Hi guys!!!! There’s a baby in there!!! It’s measuring 9 weeks and 1day. Even though I don’t think that’s right I will take it because that’s 3 days closer to the second trimester! Thank you all for your support today. I really felt it. edit: heart rate of 181!
I have been forcing myself myself to go out into the bigger board but I’m more comfortable in here. Last pregnancy I was ALL over things but then I had no baby, was stuck inside because of winter and all the time in the world. I keep getting worried I’ll be left out lol.
I called my my doctors office and the nurse basically said no Doppler until 12 weeks and didn’t seem inclined to schedule an US. I’m sure I could push it but I think it might be in my best interest to work through the anxiety and wait it out. Will see if I can actually do that or not
@ncm1919 I’m sorry you’re having so much anxiety. I get it *hugs* honestly I think we would only really be reassured if we had an ultrasound every day PGAL brain is a joy stealer.
I love being on this board and I really appreciate all of you. I don’t know if I can adequately express how grateful I am to all of you for supporting me today. It meant so much to me to check in and see you guys asking after me .
@antera23 I’m so happy that your ultrasound went well! And your ultrasound looks super clear! I wish my OB had such a good machine.
So, I have yet another appointment next week that I’m sneaking in because I couldn’t hardly handle the wait between week 8 and 12. I’m going to be visiting family in Colorado for Thanksgiving, and I actually have better insurance coverage there than here, so an OB appointment is completely free for me, and I figured why not. So I’m going to get one more peek at the baby before having to wait for the end of the first tri. It’s not something I would have normally done, but PGAL brain won’t let me relax with such a long wait (especially because this is the exact time frame my loss happened in).
So DS was invited to a bday party that is today. It is at the same place that we had his party. I thought nothing of it until today when I was like oh man....the day of his party was the day we went to the hospital for our movement check and found out we lost our daughter. I hope today doesn't trigger anything.
Well I survived. I was okay the first 30 min and then we went into another room and I just had all these memories come flooding back. Of conversations I had with people that day about her. I mean it was a happy party just afterwards wasn't.
@sparklingdiamond I am sorry today was one of the tough ones. I find my triggers are so much worse when they come out of left field, rather than being braced for them a little. I hope as the years go by, they are fewer and father in between for us both. Are you taking it easy for the rest of the weekend?
*TW* Spoiler
Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
Today is world prematurity day. I had to delete my FB app. Because a lot of the TTTS groups I am in have a surviving twin that did come home from the NICU. My FB memory for today last year was my Husband and DD wearing purple in honor of the day. Abe was still in the NICU and we thought we would be bringing him home. He passed 9 days later though. I find it so odd that Shepherd passed in utero just days before the wave of light for world pregnancy and infant loss awareness and that Abe passed away during world prematurity month, after 24 days fighting in the NICU.
This time of year sucks.
*TW* Spoiler
Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@meatballs37 I am so sorry it was a hard day for you too I agree, I hope our hard moments get fewer as time goes on. We have my mom and brother coming over to do Thanksgiving tomorrow, so will be getting ready for that and will be a nice distraction. Sometimes FB can be both a good thing and bad thing. It's nice that at least we can turn it off and stay away when we need to. Sending you big hugs today.
Thanks ladies. I just wonder when it will ever not make me feel so empty. I am hoping since this is our first year, that next year will be a little easier. Especially if we get to bring this baby home.
How is everyone hanging in this weekend?
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Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
I'm starting to really dread Tuesday. I'm trying to prepare myself for news I don't want. I tried using my doppler today even though I knew it was too early. Silence, as expected.
@sparklingdiamond and @meatballs37 I’m so sorry the two of you have had hard days. I am sure eventually anniversaries and events will get easier for us. But I’m still waiting on that to happen too. I cried at least five or six times this week over different things that reminded me of my mc.
Waiting is awful. Did they at least get you in early in the morning on tuesday so you don't have to stew all day long?
*TW* Spoiler
Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@meatballs37 Nope, it's at 4:00. I have to work, so I didn't want to get bad news and then be in the office all day. Last Tuesday was almost impossible.
Re: PGAL Week of 11/11
@bakerstreetboys and @bumblebee0210 We are happy today with this good news from you ladies!
@antera23 FX for a great appointment today.
Still thinking of you @antera23
edit: heart rate of 181!
I have been forcing myself myself to go out into the bigger board but I’m more comfortable in here. Last pregnancy I was ALL over things but then I had no baby, was stuck inside because of winter and all the time in the world. I keep getting worried I’ll be left out lol.
I called my my doctors office and the nurse basically said no Doppler until 12 weeks and didn’t seem inclined to schedule an US. I’m sure I could push it but I think it might be in my best interest to work through the anxiety and wait it out. Will see if I can actually do that or not
I love being on this board and I really appreciate all of you. I don’t know if I can adequately express how grateful I am to all of you for supporting me today. It meant so much to me to check in and see you guys asking after me
So, I have yet another appointment next week that I’m sneaking in because I couldn’t hardly handle the wait between week 8 and 12. I’m going to be visiting family in Colorado for Thanksgiving, and I actually have better insurance coverage there than here, so an OB appointment is completely free for me, and I figured why not. So I’m going to get one more peek at the baby before having to wait for the end of the first tri. It’s not something I would have normally done, but PGAL brain won’t let me relax with such a long wait (especially because this is the exact time frame my loss happened in).
@sparklingdiamond That’s really tough. I hope that you are ok at the party.
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
This time of year sucks.
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
How is everyone hanging in this weekend?
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
Waiting is awful. Did they at least get you in early in the morning on tuesday so you don't have to stew all day long?
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
I have my NIPT test on wed morning and am nervous about it. Even though that's not even what picked up our issues with my daughter.