This thread is for those who are pregnant after a previous loss(es).
Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom?
Previous loss(es)?
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically?
Any appointment updates?
Rants/Raves/Questions?
Any milestones coming up?
GTKY: What is one non-pregnancy/ baby thought that has been on your mind today.
History and blog link in spoiler
2016 - dx with super low ovarian reserve; failed cycle with clomid, failed IUI,
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
Re: PGAL Check-in 01/26
Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 18+3/ 6.23/ 1 DS
Previous loss(es)? 3
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Physically pretty good. Sleep is getting tricky but if I go to bed early it all evens out. Emotionally I'm mostly fine but the anxiety seems to trickle in halfway between my appointments which is exactly where I am. I'm finding myself a little uncharacteristically sad from time to time.
Any appointment updates? Next appt is AS, 2 weeks from today.
Rants/Raves/Questions? I bought baby girl a little footie outfit. We were at the local kids shop in town and I saw it and decided to buy it. It was so soft and pink. It will be here home from the hospital outfit I think. If all goes well at the AS in a couple of weeks I will let myself buy something else.
Any milestones coming up? An uneventful AS will be huge. While everything turned out okay DS's AS was somewhat traumatic. It was discovered at that appointment that he only has one functioning kidney. It turned out to be a very minor issue but at the time we didn't know if it was a symptom of a much bigger problem. The memory of that day is just adding to my regular anxiety.
GTKY: What is one non-pregnancy/ baby thought that has been on your mind today. DH has been on my about finding work. I'm not just lying around the house and I'm busy all the time but none of the projects I have are paid work so I get his frustration...I don't think he understands that parttime work is not particularly easy to come by right now.
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
Weeks/EDD/How many times a mom? 18 weeks (June 29th), FTM but 3rd pregnancy
Previous loss(es)? 2; TFMR Dec 2019, MMC at 15 weeks Jul 2020
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Mostly fine on both fronts. Starting to feel cautiously excited, which then scares me as I know the feeling of letting down my guard just to be slapped down by a loss
Any appointment updates? anatomy scan in 2 weeks (2/9)...if it goes well I'm hoping that means I can let myself breathe.
Rants/Raves/Questions? Found out over the weekend that my mother told their neighbor about the pregnancy. At the time I didn't mind, she mentioned it to them because they posted on Nextdoor about getting rid of some baby stuff that my mom wanted, and they know more gory details than most about my prior pregnancies (had dinner at their place literally when I was unknowingly miscarrying the last, when they offered to give me a bunch of free items now that their twins are getting bigger). That said, knowing that someone else knows is now giving me anxiety...
Any milestones coming up? Mainly the anatomy scan. After that point I'll probably tell work and start thinking about telling more people, which is a huge step. I know I shouldn't, but I keep zeroing in on stories of women who have a loss at 24/28/+ weeks.
GTKY: What is one non-pregnancy/ baby thought that has been on your mind today. Got my new work laptop and it's huge...whomp whomp. I asked for a smaller model (we had 3 options), but FedEx lost the initial shipment so somewhere along the line they either forgot or decided to send me the bigger one. It also doesn't have a touch screen, which the smaller one does (sounds weird, but I actually do like the touch screen a lot). I feel like a brat asking them to give me what I initially wanted....but it's not what I said I wanted and I had valid reasons for wanting something lighter (easier to carry) and smaller (my WFH desk is small, so I need to reconfigure things to use the bigger laptop, or stop having dual screens).
Previous loss(es)? 2 losses, 21 weeks and 4 weeks
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Physically- N/v has improved, acid reflux has started, continued hip pain and occasional headaches. Emotionally- I’m getting really anxious for my 20 week AS, even though I had an early one at 16 weeks that looked great. What is also making me anxious is the unknowns of the covid vaccine. I did get my first dose but I’m really on the fence about getting the second one.
Any appointment updates? Next Wednesday 20 week AS
Rants/Raves/Questions? NATM
Any milestones coming up? 20 week AS
GTKY: What is one non-pregnancy/ baby thought that has been on your mind today. I’m really trying to figure out what I want to do with my career when I return to work full time. I probably won’t go back to work full time for probably 5 years.
Married: 8/10/13
BFP- 12/18/15, D&E- 4/8/16 @ 21w5d- confirmed Thanatophoric Dysplasia
BFP- 11/7/17, M/C- 11/18/17 @ 4w6d
BFP- 8/25/18 ~ EDD- 5/9/19 ~ DD born 5/2/20 *Lillian Hazel*
BFP- 10/9/20 ~ EDD- 6/21/21
@akoros fx for a perfect scan for you too! I always find telling the first few groups of people is tough, but it gets easier once you get used to it. Honestly this is one of the reasons I'm thinking about a SM announcement- instead of having to tell a bunch of groups, I just want to be able to put it out there once and then be done with it. Worried about late losses too, but mostly bc of some of the things I've seen about getting covid later in pregnancy.
@MelissaMay82 hoping for a perfect scan for you on Wednesday!!! I got the first covid stick and am nervous about the second- not about the actual vaccine, but the second reaction. Los#2 happened at 7 weeks, but after I had a high fever due to strep at 5 weeks. Now I know I have other issues that caused the loss, but in my head fever=loss. Very nervous about the possibility of a fever, but going forward with it bc getting covid would be worse for me.
Previous loss(es)? 3
How are you feeling? Emotionally & physically? Physically like crap this week. Baby must've had a growth spurt bc I'm hurting. The meds I take for sjorgens make me feel sick and I'm over it- usually I feel great at this point and I'm still feeling terrible. Exhausted too. Emotionally ok- just trying not to think about it too much. Really nervous something is going to happen now that my older kids are so excited. Feb is national congenital heart defect month, and I have some fb friends who have dealt with heart issues who post daily about it during Feb. This year it's giving me anxiety bc of the potential heart issues with this baby.
Any appointment updates? Fetal echo + regular ob on 2/5
Rants/Raves/Questions? I think everything I wrote above is a rant 😳 rave is that family is making plans to be here this summer and I'm really looking forward to seeing them after not for the past year+ now. Also I got a 2.5 mile run/walk in yesterday which really helped with my aches and pains.
Any milestones coming up? Nope
GTKY: What is one non-pregnancy/ baby thought that has been on your mind today. I am halfway through the school year and summer is on its way!! I love summers off with my kids, and it makes the junk I go through during the school year worth it. I had a year-round job for about 10 years of my professional life so I've been on both sides. I miss the longer lunch breaks and occasional downtime I used to have at my old jobs, but having the time with my kids is awesome.
Married: 8/10/13
BFP- 12/18/15, D&E- 4/8/16 @ 21w5d- confirmed Thanatophoric Dysplasia
BFP- 11/7/17, M/C- 11/18/17 @ 4w6d
BFP- 8/25/18 ~ EDD- 5/9/19 ~ DD born 5/2/20 *Lillian Hazel*
BFP- 10/9/20 ~ EDD- 6/21/21
2017 - egg retrieval #1 - 3 eggs, 0 embryos appropriate for transfer; ER #2 2 eggs, 0 embryos on day 3; ER #3 1 egg 0 embryos
moved to donor egg in summer 2017; 35 eggs retrieved; 19 fertilized; 9 total embryos
Fresh transfer Dec 2017= BFP! baby boy born 8/22/18
May 2019 - surprise natural pregnancy ended in MC
Nov 2019 FET; MC at 9 weeks
May 2020 FET; BFN
July 2020 FET; CP treated with methotrexate
Oct 2020 BFP!
Take a look at my blog
Today's anxiety is that I haven't felt her much. I did feel a flutter about 4 weeks ago that I thought was her, but nothing since (or nothing I've noticed). I had a dream that I felt a bunch of kicks and literally could feel a foot through my stomach (unlikely, I know, but it's a dream), so when I woke up I remembered that I haven't really felt anything. Not really sure what to do about it, my appointment is in a week and if she's gone, she's gone. There's nothing I can do about it.
Married: 8/10/13
BFP- 12/18/15, D&E- 4/8/16 @ 21w5d- confirmed Thanatophoric Dysplasia
BFP- 11/7/17, M/C- 11/18/17 @ 4w6d
BFP- 8/25/18 ~ EDD- 5/9/19 ~ DD born 5/2/20 *Lillian Hazel*
BFP- 10/9/20 ~ EDD- 6/21/21