I love that idea! I have also thought about a piece of jewelry with their birth stones, but I already have a necklace I wear daily. Maybe a bracelet. But I love the forget me not idea too! I'm sure there are other beautiful ideas like that out there, but I haven't been able to bring myself to Google them yet.
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Me: 35 | H: 40 Married Sept. 2013 DS1: Nov 11, 2016 MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d) CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d) BFP! 8/24/19 DS2: May 10, 2020
@emeraldcity1214 that’s such a beautiful name and I’m so glad you got closure. You are such a strong lady, and that person is a total idiot! Hugs to you!
So much tagging to catch up on! I’ll be back later but wanted to shout out at emerald. Someone else mentioned they post from their phone and how difficult that can be. I also post from my phone so I feel ya, whoever that was! I’m thinking I’ll have to limit my posting on WTO and TWW to the actual week of O and expected AF. I don’t think I can keep up otherwise. 🙁
@shamrocandroll - I have a ring with January birthstones on it for my MC. It's a stackable ring, so I can add more rings to it, hopefully for LOs. I'm not big into necklaces or bracelets, but I wanted something I could wear every day. It might seem excessive for a CP, but it helped me have closure. I also have a picture of my test; I'd already thrown them all out before I lost the baby.
@shamrocandroll I have concerns with people asking, too. I really want to get a tattoo, but we never shared our losses with family and most friends. I really don't want to have to explain to people what a new tattoo means. And since I'm thinking of either a dandelion or birds, there really wouldn't be any way to explain it without people being able to count my losses.
I have kept all my tests from all of my pregnancies. I got an ornament for our Angel this past Christmas. I also have a memory book I plan to make. We were able to take pictures with our Angel when I delivered plus I had a ton of US pictures from all the monitoring they were doing. Once I get all the pictures printed I plan to make her memory book. If that's not enough I'm planning to but an Artful Ashes memorial for her. I know I'm doing a lot but I want to make sure her memory stays with us.
I couldn't plant anything because I can't get anything to grow.
@kbrown2385 Going to the RE was the best decision I have
made. I hope you find some answers with yours also. I have been a little
hesitant with BF about baby-making. I was worried I could still get KU before
AF came; it is possible to still ovulate after MC & before first period. I
want some answers & things in place so I can try & avoid another
heartbreak.
@Spartanrd4 I also feel that everywhere I turn people are
pregnant. I just received the invitation for my cousin’s wife’s baby shower at
the end of the month. And this is all happening as my first due date would be
approaching. We have not tried any supplements, so I can’t help you with that.
Sorry L
@_khaleesi I am an Amazon junkie as well. Ever since I
went Prime, I seem to mindlessly buy things that I could technically go to the
store for. Haha…vitamins & laminating sheets are my main problem.
@dolewhipper I expected more after my D & C also. I
did not bleed much at all. The lingering after cytotec was way more intense. My
BF is a Lion King fan, so I am always looking for fun little things. I will
have to check out the etsy shops for Disney.
@hanshotfirst77 I am at the same point. Just waiting for the
first AF AL. I also have been temping. This time around I am doing it
vaginally. I also have been doing OPK even though we are technically not trying
until after AF & I start progesterone. I just feel like I need as much as
possible to put in my charts. It makes me feel like I am at least doing
something.
@emeraldcity1214 ugh, people are so insensitive. I sometimes
feel like people are not understanding why I am so upset. I think it is
beautiful that you picked a name for your baby girl & are able to have some
closure.
@kagesstarshroom I am on a payment plan for my D & C last
September. After insurance it was about $500; but I was just too bitter to shell
it out. I couldn’t imagine paying for a baby I don’t have.
@ruby696 I don’t know that we can necessarily swing
IVF, but what’s another payment. My student loans will be done soon. We are a
bit in the same headspace. I am getting nervous about the off-the bench status.
Although, also very excited. I just can’t seem to stop thinking about the
what-ifs. But I feel like I don’t have many answers yet; so we don’t know what
to do differently.
@omg1108 I've decided I'm going all out once I'm off the bench if this is going to be my last attempt. No more wine and decaf only during the TWW. No more running if I get a BFP (I continued running during my last three losses and I had a hard time keeping my heart rate low, so of course I blame myself for that). If nothing else, I'll know I did everything I could do to get/stay pregnant.
@shamrocandroll I still have the positive test in my closet from December. I don't want to throw it out because I feel like that's the only "proof" I have that I was pregnant, even though I only knew for 10 days before my loss. My mom gave me a necklace with a tiny angel on it as well as an angel Christmas ornament to remember my baby. I gave DH a keychain with an angel wing. @bakerstreetboys it's definitely not too late to name your baby. I named mine (although no one else knows this), even though we have no way of knowing of it was a boy or girl. @dolewhipper I totally didn't see your post yesterday! That's awesome that your mom was able to enjoy her birthday at Disney. BTW is it true that they now have mango Dole Whip??
Thanks so much to everyone for sharing your ideas! Knowing I'm not the only one struggling with tossing the tests out helps make it feel less crazy. I ended up ordering a double birth stone ring for my two angel babies that would work for stacking with a single birth stone ring (hopefully for future rainbow baby) in the future. I've had my eye on it, and decided to just go for it. Still not completely sure what I'll end up doing with the tests yet, but hoping this will help me feel some closure.
@ruby696 you can always have them in "hidden" areas. The tattoo on my rib cage hurt like a mofo but no one ever sees it.
@emeraldduchess They do! They have 3 new cones out. The mango is inspired from the movie "Up" with little colored chocolate pearls that look like the balloons, then they have a Hei Hei (from moana) cone with pineapple and raspberry, and a rapunzel one with lemon dolewhip and edible flowers. I haven't tried them yet because the lines on Saturday were intense but I really want to!
@shamrocandroll Those are very pretty rings. Both of my losses were due in October which is my birthstone also so I do have a opal ring that has significance for myself and my babies. For my first loss I have a necklace that has a blueberry pendant because that is how big the baby was when he/she stopped growing. I plan to get a tattoo on my 40th birthday of a flower bouquet with mine and DH's birth month flower and the flowers for all our children (*TW* living and non living).
@dolewhipper I really want it on my inner forearm, but I don't think that would be smart. I thought about my side/ribs, or maybe the side of my hip/upper thigh area. I'd love to do another one on my foot/around ankle (also hurt like a b), but too many people would see it.
@ruby696 I am always annoyed when people want to know what my tattoo "means" and I haven't offered that information? They don't HAVE to mean anything, either, and if they do, that's yours. I had this convo with someone like a few months ago. People do ask, though. Sometimes I just say, "Oh I just thought it was pretty" because that's mostly the truth with my chest piece. I agree w/ @dolewhipper You could get one in a place that's only for you and yrs to see/something only exposed when like you go to the beach or something? Also, a foot/ankle isn't super exposed in cold months, but I guess you know how often people might ask since you already have one there! I think my next tat will be on my hip/upper thigh.
@shamrocandroll I like the ring, and I'm glad we helped you decide to order it! Maybe just slide the tests in an envelope and put them somewhere you know where they are until you're ready?
@omg1108 Yeah, I think we're gonna need a payment plan. My birthday is way too soon, there's no way we could pay it off before then and have $ for bills and, like, oh you know, going out to eat every once in a while. I'm more annoyed w/ my ob's office predicting it would be 1K lesser. They 100% were like "this is just an estimate, we can't realllly tell what your health insurance will cover" BUT STILL. I feel like I should tell them they were WAY off. I can't regret that I did it though, because I really just can't--it's not fair to myself to.
@_khaleesi Depending on what time of day I get around to posting, I don't always post to TWW/WTO. But I am in front of a computer most of the day and don't have to deal w/ trying to post mobile. Sometimes I'll start a post and TB saves it automatically (on mobile too) and come back to it, read more, write more later to finish it/add to it and post it when I'm done.
@ruby696 You've seen my tattoo on my inner arm; when people ask, I just say that it has meaning for DH and I. It only represents my last loss, not all of them, but I find people take my answer at face value.
Hey everyone! Been a super busy week, for me and the thread! I basically have no hope of keeping up with the tags for this week. 😛
I loved all the ideas for memorializing losses.
@shamrocandroll I’m glad you landed somewhere that brings some peace to you.
@dolewhipper with all the context clues i finally realized what your SN means. 😀 We are planning a Disney trip for this fall/winter. Well, who am I kidding, we are along for the ride but it’s being planned by my Disney expert coworker. It’ll only be our second time, first time also with same coworker. No dates yet but apparently they released the Star Wars opening date today so we should have our dates soon. I’m assuming you’ve been to Pandora? That plus Toy Story Land and now Star Wars will all be new to us!
@ruby696 I’m so sorry you’re having to make that tough decision. You’ve been through so much, and there’s only so much we can handle. I’d be lying if I said I haven’t had those thoughts myself. That if this loss is just the beginning of an agonizing journey, how much am I willing to go through? I am so sorry that is your reality. Hugs and FX for you!
@kagesstarshroom when you mobile post is it through the app? That’s what I use but it’s pretty quirky. I’m not sure how long it takes to timeout but often I open it up and it puts me all the way at the community homepage so I’m assuming any drafts are gone at that point! And it never fails even if I do slowly add tags, by the time I post I’m already behind again. 😂
H will be back home tomorrow! And just in time to start HIO with a purpose if my cycle is back to business as usual. My temps are not whacky at all and CF seems to be gearing up as usual so I’m cautiously optimistic but also trying to stay mentally prepared for things not being normal this cycle. Sigh. Then there’s the fear that the new normal is not being normal at all. Trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of it. Headed back out of town Sunday for a day trip with my dad to watch a college softball game. And Saturday will be all about catching up on everything that fell by the wayside while I was completely worthless. Then Tuesday is a college baseball game here locally. All these games are my alma mater. We are big football, baseball, and softball fans. 🙂
@_khaleesi Good luck with jumping back into things this cycle!
Ugh, you guys... I'm on CD34 and still no AF. I took a hpt last night for my sanity, even though we haven't has any unprotected sex this cycle. C'mon body... get your act together, please.
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Me: 35 | H: 40 Married Sept. 2013 DS1: Nov 11, 2016 MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d) CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d) BFP! 8/24/19 DS2: May 10, 2020
@marebear15 I started to, but stopped when my anxiety got really bad. I just needed a mental break from it. But it's frustrating because it is looking more and more like my historically regular cycle is less regular now.
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Me: 35 | H: 40 Married Sept. 2013 DS1: Nov 11, 2016 MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d) CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d) BFP! 8/24/19 DS2: May 10, 2020
@_khaleesi I'm a big football fan! & I love March Madness. I use the website when I'm mobile on the ipad and the app when I'm mobile on my phone, though *mostly* I use my laptop. GL w/ yr cycle returning to its regularly schedule business! Bc I'm on my post d&c cycle, I O'd later and I'm expecting it to be longer than usual--my OB said it's okay to try the following cycle, but I know it's best for timing/trying to avoid disappointment purposes to wait until I've had one "normal" cycle, so I am still not sure what to do next cycle. You can always try even if you're not back to "normal," it just won't be as precise if the cycle does something weird/you may not have great timing? I turn 35 this month, so every cycle I wait (this one! ::ticking clock sound::) feels like a wasted opportunity, yet at the same time, now that I know more about TTC I feel like we'll be doing everything we can? Plus, I'm still super scared to have another loss, those feelings balance out the "wasted cycle" feelings a bit. Still not sure what to do next cycle though. I think I'm still like 5-6 days out from AF though, so--still time to decide!
@shamrocandroll IDK if this is yr 1 AL or next AL cycle? I'm on 1AL/my 'D&C cycle,' & if FF is right I O'd late, like CD21 instead of my normal CD15, so I'm expecting AF like a week-ish late, so, like, CD 36-38? IDK if that is helpful to you or not--and I feel like I've said this 12 million times so I'm 100% sorry if you've read this before--looking at other people's charts in similar situations as me on FF makes me feel a lot better.
@shamrocandroll I'm sorry your cycle is so wonky. I'm on my 1AL and I could have sworn by my temps that I O'd way earlier and AF was therefore late, but after going to my RE he confirmed I definitely O'd much later than I had thought. So maybe you O'd later than you thought. It is so hard though and it messes with your head.
@kagesstarshroom@hanshotfirst77 It's my first cycle post CP, which I was really hoping would be more normal than my first cycle post MMC, since it was a much earlier loss. Apparently not.
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Me: 35 | H: 40 Married Sept. 2013 DS1: Nov 11, 2016 MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d) CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d) BFP! 8/24/19 DS2: May 10, 2020
@shamrocandroll I google imaged searched "creepy red gif" lol and there were many gems, but I ultimately have decided not to frighten you further & stick with the original vibes I offered, not the red ones lolol.
@shamrocandroll omg I know what you mean about the anxiety with tracking! My ability to fall asleep and stay asleep has been jacked up when I know I’m temping in the morning. I am seriously considering a couple shots before bedtime but the only thing holding me back is the fear of what that would do to my temps thus negating the need to be asleep. 🤦♂️ Have you temped in the last few days, just one day, to see if you’re at typical post o temps? Sending more red vibes your way!
@kagesstarshroom I am also turning 35 this month and am also feeling the same pressure to get this done ASAP, which is not helping with the sleep I mentioned above. In fact my bday is just 3 days after my first appointment was supposed to be and we were going to tell my parents then. So def not looking forward to that. If I o here soon then maybe I could test on that day but I’m scared of the gut punch a bfn would be on that day. We’re definitely trying in this first cycle and you’re exactly right, there’s the fear of another loss. We got bfp right away on our first cycle trying so I also have the fear that it was a complete fluke and now it’s going to take a year if it ever happens at all.
FX for all of us in a wait and see in first cycle AL. There are a bunch of us, unfortunately. This too shall pass. Hugs ladies.
@_khaleesi When is your birthday!? Sorry about that unfortunate milestone occurring close to your bday. My fear is less that we will have trouble getting pg again, and more that when it does happen--whether it takes a month or a year--it won't work out again. I keep finding solace in the mantra that I'm doing my best & my best is good enough to make this happen for us, whether it be sooner or later. MH has a lot of hope too, which is helpful for sure. I'm March 26. ♈️💜
@kagesstarshroom mine’s the 23rd! Very cool. It’s awesome your H is so hopeful. Mine is not at all worried, he’s very confident!
Can I just say how awesome this group is? It’s awesome. I mean, the circumstances surely aren’t but it’s so great to have a group of women so openly sharing thoughts and fears about something so personal. It’s been very comforting to know I’m not crazy for the things going through my mind. Well, they might be irrational, but at least it’s normal. Thank you, all of you.
@_khaleesi "Well, they might be irrational, but at least it's normal." Cheers to that! ::raises morning cup of tea:: / Also, I am glad YH is confident. Mine's hopeful optimism I think is an important part of my support system. And of course yall.
Re: TTCAL w/o 3/4
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
So much tagging to catch up on! I’ll be back later but wanted to shout out at emerald. Someone else mentioned they post from their phone and how difficult that can be. I also post from my phone so I feel ya, whoever that was! I’m thinking I’ll have to limit my posting on WTO and TWW to the actual week of O and expected AF. I don’t think I can keep up otherwise. 🙁
I also have a picture of my test; I'd already thrown them all out before I lost the baby.
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
I couldn't plant anything because I can't get anything to grow.
@kbrown2385 Going to the RE was the best decision I have made. I hope you find some answers with yours also. I have been a little hesitant with BF about baby-making. I was worried I could still get KU before AF came; it is possible to still ovulate after MC & before first period. I want some answers & things in place so I can try & avoid another heartbreak.
@Spartanrd4 I also feel that everywhere I turn people are pregnant. I just received the invitation for my cousin’s wife’s baby shower at the end of the month. And this is all happening as my first due date would be approaching. We have not tried any supplements, so I can’t help you with that. Sorry L
@_khaleesi I am an Amazon junkie as well. Ever since I went Prime, I seem to mindlessly buy things that I could technically go to the store for. Haha…vitamins & laminating sheets are my main problem.
@dolewhipper I expected more after my D & C also. I did not bleed much at all. The lingering after cytotec was way more intense. My BF is a Lion King fan, so I am always looking for fun little things. I will have to check out the etsy shops for Disney.
@hanshotfirst77 I am at the same point. Just waiting for the first AF AL. I also have been temping. This time around I am doing it vaginally. I also have been doing OPK even though we are technically not trying until after AF & I start progesterone. I just feel like I need as much as possible to put in my charts. It makes me feel like I am at least doing something.
@emeraldcity1214 ugh, people are so insensitive. I sometimes feel like people are not understanding why I am so upset. I think it is beautiful that you picked a name for your baby girl & are able to have some closure.
@kagesstarshroom I am on a payment plan for my D & C last September. After insurance it was about $500; but I was just too bitter to shell it out. I couldn’t imagine paying for a baby I don’t have.
@ruby696 I don’t know that we can necessarily swing IVF, but what’s another payment. My student loans will be done soon. We are a bit in the same headspace. I am getting nervous about the off-the bench status. Although, also very excited. I just can’t seem to stop thinking about the what-ifs. But I feel like I don’t have many answers yet; so we don’t know what to do differently.
@bakerstreetboys it's definitely not too late to name your baby. I named mine (although no one else knows this), even though we have no way of knowing of it was a boy or girl.
@dolewhipper I totally didn't see your post yesterday! That's awesome that your mom was able to enjoy her birthday at Disney. BTW is it true that they now have mango Dole Whip??
Dual:
https://www.etsy.com/listing/112551923/dual-birthstone-ring-two-stone-ring?ref=shop_home_active_1&crt=1
Single:
https://www.etsy.com/listing/106566006/birthstone-ring-one-stackable-birthstone?ref=shop_home_active_2&crt=1
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
Eta: worda
@shamrocandroll I like the ring, and I'm glad we helped you decide to order it! Maybe just slide the tests in an envelope and put them somewhere you know where they are until you're ready?
@omg1108 Yeah, I think we're gonna need a payment plan. My birthday is way too soon, there's no way we could pay it off before then and have $ for bills and, like, oh you know, going out to eat every once in a while. I'm more annoyed w/ my ob's office predicting it would be 1K lesser. They 100% were like "this is just an estimate, we can't realllly tell what your health insurance will cover" BUT STILL. I feel like I should tell them they were WAY off. I can't regret that I did it though, because I really just can't--it's not fair to myself to.
@_khaleesi Depending on what time of day I get around to posting, I don't always post to TWW/WTO. But I am in front of a computer most of the day and don't have to deal w/ trying to post mobile. Sometimes I'll start a post and TB saves it automatically (on mobile too) and come back to it, read more, write more later to finish it/add to it and post it when I'm done.
I loved all the ideas for memorializing losses.
@shamrocandroll I’m glad you landed somewhere that brings some peace to you.
@dolewhipper with all the context clues i finally realized what your SN means. 😀 We are planning a Disney trip for this fall/winter. Well, who am I kidding, we are along for the ride but it’s being planned by my Disney expert coworker. It’ll only be our second time, first time also with same coworker. No dates yet but apparently they released the Star Wars opening date today so we should have our dates soon. I’m assuming you’ve been to Pandora? That plus Toy Story Land and now Star Wars will all be new to us!
@ruby696 I’m so sorry you’re having to make that tough decision. You’ve been through so much, and there’s only so much we can handle. I’d be lying if I said I haven’t had those thoughts myself. That if this loss is just the beginning of an agonizing journey, how much am I willing to go through? I am so sorry that is your reality. Hugs and FX for you!
@kagesstarshroom when you mobile post is it through the app? That’s what I use but it’s pretty quirky. I’m not sure how long it takes to timeout but often I open it up and it puts me all the way at the community homepage so I’m assuming any drafts are gone at that point! And it never fails even if I do slowly add tags, by the time I post I’m already behind again. 😂
H will be back home tomorrow! And just in time to start HIO with a purpose if my cycle is back to business as usual. My temps are not whacky at all and CF seems to be gearing up as usual so I’m cautiously optimistic but also trying to stay mentally prepared for things not being normal this cycle. Sigh. Then there’s the fear that the new normal is not being normal at all. Trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of it. Headed back out of town Sunday for a day trip with my dad to watch a college softball game. And Saturday will be all about catching up on everything that fell by the wayside while I was completely worthless. Then Tuesday is a college baseball game here locally. All these games are my alma mater. We are big football, baseball, and softball fans. 🙂
Ugh, you guys... I'm on CD34 and still no AF. I took a hpt last night for my sanity, even though we haven't has any unprotected sex this cycle. C'mon body... get your act together, please.
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
@shamrocandroll IDK if this is yr 1 AL or next AL cycle? I'm on 1AL/my 'D&C cycle,' & if FF is right I O'd late, like CD21 instead of my normal CD15, so I'm expecting AF like a week-ish late, so, like, CD 36-38? IDK if that is helpful to you or not--and I feel like I've said this 12 million times so I'm 100% sorry if you've read this before--looking at other people's charts in similar situations as me on FF makes me feel a lot better.
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
Married Sept. 2013
DS1: Nov 11, 2016
MMC: 11/16/18 (9w6d)
CP: 2/3/19 (5w3d)
BFP! 8/24/19
DS2: May 10, 2020
TTC#1 - March 2013
BFP 8/9/13 - EDD 4/14/14 - DS born 4/23/14
TTC#2 November 2015
Dx: Secondary IF June 2016
Medicated IUI cycle#1- Clomid+IUI -1/15/17 -BFN
Break Mid 2017 - Resumed TTC December 2018
"She believed she could so she did..."
Medicated IUI cycle#2- Femara 5mg+IUI 12/22/18 - BFP 1/4/19 - MMC 2/1/19
Saline Sono 3/15/19 - All Clear!
Medicated IUI cycle#3- Femara 7.5mg+IUI 3/28/19-BFN
Medicated IUI cycle#4- Femara 5mg+Gonal F 50iu+IUI 4/27/19- BFP 5/11/19 - MMC 6/12/19 - D&C 6/14/19-
Incomplete M/C Repeat D&C - 7/3/19 -Testing concluded baby was genetically normal
Dx: Unexplained RPL July 2019 - Tested + as carrier for Usher Syndrome & Familial Mediterranean Fever
Saline Sono 8/7/19 - Mostly Clear! All systems go for IVF#1
But will need a repeat Saline Sono between ER and FET
IVF #1 - Antagonist Protocol - 8/17/19
ER#1 8/27/19 - 12R, 6F, 4 biopsied+frozen! (3d5blasts + 1d6blast)- 2 PGS normal embabies!
Saline Sono 9/13/19 - All Clear! Onto FET Prep#1
FET#1 - 4AA -10/4/19 - BFP 10/14/19 - EDD - 6/21/20 -Beta#1-10dp5dt- 379 Beta#2-12dp5dt- 1007 Beta#3-14dp5dt- 2844
DD born 6/15/20
@kagesstarshroom I am also turning 35 this month and am also feeling the same pressure to get this done ASAP, which is not helping with the sleep I mentioned above. In fact my bday is just 3 days after my first appointment was supposed to be and we were going to tell my parents then. So def not looking forward to that. If I o here soon then maybe I could test on that day but I’m scared of the gut punch a bfn would be on that day. We’re definitely trying in this first cycle and you’re exactly right, there’s the fear of another loss. We got bfp right away on our first cycle trying so I also have the fear that it was a complete fluke and now it’s going to take a year if it ever happens at all.
FX for all of us in a wait and see in first cycle AL. There are a bunch of us, unfortunately. This too shall pass. Hugs ladies.
Can I just say how awesome this group is? It’s awesome. I mean, the circumstances surely aren’t but it’s so great to have a group of women so openly sharing thoughts and fears about something so personal. It’s been very comforting to know I’m not crazy for the things going through my mind. Well, they might be irrational, but at least it’s normal. Thank you, all of you.