Of course I googled tilted uterus, no HB. Seriously, what's wrong with me? Now I'm reading all these positive stories, and its giving me hope I didn't really want to have. My midwife said the sac looked great, as did my uterus. So now I've half convinced myself we just couldn't see the baby, even though I know better. Hope springs eternal, I guess.
Oh @ruby696 I’m so sorry your appointment didn’t go well. What a disappointing feeling. I really hope next week goes better. I did the same thing with google after one of my hard appointments. I even went into my follow up ultrasound after the d&c thinking that there might just maybe be another baby in there. I think we hold on until there’s no hope left. So many creepy internet hugs coming your way.
@ruby696 oh dear I am so sorry that today was not what you hoped for. I am so sorry in advance for this next week and the stress. You will be in my thoughts.
@ruby696 so sorry to hear today didn't go well, none of us should have to go through such stress. Will keep positive thoughts for a good outcome next week.
@ruby696 I honestly thought that 6w2d could still be too early to hear the heartbeat though which is why they don't always do u/s around 6 weeks at the OB?
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Physically: was feeling better, then spent yesterday in bed exhausted and vomited for the first time in a while. Today a little better. Emotionally: not great. The two losses last week hit me really hard, esp our butterfly friend, since she and I had both had mildly concerning first US's and doctors' reassurances that all was AOK.
4. Any appointment updates? 10w apt Friday morning, with US thank god. I have no idea if this one going well wil make me feel any better.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Just the typical MMC with very symptomatic first-tri rant. It's a bad combination because (a) there is no silver lining to my feeling terrible, and (b) the prospect of another loss means spending a month sick for nothing, which right now, I feel like I could not do again.
6. Any milestones coming up? They are passed, technically, but with no US who knows.
7. GTKY: What is your pet peeve? Not sure. A lot of things annoy me. No turn signals is definitely one.
@ruby696 Ugh I'm sorry for the bad apt. It is true that these things happen-- my doctor actually had an US at 6 1/2 weeks with no HB, and went back in a week and it was fine. Living in the unknown is terrible.
@ruby696 I know none of us can say anything to make you feel better but I will be thinking about you and hoping for a quick week. And also that it was just too early for a HB. I don’t think it’s wrong for you to have hope but I also understand your hesitation. (Hugs)
@ruby696 I’m so so sorry for a disappointing ultrasound. I’ll be thinking of you in the next week. I hope time passes quickly for you and that your next appointment goes well.
@ruby696 dammit I'm so sorry you didn't get good news today. Being in limbo is the absolute worst, and I hate that you have to deal with this uncertainty. I am keeping my fingers crossed that next week brings good news. If looking for hope gets you through this week there is nothing wrong with that, even if it feels crazy. Sending you big hugs
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@ruby696 I hate that you are in the dreaded limbo phase. I wish I could say something that will take away your worry this next week. I will say that with DD they had trouble getting her heart rate alllll the time in the beginning (Doppler and US). I had an anterior placenta with her and have a tilted uterus. I wonder if that is what is happening with you as well.
Praying the next week goes by quickly for you and the next appointment is definitive good news.
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Me: 33 DH:30 DD: Aug '16 10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
Had my US. Last apt I was measuring a week behind where I thought I was. But it appears I have caught up. MFM next Monday then regular OB again in 2 weeks.
@ruby696 oh I am so sorry to see that your US was so distressing. I’m sure the next week will be very difficult as you wait to see what the result will be. It seems impossibly unfair that you might have to go through this again. I don’t want to get your hopes up, but I agree with @sparklingdiamond in that I thought 6 weeks was possibly early for the HB (if you’re even a day or two off). I’ll be thinking of you and sending good thoughts and hugs for you and your family.
im at an all week work thing and trying to fill out the survey is overwhelming. Can I skip this week?
I’m 9+3 today and still grappling with which tests to take. I think we are going to do the NIPT and just be done with it. For some reason they want me to wait until 12 weeks. Feels like a lifetime. If everything goes ok we want to do a Christmas Eve sex reveal with my daughter opening a gift in front of the tree. I want to be surprised too in front of family. I can’t wait until June. You ladies have more willpower than I do.
@ruby696 I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know there's nothing we can say to make this week any easier for you, but I hope it goes by quickly and that you can be gentle with yourself during this stressful time. I'll be crossing my fingers and hoping hard for better news next week.
I'm trying so hard to not freak out about my ultrasound tomorrow, but I'm on the verge of tears just thinking about it. I was such a bitch to DH last night and I realize it's because of nerves/stress, but I didn't communicate that to him. Poor guy just avoided me all evening. This u/s is where things started to go wrong with my MMC and I'm so scared it's going to happen again because my symptoms aren't as strong anymore.
@bakerstreetboys I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping your ultrasound goes well.
I’ve got my first appointment in an hour, and I’ve been nervous all morning. Luckily DH is going with me, which will be great if all goes well, but he will be a worse mess than me if everything isn’t okay.
@bakerstreetboys will be thinking about you today/tomorrow. I’ve been mean to DH lately and he knows it’s bc of stress/not feeling well but I still feel bad. @kjr9519@carleym93 hope all goes well with your appt today, keep us updated!
Yay for a good appointment @carleym93 ! Hopefully you are able to enjoy the pregnancy now. @nmbrcrnchr1 My H knows that I’m stressed, and he’s super laid back and forgiving, but I stil feel bad too. It does annoy me though when he starts with the “everything will be fine this time”. He’s trying to make me feel better but it’s grating if I’m in the wrong mood!
@bakerstreetboys I know the day before is the worst, but please try not to worry too much. Everything is crossed so hard that you have a great appointment tomorrow.
@bakerstreetboys No, it was TV. My midwife did comment that the sac was "way up there," and she had a hard time getting the contrast she wanted. But my symptoms are going away, so I'm not optimistic.
@bakerstreetboys I hate when DH tries to be optimistic about things when I'm stressed. It makes me feel like he's trying to cover up my fears with false truths. I'm sorry you are so stressed and I hope today passes quickly for you
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Me: 33 DH: 32 DS: March 2014 DD: May 2015 BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
@bakerstreetboys I figure I'll at least stick around and offer support until it's official. My doctor mentioned IVF since this will be loss number 5, but we don't want to get into debt when we already have two kids who need our attention and resources. I do have a close friend with a similar story, who did have a baby pop up around 9 weeks, so you never know I guess.
@eleven_ I also hate when DH is falsely optimistic. I know he thinks he being supportive but it feels condescending and dismissive.
The appointment went as well as it could. Baby was measuring one day behind, and the heartbeat was good. I actually got to see it move on the ultrasound, which was a first for me. I was not impressed with the nurse practitioner I saw, but I’ll get to see the OB next time.
Re: PGAL Week of 11/11
Damn it @ruby696 I was so hoping for great news from you. I'm going to cross everything that your outcome is better. Sending hugs ❤
1. How many weeks are you? 9 + 4
2. Previous loss(es)? MMC Dec 2017, CP Jul 2018
3. How are you feeling? Emotionally and physically? Physically: was feeling better, then spent yesterday in bed exhausted and vomited for the first time in a while. Today a little better. Emotionally: not great. The two losses last week hit me really hard, esp our butterfly friend, since she and I had both had mildly concerning first US's and doctors' reassurances that all was AOK.
4. Any appointment updates? 10w apt Friday morning, with US thank god. I have no idea if this one going well wil make me feel any better.
5. Rants/Raves/Questions? Just the typical MMC with very symptomatic first-tri rant. It's a bad combination because (a) there is no silver lining to my feeling terrible, and (b) the prospect of another loss means spending a month sick for nothing, which right now, I feel like I could not do again.
6. Any milestones coming up? They are passed, technically, but with no US who knows.
7. GTKY: What is your pet peeve? Not sure. A lot of things annoy me. No turn signals is definitely one.
BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
Baby girl born 6/19/19
TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
IVF with PGT:
Standard Antagonist:
ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
Duostim (Standard Antagonist):
ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
ER #6 10/9/2021 9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
FET #1 11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
Baby boy born 7/19/22
TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
FET #3 planned Jan 2024
BFP 11/30/2017 | MMC 12/31/2017
BFP 6/22/2018 | CP 6/27/2018
BFP 10/5/2018 | EDD 6/14/2019
Baby girl born 6/19/19
TTC #2 May 2020-November 2021
BFP 7/18/2020 | MonoDi Twins | MMC 9/10/2020
BFP 11/7/2020 | CP 11/9/2020
RE Consult January 2021 | Dx "borderline DOR"/RPL
IVF with PGT:
Standard Antagonist:
ER #1 3/27/2021 7R | 5M | 3F | 2B | 1 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic
ER #2 4/22/2021 10R | 7M | 3F | 2B | 0 normal, 2 aneuploid
ER #3 5/19/2021 2R | 1M | 0F
Estrogen Priming Antagonist:
ER #4 7/10/2021 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
Duostim (Standard Antagonist):
ER #5 9/22/2021 13R | 11M | 8F | 5B | 2 PGT-A Normal, 1 low-level mosaic, 2 aneuploid
ER #6 10/9/2021 9R | 6M | 4 F | 1B | 1 aneuploid
FET #1 11/5/2021 | EDD 7/24/2022
Baby boy born 7/19/22
TTC #3 since May 2023 (ntnp)
IVF Started Fall 2023 (Standard Antagonist)
ER #7 10/6/2023 | 9R | 6M | 5F | 3B | 2 aneuploid, 1 high-level mosaic
ER #8 10/31/2023 | 5R | 4M | 3F | 1B | 1 PGT-A Normal
FET #2 11/27/23 | CP (bHCG = 8)
FET #3 planned Jan 2024
@ruby696 dammit I'm so sorry you didn't get good news today. Being in limbo is the absolute worst, and I hate that you have to deal with this uncertainty. I am keeping my fingers crossed that next week brings good news. If looking for hope gets you through this week there is nothing wrong with that, even if it feels crazy. Sending you big hugs
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Praying the next week goes by quickly for you and the next appointment is definitive good news.
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
@dntstpbelieveing great news. Congrats!
im at an all week work thing and trying to fill out the survey is overwhelming. Can I skip this week?
I’m 9+3 today and still grappling with which tests to take. I think we are going to do the NIPT and just be done with it. For some reason they want me to wait until 12 weeks. Feels like a lifetime. If everything goes ok we want to do a Christmas Eve sex reveal with my daughter opening a gift in front of the tree. I want to be surprised too in front of family. I can’t wait until June. You ladies have more willpower than I do.
I’ve got my first appointment in an hour, and I’ve been nervous all morning. Luckily DH is going with me, which will be great if all goes well, but he will be a worse mess than me if everything isn’t okay.
@kjr9519 @carleym93 hope all goes well with your appt today, keep us updated!
@nmbrcrnchr1 My H knows that I’m stressed, and he’s super laid back and forgiving, but I stil feel bad too. It does annoy me though when he starts with the “everything will be fine this time”. He’s trying to make me feel better but it’s grating if I’m in the wrong mood!
@carleym93 So glad your US went well!
@kjr9519 I'll be thinking about you today. I hope you have a great appointment.
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@sparklingdiamond Good luck with the u/s!
@ruby696 I was thinking about your appointment yesterday; did they only do an abdominal u/s?
@bakerstreetboys I hate when DH tries to be optimistic about things when I'm stressed. It makes me feel like he's trying to cover up my fears with false truths. I'm sorry you are so stressed and I hope today passes quickly for you
DS: March 2014
DD: May 2015
BFP: 12/24/17 CP: 1/2/18 @ 4w 3d
BFP: 1/26/18 CP: 2/2/18 @ 4w 4d
BFP: 5/16/18 MMC: 6/15/18 @ 7w 5d
BFP: 9/25/18! EDD: 6/9/19 TEAM GREEN
@eleven_ I also hate when DH is falsely optimistic. I know he thinks he being supportive but it feels condescending and dismissive.
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Good luck to everyone else who had appointments today! I’m holding you in my heart