Low AMH Level

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

babyhopeful442 glad your levels look good. Try and take it all one step at a time. Jamie gave you the same experience i went through for hsg. In the moment it will hurt, maybe slight cramping after. You should feel fine the next day!

@JamieH2000 Exciting less then a month away for you! Glad you get updates and yes I'm really hoping each day will be a great one!! So will you be transferring one or two day 5 blasts? Or will they first freeze everything?

AFM: Of course I miss the clinic call by like 20 min seriously! At least one of the nurses was nice enough to give me the update. So far I've got one frostie, praying tomorrow i will get more to join this party!! ugh this process! Its so hard not to stress. I had a better response to meds and yet I only have one day 5 which is the worst day 5 from all my cycles

I'm already worried I won't get any back this cycle and I went through so much just to do it! You make so many decisions through this process and have to hope they're the right ones.

I had a crazy dream last night was pregnant 12 weeks with a baby that already had pigtails, wishful thinking shall we say

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

AFM: So I had my day 5 embaby that was a 5AB which is promising. She then mentioned that the other 2 she did freeze and biopsy are pretty poor...gee thanks. I was half asleep when she even told me. I think she graded then a 4BC or a 4CB...which doesn't sound good and I'm confused how on a day 6 they're a grading of a 4. I'm glad I at least have something to test. She mentioned I still have one going and they'll let it go till Day 7 to see...shes doubtful but letting it still thrive if it can. Why I get frustrated not doing a fresh transfer as I believe my lil ones do better inside their mama

Since the board is a lil quite this weekend I'll just add to my earlier post.

AFM: I'm just starting to worry i so dont want to go to the dr but i find myself having to brace myself every time i sit AND (TMI) now when I pee I'm feeling like a hot feeling sensation not burning, but something isn't feeling right. If I have a UTI i'm gonna freak out. Why must things start bothering me when I'm finally ready for an FET and I have so much work getting away for an appt will be so tough!

AND my boobs are feeling sore! Technically tomorrow is a week since ER so AF shouldn't be here for another week ugh!!!!

AC93639 · August 2017

@hopeful_mom I'm sorry to hear about your update on Sunday. I hope that it was nothing and you are feeling better. On the other hand, good luck on the embaby!!!! So excited for you!

AFM: The blood test came back negative. Been trying to get an update from the doctors office on what to do next. Because my body doesnt produce enough hormones for AF, I need to figure out what the RE wants to do. I keep calling the office and they say they will get back to me. Here we are Monday and havent heard back from them- I call twice each day. I'm really getting fustrated and thinking about changing to another RE. I love the doctor but his office staff is horrible.

Side note: I was feeling cramps on Sunday and was spotting. I was a bit surprise because my body has never done anything without birth control pills. Sigh. Trying to not stress about this. I wonder if my body is changing with all these meds?

JamieH2000 · August 2017

@hopeful_mom- i know you wanted more, but I have high hopes you will have at least one more normie in those 3 or maybe 4! I hope its the gender you are hoping for too

I really hope you don't have a UTI! NOT FUN! are you slamming pomengranite juice? some ladies can flush it out on their own I think. You def don't need another thing to stress over. When do you think you will get your results back?

@AC93639- I would think you should get AF on your own since you ovulated this cycle! The drop in the progesterone (trigged by ovulation) would cause AF. Hopefully you can go right into another cycle after this AF. Maybe they can try to up your doses a little to get a faster and more follicles response? Their communication sounds horrible. If you are in an area with some more options, it may not hurt to look. Especially if you go down the IVF route, you will want the clinic with the best communication!

babyhopeful442 · August 2017

@Hopeful_mom you are right! the HSG was not bad at all. I feel so silly working myself up for nothing. I'm sorry to hear that you are not feeling well. I hope it wasn't an UTI, those suck. Any updates on your embabies? Fingers crossed for more normies!

@AC93639 i'm sorry about your blood test

It must be so frustrating not hearing back from the office. I've had a hard time with mine too. I find that when i email them, they get back to me faster. I always feel like they are rushing to meet the next patient when i'm there. I hope you hear back from them soon. I agree with @jamieH2000, if you do go on to pursue IVF, communication sounds very important. My RE just went over IVF with me today and for that price, they better not mess up the timing. Keep us posted.

For me, I finally finished all the testing and other than a decreased ovarian reserve, everything checked out ok. My antral follicle count was only 5

Even with that, My RE still thinks i have a good chance with IUI because of my age. I still have to talk it over with DH, but i think we are going to start IUI in September. The regimen they have me on is Femara day 3-7, followed by Follitism injection days 6,8, and 10, then the trigger shot and promethium suppository following IUI. I was pleasantly surprised to find out that my insurance covers the IUI, but was equally surprised to find out how much the medications amount to. My RE has a mail order pharmacy that they generally refer patients to, my question is should i call around to compare prices, is it worth the hassle or are they generally around the same price range? I was told for all the meds, it will amount to around $1500. Although the price isn't that bad, I'd like to save all i can in case i have to do IVF, which is a pretty $25,000 per round with everything included.

JamieH2000 · August 2017

@babyhopeful442- glad all the other testing came back good and that the IUI would be covered!! The meds are so expensive. Not sure how much letrozole is since I haven't taken it, but I think the trigger should be about $100, the suppositories maybe 50-$100, and the follistim is about $100 per 100 units. So if you are taking 150 per day for those 3 days, it would be $450 total. But you can only buy 300,600 or 900 units. I have used Braun before for a mail order and they have been great if you wanted one other place to check. Also, $25k seems like a lot for an IVF round, unless that includes PGS. For me, it's $12k per cycle plus $4-7k of meds. PGs would add another few thousand but you may want to price compare before you start ivf (hopefully you won't have too)! CNY in New York State has the best prices in the Country. Unfortunately for DOR it often takes a few rounds to have success

when do you get started again?

AC93639 · August 2017

@JamieH2000 You might be right. I stopped taking the progesterone injections on Friday once I found out of the negative blood test. I called the office yesterday and they told me to do the progesterone for 14 days and wait for AF. Once I told them that I have been spotting, they didn’t know what to do. Apparently the RE is on vacation this week. I'm not sure if I should take it or just wait until he comes back from vacation.

@babyhopeful442 I wish they had an email service. Communication has been fine until recently. I'm going to give them another chance and see how it goes. We will be doing IUI this time around and pray this is it. My RE is very nice and allowed me to use any pharmacy I wanted. I have been using IVFMEDS.com. The pharmacy is in the UK. I read many reviews before deciding to go with them. My insurance doesn’t cover the meds so I needed to get them as cheap as possible. I don't have any complaints except that you need to order them ahead as it takes a week for delivery.

babyhopeful442 · August 2017

@JamieH2000 the $25000 is everything included with PGS, medications, and anesthesia. That is if there's no additional assisted hatching, ICSI needed. I am going to start when my period arrives in september. Can you send me the link to Braun? I can't seem to find them on the internet. the only places i've been able to find is walgreen's specialty pharmacy in texas and they charge $474.48 for 3 injections of the Gonal -F. I am still waiting for a reply from my doctor's office regarding if it's follistim or gonal-f. Because my instructions say Follistim 25 units on day 6,8, and 10, but when i called the pharmacies, it only comes in 300, 600, and 900 units. Gonal-f comes in 75units. This all seems very confusing. i'm still trying to take everything in.

@AC93639 I'm not sure what you should do in this instance. I'm surprised they don't have another RE covering for yours while your RE is on vacation. I feel like they should definitely get back to you with an answer from a covering RE.
I looked at ivfmeds.com's pricing and it's incredible! It's so cheap compared to the pricing i've had. You've been using them and the medications have no quality issues? I'm definitely going to look into them. If i could use them, that would be amazing. Do you know if they require a prescription too or can you just order what you need?

JamieH2000 · August 2017

@AC93639- hmm that is hard. I think it depends on how heavy it is on if this is AF or just spotting. Hoping they can help you figure it all out!

@babyhopeful442- the website is www.braunrx.com and they are located in chicago, but will ship anywere. I have never heard of anyone taking only 25 units of follistim... I think most do at least 50 or theres not much point. For example, I was taking the max of 450 per day during my last IVF, so it can go much higher!

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

hi ladie - i'm been crazed that I just checked in on u guys last night and realized I didn't leave my update on my lil ones so here it is...it didn't change much but thats ok too!! So I had my 5 fertilized, had a 5AB blast on day 5, then on day 6 i had another 2 blasts 4BC, quality means they were expanding but didn't start hatching...I was upset originally BUT healthy pregnancies still happen from these lil embabies so I shall still have hope. My other 2 lil fighters they still watched on Day 7...I'm impressed with my girls that both were still in the running! They pooped out in the end and stopped expanding BUT I loved that they fought!!! So that makes another 3 for testing...praying theres normies to come back PLEASE!!!! I can't say I'm not a lil disappointed I didn't get more to test since more eggs were retrieved this cycle...but it is what it is.

Work is insane and couldn't make it to RE today but i'm glad I don't feel worse so hoping i'm finally getting better...but I am going first thing in the morning to make sure...need things to run smoothly and get this body ready for baby

@babyhopeful442- I will say ladies have given load of good advice to you! I just want to add that I know 5 sound bleek BUT each month it changes too...meaning it can go up...down too BUT more then one follie can grow too. One month I had 3 growing from one...so hopefully you'll have some strong ones growing for you!!
As for the gonal F you can take whatever dosage as the knob turns in 12.5 amounts. and they pens probably carry 300, 600. 900...I have a started pen I can send you as I hope to never need it again good through 2018

I took a lot 300 each time...25 one pen will last u a while!!

AC93639 i'm a lil bothered and concerned they dont know what to tell you to do - shouldn't their be a RE on call to talk too??

JamieH2000 u know i'm even more stressed over this round of results...like they have to be good...but know because i had more eggs and produced less blast i'm just panicked. I hate that i get like this each time...come on!! Did the allergic reaction so something...I know have to wait it out

AC93639 · August 2017

Hello Ladies,

@babyhopeful442 Yes, they are the cheapest pharmacy that I have found. I was skeptical to use them at first but let me assure you that I have had great results and no issues with the quality. Because they are from the UK, the packaging is different and sometimes it comes in Spanish (I’m assuming from Barcelona, Spain). I have compared them to the meds here and they are from the same manufacture. So far, I have not had any issues. The delivery does take a while- about 5 days. You want to make sure that you order ahead of time to not miss a dose. They do require a prescription but you can upload it to their site.

@JamieH2000 I took my lunch early yesterday and went to his office. Told them what was going on and they gave me an appointment for Friday. They told me not to take the medication as I started with a heavy flow that afternoon. I hope this is just a bump on the road and we are now on track again. Hopefully start the injections again on Friday/Saturday.

@hopeful_mom I was concerned also. I know they are a small office and I’m a “special” case but they need to figure it out. I think I should be on the right track now since I will see RE on Friday. Praying for you and those embabies!!

AC93639 · August 2017

Good morning ladies! I hope you have a wonderful day.

JamieH2000 · August 2017

@ac93639- good morning to you also!! I hope you have a good meeting with your RE and can get started again right away!! Keep us posted!!

@hopeful_mom- I'm guessing your work is crazy right now but hopefully you are feeling all better!! AF should be here soon right? Lots of prayer to get good news on the embabies soon!!

AFM- just got my meds and starting lupron on Monday. Once I start daily shots, I feel like we are really getting going!! And then it's only about 4 weeks to hopeful transfer. Starting to get nervous about how many embryos we will get!

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

AC93639 morning - hoping you have a good meeting with your RE as well!

JamieH2000 yes work is really keeping me from the boards way too much

Hoping in another week I'll have a wee bit more time

I am feeling betterish not 100%, who knew a clogged follicle could be so irritating!!

Can we discuss I huge my boobs are - I just dont understand it...I'm surprised AF isn't here already as they are killing me. Anyhoo I'm so excited we are in it girl! I'm excited and praying you will have a great amount to play with!!

I wont lie ladies i'm hella nervous with my embabies but I have to pray theres a normie in there I will be devastated with any other outcome!! They took the payment already so I feel like it should be soon....I'm not even calling cause every time i push it, its not great so I'm going to try and stay patient till next week.

edit since AF is heere...

AFM: AF is here and I'm suppose to go the the dr tomorrow but I'm pretty far away and have no desire to get up so early tomorrow

Guess we shall see...

hopefuljj · August 2017

Hello ladies, been quiet over here but have been keeping tabs on you all:)

Last time I popped in I was on vacation and just stopped by to dramatically tell @babyhopeful442 not to worry about the HSG, see?? I'm so glad it was no big deal for you too!! I’m glad your RE is still hopeful for success with IUI!! That’s really wonderful. Because the cost is so high, You could consider making a timeline of when you are comfortable to move on to IVF if you don’t have success in the next couple of rounds. You most certainly do still have age on your side which is great and you have a child already so that is very hopeful!! Hopefully you will have success with IUI soon and won’t even need to think about age or money and just be thinking about your baby soon!

@AC93639 - also hoping this next IUI will be it for you!!!! I’m sorry there was not another RE around to answer your question about the progesterone. I can imagine that must have been frustrating. I”m glad you were able to get into the office and hope you are back on track to try again ASAP. I so wish fertility treatment was free for all the good people in the world trying to have babies!! There are so many not great people out there just popping them out, it only seems fair to give the good folks a fighting chance to procreate to even out the population!

@hopeful_mom - i’m glad you had some real fighters this round!! I’m sorry they didn’t make it but WOW so awesome to have 3 more for testing?!?!! I hope I can have a cycle with something to test or get at least 1 norm one day! I hope you get good news about the embassies tomorrow!!! crossing everything for you! and very excited for you to move on to next steps to prepare for FET!!! wooohooo!!

@jamieH2000 - i can’t believe you are starting so soon!!! THIS IS SO exciting! I am sure you are freaking out about how many embryos you will get, how could you not be! But I bet it will be a perfect amount! This is going to work for you lady!!!

AFM - super late ovulation again post IVF. I really think the first round of IVF plus my thyroid issues have broken me completely. Not feeling any hope but going in tomorrow for a scan to see if i ovulated and if I should consider a luteal phase stim. we shall see. My sister passed her due date, so still anxiously awaiting baby coming. I have had an INSANE amount of pregnancy announcements around me. multiple at work and multiple in my friends and family world. it feels like EVERY text message i get will include a "Guess what, i'm pregnant" message and every team meeting will end or begin with a similar announcement. Good grief.

I would like to bury my head for a few weeks in the sand but know that i can't so chugging along over here:)

sending love you all you ladies!

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

hopefuljj hey!! was actually thinking about you and hoping you had a fabulous time away and are feeling a bit refreshed! Probably a lil hard as you're waiting on your niece to arrive...so bitter sweet I'm sure! You're super strong and I know its going to pay off! I think we all want to just crawl into a whole and i feel like i did that through some of my cycles. I just try to keep moving forward as much as I want to run a way from it all! Hope your scan goes well tomorrow!

AFM: I sucked it up and made it to the dr this am and waited the 2hrs to get my monitoring done. I got the call and countdown to transfer has officially begun. I'm hella nervous!!! So far I just start with 2 estrace a day and we go from there. Ready to start seeing some BFP on this board again

I'm ready for all of us to now move to the next phase

I'm so stressed and nervous one second and then the next I keep telling myself, its happening and its all good!

AC93639 · August 2017

@hopeful_mom That is awesome news! Let the countdown begin. Yes, we need BFP on this board for September! Keeping my hopes up for everyone.

@JaimieH2000 Getting close!! Can’t wait to hear how many embryos you will get.

@hopefuljj Welcome back! I hope you had a good time away. We are hoping to hear some good news for this cycle. If not, we are going to take a break until January. Had some quality time with the family this weekend and its always the same questions “when are you guys going to have babies?”, “Are you guys trying?”, “So and So just got pregnant” etc. Hoping this month is our month for all of us!

AFM: Saw the RE on Friday- after waiting for 1 ½ hours after my appt. time. Started back on the meds on Saturday. I tried talking to him about IUI but he said that its expensive and that we should try TI about 4 times before we move on. He seemed rushed- which is unusual. I will see him again on Wednesday and bring it up again. Happy to start again but praying that this is it.

JamieH2000 · August 2017

@hopefuljj- good to hear from you as always and hope your vacation was excellent! I really hope you ovulate soon. For my last cycle of IVF, i got cysts after so I didn't ovulate for 2 months. I really really hope that doesn't happen for you. It pretty much drove me crazy. So many prayers you can get started again soon and that the third time is the charm! You have been SO strong with your sisters pregnancy, I can't imagine all the other annoucements too. It really doesn't get easier, and I feel like the jealousy of how easy some can get pregnant will never go away. But hopefully soon we will all be pregnant ourselves so we can at least focus on that. Keep us posted!

@hopeful_mom- OMG so exciting to finally be starting the FET process! Do you have an estimated date yet? Hopefully work will quiet down by then? I know this time is scary, but you have at least 5, hopefully more, PGS normal embryos so there is just no way you can't have success and hopefully it will come on the first transfer!!

@AC93639- yay for getting started again, but that is frustrated your RE was rushed! How much do they charge for IUI? I mean I think you need to lay out what each cycle will count in meds and monitoring, and then see how much more an IUI is and how much it ups your chances vs TI. I also think its good to know if each cycle is $1k, $2k, etc so that will also help you figure out how many you want to do before its just worth it to do IVF since the odds would likely be much better...

AFM- sneaking out of work for a few hours today to drive the meds for the donor down to the main clinic during business hours... and then starting lupron tonight! just praying that my ovaries will be quiet and my lining thin for my baseline in just 9 days! Trying not worry too much about everything, as my husband says, we can't control this, but I have already started having nightmares about not getting alot of embryos. Trying to have some faith and stay as relaxed as possible, but as you know, its so hard!

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

@AC93639- I dont like you were rushed after waiting so long for your appt thats super frustrating! I think JamieH2000 gave you great advice as always! I would check the cost on this stuff for sure...I dont know why he wouldn't want to try an IUI...every month counts for sure!

JamieH2000 I know your nerves are going to be full force but your DH is right you can't control this and I think things are going to be great! They have to and theres no reason they shouldn't be. This girl has been a donor before yes? She has had success and you will too! So excited you're getting to start!

AFM: I did take my first dose of estrace last night and continue with that upping it as the days progress. Now I have my calendar, I go in 9/8 for bw/us to see if I'm ready to add in the progesterone and possible transfer 9/14 eeeekkkkkk It definitely makes me nervous to say the least! It just has to work!

hopefuljj · August 2017

@Hopeful_mom AHHHHHHH so exciting!!!!! Let's go BFP!!!!!!!! So excited to be on this journey with you!

@AC93639 ugh, lady, I hate that you were getting rushed, that is so frustrating to me because this is so serious for us and emotional and you deserve better! I think I have a touch of PTSD from my first clinic because it was so bad. I'm sure yours is nothing like that but I can relate to feeling rushed. I agree with Jamie too, I think you need to crunch some serious numbers. It's just good to have a very clear picture of all the math because stuff adds up quickly so a timeline of when to break out the big guns (do people even say that anymore??) is a good idea.

@JamieH2000 I know this might sound crazy but I highly recommend meditation!! Headspace is amazing and I am familiar with nightmares so it might be just what you need to chill yourself out:). Female fertility is also very soothing. It's an App. I love listening to it to go to sleep and it convinces you your body is juuuuust right for conception and varying a baby!!! This is exciting:)

AFM scan was shit. No start for me.
1 follie on the right and 2 on the right all at really different sizes so I Estrogen prime and go back in after AF arrives.
My sister is in labor. I'm on my way to the hospital and I can't stop crying. It's just tears, so I'm not making a total scene on the subway, haha. I am so happy for her I can't even put it into words but at the same time I feel like a selfish ass feeling all sorry for myself right now. Missing my mom and feeling like I need to be the support she would have been for my sister. Why can't she just be here?? And why can't we all just have baaaabbbies!!
Doesn't help that I'm taking the Estrogen pills! Making me extra crazy! Trying to figure out how to just summon the warrior that I know is inside and be bubbly and excited in the waiting room with all these people. I can do this!! I'm going to "super(wo)man pose" in the hospital bathroom before I go find the waiting room. I think it will help summon my inner beast. I need some BFP's on this board to get my spirits up ladies! Let's do this!!! Ok. Here I go! (Insert super man theme song here please and picture me walking off into the hospital with a fancy sunset in the distance)

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

hopefuljj woo hoo your niece is on the way!!! yay!!! I"m so excited for you just wanted to wish your sister an easy and safe delivery!
You are one of the strong ones for sure! Your mom is with you every step of the way! You're going to continue being the rock start you have been this whole time for her!! you got this!! I'm hearing eye of the tiger play

keep us posted - best of luck!!

booooo on your scan hoping the next one will be better!! This doesn't mean anything its all once AF arrives right? Did it show if you ovulated yet or they're still cooking?

LSatturo126 · August 2017

Ladies....not sure if you have read from the beginning of this board but I just wanted to let you all know that I've always kept up with everyone's stories and even though I haven't said a word I've been hoping, praying and wishing for all of you to get those BFP's! I know it is not easy, I know that there are days you want to crawl in a ball and cry your eyes out. I've been there, I did that and probably much worse at times have drank like a fish. BUT, you need to stay positive and just be hopeful. You are not alone and you all have each other for this very reason.

Trigger warning**

As you all know I started with .52 AMH level and after several retrievals and testing, we got two healthy embryos. Put both in last September and we had our baby girl on May 18th. Well I went back to the dr to see how my levels were and they actually went down to 0.03. Yes you are reading that correctly. I was in total shock cuz that's the lowest it goes. But I'm keeping positive and letting you know NOT to give up. Sure I finally have my baby so easier said than done but I'm not going to let some numbers make me think there's no shot. I'm wishing you all the best and will continue to read your stories and will try to support you all best way I can. And if by chance I can get one more healthy embryo I'll let you know. And for all you transfers in September wishing you all sticky sticky thoughts. That's when I did mine and May babies are great! Lol

Kp214 · August 2017

Like @LSatturo126, I have been following you all. It's been hard to find time to respond but know that I'm pulling for all of you. You can do this; whatever path you are on, you can do it. And remember, it's ok to have days that you want to cry and scream and have a pity party. It's ok to do that. What makes the difference is that once you've done that, picking yourself up and taking the next step in your process. It's ok to be sad for yourself when others are pregnant; it doesn't mean you aren't happy for them. You are all strong ladies. You can do this!

@LSatturo126 sending pm.

hopefuljj · August 2017

@Kp214 @LSatturo126 omg ladies, these beautiful messages were so magically timed! You just picked me up and got me rocking back in the world of optimism!!! THANK you! I am so so grateful for so many wonderful women like yourselves out there in the world offering words of encouragement and strength.
@LSatturo126 I am so moved by your courage. And you will have another baby! What are numbers anyway?!?! Congrats on the baby girl, and I hope and pray she gets a little brother or sister soon!!

xoxoxo who knew you could feel so much love for strangers on the internet:)!

hopefuljj · August 2017

@Hopeful_mom thank you so much for your sweet message!!! I was in delivery for a few minutes with her and boy does that not look fun! As for my scan, I did ovulate, just super late and hopefully something crazy will happen by the time I get to CD 3. That should be in about 6 days though....so I'm hoping for miracles! I never seem to recruit anymore than I have at my baseline....so I'm just nervous. Xoxo

LSatturo126 · August 2017

Anytime Hopefuljj! Btw to give you ladies even more hope... remember I have only one working ovary which only makes 2-3 follicles per month, which that ovary has scar tissue around it, I have a small tiny cervix hole and I ovulate a week early at 7 days rather than the normal 12-14 days. If I can get there so can you! All are always welcomed to message me if you want to chat one on one.

hopefuljj · August 2017

Quick update, my sister did great. All natural! Baby girl is perfect, breastfeeding like a champ and momma is glowing:)

LSatturo126 · August 2017

Congratulations to all! Hopefuljj

AC93639 · August 2017

@hopefuljj Congratulations!! That is wonderful news for you and you sister. So glad everything went perfect!

@LSatturo126 & @kp214 Thank you for the kind words and the positivity. We definitely need to hear this.

@jamieh2000 I wasn't able to ask too many questions on Friday, however, I will be coming in with a list this Wednesday. I agree with you. I need to sit down and figure out what to do next after this cycle. Now that I know I can produce my own follies, it would be wise to see if IVF would be a better choice/better odds.

JamieH2000 · August 2017

Wow, so good to hear from @lsatturo126 and @kp214. Thanks for checking in on us and cheering us on! Hopefully we will all be on the other side with you ladies soon

FX that the second children come easier after the first, as I have heard can happen! Will you go back to the RE when you are ready?

@hopefuljj- congrats to your sister. I know this must be bittersweet, but it will be you next, one way or another

Sorry that they didn't see alot of follies, hopefully the priming will get a few more to pop up. It is so hard to be constantly disappointed. You will know when the time comes that you can't take anymore, at least I did. Lots of ladies do find success in the third or fourth or fifth cycle, so I really hope #3 is your magic one.

@hopeful_mom- yay for starting, your transfer will be here before you know it! After so many months of waiting, you will be PUPO before you know it! Hoping your PGS results come soon with great news!!

AFM, my first night of lupron gave me a horrible headache, so going to try to take it later in the evening. whatever it takes though right?

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

Had a feeling my PGS results were in and from my Drs msg I could tell it wasn't good news. Nothing came back normal from this batch so that's obviously upsetting to say the least.

It makes me so angry not to walk away with one good one after all that. So much money and time...
yes I still have 5 good ones but there are no guarantees which makes it all that much tougher! SO much for ending IVF on a high note.

JamieH2000 · August 2017

aww @hopeful_mom I am SO sad to see this update. I know while you are so lucky to have 5, you definitely wanted and deserved more from all the cycles you did. I would be feeling the same way. Hopefully you can take some time to be sad, and then start getting excited for the FET that is only 2ish weeks away. Hang in there chica

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

JamieH2000 ugh being at work and crying is not a good combo...each time the heartbreak is like another MC. I hate it. It's also my age knowing if this doesn't work I won't be able to really try again...why I'm even more of a basket case

The 8 cycles i've been through people can get in one and then some...sigh...and then there are the others that are worse off. I will try to get it out of my system, its just hard!
I'm excited for an FET and keep telling myself i won't need anymore i'm just terrified that I will...

LSatturo126 · August 2017

@JamieH2000 yes if it doesn't happen naturally in the next two months (which if I do, I'm playing the lottery cuz that's basically my chance lol) and if not then I'll be starting for retrieval in oct/nov. gonna be 38 in January and with the AMH of .03 there's not much time. But I'm staying positive! I'm here for you all ladies so stay strong.

@hopefulmom I'm so sorry to hear that but having 5 healthy embryos!!! That's awesome! I did as many retrievals as you and I got only 2. So try to look at the brightside. Xoxo

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

LSatturo126 I was just thinking about u - i'm trying just worried!!

hopefuljj · August 2017

Oh I'm sorry @Hopeful_mom. I totally understand your fears. I think at this point though you just need to look at all the effort you have put in and all the pain and discomfort you have endured and try to be really proud of yourself as well as excited and positive about 5 normal embryos!!! That is a pretty strong number of normies to be starting this next step with:)

Hopeful_mom · August 2017

hopefuljj LSatturo126 JamieH2000

I know I'm suppose to be excited to be moving on to an FET I'm just terrified and hate that I'm crying all the time, I don't want to be this upset while prepping for my FET. Its also my age that is adding all of this extra pressure. And lets add my OH is an ASS and just can't understand any of this.

I'm really disappointed i didn't get another one, its that whole decision time of what do you do and wasting more time. I hate the results too, they are so close to being normal. One had an extra gene a 15 gene, really! I feel like it hurts less when its missing one not when theres an extra one...

hopefuljj I actually missed your earlier posts, so glad everything went well, your sister is a champ!! How big was she? Your sis still looked pretty tiny! Can't wait till its your turn! And your msg is so on point, I have my love for you ladies then at least 1/2 my friends! And you all know WAY MORE of whats going on then they do!

LSatturo126 It is inspiring you're actually back on the board ready to go - you're a champ mama!! I know this has to work and I keep trying to remind myself of that!

JamieH2000 · August 2017

@hopeful_mom- I totally get it.. I would feel the same way. I think you should keep going on, but if it would maybe you feel better to delay one more month just to get in a better mental spot, it may not be a bad idea either. You did start this last cycle thinking you only had 4, since the 1 was inconclusive, so while its frustrating you didn't get any this last cycle, at least now you have 5, with at least 1 of each gender. Try to focus on that good news. I know its hard because so many ladies get that many in 1 round, but there will always be someone with a better situation, and a worse situation too. You have every right to feel sad, but I'm hoping a few more days will get you back to a more hopeful spot. All we can do is everything we are doing, so you just have to take comfort in that for now.

babyhopeful442 · September 2017

@LSatturo126 @Kp214 Thank you ladies for your encouragement. I have honestly never felt like i belonged more than i do here. It's so hard sometimes to even talk about it with my DH let alone friends who can get pregnant at the drop of a hat.

@hopefuljj You are so strong! Congrats on your sister's birth and I'm glad baby and mama are doing well. Karma is always working it's magic. Your kindness will be rewarded. I can't wait when it's your turn to glow

@AC93639 I'm sorry you were rushed. I hate that feeling. How was the meeting with your RE this past wed? Did he go over the financials of IUI/IVF? It's always good to know your options. I was thinking of going straight to IVF since that means i can possibly freeze some normies if i want to have more children in the future since AMH can only go down from here, but then i found out that it would be $25000 each round and decided to start with IUI instead. You can weigh your options when it's all there for you.

@Hopeful_mom i'm so sorry to hear about your embabies

I completely understand the disappointment and i'm sure i would feel the same way after all the work you put in. It is ok to feel the way you do. I agree with @JamieH2000, Just know that you are doing everything in your power and that's the best anyone can do. I'm still cheering for your FET with the 5 embabies! You are almost there! FX for a successful FET and a BFP! Sending lots of HUGS!!

@JamieH2000 Thanks for the website for Braun. Unfortunately, they said they don't ship to texas. But i was able to find a pharmacy not too far from me that was reasonably priced.

AFM, I can't wait to get my IUI started in September. Now i wait for AF.

Hopeful_mom · September 2017

babyhopeful442 25k for one IVF cycle ugh its so pricey! I'm about to take out a loan to pay for all of this! Wish all the luck in the world with your IUI, you are young so hopefully you still have some time to try with that! Your AMH is closer to one too so I still have high hopes for you! Just keeping taking all the vitamins to help keep it in check. Mine was .30 in 201/5 - 2016, and my last check in 2017 it actually was .40 I was thrilled it went up but it was still at bay. Ask what your AFC is when you go in for your next US, that changes to with every cycle. I had 14 at my meeting in 2016 and its frustrating that at many cycles it was almost always under 10. I think my right side wen from having 6...to maybe 3/4. Some ladies make 20/30 with no problem but I do like to know what I"m starting with. Also dont let it freak you out too much as each follie can sprout more then one

JamieH2000 my mental state will never be where i need it to be lets get real

I've been a firm believer if my body is ready then its go time. In fact this morning I said next month at this time i'll be pregnant. I just need to keep moving forward no matter how disappointed I am. How are the meds treating you? Its been a while since you've been on them. Hoping your headaches are better. I've had some brutal ones myself and the worst was waking up with it. Shouldve taken the tylenol before going to bed!

Thanks ladies for all your kind words, i'm trying to think positively. This process just sucks and I wish we had more answers! And I know this will sound crazy for all my ER that i had my RE i got normals from and the 2x now that I had to different male dr I got nothing

I'm sure its a coincidence BUT it PISSES me off to now end! Especially because if I waited one more day I would've had her (my RE) do my ER! Yes I could've lost some eggs in the mix but I'll never know....

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