplifting to see you have such a positive attitude toward moving forward.

mangomimosa

@SNLT1012‌ so, so sorry for your & S's loss. Big hugs.

@chrain I am so impressed with your attitude & the maturity w/ which you handled your H's behavior. Despite everything you're going through, you were still able to have a productive conversation that got to the root of H's issues. I hope you both find some peace soon & can get back to a good place-- you both deserve it so much.

Too tired for words today... Hope that made sense.

nannabee21

A fucking mosquito bit my ass during my nap today.

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JennyP0222

Oh ladies I am just now catching up. 

@SNLT1012 I am so sorry for the loss of a friend and for the timing of it all being on such a beautiful day you had

@chrain hugs, just so many hugs. 

@wendyld I hope your recovery continues to go well 

It's been a rough week over here and you all have my thoughts and condolences on so much loss.

@StellaMakes3 I am glad to see you back, you were missed! I am sorry that you are struggling right now though...:-(

cygnet15

Haven't caught up w/ the thread, but we had a great appointment and got to hear a clear 160 bpm heartbeat on the doppler

MissyCee

@Chrain, I'm so so sorry about what you're going through. I hope the worst of it, at least physically, is done. I think you're an amazing person for being so understanding about your H's shitty way of showing emotions. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

MrsLaurenandDan

Oh man hugs @chrain‌. I wish I could say something to help. I'm glad that even if there was a big blow up first, that you and your H were able to communicate a bit about what is going on. Thinking of you.

chaysefaith

Here's some REAL random, brought to you by @TheNetwork‌'s random.

Whenever someone says "it's my __ anniversary!" I immediately do the math, including leap years, to figure out what day of the week they got married on.

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goofygoff

meladoriestar said:

It's totally ok to eat a whole box of cinnamon toast crunch for dinner, right?

I ate a whole bag of pistachios for lunch, so I'm going to say yes.

 

alexandria22489

chrain said:

SNLT1012 - love tit = hugs!!! I am SO sorry for what you are going through. 

Here's my fucking long update... from start to finish for youse guise who weren't in chat:

Tuesday I was feeling better. Hubs suggested a walk around the block to see how I feel. We went, came home and I felt a gush of blood when we sat down for dinner. Looked and I had filled a pad. Changed it then filled the second in 2 hours. Called the doc on call and she wasn't worried, just wanted me to watch it and call the doc's office in the morning Changed the pad and went to bed. I had really bad, awful cramping in bed and woke up with another full pad. Called my nurse and she said to keep and eye on me. I had awful chills the whole day, feeling gross and started watching my temp at noon. By 1 it was in the 99's and by 3ish I was in the 100's. Called the nurse who called the on call doc who suggested I go to the ER at the hospital that I had the surgery at. 

Hubs was entertaining a friend in Boulder (30 min away). I called him (4pm), he got pissed at me because I couldn't say if it was an emergency. I didn't know but she said go to the ER so I figured I should go soon. He was mad because he had arranged to pick up some apples in Boulder after their hike for cider making. I called my mom who couldn't get me because my stepmom is an ass and she called hubs and he freaked out. Then he drove home but got stuck in traffic and took his friends to their hotel and came to get me (6:45pm). He was fucking furious that I was "manipulating" him. Was it an emergency? Did I really want to make him freak out the whole time... basically we had a fight on the way to the ER. 

Got to the ER, they started everything. Did a pelvic exam and my pain ratcheted up dramatically. Then I felt a push down there, looked and there was more blood than I have EVER seen in my life. Clots, tons of them. He grabbed the doc and the OB and they cleared the clots and looked again in my cervix. There wasn't much active bleeding. They did an ultrasound but before they took me I had another HUGE episode of bleeding. They gave me pain meds after the first but I was pretty pale and woozy from the blood loss. By midnight they had results. 

1. No retained tissue... my uterus was clear, there was nothing left of the baby or placenta to be causing and issue and NO second d&c (that was on the table)

2. She felt that I didn't need to be observed overnight but could be if I needed a transfusion. They were on the fence about giving me blood. My bloodwork showed that I was close to needing one but they felt with fluids and rest, I would be ok.

3. Possible small infection. Gave me two antibiotics to take to stave it off.

4. Gave me vicodin for the pain and anti-nausea because that's been a problem. And told me to take 600mg of Ibuprofen every 6 hours for a couple of days to help stop bleeding and contract uterus. 

5. Gave me mistoprostal to help flush remaining clots.

The theory is that since I have not yet carried a baby to term or given birth, my cervix is tight and the clots are building up behind it. Then I have massive cramps and push a ton out at once. 

I got up to go to the bathroom at 1am and could barely ambulate on my own. So they decided to give me another IV with sugar water and anti-nausea. After that was pushed I was able to eat some crackers and drink some tea. By 2am I was done and wanted out. We were discharged at 2:30am. 

Hubs was furious at me and said that he felt I wanted to stay in the ER longer (!!!!!) but the reality was I was not strong enough to leave earlier. He kept saying... i told you to eat something FOUR HOURS AGO but at that point I was nauseated and feeling like I would puke from a sip of water. We basically fought the whole night with the exception of when I was in tons of pain and bleeding lots, then he was freaking out that I was needing more surgery. 

We had lots of talks and by the time we got home, this is what I understood from his side... He's fucking freaked out that we keep having losses and he can't help me. And on top of it all, nothing else is going right. His car died, his dad has a serious illness where he has one more medication to try and if it doesn't work, he's basically going to get diabetes and very very sick, his dad wrecked his car, his body is fucked up and he is having trouble working out and I called him away from getting his apples which was his last hobby left and now he feels like everything is over, nothing is going ok and very depressed. I have a tendency, when I don't know how to answer something, to equivocate and it frustrates him. And I did that yesterday. So the whole world blew up for us. He has pounds of apples that he spent time picking that he thinks will rot and etc etc.

Basically, the world of the Chrain Family is shit right now and being in the ER for 7 hours didn't help. I have been wallowing in my pain (emotional and physical) because I miss my babies and I'm angry at myself for my part in what is going on but that is not ok. Dennis Prager wrote an amazing book called "Happiness is a serious problem" where he talks about how it is your job, as a human being, to be happy and not be negative. And he's right. It's ok to mourn and be sad but wallowing in the sadness and letting it overtake your life and the lives of your family is not ok. 

So I am better and committing to being even better. Once I physically heal, I am doing a cleanse (healthy eating) and a 30 day yoga/crossfit challenge. I am going to get myself back on a healthy schedule and take more responsibility for things in our life that I have ignored. And we will get past this dark cloud.

TL;DR - I'm ok, on a ton of meds. Maybe a small infection and a tight cervix. Lost a lot of blood. Hubs has his own issues. We fought but in the end, I feel good about where we are and moving forward.

Oh and my family blows chunks.

I am so sorry you are going through this. My thoughts are with you 

cinderella105

Dudes.. My hormones are raging today and I have a major case of I don't give a fuck. My fellow class mates heard me say I wanted sushi and they all jumped my bones about how I "absolutely can't have any seafood whatsoever!!!1111!!!!"..... I kinda snapped with an attitude saying they should probably read up on that shit. After going off on SO today and now copping a 'tude just now I feel like a total bitch. I just wanna curl up in the corner and cry after today.