Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
@Ash_SE just heard back from my clinic, they don't do these tests. They gave me the names of 2 doctors that do that. But probably after multiple m/c
ahhh.
TTC history in spoiler box:
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
@Prudence9 where are you located? Dr Kwak Kim in Chicago is who a lot use and she is affiliated with the lab. I use a Dr in DC but she sends all bloodwork to the Chicago lab. Dr KK takes insurance and will work with you remotely after the initial visit. I was tempted to go straight to her but wasn't keen on flying to Chicago.
@joneser1281 I'm worried you not being here today is a sign your beta wasn't good. Just know we are here for you when you are ready to regroup. And please try to enjoy your vacation.
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
Hi Ladies... Sorry I haven't been able to post all day... It's been a crazy busy day... I've been on the go nonstop... Let me try to catch up...
@cscher2 That's nice that you just had to ask your clinic to do the beta and they were willing to ahead of their usual check day. I don't think that mine would do that. Congratulations on the great numbers! I know it's hard to relax, but I really think you are in it for the long haul! Ugh, I can't believe you have to pay over $100 for those same 3 vials I get for $5. Where is the justice in this world? Can there be IVF welfare? Haha... I know we would all qualify having lost sufficient money in all of this!
@Hopeful_mom Ugh that sucks PIO is $100 for you. I hate having no insurance for this stuff. I mean, I think that once you get as far into IVF stuff as we have, you should be able to get coverage for it. I can see not wanting to let everyone have it, but if you've legit been doing this stuff for years like we have, I think we've more than proven that we need it! Girl, don't even go over to that board right now where people are giving birth. I can't know exactly how you are feeling, but you are definitely justified in feeling that way. I can always remember how old our child could have been from the first CP we had naturally... Because my cousin and friend got PG at the same time and both now have 4 year olds. It does feel like torture sometimes... You just have to know that your time will come! Haha, yes, Brandi was on last season's Famously Single. The new season is also pretty entertaining at times. Thanks for checking on my V... Lol. It's alright I guess. I finished the 3 day yeast treatment and picked up another today at the grocery store to take on my trip. Tonight is my last treatment for the BV. Today I still thought I felt a little irritated at times, but definitely not the hell I was dealing with before. I say don't let it go, it only makes matters worse! You don't want to end up with the double whammy like me lol. However, it could also just be irritation so you never know. The vag works in mysterious ways...
@Ash_SE I can't believe you have to pay $1000+ smackers every few days for your Neutrogena! I know that's not what it's called, but every time I see the name of it, I think of Neutrogena lol. That is awful... How are you affording that? I can't imagine... I know you said about selling your house, but still. Oh my.
@angelbea I'm glad you are back among the land of the living... and no longer smelly lol. It's a good thing you have activities coming up to keep you busy... That definitely helps! Hopefully your little one is nestling in!
@Prudence9 That is absolute horseshit that they want you to suffer through more losses before giving you those tests! Again... Where is the justice?! I am on a crusade tonight...
Alright so I want to thank you all for sending me well wishes and good thoughts today. As I expected, the news was not good. I know I'm not good at being Patty Positive for myself, but what can I say... My gut has never failed me in this process yet. I went in this morning at 11:15... Then I had constant running around all day to prepare for our vaca. I had to take DH's vehicle to the shop to get checked out... Then I had multiple stops to make for shopping... I was getting quite irritated that my levels were not being posted online and no one was contacting me. On Wednesday, they were posted in less than an hour. I hate Fridays for results. I feel like they think it's the weekend already and get lax on shit. Anyway, I called my clinic at 2:30ish because I know if I have to leave a message after 3, it won't be returned until the next day and I wanted to know the deal and my instructions before leaving for vaca. The receptionist told me the nurse was making calls at that moment. So I left a message for her and she called me back shortly after. It was the nurse I love and she was super sweet and apologized... Apparently my RE was at another hospital doing surgery and hadn't had the chance to review my results, release them, or give further instructions. So she told me my levels... HCG dropped from 32 to 21... However my Estradiol and Progesterone levels were great. She said for the most part they usually think failures are due to uterine environment or embryo quality... But based on all of the testing I've had, she personally doesn't think it's uterine environment. She couldn't give me the official word until hearing from the doc, but she assumed I will stop meds and let them know when AF arrives. If it doesn't arrive in the next week, they'll check my level again. Then a little while later she sent me an online message after hearing from the doc. Done with meds and I'm actually scheduled for a repeat beta after I get back from vaca to make sure my level has completely gone down.
I'm not sure where we go from here, but I do know that I need a break. I hope that going on this vacation helps. I've been having some mental breakdowns for sure lately. I just don't know where to turn, I have so many questions in my mind. I hear some of you talking about all of the immune testing and meds and it honestly has my head spinning. I don't know if that's an issue or not for me, but I don't even know where to start with that. I'm not sure which avenue to pursue first... Should I be tested for immune issues first? Should we see if we can test the embryos first? Should I bother to ask for the ERA testing? I don't know what is the best thing to do first. It also does not help that my mother is in my ear telling me she thinks I should stop because she doesn't like me putting all of this stuff into my body. She thinks we should just try on our own for a while. Ok well we've only been doing that for 5 years and where has it gotten us? We obviously still try on our own in between treatment cycles, hoping for a miracle, but I don't think natural pregnancy is in the cards for us. I guess I just have to wait until after this last and final beta and talk to my RE about what she thinks.
Of course, I had to get on FB this evening to a PG announcement... Oh and not just an announcement photo... Oh there's a video too! Where the husband and wife bite into their cupcakes to reveal to everyone on FB the blue inside for gender... Do you want me to slit my wrists now, or later? I'm kidding!!! But seriously... Why does that shit have to happen right when I'm teetering on the edge of insanity? This is a girl I know from hs... Who was big on the bar scene... Drank like a fish... But even worse, smoked like a chimney. Got married a couple of years ago and is already PG. A smoker... How are her eggs freakin healthy?! Whatever... I'm going on a tangent haha. It's probably time for me to get to bed.
I'm sure I will be checking in on you guys while I'm away, but I may not be posting as much, so don't panic... But don't worry, I will be drinking... ALOT. Haha. FX for all of you in the TWW and for those of you coming up with transfers... I'm sorry I couldn't give our thread too much momentum, but I will hope that I sucked up all of the badness so no one else will get any of it! Haha.
Nov. 2016: Hospitalized for small bowel obstruction
Mar. 2017: Diagnostic Laparoscopy = Twist found in intestine - part of small intestine, part of colon, and appendix removed, bowel resection - caused by Endometriosis
May 2017: 3.75 Lupron Depot
June 2017: FET postponed due to complex cysts in breasts
June 2017: Endometrial scratch
Jul. 2017: Baby aspirin, Estradiol, PIO, FET 4AA (lost 1 4AA in thaw) = CP
Ash_SE so u never went to visit Dr KK in Chicago? I asked when I called and they said she has to see you for the consultation first...did you not do that cause your Dr. in in DC used her as a consult?
joneser1281 I have to admit I was getting concerned not seeing an update from you today either. In my craziness I still kept checking in...I don't like what I see. ugh IF sux and I wish i could give you a hug or at least a bottle of wine. creepy internet hugs to you!!! "It also does not help that my mother is in my ear telling me she thinks I should stop because she doesn't like me putting all of this stuff into my body. " I guess our moms are sisters and explains so much literally my mom said that to me the other day. And I'm all like its ok, studies dont show it causes cancer etc...and if it did would I stop. It's not easy, I think all your questions are really valid and I'm curious to see what your RE has to say. Keep preaching! There really should be welfare IVF! Or at least when you've gone through a few...there should be something not just NO! Its just so damn unfair! Does your insurance cover any of the IVF? You're thought of doing another cycle might not be a bad idea! How many frosties do u have left? I would consider getting the others tested, or transferring 2/3 on the next try. I know it sounds coo coo for coca puffs. But I had heard of successes after what you're experiencing, they transferred more and hit the jackpot. You made a very valid point about your first cycle and the endo so anything is possible, frustrating as you had such a good outcome, i know it sucks!! I'm glad you're going away and i hope you have a fabulous time and your vag doesn't cause you anymore grief!! I will miss your posts but will be glad knowing you're off having a good time...as good as you can fake I'm sure!! Our journeys aren't the same BUT we still have the same questions. To immune test or not, that is one of the big questions. Maybe an ERA test could help. You just want to know what the problem is!!! Start checking off all the boxes. Hope you can get more clarity when you get back! UGH FB, of course its always easy for the girl that never had any worries in the world, why is that?? I'm sure she's skinny too, maybe she won't lose the baby weight
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
@joneser1281 so sorry to hear your news! Try to enjoy your vacation! and when you get back you can figure out what's next!
and yes, waiting to have multiple m/c before testing is b.s.
but since I'm already getting ready for a transfer I think I will just hope for the best this time and hope I'm not wasting an embryo on another m/c!
TTC history in spoiler box:
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
Waiting to get the beta drawn. I'm starting to feel nervous. I woke up feeling blah down below. Not quite cramps but a blah feeling of that makes sense.
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
@cscher2 it's 9 dp5dt . Blood was drawn at 8:45 and my transfer was at 9:45 so just about spot on. Still waiting for the phone call. I'm guessing it's BFN and they are looking for the doctor to call me not just the weekend nurse. Oh well.
So just got the call. BFN so not even over 5. My Progesterone was 16 however which she said was excellent. They said it's too early and they don't usually test until 14 dp5dt so they want me to keep taking meds until Thursday and retest.
Which I think is a load of bullshit. If It was going to be positive it would have something by now right? My Progesterone isn't even that great at 16 and I'm on Emdometrin 3 x a day and PIO 1 x a day.
Im debating just stopping meds so I don't waste another $1000 .
I feel so stupid. I really let myself believe this would work. If I just did all the tests and all the meds it would work. I'm just broken. After 10 years and so much money I don't even get anything . At least at first I would get positive tests. Now even with a PGS embryo I get zero. And now I'm in this weird limbo. I don't want to keep doing shots and pills and blooddraws all for nothing.
@Ash_SE I am so sorry for the news!! I think that is why my clinic says they won't do it until 14dp5dt but will draw on 8dp5dt and only tell you they ran it if it was positive. I have to agree with you on the frustration of PGS embryos. After 2 retrievals I had 5 normals and transferred them over 3 FET cycles and nothing. I had 2 fresh transfers earlier and at least had chemicals with those. After all was said and done, we opted for donor as we felt that with everything going on there had to be an underlying issue that couldn't be seen and so far this is looking promising (more so than with my eggs).
I'm just so broken. Is there a sleeping pill or tranquilizer that is safe to use on the .00001 chance this turns around. I just want to check out. I let myself have hope and that is something I haven't done in years.
@Ash_SE my heart sank reading ur post, i'm so very sorry the numbers aren't higher. I can only hope its late implantation. Thinking of you and sending you hugs! If you're RE didn't have any hope they wouldn't have you keep going, maybe u can ask to have a 2nd beta sooner?
cscher2 i dont think I realized you used donor, how many frosties did you get from your cycle? Did you do pgs? How are u feeling?
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
@Ash_SE I'm so sorry to hear your news! But like @hopeful_mom said, I hope it's late implantation. And I totally understand your frustration with PGS embryos... **TW** back in March I had a m/c of a PGS normal embryo **
sending you Internet hugs.
TTC history in spoiler box:
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
@Hopeful_mom I have one more left. I had 6 donor eggs (they are sold in 6 egg lots) and 5 fertilized so the return on such a small number was pretty good. But since the eggs were frozen before we fertilized we were unable to do PGS. Which is ok because the ones we did PGS on previously all failed.
I am very sorry to read your posts @joneser1281 and @Ash_SE. I wish there was some magical thing I could say or do to make y'all feel better. This IF journey just sucks.
I'm at such a loss. I can't even get a chemical anymore.
I really feel like the IF doctors need to incorporate some sort of mental health into this process . I just got a rushed call from the weekend nurse and nothing. Joneser just got a notice in her portal. It's bullshit.
No help coping with re huge letdown of this process. I'm out a dream and hope and $20K since I started this year. Not even a call from the doctor to explain the need to keep taking meds.
I spent all day sobbing and basically having a breakdown where I was having pretty bad thoughts.
I even looked up mental hospitals in the area I could take myself to because I need help. I'm so lost and broken. It's been 10 years of this and nothing to show for it. I just feel lost and like it would be nice to have someone guide me through this mentally and emotionally you know?
I'm doing not as terrible right now and am resolved to finish my meds for my embryo just in case so I don't feel like I let him down quite as bad.
thank you ladies for being here. Right now you guys are my lifeline that feels like you care. My H isn't good at emotions so he isn't just pretending it all didn't happen and has drunk a bottle of wine and is asleep on the couch. Meanwhile I'm sitting here doing my shots tonight and crying and I keep looking at our transfer ultrasound photo and thinking this is all I'll ever have to remember my babies by as with my 4 losses I've never gotten an ultrasound pic so at least this time I got that.
PIO will be super fun in the AM. I want to stop meds so bad but I can't handle the guilt of the .000001 % chance My stopping would kill the embryo.
Ash_SE I"m so sorry you're going through this! really know how you feel all too well, and its just not fair! I wish I had the words to make you feel better! You can PM me anytime. You need to talk to someone in moments like these for sure. When I had my MC my RE did give me some therapists and counselors to see...did i go no, but i shouldve. Also look on the Loss boards here, you'll find you're not alone. You're journey has been a very hard long one that no one should have to endure, and your RE shouldve called you today. Not that I find my RE very helpful under these conditions. I i hit a lot of things the day I found out about my embyros. I had a very black and blue arm and a sore throat. its better to let it out. I'm so sorry and really hope that 1% will come through for you!
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
@Ash_SE - So sorry to hear what you're going through. And sorry you had to hear it from the nurse. I feel like they just treat these things like any other test result sometimes and don't realize how upsetting it is to hear bad news so impersonally. Hang in there. I can't imagine how hard this is for you right now but know there are people here who support you.
@joneser1281 - I'm sorry that this cycle wasn't the one for you either. I hope you enjoy your vacation and enjoy lots of wine! I guess that's the consolation prize- at least that's what I've been telling myself every month since we started trying...
@cscher2 - Congrats on great betas! Seems like beta #2 is when it starts to feel real! It's nice to see that after going through so much this process really does amazing things for so many people! We are lucky that we live in a time when we have so many options available to us!
Me: 31 DH: 31
Married: June 2012
TTC: December 2015
DX: MFI
IVF #1: March 2017- 16R, 12F, 4 blasts, 2 PGS normal (3BB & 3CB)
IVF #2: May 2017- 19R, 17F, 6 blasts, 1 PGS normal (5CC)
@joneser1281- I'm sorry about the betas. This infertility journey sucks... I know. So many people have gotten pregnant and had babies since I started TTC. A vacation maybe just the thing you need, it did help me when my first IVF cycle failed.
@Ash_SE- I'm sorry, but if the RE said to continue taking meds, then probably there is a chance that this will turn around. Hoping for a good second beta.
@Prudence9- You're in SF? I'm in the area as well. Zouves Fertility Center is big on immune testing I hear. But I don't know if you can just do immunology testing here, as looking at your siggy, I don't think you need to do another ER cycle.
AFM- Just chugging along. Had an u/s appointment on Friday and the lining looked great, and looks like we are still set for July 24th. I just ordered a bunch of books to read around the transfer day... My MIL will be temporarily living with us for the next couple of months, so that will be *cough* stressful. She is nice and sweet but I find living with others (including my DH at times!) stressful.
Me: 41 DH: 46 Unexplained infertility/AMA, polycystic ovaries, insulin resistance FET#1(July 2017): eSET of first of 4 PGS-normal embryos, DS born 3/30/2018 FET#2(Oct/Nov 2019): eSET
@cashewchicken oh cool! You live in the Bay Area! Who knows, maybe we go to the same clinic
yes, dr Zouves is one of the names I got. But was told they will probably not see me until i have multiple loses.
If all goes well in my baseline appt tomorrow, I will probably go ahead with another FET without having these tests done.
TTC history in spoiler box:
Me: 42, single Hysteroscopy: 2013 IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility) Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility) IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d. Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled... Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017 Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP. Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN Out of embryos. IVF #2: 03/2018.
@hopefulmom Thank you... I appreciate that. Haha, I know mothers. I can't keep up with mine... One day she's telling me not to give up and that we should just keep trying IVF until it works. The next day she's telling me I should not be putting all of these meds into my body and should stop. It's so frustrating that sometimes I don't even want to talk to her about the topic. I know she means well, but what she doesn't understand (even though I've tried to tell her), is that every time a treatment fails for us, I feel like I'm failing her too. I know how badly she wants to be a grandma and I'm worried that I will not only never be a mother, but she'll never get to be a grandma either. We have 4 frosties left... Though I'm not really optimistic about trying them, being that we've gotten lower numbers with each transfer. I just don't get it... It's positive each time... It hasn't been negative... Why isn't it sticking? We had actually planned to transfer 2 this time (after my fall FET didn't stick), but in the meantime we had found out about my endo. Since we thought that could've been causing the problem as to why the embryos weren't fully implanting, we opted to just do 1 again. No endo anymore, but got the worst beta numbers yet. It just doesn't make any sense. Unless... Here's a mind game... The first two transfers didn't stick because of inflammation or the such from the endo (which is why I had good starting high betas)... But maybe this one didn't stick just because of an abnormal embryo, therefore the low starting beta? Maybe if we did two next time, we would hit the jackpot because one of them could be normal and implant. Lots of big maybes! This is what messes with my mind. Do I really need to pursue immune testing, ERA, embryo testing... Or have our losses thus far just truly been bad luck? Could we still have babies somewhere in those 4 frosties that will happen? Maybe... My RE always seems to think so, but I'm not sure what she thinks now after a third loss.
As for the vag, I don't think it handled sitting in the car all day yesterday well, nor is it handling the beach well either. I'm going to start another YI treatment tonight. I'm pretty sure the BV would be gone after that 5 day treatment... But with the yeast, the OTC cream the gyno told me to take... I don't think it was strong enough. It was like a weaker version of Monistat... Maybe that was because I was PUPO at the time... I feel like it didn't do the job. I had already bought it again though before I came to the realization it may not have worked for me. Hopefully doing it again will do the trick... and I can leave it in all night this time, instead of trying to do it during the day when I'm up and doing stuff. Maybe I just didn't get enough of the meds. And as for the girl who made the FB PG announcement, she's actually not skinny haha. I have always been thinner than her... Go figure. Being fit doesn't get you PG either haha. That shit is also like the announcement that wouldn't die because it STILL keeps coming up in my feed because so many people I'm friends with are "liking" and commenting on it. STFU already! lol.
Thank you @Prudence9 ... I also hope this one sticks for you so you never even have to meet that second loss criteria for testing.
Thank you @cscher2 ... I'm glad things continue to go smoothly for you... You more than deserve it!
@Ash_SE I am so sorry you did not get better news. My heart is breaking for you, and with you. I actually cried earlier when I read your post. I do think it's strange that your beta was so low, but they're having you continue meds until another test on Thursday? Maybe this is something they've seen before that can turn around? I will keep hoping for you... I know how you are feeling. I was quite frustrated that this time my other levels were great. I got higher betas before when my other levels weren't as high. This time my Progesterone was 43.40 and my Estradiol was 229.3 the day of my second beta (11dpt). I know what you are saying too about the doctors. I did get a call though from my favorite nurse... Her bedside manner is awesome. It's like chatting with one of my gfs when I talk to her. I'd probably rather talk to her than one of the REs anyway haha. They see sooooo many patients. We are just one more to them. I don't feel a big rapport with any of the doctors at my clinic. I am just hoping they would have the grace to tell me if they thought we couldn't be helped and not just keep taking our money and giving us false hope. Did you not get any photos of your embryo before the transfer? I received a photo of each one before they transferred them. If you didn't actually get to see what they look like, that makes me a little nervous. I would hope they are not trying to hide something from you... Like maybe the embryo isn't as good as what they are letting on. I remember you saying you got a pic of the little blip on the screen during the transfer, but didn't remember you saying you had an actual embryo pic. You are certainly not alone in how you are feeling though... I am feeling pretty low and lost myself... I'm hoping this is just a low point and I will rebound like I have in the past. You should definitely talk to someone if you're feeling as low as you say. We are always here for you and I am hoping and praying for your miracle this week.
Thank you @mtele ... I have certainly been enjoying consolation prizes.
Thank you @cashewchicken ... I feel the same as you. Everyone I personally know who has gone through some form of IF at the same time as me (we would vent our frustrations to each other) has gotten PG or had their babies already. EVERYONE. The one IF sister I had left went to my clinic (on my recommendation) and got PG after one IUI with NO MEDS! Kill me now! I did 3 IUIs years ago and with meds. It's just not fair... And it seems too that so many women I've gotten to talk to on here have gone on and had their successes too. I'm glad things are looking good for your schedule and transfer! I loled at your comment about your MIL living with you... You are a saint. I could never live with my MIL. She's also nice and sweet, but too much for me. You have my sympathies lol.
So I'm on vacation... and writing you all a long post lol. Shows how well I'm doing huh? I'm trying to have a good time, but c'mon... You guys know how the beach is. Families with small children everywhere! Right beside us on the beach today was obviously a couple with their toddler on the beach for the first time. They were doting on him and taking tons of pictures and I felt like DH and I would glance over every once in a while and feel stabs of pain without even discussing it. We always feel that we stick out like sore thumbs. A somewhat "young" couple with no kids. Do people know? Do they think we probably have IF? Do they think we just don't want kids? I guess we shouldn't care what people think... But being that we clearly notice everyone with kids, are we as noticed because we don't? I'm just finding myself feeling depressed. I'm trying to put on my brave face for DH... I don't want to ruin the vacation by being an emotional mess... and plus I feel like when I break down and let him see how upset I am about yet another loss, HE gets so upset. I feel like this time he was of course bummed that it didn't work, but he was excited to go on vacation and being that I seemed to take the loss in stride (I didn't have any of my mental breakdowns or crying spells in front of him), he did too. There are times when I have cried my eyes out and he's been my rock... and other times when I've done that and he's become hopeless... Or he doesn't want to try anymore or doesn't want me to take all of these meds anymore. It's really dumb, but I guess I'm just trying play it cool because I want him on my side with whatever next steps we take. If I let him see that yet again I'm an emotional wreck, he won't want us to try anymore (maybe)... and that's just not what I want to hear. However, I may have to let up soon... I don't feel like I'm being myself with him, which I hate... Plus I'm tearing up and not letting him see... Or like now he's gone to bed and I'm crying on and off because I'm alone and I can. The weather is not helping either because it's been raining on and off. If that would knock it off, it would surely improve my mood!
FX for the transfers coming up... Sending you good thoughts @slmurphy12! Make sure you let us know how it goes!
Nov. 2016: Hospitalized for small bowel obstruction
Mar. 2017: Diagnostic Laparoscopy = Twist found in intestine - part of small intestine, part of colon, and appendix removed, bowel resection - caused by Endometriosis
May 2017: 3.75 Lupron Depot
June 2017: FET postponed due to complex cysts in breasts
June 2017: Endometrial scratch
Jul. 2017: Baby aspirin, Estradiol, PIO, FET 4AA (lost 1 4AA in thaw) = CP
@slmurphy12 good luck tomorrow - sending u all the sticky vibes in the world!!
@Ash_SE thinking of you and hoping ur feeling a little bit better today, you might not be and thats ok, just know we're all in it together sending u the best!
cashewchicken glad ur getting closer to t-day! Now ur down to the single digit countdown woo hoo!!!
joneser1281 you feel bad yet still made me laugh, I'd love to so the same! See your FB friends on the outside wants to be you thats why she drank and smoked so much Good for her few extra bls didn't bother her, hell its always bothered me!! I think you need to stay OFF of FB for a few! Like why am I going on the PAIF boards, I need salt in my wounds, OH caught me and was not happy with me at all. I cry enough on my own I dont need any extra help! Sorry abut the vag, can you just get away and be pain free - wouldn't that be nice!! I'm sure being on the beach is rough for you emotionally and physically but I think you're the one doing all the thinking. I grantee that there is a couple looking at you and is envious as crazy as that sounds. Maybe you don't have kids OR maybe you left your kids home to enjoy some couple time. I know it hurts so much! And nothing I will say will make it better BUT there will come the time when you and DH will have to make the time to get the "alone time" with one another. Its hard to hide the tears and I do it ALL THE TIME! After this last round of results I cried for 3 days straight and he was away working for some of them BUT he can't take it and then says the same thing. I dont want you going through this anymore, we're going to adopt, it doesn't matter and so on and so on. I have to put a brave face on and keep it moving cause he can't be what i need him to be. He's suffered through MC with his ex, which i love being reminded of....I should be happy that it didn't effect the 2 of you then and you had kids after, r u serious. That's of no consequence to me at all! I'm rambling on, just know i'm in the SAME boat on the DH tip and i get it. Do you really think DH will enjoy this time if you're not. Might be easier to take one night to talk out your feeling and maybe then enjoy the rest of the trip....
I have a friend I've known for years and really keep up with her through FB. She hasn't had it easy, married, divorced with 2 kids....and found a wonderful man and married again, had another baby who just turned 1 and is now trying for another...and she's 42 now. AND I'm still trying for one, yay me! Anyway waiting for my US, I swear I see her DH walk in and not sure it was him but then here the name as hes there to sign the consent in hopes for number 2 since the first one was so easy last year. Thats just so nice. I'm happy for them, thats how it should work...ugh!!
One thought i'm going to leave you with, well question too. have you read a thread not my first ivf rodeo? one gal on thee @thucks just got her second BFP which is very exciting! Her fresh transfer brough her twin girls and the rest from that batch I believe shes been doing FET ready for her 3rd. I believe this was her 6th FET and if it didn't take then she would have to move on to another IVF cycle and try all over again. Many ladies have gone through quite a few FET that had a good number of blasts that didn't do testing and got the BFP with the last few left she transferred. I'm really hoping thats the case for you!!
Crossed fingers my last hellish work day is approaching yay!! SO have some fun for the rest of us!!!
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
@Ash_SE: I just wanted to let you know that I feel you, my heart breaks for you and you are in my thoughts and prayers during this time. I will be thinking of you....
Me: 41; DH: 45 Both married for the first time in our 40s; went straight to IVF after multiple fibroid surgeries (2/17) ER: #1: agonist/antagonist protocol: 19 eggs; 8 mature; 13 fertilized; 1 7-day blast (6BA = abnormal/non-viable) (4/17) ER: #2: same protocol but stimmed an extra 2 days: 16 eggs; 10 mature (5 more matured in lab); 13 fertilized; 2 6-day blasts (5AA & 6BA) & 2 7-day blasts (6BA & 5BB): only 1 Day 6 6BA tested normal! FET on 7/10/17 Beta on 7/21/17: Negative:( (8/17) ER #3: 9 eggs; 6 mature; 3 fertilized; 1 7-day blast (6BA = abnormal/non-viable) Developed severe complications (abdominal bleeding) following egg retrieval which required hospitalization, transfusion & emergency surgery. Done with IVF.
Thank you everyone!! I was trying to stay off the boards to relax I was so nervous! Transfer was at 245, laid there for acupuncture and then came back and at resting! Hopefully gonna go get food later! She had a picture of the embryo and they said it was hatching and looked perfect! And we got to watched the little white glow on the screen! Overall very smooth! And our only other little pgs normal embie is still on ice! I couldn't have asked for it to go any better! FINGERS CROSSED!!!
@Ash_SE my heart just breaks reading your posts! I'm praying for you and your husband. This is such a mentally exhausting process. I truly do feel for you! Please reach out to me if you need someone to talk
@joneser1281 I hope you're enjoying vacation! Despite all the kids, that's always so hard! I feel the same way sometime! Thanks for wishing me luck the transfer went well ❤️
Got our first beta today and it is 32.42 it's low and I'm scared but I'm trying to stay positive. Second one is on Wednesday. I'm praying for Everyone and hope all will work out for the best for all of us.
I'm glad you have the pic of your embaby - my clinic just doesn't do it, i know many of you have it here but mine doesn't...
History of TTC in spoiler box
TTC since 2014 Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30 7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle RE thought I would get at least 10. IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Hi ladies I'm getting a little more OK. Just a huge letdown and weird limbo . I think that was the worst part.
Im 12dp5dt today and am actually at Patient First getting a beta. If negative ( all home tests are) stopping all meds and waiting for my period. Then moving forward. RE office is being jerks and insisting on not testing me again until Thursday but I can't keep on meds that long. I did it through yesterday including PIO but just can't anymore. My hips hurt and for me to avoid getting long term depression I need to move on. I had it bad after our ruptured ectopic and it raised it ugly head sometimes. I found a local therapist I think I may go see. Thanks ladies!
Re: July FET
https://reprosource.com/reprosource_test/thrombophilia-panel/
https://reprosource.com/reprosource_test/natural-killer-cell-activation-with-ivigintralipid-suppression/
https://reprosource.com/reprosource_test/reproductive-immunophenotyping-wnk/
https://reprosource.com/reprosource_test/th1th2-cytokine-ratio/
https://www.immunologysupport.com/treatments.html
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
ahhh.
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
where are you located? Dr Kwak Kim in Chicago is who a lot use and she is affiliated with the lab. I use a Dr in DC but she sends all bloodwork to the Chicago lab. Dr KK takes insurance and will work with you remotely after the initial visit. I was tempted to go straight to her but wasn't keen on flying to Chicago.
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
@cscher2 That's nice that you just had to ask your clinic to do the beta and they were willing to ahead of their usual check day. I don't think that mine would do that. Congratulations on the great numbers! I know it's hard to relax, but I really think you are in it for the long haul! Ugh, I can't believe you have to pay over $100 for those same 3 vials I get for $5. Where is the justice in this world? Can there be IVF welfare? Haha... I know we would all qualify having lost sufficient money in all of this!
@Hopeful_mom Ugh that sucks PIO is $100 for you. I hate having no insurance for this stuff. I mean, I think that once you get as far into IVF stuff as we have, you should be able to get coverage for it. I can see not wanting to let everyone have it, but if you've legit been doing this stuff for years like we have, I think we've more than proven that we need it! Girl, don't even go over to that board right now where people are giving birth. I can't know exactly how you are feeling, but you are definitely justified in feeling that way. I can always remember how old our child could have been from the first CP we had naturally... Because my cousin and friend got PG at the same time and both now have 4 year olds.
@Ash_SE I can't believe you have to pay $1000+ smackers every few days for your Neutrogena!
@angelbea I'm glad you are back among the land of the living... and no longer smelly lol. It's a good thing you have activities coming up to keep you busy... That definitely helps! Hopefully your little one is nestling in!
@Prudence9 That is absolute horseshit that they want you to suffer through more losses before giving you those tests! Again... Where is the justice?! I am on a crusade tonight...
Alright so I want to thank you all for sending me well wishes and good thoughts today. As I expected, the news was not good. I know I'm not good at being Patty Positive for myself, but what can I say... My gut has never failed me in this process yet. I went in this morning at 11:15... Then I had constant running around all day to prepare for our vaca. I had to take DH's vehicle to the shop to get checked out... Then I had multiple stops to make for shopping... I was getting quite irritated that my levels were not being posted online and no one was contacting me. On Wednesday, they were posted in less than an hour. I hate Fridays for results. I feel like they think it's the weekend already and get lax on shit. Anyway, I called my clinic at 2:30ish because I know if I have to leave a message after 3, it won't be returned until the next day and I wanted to know the deal and my instructions before leaving for vaca. The receptionist told me the nurse was making calls at that moment. So I left a message for her and she called me back shortly after. It was the nurse I love and she was super sweet and apologized... Apparently my RE was at another hospital doing surgery and hadn't had the chance to review my results, release them, or give further instructions. So she told me my levels... HCG dropped from 32 to 21... However my Estradiol and Progesterone levels were great. She said for the most part they usually think failures are due to uterine environment or embryo quality... But based on all of the testing I've had, she personally doesn't think it's uterine environment. She couldn't give me the official word until hearing from the doc, but she assumed I will stop meds and let them know when AF arrives. If it doesn't arrive in the next week, they'll check my level again. Then a little while later she sent me an online message after hearing from the doc. Done with meds and I'm actually scheduled for a repeat beta after I get back from vaca to make sure my level has completely gone down.
I'm not sure where we go from here, but I do know that I need a break. I hope that going on this vacation helps. I've been having some mental breakdowns for sure lately. I just don't know where to turn, I have so many questions in my mind. I hear some of you talking about all of the immune testing and meds and it honestly has my head spinning. I don't know if that's an issue or not for me, but I don't even know where to start with that. I'm not sure which avenue to pursue first... Should I be tested for immune issues first? Should we see if we can test the embryos first? Should I bother to ask for the ERA testing? I don't know what is the best thing to do first. It also does not help that my mother is in my ear telling me she thinks I should stop because she doesn't like me putting all of this stuff into my body. She thinks we should just try on our own for a while. Ok well we've only been doing that for 5 years and where has it gotten us? We obviously still try on our own in between treatment cycles, hoping for a miracle, but I don't think natural pregnancy is in the cards for us. I guess I just have to wait until after this last and final beta and talk to my RE about what she thinks.
Of course, I had to get on FB this evening to a PG announcement... Oh and not just an announcement photo... Oh there's a video too! Where the husband and wife bite into their cupcakes to reveal to everyone on FB the blue inside for gender... Do you want me to slit my wrists now, or later? I'm kidding!!! But seriously... Why does that shit have to happen right when I'm teetering on the edge of insanity? This is a girl I know from hs... Who was big on the bar scene... Drank like a fish... But even worse, smoked like a chimney. Got married a couple of years ago and is already PG. A smoker... How are her eggs freakin healthy?! Whatever... I'm going on a tangent haha. It's probably time for me to get to bed.
I'm sure I will be checking in on you guys while I'm away, but I may not be posting as much, so don't panic... But don't worry, I will be drinking... ALOT.
Me: 35 DH: 41, Married since 2009
TTC since June 2012
Aug. 2012: CP
2013 Several cycles of TI with Clomid = BFN
Feb. 2014: IUI = BFN
June 2014: IUI w/Clomid = BFN
Jul. 2014: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Apr. 2016: Consult to begin IVF
May 2016 TI w/Follistim and Ovidrel = BFN
Jul. 2016: BCPs, baby aspirin, Vitamin D, COQ10, DHEA, Gonal F, Menopur, Cetrotide, Novarel, Leuprolide Acetate: 21 eggs retrieved, (10 w/ ICSI, 11 w/conv. IVF) 13 fertilized
Jul. 2016: Endometrin, Fresh Transfer 2AB = CP
7 frozen
Oct. 2016: BCPs, baby aspirin, Estradiol, PIO, FET 4AA = CP
6 frozen
Nov. 2016: Hospitalized for small bowel obstruction
Mar. 2017: Diagnostic Laparoscopy = Twist found in intestine - part of small intestine, part of colon, and appendix removed, bowel resection - caused by Endometriosis
May 2017: 3.75 Lupron Depot
June 2017: FET postponed due to complex cysts in breasts
June 2017: Endometrial scratch
Jul. 2017: Baby aspirin, Estradiol, PIO, FET 4AA (lost 1 4AA in thaw) = CP
4 frozen
Sept. 2017: ERA testing
Oct. 2017: Breast cysts biopsied
Dec. 2017: FET
joneser1281 I have to admit I was getting concerned not seeing an update from you today either. In my craziness I still kept checking in...I don't like what I see. ugh IF sux and I wish i could give you a hug or at least a bottle of wine. creepy internet hugs to you!!! "It also does not help that my mother is in my ear telling me she thinks I should stop because she doesn't like me putting all of this stuff into my body. " I guess our moms are sisters and explains so much
Keep preaching! There really should be welfare IVF! Or at least when you've gone through a few...there should be something not just NO! Its just so damn unfair! Does your insurance cover any of the IVF? You're thought of doing another cycle might not be a bad idea! How many frosties do u have left? I would consider getting the others tested, or transferring 2/3 on the next try. I know it sounds coo coo for coca puffs. But I had heard of successes after what you're experiencing, they transferred more and hit the jackpot. You made a very valid point about your first cycle and the endo so anything is possible, frustrating as you had such a good outcome, i know it sucks!! I'm glad you're going away and i hope you have a fabulous time and your vag doesn't cause you anymore grief!! I will miss your posts but will be glad knowing you're off having a good time...as good as you can fake I'm sure!! Our journeys aren't the same BUT we still have the same questions. To immune test or not, that is one of the big questions. Maybe an ERA test could help. You just want to know what the problem is!!! Start checking off all the boxes. Hope you can get more clarity when you get back!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
and yes, waiting to have multiple m/c before testing is b.s.
but since I'm already getting ready for a transfer I think I will just hope for the best this time and hope I'm not wasting an embryo on another m/c!
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
@Ash_SE good luck with your beta! What day is this for you?
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
Which I think is a load of bullshit. If It was going to be positive it would have something by now right? My Progesterone isn't even that great at 16 and I'm on Emdometrin 3 x a day and PIO 1 x a day.
Im debating just stopping meds so I don't waste another $1000 .
I feel so stupid. I really let myself believe this would work. If I just did all the tests and all the meds it would work. I'm just broken. After 10 years and so much money I don't even get anything . At least at first I would get positive tests. Now even with a PGS embryo I get zero. And now I'm in this weird limbo. I don't want to keep doing shots and pills and blooddraws all for nothing.
cscher2 i dont think I realized you used donor, how many frosties did you get from your cycle? Did you do pgs? How are u feeling?
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
sending you Internet hugs.
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
No help coping with re huge letdown of this process. I'm out a dream and hope and $20K since I started this year. Not even a call from the doctor to explain the need to keep taking meds.
I even looked up mental hospitals in the area I could take myself to because I need help. I'm so lost and broken. It's been 10 years of this and nothing to show for it. I just feel lost and like it would be nice to have someone guide me through this mentally and emotionally you know?
thank you ladies for being here. Right now you guys are my lifeline that feels like you care. My H isn't good at emotions so he isn't just pretending it all didn't happen and has drunk a bottle of wine and is asleep on the couch. Meanwhile I'm sitting here doing my shots tonight and crying and I keep looking at our transfer ultrasound photo and thinking this is all I'll ever have to remember my babies by as with my 4 losses I've never gotten an ultrasound pic so at least this time I got that.
PIO will be super fun in the AM. I want to stop meds so bad but I can't handle the guilt of the .000001 % chance My stopping would kill the embryo.
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
@joneser1281 - I'm sorry that this cycle wasn't the one for you either. I hope you enjoy your vacation and enjoy lots of wine! I guess that's the consolation prize- at least that's what I've been telling myself every month since we started trying...
@cscher2 - Congrats on great betas! Seems like beta #2 is when it starts to feel real! It's nice to see that after going through so much this process really does amazing things for so many people! We are lucky that we live in a time when we have so many options available to us!
Me: 31 DH: 31
Married: June 2012
TTC: December 2015
DX: MFI
IVF #1: March 2017- 16R, 12F, 4 blasts, 2 PGS normal (3BB & 3CB)
IVF #2: May 2017- 19R, 17F, 6 blasts, 1 PGS normal (5CC)
FET#1: July 2017- BFP!
@Ash_SE- I'm sorry, but if the RE said to continue taking meds, then probably there is a chance that this will turn around. Hoping for a good second beta.
@Prudence9- You're in SF? I'm in the area as well. Zouves Fertility Center is big on immune testing I hear. But I don't know if you can just do immunology testing here, as looking at your siggy, I don't think you need to do another ER cycle.
AFM- Just chugging along. Had an u/s appointment on Friday and the lining looked great, and looks like we are still set for July 24th. I just ordered a bunch of books to read around the transfer day... My MIL will be temporarily living with us for the next couple of months, so that will be *cough* stressful. She is nice and sweet but I find living with others (including my DH at times!) stressful.
Unexplained infertility/AMA, polycystic ovaries, insulin resistance
FET#1(July 2017): eSET of first of 4 PGS-normal embryos, DS born 3/30/2018
FET#2(Oct/Nov 2019): eSET
yes, dr Zouves is one of the names I got. But was told they will probably not see me until i have multiple loses.
If all goes well in my baseline appt tomorrow, I will probably go ahead with another FET without having these tests done.
Hysteroscopy: 2013
IUI #1-2: 2013 BFN
Surgery 10/2015: Planned to start trying again but had a surgery. (Not related to fertility)
Surgery 5/2016: Planned to start trying again but had another surgery. (Not related to fertility)
IUI #3-5 (with Clomid): summer 2016 BFN
IVF #1: 11/2016. 30R; 21M; 20F; 8B (6 day5 & 2 day6); 4 normal after PGS
Medicated FET #1: 1/31/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFP. Embryo stopped growing at 6w 1d. MUA at 9w 3d.
Medicated FET #2: June 2017 - cancelled...
Hysteroscopy #2: June 2017
Medicated FET #2: 8/7/2017 transferred 1 embryo 5BB. BFP. Ended in CP.
Medicated FET #3: 10/11/2017 transferred 1 embryo 3AA. BFN
ERA: December 2017 - need an extra 12 hours of PIO
Medicated FET #4: 1/24/2018 transferred 1 embryo 4AA. BFN
Out of embryos.
IVF #2: 03/2018.
As for the vag, I don't think it handled sitting in the car all day yesterday well, nor is it handling the beach well either. I'm going to start another YI treatment tonight. I'm pretty sure the BV would be gone after that 5 day treatment... But with the yeast, the OTC cream the gyno told me to take... I don't think it was strong enough. It was like a weaker version of Monistat... Maybe that was because I was PUPO at the time... I feel like it didn't do the job. I had already bought it again though before I came to the realization it may not have worked for me. Hopefully doing it again will do the trick... and I can leave it in all night this time, instead of trying to do it during the day when I'm up and doing stuff. Maybe I just didn't get enough of the meds. And as for the girl who made the FB PG announcement, she's actually not skinny haha. I have always been thinner than her... Go figure. Being fit doesn't get you PG either haha. That shit is also like the announcement that wouldn't die because it STILL keeps coming up in my feed because so many people I'm friends with are "liking" and commenting on it. STFU already! lol.
Thank you @Prudence9 ... I also hope this one sticks for you so you never even have to meet that second loss criteria for testing.
Thank you @cscher2 ... I'm glad things continue to go smoothly for you... You more than deserve it!
@Ash_SE I am so sorry you did not get better news. My heart is breaking for you, and with you. I actually cried earlier when I read your post. I do think it's strange that your beta was so low, but they're having you continue meds until another test on Thursday? Maybe this is something they've seen before that can turn around? I will keep hoping for you... I know how you are feeling. I was quite frustrated that this time my other levels were great. I got higher betas before when my other levels weren't as high. This time my Progesterone was 43.40 and my Estradiol was 229.3 the day of my second beta (11dpt). I know what you are saying too about the doctors. I did get a call though from my favorite nurse... Her bedside manner is awesome. It's like chatting with one of my gfs when I talk to her. I'd probably rather talk to her than one of the REs anyway haha. They see sooooo many patients. We are just one more to them. I don't feel a big rapport with any of the doctors at my clinic. I am just hoping they would have the grace to tell me if they thought we couldn't be helped and not just keep taking our money and giving us false hope. Did you not get any photos of your embryo before the transfer? I received a photo of each one before they transferred them. If you didn't actually get to see what they look like, that makes me a little nervous. I would hope they are not trying to hide something from you... Like maybe the embryo isn't as good as what they are letting on. I remember you saying you got a pic of the little blip on the screen during the transfer, but didn't remember you saying you had an actual embryo pic. You are certainly not alone in how you are feeling though... I am feeling pretty low and lost myself... I'm hoping this is just a low point and I will rebound like I have in the past. You should definitely talk to someone if you're feeling as low as you say. We are always here for you and I am hoping and praying for your miracle this week.
Thank you @MMD1986 .
Thank you @mtele ... I have certainly been enjoying consolation prizes.
Thank you @cashewchicken ... I feel the same as you. Everyone I personally know who has gone through some form of IF at the same time as me (we would vent our frustrations to each other) has gotten PG or had their babies already. EVERYONE. The one IF sister I had left went to my clinic (on my recommendation) and got PG after one IUI with NO MEDS! Kill me now! I did 3 IUIs years ago and with meds. It's just not fair... And it seems too that so many women I've gotten to talk to on here have gone on and had their successes too. I'm glad things are looking good for your schedule and transfer! I loled at your comment about your MIL living with you... You are a saint. I could never live with my MIL. She's also nice and sweet, but too much for me. You have my sympathies lol.
So I'm on vacation... and writing you all a long post lol. Shows how well I'm doing huh? I'm trying to have a good time, but c'mon... You guys know how the beach is. Families with small children everywhere! Right beside us on the beach today was obviously a couple with their toddler on the beach for the first time. They were doting on him and taking tons of pictures and I felt like DH and I would glance over every once in a while and feel stabs of pain without even discussing it. We always feel that we stick out like sore thumbs. A somewhat "young" couple with no kids. Do people know? Do they think we probably have IF? Do they think we just don't want kids? I guess we shouldn't care what people think... But being that we clearly notice everyone with kids, are we as noticed because we don't? I'm just finding myself feeling depressed. I'm trying to put on my brave face for DH... I don't want to ruin the vacation by being an emotional mess... and plus I feel like when I break down and let him see how upset I am about yet another loss, HE gets so upset. I feel like this time he was of course bummed that it didn't work, but he was excited to go on vacation and being that I seemed to take the loss in stride (I didn't have any of my mental breakdowns or crying spells in front of him), he did too. There are times when I have cried my eyes out and he's been my rock... and other times when I've done that and he's become hopeless... Or he doesn't want to try anymore or doesn't want me to take all of these meds anymore. It's really dumb, but I guess I'm just trying play it cool because I want him on my side with whatever next steps we take. If I let him see that yet again I'm an emotional wreck, he won't want us to try anymore (maybe)... and that's just not what I want to hear. However, I may have to let up soon... I don't feel like I'm being myself with him, which I hate... Plus I'm tearing up and not letting him see... Or like now he's gone to bed and I'm crying on and off because I'm alone and I can. The weather is not helping either because it's been raining on and off. If that would knock it off, it would surely improve my mood!
FX for the transfers coming up... Sending you good thoughts @slmurphy12! Make sure you let us know how it goes!
Me: 35 DH: 41, Married since 2009
TTC since June 2012
Aug. 2012: CP
2013 Several cycles of TI with Clomid = BFN
Feb. 2014: IUI = BFN
June 2014: IUI w/Clomid = BFN
Jul. 2014: IUI w/Letrozole = BFN
Apr. 2016: Consult to begin IVF
May 2016 TI w/Follistim and Ovidrel = BFN
Jul. 2016: BCPs, baby aspirin, Vitamin D, COQ10, DHEA, Gonal F, Menopur, Cetrotide, Novarel, Leuprolide Acetate: 21 eggs retrieved, (10 w/ ICSI, 11 w/conv. IVF) 13 fertilized
Jul. 2016: Endometrin, Fresh Transfer 2AB = CP
7 frozen
Oct. 2016: BCPs, baby aspirin, Estradiol, PIO, FET 4AA = CP
6 frozen
Nov. 2016: Hospitalized for small bowel obstruction
Mar. 2017: Diagnostic Laparoscopy = Twist found in intestine - part of small intestine, part of colon, and appendix removed, bowel resection - caused by Endometriosis
May 2017: 3.75 Lupron Depot
June 2017: FET postponed due to complex cysts in breasts
June 2017: Endometrial scratch
Jul. 2017: Baby aspirin, Estradiol, PIO, FET 4AA (lost 1 4AA in thaw) = CP
4 frozen
Sept. 2017: ERA testing
Oct. 2017: Breast cysts biopsied
Dec. 2017: FET
@Ash_SE thinking of you and hoping ur feeling a little bit better today, you might not be and thats ok, just know we're all in it together sending u the best!
cashewchicken glad ur getting closer to t-day! Now ur down to the single digit countdown woo hoo!!!
joneser1281 you feel bad yet still made me laugh, I'd love to so the same! See your FB friends on the outside wants to be you
Sorry abut the vag, can you just get away and be pain free - wouldn't that be nice!! I'm sure being on the beach is rough for you emotionally and physically but I think you're the one doing all the thinking. I grantee that there is a couple looking at you and is envious as crazy as that sounds. Maybe you don't have kids OR maybe you left your kids home to enjoy some couple time. I know it hurts so much! And nothing I will say will make it better BUT there will come the time when you and DH will have to make the time to get the "alone time" with one another. Its hard to hide the tears and I do it ALL THE TIME! After this last round of results I cried for 3 days straight and he was away working for some of them BUT he can't take it and then says the same thing. I dont want you going through this anymore, we're going to adopt, it doesn't matter and so on and so on. I have to put a brave face on and keep it moving cause he can't be what i need him to be. He's suffered through MC with his ex, which i love being reminded of....I should be happy that it didn't effect the 2 of you then and you had kids after, r u serious. That's of no consequence to me at all! I'm rambling on, just know i'm in the SAME boat on the DH tip and i get it. Do you really think DH will enjoy this time if you're not. Might be easier to take one night to talk out your feeling and maybe then enjoy the rest of the trip....
I have a friend I've known for years and really keep up with her through FB. She hasn't had it easy, married, divorced with 2 kids....and found a wonderful man and married again, had another baby who just turned 1 and is now trying for another...and she's 42 now. AND I'm still trying for one, yay me! Anyway waiting for my US, I swear I see her DH walk in and not sure it was him but then here the name as hes there to sign the consent in hopes for number 2 since the first one was so easy last year. Thats just so nice. I'm happy for them, thats how it should work...ugh!!
One thought i'm going to leave you with, well question too. have you read a thread not my first ivf rodeo? one gal on thee @thucks just got her second BFP which is very exciting! Her fresh transfer brough her twin girls and the rest from that batch I believe shes been doing FET ready for her 3rd. I believe this was her 6th FET and if it didn't take then she would have to move on to another IVF cycle and try all over again. Many ladies have gone through quite a few FET that had a good number of blasts that didn't do testing and got the BFP with the last few left she transferred. I'm really hoping thats the case for you!!
Crossed fingers my last hellish work day is approaching yay!! SO have some fun for the rest of us!!!
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Both married for the first time in our 40s; went straight to IVF after multiple fibroid surgeries
(2/17) ER: #1: agonist/antagonist protocol: 19 eggs; 8 mature; 13 fertilized; 1 7-day blast (6BA = abnormal/non-viable)
(4/17) ER: #2: same protocol but stimmed an extra 2 days: 16 eggs; 10 mature (5 more matured in lab); 13 fertilized; 2 6-day blasts (5AA & 6BA) & 2 7-day blasts (6BA & 5BB): only 1 Day 6 6BA tested normal!
FET on 7/10/17
Beta on 7/21/17: Negative:(
(8/17) ER #3: 9 eggs; 6 mature; 3 fertilized; 1 7-day blast (6BA = abnormal/non-viable)
Developed severe complications (abdominal bleeding) following egg retrieval which required hospitalization, transfusion & emergency surgery. Done with IVF.
AFM, I got my third beta today, 2068 and I think we may be looking at twin territory, who knows! But I should find out tomorrow with my first US.
@slmurphy12 I hope your transfer went well today. Hope you are having a nice relaxing afternoon.
I started my Medrol and antiobiotics yesterday and am all set for a 12:30 transfer on Wednesday. I'm getting really excited/nervous.
@cscher2 - Awesome beta! Good luck with your ultrasound tomorrow!
Me: 31 DH: 31
Married: June 2012
TTC: December 2015
DX: MFI
IVF #1: March 2017- 16R, 12F, 4 blasts, 2 PGS normal (3BB & 3CB)
IVF #2: May 2017- 19R, 17F, 6 blasts, 1 PGS normal (5CC)
FET#1: July 2017- BFP!
Me: 31 DH: 31
Married: June 2012
TTC: December 2015
DX: MFI
IVF #1: March 2017- 16R, 12F, 4 blasts, 2 PGS normal (3BB & 3CB)
IVF #2: May 2017- 19R, 17F, 6 blasts, 1 PGS normal (5CC)
FET#1: July 2017- BFP!
@roadtobaby i'm sorry your numbers aren't higher hopefully its a late implantation and hopefully it starts doubling nicely for you!
@Ash_SE thinking of u sending hugs!
I'm glad you have the pic of your embaby - my clinic just doesn't do it, i know many of you have it here but mine doesn't...
Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN
IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle
IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F, 3DT)-BFP
IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal
IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!!
IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!!
IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!
Im 12dp5dt today and am actually at Patient First getting a beta. If negative ( all home tests are) stopping all meds and waiting for my period. Then moving forward. RE office is being jerks and insisting on not testing me again until Thursday but I can't keep on meds that long. I did it through yesterday including PIO but just can't anymore. My hips hurt and for me to avoid getting long term depression I need to move on. I had it bad after our ruptured ectopic and it raised it ugly head sometimes. I found a local therapist I think I may go see. Thanks ladies!