We went in for pathology results and found out our sweet angel baby was a girl. Of course I was not expecting the extreme sadness that came over me. I thought I was prepared to hear this but I really wasn't. After all, I've mourned our loss for over a month so I've gotten to a better place with sad days in between. I've always wanted a girl. We have a healthy 3 year old little boy and of course just yearn for a healthy baby but to hear we lost our girl was so devastating. Either way it's devastating but it was so hard to hear, "it was a girl." The word "was" should not go with a pregnancy conversation.
At any rate, the other happy or sad news is that the baby had no chromosomal abnormalities. She appeared perfectly fine. My Mom said that was great news but for me I feel like it's harder to know she was healthy and my body failed me or it happened for no good reason?
My OB has tested me for a clotting disorder and autoimmune disease. I should have those results back in a few days. Until then, I want to thank each and every one of you. I found so much comfort on this board and still do.