PGAL brain is kicking in. I don't see my OB until the 6th. My RE offered to do a 9 week u/s which would be next week and I keep going back and forth on whether or not to take him up on it. I keep trying to tell myself to relax and everything is fine but PGAL brain blows.
Just do it! It'll be nice to have that reassurance. It sounds like you have a great RE.
They really are great. I'm getting a doppler this weekend and if I can find the HB (which I know isn't likely) I won't call, if I can't I think I'll call Monday.
Had my US this morning and there's a baby in there!!! Measuring 8+2 just like it should be, strong lil heartbeat, looks like a blob with lumps Still waiting for it to completely sink in!
@ladystout08 I am also team just do it. It is nice to have the reassurance. I took my OB up on all of the early scans she offered. Even when she 'released' me from needing early care she told me I could come back whenever I wanted so I elected for one more (which was during week 9)!
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
Well I have a nurse appointment for a doppler check. I felt completely neurotic but she said I wasn't allowed to feel that way and it was no big deal. I was crying and telling her I felt ridiculous and she just kept saying that we are allowed to have anxiety and that's why they're there.
Today during lunch. I feel so crazy but I just can't shake the what if today. Especially after my loss last fall. I saw the baby and heard the heartbeat and four days later my baby was gone. So I'm just feeling it.
Ugh I hate that @sparkymcgeee! I feel like when I can’t find the heartbeat with a Doppler it makes me more frantic thus harder to find. Hoping the nurse finds it quickly and puts your mknd at ease.
I caved and messaged my RE to see if I could get an U/S next week. I won't be upset if they say no since I graduated to OB but I hope they'll let me do their walk-in clinic.
@sparkymcgeee Hoping the appt provides you with much needed relief!
@ladystout08 That’s great that you can be seen next week! Reassurance is so important in these early weeks. I’ve considered getting a Doppler, but I’m terrified I won’t get a HB just because of baby’s positioning/my own incompetence and make myself even more anxious.
@dubcompanion My RE nurse is probably going to be like "Idk why you didn't just say yes after the last one, lol" About the doppler, I got one, mostly for reassurance but also so DS can hear the baby. I toyed with it today but not sure if I was hearing my own HB or the babies. My OB actually told me I could bring it with and she'd help me figure it out.
@ladystout08 look up Dopplers On YouTube. There’s a big difference in the way the heartbeats sound! I found my own so many times before finally finding the baby’s!
Baby is perfect! It was squirming all over so they couldn’t pick it up clearly. They got the handheld U/S (which was freaking incredible and I wish I had) and they found baby right away and the little heart was beating away. I literally saw the baby doing flips in there and it was adorable. Thanks for all the positive thoughts ladies.
1. How many weeks are you, and how big is baby? 9w2d the size of a cherry
2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? mentally I have accepted this pregnancy but am still so nervous about loosing another. Physically I am a mess.. my MS Lasts all afternoon into the evening, I'm so so tired and my belly feels like it's constantly stretching which I guess it is lol. It's nice having the symptoms because they are reassuring but my gosh am I miserable
3. Any appointment updates? I had my dating ultra sound on the 21st and it was so great to see the baby moving and that little heart beating. Measuring right on track.
4. Rants/Raves/Questions? I'm still terrified to have sex, with my last pregnancy I lost what looked like my entire mucus plug the next morning after a good "session" and am convinced it had something to do with my loss.. my poor hubs.. have any of you ladies dealt with something similar? How do you convince yourself sex is safe ?
5. GTKY: How did you meet your SO? mutual friends at a party.. I love that man of mine.
@missamiissssaa DH and I have still not had sex. I'm 12+0 today. We had sex throughout my pregnancies with my first two kids with no problems, but with my first loss we had sex one evening and I cramped so bad and then started bleeding the next morning, so now I've been traumatized by the association. Plus, after 6 years and IVF to get KU with this one, I'm not taking any chances. My RE said I could resume normal sexual activity but it's just better for my mental health right now not to. DH is pretty understanding. He doesn't like it, but he gets it. I told him I wanted to wait until after the NT scan (which is this week) to maybe consider it. Since semen makes the uterus contract, my plan is to use protection or pull out which will hopefully avoid the cramping.
Oct 16: Spontaneous BFP | m/c @ 9w1d (massive SCH) | D&C Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN May 17: IUI #2 = BFN Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies) Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = cancelled due to missed ovulation
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = BFP! Beta 1: 201 Beta 2: 585 Beta 3: 3254 Beta 4: 9715
U/S 19May - one bean measuring on track with a HB of 125! EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
@tosh24 I get it, I feel the same way after our loss in Jan. DH is also really understanding, bless him. Good to know about the protection/pull out... would have never crossed my mind, but that's smart! Now if kissing didn't absolutely gross me out at the moment, LOL
@missamiissssaa@tosh24 We had the same thing happen with our first loss. And while I know logically that having sex is not what CAUSED the miscarriage, it is what triggered the bleeding, and so that association is there. With DD we did not have sex until after first tri was over and we got good NT and NIPT results. With the progesterone we avoided anyway.
This time we actually didn’t abstain. The first time was scary. And honestly each time I still go to the bathroom all day freaked out that I will see something.
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I had a nightmare last night that i started bleeding really heavily. I woke up and my heart was beating so fast. I ran to the bathroom and of course everything was fine. Pgal brain is infiltrating my dreams now!
I had a nightmare last night that i started bleeding really heavily. I woke up and my heart was beating so fast. I ran to the bathroom and of course everything was fine. Pgal brain is infiltrating my dreams now!
That's one of the worst parts of pgal brain for me. I always have these awful miscarriage dreams and I stress out.
I had a nightmare last night that i started bleeding really heavily. I woke up and my heart was beating so fast. I ran to the bathroom and of course everything was fine. Pgal brain is infiltrating my dreams now!
That's one of the worst parts of pgal brain for me. I always have these awful miscarriage dreams and I stress out.
I had a really awful one last week. I do think they were the worst for me in first tri with DD. That’s one thing I don’t remember following me around the entire time thankfully. Though I know I had maybe 1-2 in third tri.
AFM I’m in PGAL overdrive today. It’s been 3 weeks since I’ve seen LO. I have my NT on Thursday, but since I was 12 weeks yesterday I also stopped taking my progesterone. Last night was the first night without it. I’m so afraid that was the only thing keeping me going.
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I had a nightmare last night that i started bleeding really heavily. I woke up and my heart was beating so fast. I ran to the bathroom and of course everything was fine. Pgal brain is infiltrating my dreams now!
That's one of the worst parts of pgal brain for me. I always have these awful miscarriage dreams and I stress out.
I had a really awful one last week. I do think they were the worst for me in first tri with DD. That’s one thing I don’t remember following me around the entire time thankfully. Though I know I had maybe 1-2 in third tri.
AFM I’m in PGAL overdrive today. It’s been 3 weeks since I’ve seen LO. I have my NT on Thursday, but since I was 12 weeks yesterday I also stopped taking my progesterone. Last night was the first night without it. I’m so afraid that was the only thing keeping me going.
The dreams seriously suck. I've only had one so far but it's awful.
It's been almost two weeks for me and I wasn't going to have another appointment until next week with my OB. My RE agreed to let me come in for an ultrasound tomorrow and I'm *so* thankful. I hope your NT scan is awesome Thursday and hooray for quitting progesterone, as scary as it is!
I'm scared of quitting progesterone too. I have my appointment next Thursday and I assume I'll stop at that time 12w5d but if I run out of pills before that then I'll just be done and I'm scared. I'm also scared the baby aspirin isn't working. Now that I'm to the point where the placenta is supposed to be taking up the main job I worry the placenta will fail. I saw the baby on Friday so I just have to remind myself of that.
Hugs to those of you who are stopping progesterone. I know how scary it is. My RE wanted me to stop at 10 weeks cold turkey but it freaked me out so I slowly tapered from 10-11 weeks. Been off it for a week now and I am SO FREAKING HAPPY. There definitely is a silver lining - like not having a leaking, itchy vag! You will all be OK. Your babies are good and snuggled and stopping progesterone won't change that, as nerve wracking as it is
Oct 16: Spontaneous BFP | m/c @ 9w1d (massive SCH) | D&C Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN May 17: IUI #2 = BFN Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies) Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = cancelled due to missed ovulation
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = BFP! Beta 1: 201 Beta 2: 585 Beta 3: 3254 Beta 4: 9715
U/S 19May - one bean measuring on track with a HB of 125! EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
@sparkymcgeee I considered just continuing until Thursday and then stopping after my NT but my pharmacist husband was like ‘Nope, you’re listening to your OB’. +1 to worrying about the baby aspirin as well. So much in first tri is just so up in the air!
Me: 28 DH: 26 Married: November 2015 TTC#1: January 2016 BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16 BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17 DD Born 06/23/17 TFAS: April 2018 BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I’m always paranoid I’ll forget my baby aspirin or something and it’ll make something bad happen! I have such a hard time remembering if I’ve taken all my meds. I finally went out and bought a weekly pill thing so I can visually see what I’ve taken. I too am nervous to stop progesterone. I’m only nine weeks so I still have a little bit at least! I remember last pregnancy when my doctor told me to stop I kept asking if he was sure! It was so nerve wracking.
I am so incredibly sick of people telling me that stress isn't good for the baby. You know what, have three of your children die inside of you and then talk to me. I am allowed to feel anxiety and fear that another child is going to die. I am allowed to be afraid that something could go wrong because it has more times than it hasn't. It's essentially telling someone with a broken leg to walk it off and I'm so sick of it. Until you've been in my shoes please refrain from commenting on how I should react to my fears.
Re: PGAL Check In 6/18
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
Andrea -- FTM at 39!
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
Married: October 2014
Began TTC: April 2015
BFP #1: 9/18/15. EDD 5/18/16. MC 10/26/15. (9w)
BFP #2: 2/27/16. EDD 11/7/16. MC/D&E 4/20/16 (11w)
BFP #3: 9/22/16. EDD 5/29/17. DS born 4/24/17
BFP #4: 5/20/18. EDD 1/23/19.
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
@ladystout08 hopefully they stick to their word and let you come in!
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
@ladystout08 That’s great that you can be seen next week! Reassurance is so important in these early weeks. I’ve considered getting a Doppler, but I’m terrified I won’t get a HB just because of baby’s positioning/my own incompetence and make myself even more anxious.
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
2. How are you feeling? Mentally and physically? mentally I have accepted this pregnancy but am still so nervous about loosing another. Physically I am a mess.. my MS Lasts all afternoon into the evening, I'm so so tired and my belly feels like it's constantly stretching which I guess it is lol. It's nice having the symptoms because they are reassuring but my gosh am I miserable
3. Any appointment updates?
I had my dating ultra sound on the 21st and it was so great to see the baby moving and that little heart beating. Measuring right on track.
4. Rants/Raves/Questions?
I'm still terrified to have sex, with my last pregnancy I lost what looked like my entire mucus plug the next morning after a good "session" and am convinced it had something to do with my loss.. my poor hubs.. have any of you ladies dealt with something similar? How do you convince yourself sex is safe ?
5. GTKY: How did you meet your SO?
mutual friends at a party.. I love that man of mine.
*TW loss and children mentioned*
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
Andrea -- FTM at 39!
This time we actually didn’t abstain. The first time was scary. And honestly each time I still go to the bathroom all day freaked out that I will see something.
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
AFM I’m in PGAL overdrive today. It’s been 3 weeks since I’ve seen LO. I have my NT on Thursday, but since I was 12 weeks yesterday I also stopped taking my progesterone. Last night was the first night without it. I’m so afraid that was the only thing keeping me going.
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
It's been almost two weeks for me and I wasn't going to have another appointment until next week with my OB. My RE agreed to let me come in for an ultrasound tomorrow and I'm *so* thankful. I hope your NT scan is awesome Thursday and hooray for quitting progesterone, as scary as it is!
DS 05/29/2013
M/C 02/14/2017
M/C 06/05/2017
C/P 03/01/2018
BFP 05/17/2018 EDD 01/27/2019
I'm also scared the baby aspirin isn't working. Now that I'm to the point where the placenta is supposed to be taking up the main job I worry the placenta will fail.
I saw the baby on Friday so I just have to remind myself of that.
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more
*TW loss and children mentioned*
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019
Married: November 2015
TTC#1: January 2016
BFP #1: 5/02/16 - MC: 5/27/16
BFP #2: 10/06/16: 6 - EDD: 06/20/17
DD Born 06/23/17
TFAS: April 2018
BFP #3: 03/21/18 - CP
BFP #4: 04/23/18 - EDD 01/04/19
I too am nervous to stop progesterone. I’m only nine weeks so I still have a little bit at least! I remember last pregnancy when my doctor told me to stop I kept asking if he was sure! It was so nerve wracking.
I lost my angels 07/2010, 04/2017, 10/2017
Meimsx no more