I posted here about a week ago expecting my third loss---today it was confirmed. At my ultrasound today at 7w6d my baby no longer had a heartbeat. I saw a nice, healthy and strong heartbeat just this past Saturday and had an explanation for the bleeding (SCH). But all that was ripped away today. I can't say that I am completely surprised because at this point I kind of feel like it is a miracle if something goes right with a pregnancy that I go through. I feel so numb at this point. I actually didn't even cry in the office when I first got the news, but have certainly made up for it once getting home.
The timing of this is awful too (isn't it always?). Tomorrow is the due date of my first loss. Instead I will be spending the day in the hospital getting a D&C for this loss. How many more times can I go through this? I feel like I may never get answers and don't know where to go next from here. I am the ultimate planner, so I always want to know whats next and how to get there. I have already been thinking about all those steps, but I am not quite sure what those next steps are. What does one do if you have repeated losses and no answers? So far every test from my RPL panel has come back normal. I just want our baby so bad.
Oh so many emotions and questions, so little answers.
Me (28) DH (27)
Married June 2012
Started TTC July 2013
BFP #1 August 2013 EDD 4/29/14 natural MC at 6-7 week
BFP #2 January 2014 EDD 9/24/14 MC at 8 weeks, D&C
BFP #3 March 2014 EDD 12/4/14 MC at 8 weeks, D&C
BFP #4 August 2014 EDD 4/20/15 Hoping for our rainbow
It's a BOY!