Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
jesswein9
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3rd time was not the charm :( My heart is so heavy
jesswein9
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I posted here about a week ago expecting my third loss---today it was confirmed. At my ultrasound today at 7w6d my baby no longer had a heartbeat. I saw a nice, healthy and strong heartbeat just this past Saturday and had an explanation for the bleeding (SCH). But all that was ripped away today. I can't say that I am completely surprised because at this point I kind of feel like it is a miracle if something goes right with a pregnancy that I go through. I feel so numb at this point. I actually didn't even cry in the office when I first got the news, but have certainly made up for it once getting home.
The timing of this is awful too (isn't it always?). Tomorrow is the due date of my first loss. Instead I will be spending the day in the hospital getting a D&C for this loss. How many more times can I go through this? I feel like I may never get answers and don't know where to go next from here. I am the ultimate planner, so I always want to know whats next and how to get there. I have already been thinking about all those steps, but I am not quite sure what those next steps are. What does one do if you have repeated losses and no answers? So far every test from my RPL panel has come back normal. I just want our baby so bad.
Oh so many emotions and questions, so little answers.
Me (28) DH (27)
Married June 2012
Started TTC July 2013
BFP #1 August 2013 EDD 4/29/14 natural MC at 6-7 week
BFP #2 January 2014 EDD 9/24/14 MC at 8 weeks, D&C
BFP #3 March 2014 EDD 12/4/14 MC at 8 weeks, D&C
BFP #4 August 2014 EDD 4/20/15 Hoping for our rainbow
It's a BOY!
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Re: 3rd time was not the charm :( My heart is so heavy
I wish you luck at your D&C. Sending you thoughts and prayers
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
My Ovulation Chart
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
I am so sorry for your loss. I know the pain of loss after seeing a healthy heartbeat and the frustration with no explanations. Will be praying that you get all of the support that you need from your doctors and family.
Sending warm thoughts.
Me (34); DH (35)
BFP 11/25/13; Heard strong heartbeats for 3 weeks; Natural MC (1/15/14)
BFP 11/11/14 EDD 07/21/15 hoping for our rainbow!
TTC #1: February 1, 2014
BFP #1: 2/21/14 EDD: 10/31/14 (my birthday!) MMC: discovered 3/31/14 (blighted ovum) D&C: 4/3/14 at 9w6d
TTC #1 (Round 2): May 16, 2014
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"Everybody wants to be happy. Nobody wants to feel pain but you can't have a rainbow without the rain."
Married April 9, 2011
TTC since October 2011
Me 34, DH 40
IUI #5 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture Oct 24, 2014-->BFP!!! EDD July 17, 2015. Panorama=low risk...and it's a GIRL!
DD born July 10, 2015
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Trying for baby #2!
IUI #1 w/ Tamoxifen+Ovidrel+Acupuncture July 10, 2017-->BFP!!! EDD Apr 2, 2018. Panorama=low risk...and another GIRL!
BFP#1 EDD 04.20.2010, SUNSHINE baby boy born 03.31.2010
BFP#2 EDD 12.07.2014, natural mc 04.09.2014 at 5w3d
BFP#3 EDD 01.14.15, RAINBOW baby girl born 01.16.2015
jan'15 january siggy challenge: baby fails
" May your hands always be busy
May your feet always be swift
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift
May your heart always be joyful
May your song always be sung
And may you stay forever young "
Me 35, DH 37
DX with PCOS in early 20's. IF d/t PCOS, anovulation, endometriosis, Dermoid cyst in/on Left ovary
TTC for 3 years. (2/2011), Last 16 months (2/2013) with chemical ART; Lap HSG with D&C 11/2012, Repeat HSG 2/2013
Clomid, Follisim, HCG Triggers, Progesterone, Metformin
IUI x2 = BFN
3/16/14 IUI #3 BFP!
3/28/14 BFP!!!!!!!, EDD 12/6/14, Nonviable pregnancy 4/9/14, 5w4d; CP natural mc at 7w6d
4/25/14 Bye bye little one