How far along are you? Any milestones? 8ish weeks. We'll find out today if I'm past my milestone or not.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Still mostly good, some moments of not feeling great, but no puking which is a miracle for me.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Extremely high since I'm about to go for my next ultrasound. I think if this appointment goes well I'll be able to relax a little bit.
4. Any appointment updates? No update yet. Appointment is in 2 hours, I'll update once it's over.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): I had a great dinner out with some mom friends last night, it was a nice distraction from being anxious about today. I also only have 3 days left of my internship and then I graduate! Pretty excited about not having to put pants on every morning.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Probably teleporting. I love going places but I hate travel, and my family and good friends are spread out all over the country.
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Nine weeks by LMP, same day as my BO + MMC dx! Medium stressed because it's the day again, but this time I've already seen an embryo and heard the heartbeat. All I know is that it's not another BO, but we're not out of the dark yet.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Better! B6 supplementation is keeping 90 percent of the invisible nausea away. Boobs are making it hard to sleep, but I'm managing. The first meal of the day is the hardest, I just have no appetite.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? More anxious about buying another house & moving again TBH. Trying to keep the calm though, I don't want to stress out too bad. I already notified DH that I will be having a tiny glass of port tonight with dinner.
4. Any appointment updates? I'll see my OB again next week. Probably just dating, since the last ultrasound was a BO check, and we saw that I was measuring 3-4 days behind LMP estimation. NDB, but still FX.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Dear Diary, I wish I was more productive during the day. We're moving in 4-6 weeks, and I still have boxes that need to be sorted for trash/donations/recycling. Each day that I say that I'm going to fill my car with donations I get bogged down in the details "donate to a local thrift store?" "donate to a Kansas City women's shelter?" "which one" "what are the hours" and by the time I am almost ready to commit, I get a wave a nausea and need a nap after eating...then it's time for me to cook dinner.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Photographic memory. It may not be an actual superpower (because some people really do have it) but I sure as hell don't have it and would love it. If I had photographic memory I would start collecting professions and languages, so that when DH retires we could literally move anywhere in the world and be just fine. Tokyo is our number one expat location.
NTNP since Dec 2012 | TTC since Jan 2016 Dx: Unspecified IF BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
@echo-charlietango We moved about a year and a half ago and my purging didn’t really happen, so I just ended up moving all the crap . Not ideal and I’ve still not gone through it all. A little bit at a time!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
7w4d (milestone’s not for another month or so)
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Mostly just tired and incredibloat - allergies have been killing me so I resorted to starting Claritin last night. I hope it helps (and doesn’t make me sleepier!)
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Okay for now. Taking it a day at a time.
4. Any appointment updates?
Had second to last (hopefully) RE appointment yesterday. Measuring right on track (maybe a day ahead per the sono?) and HB was 144 bpm. I wish this was more reassuring, but we’ve measured right on track with a healthy heartbeat before (at 8w2d w/first pregnancy) and that still didn’t end well . Last RE appointment scheduled for next Tuesday AM then I won’t have my first OB appointment till the end of the month.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Mostly just bored at work. DH is back from a work trip today.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
Boundless energy sounds great to me right now, but that could just be because I’m so damned tired at the moment.
About me: Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2 ***TW***
Natural BFP 8/10/16 --> mc our NIPT-normal little girl at 11w5d on 10/1/16 As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10 Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B) IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal) IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal) **New RE** IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!) FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17 IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal) Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts) IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals) FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231) Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
----- TFAS! FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
@coco2787 Good luck at your appointment this morning. I really hope you get good news, pass your milestone, and that this takes the edge off a bit for you.
@lexidawg Also thinking about you. I hope the bleeding has subsided, and they find that everything is looking great in there!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 8 + 6/Passed my loss date, have seen the HB a few times 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Really not bad. My boobs feel like they may pop, and I'm still irritable AF, but not much as far as nausea goes. 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? A LOT better. At my 7 week appointment, my RE said my odds of having another loss were down to 5%. I had my first u/s at my OB yesterday, and was still measuring on track, and the little Duderino had a healthy HB on 176. It's eased my anxiety a lot. 4. Any appointment updates? I am going back in 2 weeks to just hear the heartbeat (before my roadtrip), do the labwork for the Harmony NIPT, and then I have to do an hour-long glucose test. I have NIR PCOS, and did a 2 (or 3?) hour fasting glucose test a little over a year ago, and all my numbers were fine then, but I guess they are being proactive since I'm still taking Metformin. I'm not really worried about it, and I have to go in for an appointment that day anyway, so oh well. 5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Uh well I missed work on Monday because I tweaked my back somehow, and pretty much couldn't move. I went to the chiropractor, which helped, and I'm feeling better now. That just kind of set me behind work-wise, since Mondays are typically pretty busy, so I had like an additional 100+ emails to sort through yesterday. Other than that, things are good. 6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Invisibility for sure.
Thanks everyone! Everything went well at the RE this morning. Baby measuring right on track and good heartbeat at 6w6d of 123. He looked all over and said he found a tiny pocket of fluid outside of the uterus that could be causing the bleeding. He said if he wouldn't have been specifically looking for it, he wouldn't have seen it. He doesn't think it's an issue at all and hopes it will resolve quickly since it's small. He did say unfortunately, some women are just haunted by bleeding. UGH!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 8w5d 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Feeling good for the most part. Nausea here and there but not as bad as it was. Sore boobs. Some fatigue, but that’s better too. 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Right now I’m between ok and not ok. I have an ultrasound tomorrow. I hope everything is good and then I can relax a little after that. 4. Any appointment updates? Tomorrow! 5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Just hanging out with my little one. I think we may announce to family on mother’s day. My sil is due about 2 weeks before me after a long infertility struggle and then a round of ivf. So I’ve been putting it off until I feel like she’s in the clear and I definitely don’t want to steal her thunder. So I think we will finally tell mil but ask her not to mention it to sil for now (who lives across the country so that shouldn’t be too hard). 6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Teleportation would be pretty sweet. Then I could go back to Hawaii without a gagillion hour flight.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Bloated, gassy, tired, and on and off nausea, although I can feel it easing up
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Nervous. My 8w appointment was great, so I really have no reason to be nervous, I just am.
4. Any appointment updates? My next appt is 5/21 the day we leave for vacation. They will try a doppler and if can't distinguish 2 heartbeats, they'll do an US. I'm praying for a perfect appointment, I'm just nervous about that feeling you get as they're looking for HBs where you can't breath. I hate that feeling.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Counting down seconds to my next appointment and my vacation.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Teleportation for sure. I hate traveling. I'd love to be able to beam myself somewhere.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 6+3 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Nausea set in last week. That and the exhaustion, ugh. 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? I have been pretty good, but waiting on that first ultrasound before I can semi-relax. 4. Any appointment updates? Tomorrow I have my first ultrasound appt. Cannot freaking wait. It has been a long wait. 5.
What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever
(Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): I am trying to be in a better mood this week. Last week I was a straight up b!tch to my poor husband. 3rd pregnancy and I never remember being this moody. 6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Uhhhhh, my brain is apparently too fried to think of anything right now.
Thank you for all the well wishes. Appointment went well! Growth was on track from 2 weeks ago, still measuring 4 days behind but that’s no different than it was. HB of 167
Me: 35 H: 35 Married: 4/5/13 "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I will always love you. That's where I'll be waiting." ~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #1: 11/12/12 EDD 7/25/13 Baby boy: 7/27/13 BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18 BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18 RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28 BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19 BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@lexidawg and @coco2787 yippeeeee! So happy to hear good news from both of you!
@echo-charlietango- do you just do b6 with no unisom? I have been feeling really good but went one day without both and it was a lot. Maybe i'll try just the b6?
@artemis618 incredibloat! lol so much this.I feel like i'm getting to the point of less active bloat, but there is NO sucking in happening and it seems like my belly is just soft.
@Hollyyyyy Sorry you hurt your back- my low back has been tweaking SO easily lately. But it usually resolves if i try to walk it out a little bit. Glad you're feeling better now, though!
@rosebud332 I totally feel you on "between ok and not ok". I feel like one second i'm totally confident and then the next i am convinced there's something wrong. I can't wait till my next appt. Thinking of you tomorrow.
@texas_t my next appt is right before we leave too! I think it is great that i will get to feel reassured before my trip, but I have this terrible fear that we will get bad news and i won't be able to go/enjoy it. But, trying to think positive!
@Fruitcove7 yay for a US tomorrow! Hope it goes awesome!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 8w6d- well past my loss, saw a hb at 6 weeks. 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? With the help of modern chemistry (unisom and b6) I'm feeling pretty great. didn't take it sunday night and regretted it on monday
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Usually fine. No reason NOT to feel fine. But there are still times i don't feel fine. I feel like my next US is forever away. and anything could have happened. 4. Any appointment updates? Nothing till the 25th. Like i said, I feel like it's so far away. And my in-laws are coming in that day and i'm leaving for a vacation 3 days later. So if the appt goes great, then i will be thrilled. If it does not go great, then there will be a lot to deal with.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Finished my semester at the university (I'm on a 10 month contract, yay!), started my summer job (less hours, yay!), got a badass haircut (yay!), it's super sunny (yay!), going to my in-laws family reunion this weekend (maybe surprisingly, yay!), I really want a beer after work these days (Boo). So life is pretty good
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? I am definitely on team teleporting. I love to go places and don't usually even mind the drive there, I just hate the drive home!
@morgantu Correct, no unisom! My plan was to implement baby steps, and add unisom if the 25mg B6 wasn't up to muster. But luckily I just needed that B6. FWIW I have never taken unisom and am weirdly apprehensive about sleep aids. Congrats on your semester completion & badass hair cut! As a grown woman with a mohawk, I am a big fan of badass hair cuts
NTNP since Dec 2012 | TTC since Jan 2016 Dx: Unspecified IF BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
@echo-charlietango ok i'm gonna try to step down to just b6. I do feel more comfortable with that then with unisom too. But it is working, so i will definitely go back to it if need be. It's the first sleep aid i've ever taken, but i don't really notice a difference. That said, I've always been a really good sleeper, so it doesn't feel a lot different to me.
@lexidawg I'm so glad for you! I had the exact same thing happen, and it made the following spotting much less unnerving, since I was expecting it.
@coco2787 YAY! I know it is scary to be a few days off, but at least the growth has been consistent and you got to see a healthy HB! Such great news.
@morgantu Wow, you have so many good things going on! Also, I know it isn't the same, but there are some pretty good NA beers out there. I had a NA IPA a couple of weeks ago and could not taste the difference at all...I just didn't get the buzz that I normally would from IPA, haha. NA wine though, that's a completely different, very sad, story
@morgantu and @echo-charlietango If it makes any difference to y'all, it's actually an antihistamine and not a dedicated sleep aid, FWIW. I need help sleeping right now anyway, even though I'm exhausted, I welcome the help the Unisom has given me. Before getting pregnant, I used to take Benedryl at night. I would keep doing it except I replaced it with the doxy version on Unisom. If just the b6 is helping, that's awesome, though!
@texas_t thanks for the info! I wasn't sure what the unisom did, but i know it helps. And if it's safe (which my dr says totally, to the dismay of my mother who is apparently a pregnancy expert from 30 years ago) then i am fine with continuing it until my nausea gets better.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 7w1. Baby is finally big enough for me to see well transabdominally and get a good heart rate of 131 yesterday! 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Lots of nausea, though yesterday and today have been better. I’m getting acne, which I didnt get with my son. I am one of those lucky assholes that doesn’t have skin problems... but I sure do now! I remember getting super hairy with my son, and I am not a hairy person at all. I had to shave my belly when I was pregnant with him!
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? I’m feeling so much better now that I can see a heartbeat. I have to keep reminding myself I am NOT out of the woods yet.
4. Any appointment updates? Nope.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
We are suppose to get a final completion date for our house any day now- so I am frantically trying to finish up last minute touch up things around our current house to get it ready for market.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Read minds. Though I can see how it could turn into a really bad thing.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 10 weeks 1 day. I am past all my milestones. And I am now (ever so slightly) more than 25% through this pregnancy and have less than 30 weeks to go to due date! (Which is AMAZING.)
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? My nausea is getting better in the mornings and midday, but it's still awful afternoons and evenings, basically starting around 5pm until I fall asleep. Otherwise, emotional, sore boobs still, but I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, first tri wise.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? The 10 week ultrasound going well, seeing the heartbeat again and some (very small) wiggles, really helped. The only things I'm still anxious about are the genetic tests (I should know by Tuesday) and my 12 week scan. After that, I feel like I will be able to get more excited than anxious. I am (already) having major, major fear about going from 12 weeks to 20 weeks without an ultrasound, but I am trying to reassure myself that that's normal and I will be able to make it.
4. Any appointment updates? My 12 week scan is two weeks from yesterday. Can't wait!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): My crazy job has (fingers crossed) gotten more tolerable and there's less screaming at meetings, which is a huge relief, stress wise. I am really looking forward to the nausea continuing to improve so I can find time for my writing projects again - I've fallen very far behind with deadlines. (Self imposed, but still.) Otherwise, just grateful things seem to be progressing normally and I cannot wait for the second trimester.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? I know teleportation is much more efficient, but I think I'd prefer the thrill of flying.
I know teleportation is much more efficient, but I think I'd prefer the thrill of flying.
Flying is my backup superpower! After a friend let me fly his plane, I understood my pilot friends (including DH) so much better. I look forward to skydiving sometime
NTNP since Dec 2012 | TTC since Jan 2016 Dx: Unspecified IF BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
@maureenmce@echo-charlietango I went skydiving a few years ago, on a whim! It was fun, would totally do again if it wasn't so expensive. Definitely better than bungee jumping!
@morgantu Noted! Also...bungee sounds scarier than skydiving to me
NTNP since Dec 2012 | TTC since Jan 2016 Dx: Unspecified IF BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
@echo-charlietango Ah, I’d sort of wondered if you were a pilot from your screen name. I’m a relatively new (got my certificate 4 years ago) private pilot. I was supposed to be working on my instrument rating when I got engaged, married, pregnant, then *TW* not pregnant, and have focused the last year and a half or so trying to figure out how best to get (and stay) pregnant again, so haven’t been flying lately
But I’d much prefer to fly the plane than to jump out of it!
About me: Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2 ***TW***
Natural BFP 8/10/16 --> mc our NIPT-normal little girl at 11w5d on 10/1/16 As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10 Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B) IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal) IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal) **New RE** IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!) FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17 IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal) Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts) IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals) FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231) Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
----- TFAS! FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 10wks 1-3 days
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Tired, constipated, dry skin on cheeks, on/off nausea occasionally
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Anxious. I had two friends pregnant & due two weeks ahead & behind me. They both miscarried, just found out about the 2nd one on Monday.
4. Any appointment updates? My next appt isn't until next week Fri. Reg ob check & blood draw for panorama. Really really hoping for an ultrasound too.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever: Not too much. Need to make a meal for teacher appreciation day tomorrow, then making pine box derby car with son tomorrow night at scouts.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Tough one! I guess teleportation although photographic memory would be sweet.
@mommythlegend Oh I am so sorry to hear about your friends. My dear friend was due a few weeks before me in November, we were in a TTC message thread together with one other friend, and then she had a MMC. It's so hard because it amps up the anxiety levels, and also I've been feeling guilt (even though I shouldn't, I know.) It's just so tough and it's especially hard because we live in the same apartment building, and now she has to see me pregnant and I can see on her face it's hard for her (and it will be harder, I'm sure as I get a bump.) I am just praying she gets pregnant again quickly and it works out. I wish the same for your friends who had losses. Hugs.
@mommythlegend I'm so sorry about your friends. 1. How far along are you? Any milestones? 7w 6d. As of Friday, I'll pass my MC date! 2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I feel great in the early morning, but by the 10 am, I start feeling like ass and it gets progressively worse throughout the day. 3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Slowly getting better, but I don't think I'll truly feel better until I'm out of the 1st tri! 4. Any appointment updates? I had my first appointment last Wednesday and I have another next Thursday. Doc said she wanted to do a follow up since I'm so close to the date of my MC in hopes of easing my anxiety. She's a keeper! 5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): My Mom got in yesterday and is visiting until Monday. She is such an awesome houseguest, but I hope I don't get annoyed with having a houseguest that long...I'm kind of irritable right now. But, we have some fun times planned, so I'm sure it'll be fine! 6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Yeah, I'm going to have to agree with teleportation on this one! Add me to the list of people that just want to get there already, damnit!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones? I am 6 weeks, 2 days, so past my loss.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? I feel exhausted, bloated, constipated, and am having invisible nausea.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Seeing the heartbeat last week helped, but I think I will feel much better after first tri, so 6 more weeks!
4. Any appointment updates? My initial medical history appointment is all set for the 21st. That feels like so long to wait!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): I cannot stop eating! I don’t want to gain as much weight as I did last time, but carbs keep calling my name. 6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? I would love the ability to read minds.
Guys, work has been VERY stressful and awful yesterday and today (to the point that I am trying to leave this job early because I am so worried about miscarrying under this stress and workload) and last night and today I've been cramping. I haven't had any spotting so I know it's probably fine, but I am so scared and could use any good thoughts coming my way.
@maureenmce Sending prayers and positive vibes your way! I am sorry that you are under such stress. I know it’s hard to think positive sometimes, but cramping is completely normal!
Re: PGAL check in w/o 5/9
8ish weeks. We'll find out today if I'm past my milestone or not.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Still mostly good, some moments of not feeling great, but no puking which is a miracle for me.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Extremely high since I'm about to go for my next ultrasound. I think if this appointment goes well I'll be able to relax a little bit.
4. Any appointment updates?
No update yet. Appointment is in 2 hours, I'll update once it's over.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
I had a great dinner out with some mom friends last night, it was a nice distraction from being anxious about today. I also only have 3 days left of my internship and then I graduate! Pretty excited about not having to put pants on every morning.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
Probably teleporting. I love going places but I hate travel, and my family and good friends are spread out all over the country.
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
Better! B6 supplementation is keeping 90 percent of the invisible nausea away. Boobs are making it hard to sleep, but I'm managing. The first meal of the day is the hardest, I just have no appetite.
More anxious about buying another house & moving again TBH. Trying to keep the calm though, I don't want to stress out too bad. I already notified DH that I will be having a tiny glass of port tonight with dinner.
I'll see my OB again next week. Probably just dating, since the last ultrasound was a BO check, and we saw that I was measuring 3-4 days behind LMP estimation. NDB, but still FX.
Dear Diary, I wish I was more productive during the day. We're moving in 4-6 weeks, and I still have boxes that need to be sorted for trash/donations/recycling. Each day that I say that I'm going to fill my car with donations I get bogged down in the details "donate to a local thrift store?" "donate to a Kansas City women's shelter?" "which one" "what are the hours" and by the time I am almost ready to commit, I get a wave a nausea and need a nap after eating...then it's time for me to cook dinner.
Photographic memory. It may not be an actual superpower (because some people really do have it) but I sure as hell don't have it and would love it. If I had photographic memory I would start collecting professions and languages, so that when DH retires we could literally move anywhere in the world and be just fine. Tokyo is our number one expat location.
And yes, @coco2787 and @lexidawg - thinking of you both this morning
Dx: Unspecified IF
BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks
BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
@echo-charlietango We moved about a year and a half ago and my purging didn’t really happen, so I just ended up moving all the crap . Not ideal and I’ve still not gone through it all. A little bit at a time!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
7w4d (milestone’s not for another month or so)
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Mostly just tired and incredibloat - allergies have been killing me so I resorted to starting Claritin last night. I hope it helps (and doesn’t make me sleepier!)
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Okay for now. Taking it a day at a time.
4. Any appointment updates?
Had second to last (hopefully) RE appointment yesterday. Measuring right on track (maybe a day ahead per the sono?) and HB was 144 bpm. I wish this was more reassuring, but we’ve measured right on track with a healthy heartbeat before (at 8w2d w/first pregnancy) and that still didn’t end well . Last RE appointment scheduled for next Tuesday AM then I won’t have my first OB appointment till the end of the month.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Mostly just bored at work. DH is back from a work trip today.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
Boundless energy sounds great to me right now, but that could just be because I’m so damned tired at the moment.
Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2
***TW***
As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10
Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for
IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B)
IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal)
IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal)
**New RE**
IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!)
FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17
IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal)
Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for
IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts)
IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals)
FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231)
Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
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TFAS!
FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
@lexidawg Also thinking about you. I hope the bleeding has subsided, and they find that everything is looking great in there!
@echo-charlietango Good luck at your appointment next week.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
8 + 6/Passed my loss date, have seen the HB a few times
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Really not bad. My boobs feel like they may pop, and I'm still irritable AF, but not much as far as nausea goes.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
A LOT better. At my 7 week appointment, my RE said my odds of having another loss were down to 5%. I had my first u/s at my OB yesterday, and was still measuring on track, and the little Duderino had a healthy HB on 176. It's eased my anxiety a lot.
4. Any appointment updates?
I am going back in 2 weeks to just hear the heartbeat (before my roadtrip), do the labwork for the Harmony NIPT, and then I have to do an hour-long glucose test. I have NIR PCOS, and did a 2 (or 3?) hour fasting glucose test a little over a year ago, and all my numbers were fine then, but I guess they are being proactive since I'm still taking Metformin. I'm not really worried about it, and I have to go in for an appointment that day anyway, so oh well.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Uh well I missed work on Monday because I tweaked my back somehow, and pretty much couldn't move. I went to the chiropractor, which helped, and I'm feeling better now. That just kind of set me behind work-wise, since Mondays are typically pretty busy, so I had like an additional 100+ emails to sort through yesterday. Other than that, things are good.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
Invisibility for sure.
8w5d
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Feeling good for the most part. Nausea here and there but not as bad as it was. Sore boobs. Some fatigue, but that’s better too.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Right now I’m between ok and not ok. I have an ultrasound tomorrow. I hope everything is good and then I can relax a little after that.
4. Any appointment updates?
Tomorrow!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Just hanging out with my little one. I think we may announce to family on mother’s day. My sil is due about 2 weeks before me after a long infertility struggle and then a round of ivf. So I’ve been putting it off until I feel like she’s in the clear and I definitely don’t want to steal her thunder. So I think we will finally tell mil but ask her not to mention it to sil for now (who lives across the country so that shouldn’t be too hard).
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
Teleportation would be pretty sweet. Then I could go back to Hawaii without a gagillion hour flight.
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)? Bloated, gassy, tired, and on and off nausea, although I can feel it easing up
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)? Nervous. My 8w appointment was great, so I really have no reason to be nervous, I just am.
4. Any appointment updates? My next appt is 5/21 the day we leave for vacation. They will try a doppler and if can't distinguish 2 heartbeats, they'll do an US. I'm praying for a perfect appointment, I'm just nervous about that feeling you get as they're looking for HBs where you can't breath. I hate that feeling.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here): Counting down seconds to my next appointment and my vacation.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be? Teleportation for sure. I hate traveling. I'd love to be able to beam myself somewhere.
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
6+3
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Nausea set in last week. That and the exhaustion, ugh.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
I have been pretty good, but waiting on that first ultrasound before I can semi-relax.
4. Any appointment updates?
Tomorrow I have my first ultrasound appt. Cannot freaking wait. It has been a long wait.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
I am trying to be in a better mood this week. Last week I was a straight up b!tch to my poor husband. 3rd pregnancy and I never remember being this moody.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
Uhhhhh, my brain is apparently too fried to think of anything right now.
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
Married: 4/5/13
"You know that place between sleep and awake,
that place where you can still remember dreaming?
That's where I will always love you.
That's where I'll be waiting."
~Peter Pan
*TW*
BFP #2: 10/29/17 MMC dx @ 9 weeks
BFP #3: 2/2/18 MC 2/7/18
BFP #4: 3/2/18 MC 3/9/18
RPL testing and hysteroscopy: all normal
BFP #5: 4/1/18 MMC dx @ 14 weeks ----> genetically normal girl
Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue 9/28
BFP #6 11/5/18 EDD 7/20/19 Rainbow baby girl born 7/23/19
BFP #7 12/8/2021 EDD 8/22/2022
@echo-charlietango- do you just do b6 with no unisom? I have been feeling really good but went one day without both and it was a lot. Maybe i'll try just the b6?
@artemis618 incredibloat! lol so much this.I feel like i'm getting to the point of less active bloat, but there is NO sucking in happening and it seems like my belly is just soft.
@Hollyyyyy Sorry you hurt your back- my low back has been tweaking SO easily lately. But it usually resolves if i try to walk it out a little bit. Glad you're feeling better now, though!
@rosebud332 I totally feel you on "between ok and not ok". I feel like one second i'm totally confident and then the next i am convinced there's something wrong. I can't wait till my next appt. Thinking of you tomorrow.
@texas_t my next appt is right before we leave too! I think it is great that i will get to feel reassured before my trip, but I have this terrible fear that we will get bad news and i won't be able to go/enjoy it. But, trying to think positive!
@Fruitcove7 yay for a US tomorrow! Hope it goes awesome!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
8w6d- well past my loss, saw a hb at 6 weeks.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
With the help of modern chemistry (unisom and b6) I'm feeling pretty great. didn't take it sunday night and regretted it on monday
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Usually fine. No reason NOT to feel fine. But there are still times i don't feel fine. I feel like my next US is forever away. and anything could have happened.
4. Any appointment updates?
Nothing till the 25th. Like i said, I feel like it's so far away. And my in-laws are coming in that day and i'm leaving for a vacation 3 days later. So if the appt goes great, then i will be thrilled. If it does not go great, then there will be a lot to deal with.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
Finished my semester at the university (I'm on a 10 month contract, yay!), started my summer job (less hours, yay!), got a badass haircut (yay!), it's super sunny (yay!), going to my in-laws family reunion this weekend (maybe surprisingly, yay!), I really want a beer after work these days (Boo). So life is pretty good
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
I am definitely on team teleporting. I love to go places and don't usually even mind the drive there, I just hate the drive home!
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
Dx: Unspecified IF
BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks
BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
@coco2787 YAY! I know it is scary to be a few days off, but at least the growth has been consistent and you got to see a healthy HB! Such great news.
@morgantu Wow, you have so many good things going on! Also, I know it isn't the same, but there are some pretty good NA beers out there. I had a NA IPA a couple of weeks ago and could not taste the difference at all...I just didn't get the buzz that I normally would from IPA, haha. NA wine though, that's a completely different, very sad, story
*Rainbow 8/2015*
*Expected Rainbows 12/2018*
*Loss of Twin 5/2018*
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
10 weeks 1 day. I am past all my milestones. And I am now (ever so slightly) more than 25% through this pregnancy and have less than 30 weeks to go to due date! (Which is AMAZING.)
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
My nausea is getting better in the mornings and midday, but it's still awful afternoons and evenings, basically starting around 5pm until I fall asleep. Otherwise, emotional, sore boobs still, but I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, first tri wise.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
The 10 week ultrasound going well, seeing the heartbeat again and some (very small) wiggles, really helped. The only things I'm still anxious about are the genetic tests (I should know by Tuesday) and my 12 week scan. After that, I feel like I will be able to get more excited than anxious. I am (already) having major, major fear about going from 12 weeks to 20 weeks without an ultrasound, but I am trying to reassure myself that that's normal and I will be able to make it.
4. Any appointment updates?
My 12 week scan is two weeks from yesterday. Can't wait!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
My crazy job has (fingers crossed) gotten more tolerable and there's less screaming at meetings, which is a huge relief, stress wise. I am really looking forward to the nausea continuing to improve so I can find time for my writing projects again - I've fallen very far behind with deadlines. (Self imposed, but still.) Otherwise, just grateful things seem to be progressing normally and I cannot wait for the second trimester.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
I know teleportation is much more efficient, but I think I'd prefer the thrill of flying.
Dx: Unspecified IF
BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks
BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
Dx: Unspecified IF
BFP#1 Nov 2017 • Blighted Ovum + MMC • D&C at nine weeks
BFP#2 Apr 2018 • It's a boy! • Born 13 Dec 2018
But I’d much prefer to fly the plane than to jump out of it!
Married 6/18/16 (Me 42, DH 44), TTC #2
***TW***
As of 12/2016: AMH 1.42, FSH 6.1, AFC ~10
Self-benched Nov-Dec 2016 for
IVF #1 Jan-Feb 2017 (OCP, testosterone primed antagonist w/HGH - ER 2/2/17 - 12R, 7M ICSI'd, 3F, 0B)
IVF #2 Mar-Apr 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 4/8/17 - 10R, 8M, 8F, 5B, 1 PGS normal)
IVF #3 May-Jun 2017 (testosterone primed agonist/luteal lupron w/HGH - ER 6/4/17 - 14R, 5F, 3B, 0 normal)
**New RE**
IVF #4 Sept 2017 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 9/28/17 - 33R, 18F, 10B, 4 PGS normals!)
FET #1 (medicated) of one PGS normal 4AA XX 11/2/17 - Beta #1 11/11/17 (153), Beta #2 11/13/17 (324), mc at 5w1d on 11/19/17
IVF #5 Dec 2017 - Insemination of 9 frozen eggs from 2012 (8F, 1B, 0 normal)
Jan 2018 - Natural cycle ERA (normal/receptive) & stimming for
IVF #6 Jan-Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/3/18 - 17R, 6M, 4F, 0 blasts)
IVF #7 Feb 2018 (natural start microdose lupron flare w/HGH - ER 2/26/18 - 19R, 9M, 9F, 4B, 2 PGS normals)
FET #2 Apr 2018 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 4AA- XX 4/5/18 - Beta #1 4/14/18 (67), Beta #2 4/16/18 (231)
Rainbow baby girl born 12/16/2018 (via c-section, induced at 39 weeks)
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TFAS!
FET #3 Dec 2019 (natural cycle w/o trigger, w/P4 support) of one PGS normal 3BB XY 12/16/19 - Beta #1 12/24/19 (139), Beta #2 12/27/19 (482)
10wks 1-3 days
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
Tired, constipated, dry skin on cheeks, on/off nausea occasionally
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Anxious. I had two friends pregnant & due two weeks ahead & behind me. They both miscarried, just found out about the 2nd one on Monday.
4. Any appointment updates?
My next appt isn't until next week Fri. Reg ob check & blood draw for panorama. Really really hoping for an ultrasound too.
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever:
Not too much. Need to make a meal for teacher appreciation day tomorrow, then making pine box derby car with son tomorrow night at scouts.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
Tough one! I guess teleportation although photographic memory would be sweet.
@mommythlegend I'm so sorry about your friends.
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
7w 6d. As of Friday, I'll pass my MC date!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
I feel great in the early morning, but by the 10 am, I start feeling like ass and it gets progressively worse throughout the day.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Slowly getting better, but I don't think I'll truly feel better until I'm out of the 1st tri!
4. Any appointment updates?
I had my first appointment last Wednesday and I have another next Thursday. Doc said she wanted to do a follow up since I'm so close to the date of my MC in hopes of easing my anxiety. She's a keeper!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
My Mom got in yesterday and is visiting until Monday. She is such an awesome houseguest, but I hope I don't get annoyed with having a houseguest that long...I'm kind of irritable right now. But, we have some fun times planned, so I'm sure it'll be fine!
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
Yeah, I'm going to have to agree with teleportation on this one! Add me to the list of people that just want to get there already, damnit!
1. How far along are you? Any milestones?
I am 6 weeks, 2 days, so past my loss.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)?
I feel exhausted, bloated, constipated, and am having invisible nausea.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)?
Seeing the heartbeat last week helped, but I think I will feel much better after first tri, so 6 more weeks!
4. Any appointment updates?
My initial medical history appointment is all set for the 21st. That feels like so long to wait!
5. What's been happening in your life this week? Rants/raves/whatever (Dear diary posts and venting are welcome and encouraged here):
I cannot stop eating! I don’t want to gain as much weight as I did last time, but carbs keep calling my name.
6. GTKY: if you had a superpower, what would it be?
I would love the ability to read minds.