I question everything...symptoms, lack of symptoms. It’s such a mind f*ck. I’m counting down until we can hopefully see a healthy growing baby later this week.
TMI I felt something pass and panicked. It was a very large amount of CM. Now I’m reading in to that too.
Thank you so much for starting this! I had a CP in March and honestly the only reason I joined in here is because I had high enough HCG to turn a digital. I called my OB today to set my first appointment which has raised my anxiety. It was the day after I had called before that I lost my sweet baby. Honestly my mental health and general outlook on life went into the toilet at that point. I was so angry and sad and hurting and took it out on far too many innocent people. I truly regret that. I am in therapy now and started before I got my BFP. I feel this insane pressure to lose a ton of weight so I can have a healthy pregnancy. I feel a need to almost leave the bump because I love all the ladies on TTGP and I took a break on not the best of terms and I feel guilty being here because I wish there were here more because of how some have had more losses or have been trying for longer. Why is pregnancy after a loss such a mind F**k?
@HappyFeet34 this is so hard. So excited you get to go in later this week. Fingers crossed everything looks perfect! I would have quite a bit of CM discharge during my two successful pregnancies. Even if the CM is tinged with blood it could be totally okay. here for you anytime! You are not alone or crazy for struggling with symptoms.
I had a loss right before Christmas at almost 8 weeks so as I’m getting closer to approaching (currently 6 weeks tomorrow) that point I’m having a lot of feelings. I’m often questioning what I’m putting into my body (afraid I’m going over 200 mg of caffeine, don’t want to take Tylenol for a headache).
I had two losses in the last year after 3 successful pregnancies. Blighted ovum last May at 9 weeks which ended in a d and c. Then another natural mc at 6 weeks along right after Thanksgiving. I have thyroid issues, which increases my first trimester risk- my numbers were optimal in January and my oob started me on baby aspirin, so I'm hoping that helps this one stick. My HCG was 130 and 201 at 4 weeks 5 days. So meh. My doc was fine with it but fully doubling instead of just going up would have made me feel a lot better. I have an ultrasound and more labs on Wednesday, so I feel like that's my make or break day. PGAL sucks because it makes you so pessimistic- we preface everything with 'if this works out' and don't really talk anything specific at all baby wise. Before this past year I didn't quite get how excruciating this is. I'm glad this is here so we can worry together- here's to a healthy 9 months for us all!
@kat11223344 sorry the numbers weren’t up you hoped for but hope the ultrasound goes well and you are reassured!
I had some spotting and cramping yesterday. I took a test and it is still positive and darker than the day before so for now it gave me hope but I definitely feel worried. Trying to stay hopeful though.
This month is my empty due month. And I have a friend who we found out we were pregnant at the same time having her second. So it’s a hard milestone- I’m glad I’m pregnant for it, but at the same time it’s very ... bittersweet
I'm sitting in the parking lot waiting to go in for confirmation ultrasound. My first mc was a blighted ovum found at my first ultrasound so I'm trying hard to contain my worry. Any t & P's today would be appreciated!
All was well! It was a goooood feeling when I was able to see a little blob there. I don't think I'll relax fully (ever!) but I feel like we can now even acknowledge that this pregnancy may be a thing!
@kat11223344 I had a blighted ovum in November too that ended in a d&c. My body also had a hard time processing it and I still had elevated HCG levels for months afterwards. It makes it so much more difficult right now, but I’m trying to stay positive. I don’t even have an US scheduled yet. But sending good vibes your way for a HH 9 months!
Re: PGAL check in
My HCG was 130 and 201 at 4 weeks 5 days. So meh. My doc was fine with it but fully doubling instead of just going up would have made me feel a lot better. I have an ultrasound and more labs on Wednesday, so I feel like that's my make or break day.
PGAL sucks because it makes you so pessimistic- we preface everything with 'if this works out' and don't really talk anything specific at all baby wise. Before this past year I didn't quite get how excruciating this is. I'm glad this is here so we can worry together- here's to a healthy 9 months for us all!