@mackorori I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. Whatever decision you make is the right one for you and I hope no one dares to try to make you feel badly either way. I understand why you may not be up to participating much, but if you need support or a place to vent as you navigate this we are here for you.
I’m way behind this week. It’s been crazy busy and I’m still tired. 1. How many weeks are you? 12+3
2. Previous loss(es)? One CP Apr 18
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I’m not as nauseated, but headaches and dizziness are worse. And I’m having pain in my sciatic which is a new and unpleasant experience. Emotionally, still worried over every little twinge, but I’m actually starting to imagine this little baby coming home with us and I am slightly panicky at how much stuff I need to accomplish before then.
4. Any appointment updates? NIPT blood draw was on Monday, so results should be in at the beginning of December. We are still debating about being Team Green.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I’ve been ragey the last couple days and BF is annoying me because he thinks the BMB raises my anxiety when other people have issues. The losses do make me sad and anxious, but there’s also so much support here that I need and value. This is the same argument that we were having about TTGP. He only sees the bad parts.
6. Any milestones coming up? First trimester is really almost over! I can’t wait.
7. GTKY: if you could live in any historical era, what would it be and why? It probably sounds crazy to say this, but I would love to live in the 40s. I know it was wartime and people were dealing with so much tragedy, but it’s a part of history that I’ve always found found fascinating. I would love to be able to talk to people and experience it in real time. I was able to go on a trip to DC with about 50 WWII vets last year and it was a life-changing experience to hear about what they went through.
I’m having a really high anxiety day today. Right before my last mc, my OB discovered I had a yeast infection and told me to take Monistat 7. After we discovered the mc, I researched whether it could be the cause, and was reassured that it was safe and almost definitely not the cause. Well, I got another yeast infection this time, tried to put off treating it, but it was bothering me way too much. So, I did Monistat 7 again. Last night, when I was inserting it, I felt some discomfort in my pelvic area that I hadn’t been feeling the other nights. Now I’m freaked out that I’ll have another mc because of it.
@kjr9519 I'm sorry you're having a rough day. I know it's hard not to blame ourselves for our losses, but I think it's important to remember that it's really unlikely that anything you did (especially treating a YI which many, many women do during pregnancy and is totally fine) was the cause of your MC. Most of this stuff is entirely out of our control. Remember that you just saw your healthy baby and the great likelihood is that everything will be ok this time. Hugs.
Thanks for checking in, @antera23 . Honestly I’m a little less anxious, but still not great. I’m just trying to hang in there until my next appointment in a couple of weeks. Hopefully, if I start to feel some definite symptoms again, I’ll feel better, but those have been starting to fade (they’ve been fading for well over a week, and I’ve had a really good ultrasound recently, so I know it might mean nothing).
Re: PGAL Check-In Week of 11/19
1. How many weeks are you? 12+3
2. Previous loss(es)? One CP Apr 18
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? I’m not as nauseated, but headaches and dizziness are worse. And I’m having pain in my sciatic which is a new and unpleasant experience. Emotionally, still worried over every little twinge, but I’m actually starting to imagine this little baby coming home with us and I am slightly panicky at how much stuff I need to accomplish before then.
4. Any appointment updates? NIPT blood draw was on Monday, so results should be in at the beginning of December. We are still debating about being Team Green.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? I’ve been ragey the last couple days and BF is annoying me because he thinks the BMB raises my anxiety when other people have issues. The losses do make me sad and anxious, but there’s also so much support here that I need and value. This is the same argument that we were having about TTGP. He only sees the bad parts.
6. Any milestones coming up? First trimester is really almost over! I can’t wait.
7. GTKY: if you could live in any historical era, what would it be and why? It probably sounds crazy to say this, but I would love to live in the 40s. I know it was wartime and people were dealing with so much tragedy, but it’s a part of history that I’ve always found found fascinating. I would love to be able to talk to people and experience it in real time. I was able to go on a trip to DC with about 50 WWII vets last year and it was a life-changing experience to hear about what they went through.
BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
Baby girl born 6/19/19
TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
IVF with PGT:
Standard Antagonist:
ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
Duostim (Standard Antagonist):
ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
ER #6 10/9/2021 9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
FET #1 11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
Baby boy born 7/19/22
TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
FET #3 planned Jan 2024