Longest Thread EVER! (aka Random Thoughts Thread )

JessieAlbin

Jessieann1020 said:

Why do I have a migraine while taking Percocet? Shouldn't that get rid of the pain!?
I have had to pump and dump since my surgery and even though it stinks to dump the milk I have really enjoyed not stressing over how much I am getting each time.

Hugs to everyone who is having a hard time. I know this will get easier for everyone and a few months from now we will all be settled in and AWing pictures of LO's rolling over and smiling for the camera and all sorts of beautiful exciting things! For now we can all snuggle our little fussy butts and try to get some more sleep. Also, I PPH you ladies.

You poor thing, migraines are so stupid. One of the only things I miss about being pregnant is not having migraines! I'm gonna guess that the Percocet isn't helping because migraines happen when blood vessels are constricted and the Percocet doesn't do anything to alleviate that pressure. Boo to all of that noise. Glad you are on the mend, though!

RocksInTheWater

Good luck @PoppySeedWindsor!  Working from home would be a great gig!  What kind of writing do you do?

Edit:  oops, double post.  I guess double good luck!

edoliesmom

@NoLaLinz‌ Hmmm.. Maybe you're right. It doesn't hurt when I nurse thankfully. It hurts so bad to massage it, but I guess that's what I need to keep doing.

BiggerinRealLife

Hi RTT! I have missed you!

That is all. Mwah!

MadBloom

Ugh that poor May 14 family
Not fair.

SoulTermination

Homemade vanilla extract must taste significantly different from the store bought stuff, then, 'cause I'm not sure how anyone could manage to drink it otherwise, lol. Hopefully it's not too much of a pain to make some more. *huggle*

thomas930

Logan is a month old! How?! Where has the last month gone??

Tferr02

So much poop!! G hadn't pooped since wed morning and now at 4am he decided to catch up.
Also, my 80 pound dog has decided that we can share a twin size bed.

isamaraguirre

Super awake, LO is super asleep.
I should be sleeping but I can't...WTF is up with that?

Serenla

@PoppySeedWindsor‌ good luck lady!

Serenla

@Ashleypixie said:

^ that's what the realtor said. He suggested to do some of the things and go halfsies on the bigger stuff, like paint and possibly their stupid air allergy nonsense. We have an offer on a house as well, so thats why we are kind of desperate to just move on. My vote is to throat punch them but I suppose I have to be somewhat reasonable. No violence, no fun.

These buys sound like good candidates for house hunters, paint it yourself.

Emily041285

@Vinny424‌ me too. I wasn't prepared for how down on myself I would feel. I still have a hard time with it almost 5 weeks later.

PoppySeedWindsor

I just had the worst night ever. Hubster had a full blown anxiety attack and left the house after screaming at me for being lousy and a life ruiner. He hasn't returned. All I can do is not cry, hold my shit together and be here for Merri. We haven't had this bad of an anxiety attack in months. Why is this happening now?

Emily041285

Huge hugs @PoppySeedWindsor‌ ! Newborns are hard! A few nights ago I came very close to smothering DH in his sleep, like had the pillow in my hand. It's all new and overwhelming.

fourthnlast

jellysparkles said:

I legitimately made DD1 breakfast this morning instead of her foraging through the kitchen for random crap. Honestly, what I gave her wasn't too different than what she normally chooses, but at least her bagel was toasted and got cream cheese.

Small miracles!

sarlimes34

the mother's day ads are getting to me. now i'm tearing up thinking about my mom and how much i miss her. i hate that we live so far apart. oh the hormones!!

kseccomb17

@poppyseedwindsor this is a huge change. Life changing. Your DH is brand new to this whole fathering thing right? If so, I bet he's exhausted, confused, frustrated. At this point, tension can be so high. It was absolutely wrong for him to say those things to you. But, he probably doesn't know how else to handle the changes. You and I both know panic attacks are a way of your body handeling stress. Hopefully him getting out of the house will help him relax and realize he needs to calm down and be the man you and your beautiful girl deserve. Y'all have a lot on your plate and I hope when he gets back you can discuss what needs to take place I'm order to alleviate some stress. You have given him the greatest gift possible. He knows that and I know he didn't mean what he said. It's okay to cry, and vent here as often as you need. Call someone you're close too and let your emotions out. You are so sweet. All of my love to you and your family during this transition. You guys will get there. Huge hugs, mama.

JessieAlbin

@PoppySeedWindsor‌ oh honey. I'm sorry you had such a crummy night, anxiety attacks are the worst. Here's to hoping your hubs had a successful time out to breathe and get his poop in a group, and will come home with a serious attitude adjustment.

KatieGummow

@PoppySeedWindsor‌ xoxo, I am so sorry. Way to be tough for Merri! You're an amazing mom and person!

thomas930

@PoppySeedWindsor I'm so sorry. I hope he comes back and apologizes and you guys can talk it out. Not to excuse his behavior, but postpartum depression and anxiety happens to fathers too, this is such a huge change for everyone. Big hugs to you.

KatieGummow

@Vinny424‌ same here, sister! So glad to know I am not alone.

PoppySeedWindsor

Thanks for the kind words so far. I've been working with him and his anxiety issues for four years and it's getting better. But when it's at it's worst, like it was last night/is right now, I'm the bad guy he has to run away from. God. We SCREAMED at each other in front of Merri. I know she's an infant and won't remember but I just feel so crappy for letting that happen. I just want to provide a safe environment for her, for my family. Haven't heard anything from him. Can't track his phone, get ahold of him or anything. I'm not even sure if he made it to work today. 

Things I can do today:

1. Nurse Merri when she's hungry.

2. Give her lots of love and cuddling.

3. Nap when she's asleep.

4. Keep posting here. I'm too afraid to tell my mom because she'll get all shitty and judgmental and say he's not good enough and that I should just come home because she doesn't understand anxiety attacks.

5. Eat ice cream. All day.

tamaraaaa

jellysparkles said:

I'm normally super meh about celebrity news, but I read about Ellen interviewing Mila Kunis and I'm on the verge of happy tears reading that Ashton Kutcher is learning Russian so they can all speak her native tongue as a family at home.

Gah, I'm a sucker.

I don't know them obviously, but I adore them together.

Feeling the same about my post baby body... I've lost a chunk of the weight, but not one thing I own fits. I look like hell. I expected to still look pregnant which would honestly be better at this point... Slowly but surely I guess...

PoppySeedWindsor

joytomylifex said:

I'm normally super meh about celebrity news, but I read about Ellen interviewing Mila Kunis and I'm on the verge of happy tears reading that Ashton Kutcher is learning Russian so they can all speak her native tongue as a family at home. Gah, I'm a sucker.

I don't know them obviously, but I adore them together. Feeling the same about my post baby body... I've lost a chunk of the weight, but not one thing I own fits. I look like hell. I expected to still look pregnant which would honestly be better at this point... Slowly but surely I guess...

I'm the same with my body. I'm just 10 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight but I'm all flabby and fat and celluitey and all I want to do is exercise and be able to take care of myself. How do you guys deal with the urge to exercise? Core exercises at home? Yoga? Would love any suggestions!

Serenla

(((@PoppySeedWindsor))) I'm sorry Hun, he is stressed just like you are I'm sure. I hope he comes back and is able to calm down and you guys can talk it out.

fourthnlast

ImnAtari said:

The 6 week growth spurt is way worse than the 3 week one was. Now A can grab things (like my glasses and my lip)...

Backing away slowly and pretending I didn't read this...

PoppySeedWindsor

I think not being able to fit into anything I once wore is the biggest mind fuck. I'm obviously WAY skinnier now that I'm not carrying a 9 pound baby inside of me but for some reason that doesn't mean my pre pregnancy clothes will fit. I feel good about myself until I try to squeeze my apparent thunder thighs into a pair of old jeans or shorts. And my old dresses? I look like a hussy in all of them now, thanks to my giant nursing boobies that raise the hem 3 inches. 

PoppySeedWindsor

Okay. So sorry to be such a crazy poster today. Just saw our bank account and found a charge for a plane ticket. I think hubster is headed home to California. I'm on my own now, officially.

MadBloom

I'm at a super awkward stage with my PP body. My old clothes don't fit and my maternity clothes are too big or not in season. I spend my days in pajama pants and a nursing bra. Sometimes I might put a tank top on. The worst part is that I'm already at my pre-pregnancy weight. Numbers means NOTHING.

MadBloom

@PoppySeedWindsor‌ I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. I have no advice to give you since I have zero experience handling anxiety but know that you've got a safe place to vent here and that you've got T&Ps from everyone in RTT.

PoppySeedWindsor

@Jessieann1020 I can rely on some of the wives of his coworkers but I know that'll just upset him because I'd be bringing our personal life into his work life. We just moved from Oregon to Kentucky in January and I haven't made many friends outside of work wives. My folks just left here and don't have the money to return. I'm confident his folks will help him out and make sure he returns to me. I left a message for his mom telling her what's going on.

PoppySeedWindsor

And on top of it all, Mer won't latch onto my right boob. FML.

Emily041285

Oh poppy I'm so sorry. I'm glad your mil is in your corner. It seems like you both know what to do.

Emily041285

Just reached an all time low in personal hygiene. DD just spit up and it went all down my nursing tank. It took me an hour to realize it and clean it up.

Serenla

PoppySeedWindsor said:

Okay. So sorry to be such a crazy poster today. Just saw our bank account and found a charge for a plane ticket. I think hubster is headed home to California. I'm on my own now, officially.

Omg what?! Hun I am so sorry. If you need help, call his coworkers wives. You and Mer are important right now.

Emily041285

Vinny424 said:

It's not so much my size it's the loose skin. I didn't think at 25 I'd be having that problem. I'm only 2 weeks pp but I'm gunna figure it won't get better. Glad I'm not the only one that looks in the mirror and goes "womp womp"

Actually at almost 5 weeks pp I noticed it has gotten a little better. I was shocked on how loose my skin was too but it seems like it's tightening up.

Stace0616

I think more than my body shape, I was unprepared for the fact that my body would be so different internally. It still is uncomfortable to sleep/laugh/cough/etc and I apparently now get has pains. And I used to be the person who could just internalize farts. Now? Sometimes I CAN'T release the gas and the pain in my lower body is horrible. Soooo my squishy FUPA kind of pales in comparison to the internal changes LOL!

KatieGummow

Vinny424 said:

It's not so much my size it's the loose skin. I didn't think at 25 I'd be having that problem. I'm only 2 weeks pp but I'm gunna figure it won't get better. Glad I'm not the only one that looks in the mirror and goes "womp womp"

Yeah, I've got twin skin. It sucks having to have my shirt up all the time

smushi

I'm totally rocking the new pooch (can't zip my pants?  Belly band that shit lol) and the dark mommy 'line' from my rib cage to my hoohah.  When I bust out in a bathing suit this summer around my sister and her friends who are all 90lb ballerinas, I'm gonna be all gangster like "What?  That's my momma tummy.  Whaddabout it?  See this baby?  Yeah, that's mine." 

drop mic.

@poppyseedwindsor lots of love, Honey.  Pull any cards you need to make sure you've got someone you can count on that's nearby and can come over to help when you need it (because good lord, we all need breaks from time to time).  Or heck, ask one the coworker's wives to bring dinner or something like that.  One less thing on your plate.  

Emily041285

smushi said:

I'm totally rocking the new pooch (can't zip my pants?  Belly band that shit lol) and the dark mommy 'line' from my rib cage to my hoohah.  When I bust out in a bathing suit this summer around my sister and her friends who are all 90lb ballerinas, I'm gonna be all gangster like "What?  That's my momma tummy.  Whaddabout it?  See this baby?  Yeah, that's mine." 

drop mic.

 

Love your attitude! I wish I could see it that way!