I'm out on a summer night in my backyard by the fire pit and I've been missing my baby all day. I started breaking down sobbing. I miss him and hate that I'm alone. I miss him and can't stop crying. All I can think is next month he'd be a year old. It's days like this that I wonder if I'll ever have children
I'm sorry. MC is rough. I've had the same thoughts, wondering if I'll ever have children. You can always come join us in TTCAL if you'd like. We have weekly boards and whatnot if you'd like to chat with others having similar experiences, and be able to work through your emotions and talk about your experiences. We'd love to have you! But take the time you need and be kind to yourself. Sending a virtual hug:
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks) MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks) MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP) RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017 MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP) RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017 MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023. Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing. Surgery for endometriosis January 2024 Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
Re: When it hits you
You can always come join us in TTCAL if you'd like. We have weekly boards and whatnot if you'd like to chat with others having similar experiences, and be able to work through your emotions and talk about your experiences. We'd love to have you!
But take the time you need and be kind to yourself.
Sending a virtual hug:
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months. Hopefully FET after that.
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