June 2019 Moms

PGAL Week of 11/11

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Re: PGAL Week of 11/11

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  • @ruby696 Thinking of you. Hoping you get good news next week. 
  • Of course I googled tilted uterus, no HB. Seriously, what's wrong with me? Now I'm reading all these positive stories, and its giving me hope I didn't really want to have. My midwife said the sac looked great, as did my uterus. So now I've half convinced myself we just couldn't see the baby, even though I know better. Hope springs eternal, I guess.
  • Oh @ruby696 I’m so sorry your appointment didn’t go well. What a disappointing feeling. I really hope next week goes better. I did the same thing with google after one of my hard appointments. I even went into my follow up ultrasound after the d&c thinking that there might just maybe be another baby in there. I think we hold on until there’s no hope left. So many creepy internet hugs coming your way. 
  • @ruby696 oh dear I am so sorry that today was not what you hoped for. I am so sorry in advance for this next week and the stress. You will be in my thoughts. <3 
  • @ruby696 so sorry to hear today didn't go well, none of us should have to go through such stress.  Will keep positive thoughts for a good outcome next week.
  • @ruby696 I honestly thought that 6w2d could still be too early to hear the heartbeat though which is why they don't always do u/s around 6 weeks at the OB?
  • 1. How many weeks are you? 9 + 4

    2. Previous loss(es)? MMC Dec 2017, CP Jul 2018

    3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Physically: was feeling better, then spent yesterday in bed exhausted and vomited for the first time in a while. Today a little better. Emotionally: not great. The two losses last week hit me really hard, esp our butterfly friend, since she and I had both had mildly concerning first US's and doctors' reassurances that all was AOK. 

    4. Any appointment updates? 10w apt Friday morning, with US thank god. I have no idea if this one going well wil make me feel any better. 

    5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Just the typical MMC with very symptomatic first-tri rant. It's a bad combination because (a) there is no silver lining to my feeling terrible, and (b) the prospect of another loss means spending a month sick for nothing, which right now, I feel like I could not do again. 

    6. Any milestones coming up? They are passed, technically, but with no US who knows. 

    7. GTKY: What is your pet peeve? Not sure. A lot of things annoy me. No turn signals is definitely one.

    TTC History
    TTC #1 Sep 2017-Sep 2018 
    BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
    BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
    BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
    Baby girl born 6/19/19

    TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
    BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
    BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
    RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
    IVF with PGT:
    Standard Antagonist:
    ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
    ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
    ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
    Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
    ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
    Duostim  (Standard Antagonist):
    ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
    ER #6 10/9/2021  9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
    FET #1  11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
    Baby boy born 7/19/22

    TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
    IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
    ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
    ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
    FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
    FET #3 planned Jan 2024



  • @ruby696 Ugh I'm sorry for the bad apt. It is true that these things happen-- my doctor actually had an US at 6 1/2 weeks with no HB, and went back in a week and it was fine. Living in the unknown is terrible. 
    TTC History
    TTC #1 Sep 2017-Sep 2018 
    BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
    BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
    BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
    Baby girl born 6/19/19

    TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
    BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
    BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
    RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
    IVF with PGT:
    Standard Antagonist:
    ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
    ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
    ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
    Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
    ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
    Duostim  (Standard Antagonist):
    ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
    ER #6 10/9/2021  9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
    FET #1  11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
    Baby boy born 7/19/22

    TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
    IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
    ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
    ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
    FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
    FET #3 planned Jan 2024



  • @ruby696 I know none of us can say anything to make you feel better but I will be thinking about you and hoping for a quick week. And also that it was just too early for a HB. I don’t think it’s wrong for you to have hope but I also understand your hesitation. (Hugs) 
  • @ruby696 I’m so so sorry for a disappointing ultrasound. I’ll be thinking of you in the next week. I hope time passes quickly for you and that your next appointment goes well.
  • @ruby696 I hate that you are in the dreaded limbo phase. I wish I could say something that will take away your worry this next week. I will say that with DD they had trouble getting her heart rate alllll the time in the beginning (Doppler and US). I had an anterior placenta with her and have a tilted uterus. I wonder if that is what is happening with you as well. 

    Praying the next week goes by quickly for you and the next appointment is definitive good news. 
    *TW* Spoiler
    Me: 33 DH:30
    DD: Aug '16
    10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
    10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
    11/2/17 Twin A & B born 
    11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
    Benched 6 months 
    BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18  BO
    BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18



  • @ruby696 oh I am so sorry to see that your US was so distressing. I’m sure the next week will be very difficult as you wait to see what the result will be. It seems impossibly unfair that you might have to go through this again. I don’t want to get your hopes up, but I agree with @sparklingdiamond in that I thought 6 weeks was possibly early for the HB (if you’re even a day or two off). I’ll be thinking of you and sending good thoughts and hugs for you and your family. 
  • ncm1919ncm1919 member
    edited November 2018
    @ruby696 sorry your appointment didn’t go the way you wanted. Thinking about you. 

    @dntstpbelieveing great news. Congrats!

    im at an all week work thing and trying to fill out the survey is overwhelming. Can I skip this week?

    I’m 9+3 today and still grappling with which tests to take. I think we are going to do the NIPT and just be done with it. For some reason they want me to wait until 12 weeks. Feels like a lifetime. If everything goes ok we want to do a Christmas Eve sex reveal with my daughter opening a gift in front of the tree. I want to be surprised too in front of family. I can’t wait until June. You ladies have more willpower than I do. 
  • @ruby696 I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know there's nothing we can say to make this week any easier for you, but I hope it goes by quickly and that you can be gentle with yourself during this stressful time. I'll be crossing my fingers and hoping hard for better news next week.
  • I'm trying so hard to not freak out about my ultrasound tomorrow, but I'm on the verge of tears just thinking about it.  I was such a bitch to DH last night and I realize it's because of nerves/stress, but I didn't communicate that to him.  Poor guy just avoided me all evening.  This u/s is where things started to go wrong with my MMC and I'm so scared it's going to happen again because my symptoms aren't as strong anymore.
  • @bakerstreetboys I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping your ultrasound goes well.

    I’ve got my first appointment in an hour, and I’ve been nervous all morning. Luckily DH is going with me, which will be great if all goes well, but he will be a worse mess than me if everything isn’t okay.
  • @kjr9519 good luck at your appointment!
  • I’m in the waiting room for my 10 week appointment and I am SO NERVOUS because most of my symptoms are gone. 
  • @kjr9519 Thinking of you today!
  • @bakerstreetboys I hope you get good news tomorrow! PGAL brain is ruthless.
  • @bakerstreetboys will be thinking about you today/tomorrow. I’ve been mean to DH lately and he knows it’s bc of stress/not feeling well but I still feel bad. 
    @kjr9519 @carleym93 hope all goes well with your appt today, keep us updated!
  • Yay for a good appointment @carleym93 ! Hopefully you are able to enjoy the pregnancy now. 
    @nmbrcrnchr1 My H knows that I’m stressed, and he’s super laid back and forgiving, but I stil feel bad too. It does annoy me though when he starts with the “everything will be fine this time”.  He’s trying to make me feel better but it’s grating if I’m in the wrong mood!
  • ruby696ruby696 member
    edited November 2018
    @bakerstreetboys I know the day before is the worst, but please try not to worry too much. Everything is crossed so hard that you have a great appointment tomorrow.  <3

    @carleym93 So glad your US went well!

    @kjr9519 I'll be thinking about you today. I hope you have a great appointment.  <3

    ETA: spelling
  • Good luck to everyone with an u/s today. I am in the waiting room waiting for mine now and they are running way behind of course.
  • @sparklingdiamond Good luck with the u/s!

    @ruby696 I was thinking about your appointment yesterday; did they only do an abdominal u/s?

  • Good luck everyone!!!
  • @bakerstreetboys No, it was TV. My midwife did comment that the sac was "way up there," and she had a hard time getting the contrast she wanted. But my symptoms are going away, so I'm not optimistic. 
  • @ruby696 Damn :(  I'm still holding out hope for you.  I'm happy to see that you're still around :)
  • @sparklingdiamond @kjr9519 FX for today! 

    @bakerstreetboys I hate when DH tries to be optimistic about things when I'm stressed. It makes me feel like he's trying to cover up my fears with false truths. I'm sorry you are so stressed and I hope today passes quickly for you  <3
    TW
    Me: 33 DH: 32
    DS:  March 2014
    DD: May 2015
    BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
    BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
    BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
    BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN  <3 

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  • I’m glad you’re sticking around @ruby696 I’m anxious to hear about your appointment next week and hoping for the best.
  • @kjr9519 I’m so glad to hear your appointment went well! 
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