Sometimes I daydream about life before having a kid. Like now when my daughter is throwing a fit for no discernible reason and will not let me near her.
Of those, one pregnancy ended in a spontaneous abortion at full term or close to it. Recently, I found out another of those gave birth at 33 weeks to a child with complications and down syndrome who passed in the NICU 2 weeks later. So now not only do I feel awful for those moms/families, I feel super guilty for feeling jealous in the first place. Then of course I selfishly worry about my own pregnancy.