This thread is for women who are pregnant after a loss and who have a history of loss.
This thread is one huge trigger warning so if you just came to read, please protect yourself if you are not comfortable reading about loss. This is a place where women can talk freely about their loss history.
*****PLEASE DO NOT post losses here. Start a new thread.*****
Hey PGAL ladies, "Today you are pregnant!"
1. How far along are you today?
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
4. How is your SO handling everything?
5. GTKY: How are you feeling about approaching or getting to the midpoint of pregnancy? Does it feel like it has flown by or taken forever?
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
Me: 36 DH 35
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Re: PGAL Weekly Check-in 6/20-6/26
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
NMC at 7w6d on 1/9. EDD was 8/21, only two months from today
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I haven't cried in a few days, so that's a win. I posted the thread last week, but never replied because I was struggling a lot. The bigger I've gotten, the more strangers have asked triggering questions. I keep hearing that I'm all belly, and I think people guess I'm further along than I am. Baby has measured ahead at least a week, so it makes sense.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is so excited for our anatomy scan in 8 days. He kisses my belly goodbye when he goes to work.
5. GTKY: How are you feeling about approaching or getting to the midpoint of pregnancy? Does it feel like it has flown by or taken forever?
I've been pretty busy since the second trimester started. That has helped with anxiety. Movement is becoming more and more frequent, so I am using the Doppler less and less. Sh*t is about to get real because I'm working on the nursery and scheduling pregnancy / baby classes to take this week.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
MMC 12/20 at 12 weeks, baby only measured 8.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Good mostly. My last EDD was July 1st, so I'm not sure how I will feel then. I'm trying to think of something special to do that day, and I may do an instagram post. I think my AS is going to be extremely emotional, because it is scheduled for July 6th, so soon after my EDD. Also I am always worried before an US.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is amazing, he has started talking to baby and he is looking forward to being able to feel kicks. He is pretty disappointed because he has to miss our AS as he is fully booked with work.
5. GTKY: How are you feeling about approaching or getting to the midpoint of pregnancy? Does it feel like it has flown by or taken forever?
Time has flown by. I can't believe I'm this far along and still pregnant. I'm just trying to enjoy every moment.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?mc at 6.5 weeks Oct16
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? struggling today, woke up with some very light, brown spotting and it's pushed me over the edge. I keep telling myself that everything was perfect at my AS on Friday, I can feel the baby moving and I've listened to the heartbeat with my Doppler. Even with all that all I want to do today i curl up in a ball and cry
4. How is your SO handling everything?he's great, I think he's still a little bummed we didn't find out the sex on Friday but too late now
5. GTKY: How are you feeling about approaching or getting to the midpoint of pregnancy? Does it feel like it has flown by or taken forever? on one hand I feel like it's been really long time since I got my BFP, on the other hand I feel like each week is flying by and I can't believe tomorrow is 21 weeks
@NYTino24 and @Perfectypo I'm sorry you ladies are having a rough time. I'll be thinking about you both and sending positive thoughts as you approach your EDDs
@mparm91 Im Sorry you had spotting. Sending you hugs as well. So many things can provoke anxiety at this point. Glad you at least have had an appointment and have some reassurance. I know that doesn't make the anxiety go away though.
17w5d
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I lost my last baby at 16w1d. Her heart stopped beating somewhere in the 12 week based on how big she was. She had Trisomy 18
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I'm feeling great, except that I had a dream last night about a friend having a miscarriage (who isn't even currently pregnant) and that threw me off today.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
I think he's starting to get less nervous after having the NT scan done.
5. GTKY: How are you feeling about approaching or getting to the midpoint of pregnancy? Does it feel like it has flown by or taken forever?
it feels like it has flown by, and I'm excited to have my a/s done on Monday!
**Bonnie**
Married Sept 13, 2009
TTC since Jan 2010
Diagnosed w/ PCOS Oct 2010
1500mg metformin
SA 05/25/11 morphology @ 10%
HSG 06/02/11, tubes were clear, uterine septum discovered
06/30/11 Hysteroscopy, found a polyp blocking R fallopian tube
07/20/11 Successful surgery to remove polyp and uterine septum!
Sept/Oct cycle-Femara IUI turned into TI cycle= cancelled due to unresponsive follies
09/28/11: dx w/ MTHFR (cc)
10/22/11: IUI #1 w/ Femara + Menopur + trigger+ diluted hcg shots= BFN :-(
03/25/12: IUI #2 w/ Femara + Menopur + trigger+progesterone= BFN
Starting to pursue adoption
@Bonnie Sue so exciting that your AS is on Monday!!!
@BonnieSue Sorry that dream threw you off.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? CP- April 2016, MMC Sept 2016
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I've been feeling great physically. Emotionally- *TW* We got some not great/not terrible news at our anatomy scan. I shared specifics about what this means for baby in the A/S thread. I was upset in the hours after the scan and maybe a few times since but I'm somehow managing to remain mostly positive. It almost feels easier now to believe everything will be OK.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He's doing great and always chooses to remain positive which is helping me.
5. GTKY: How are you feeling about approaching or getting to the midpoint of pregnancy? Does it feel like it has flown by or taken forever? Approaching the mid point is making me a bit nervous. It seems like it should be go time but I don't feel quite ready to get things prepared for baby yet.
DD- 9
DS-6
c/p- April 2016
missed m/c- 6w5d; discovered 8w2d- September 2016
@mparm91 I'm sorry the spotting happened and that it worried you.
DD- 9
DS-6
c/p- April 2016
missed m/c- 6w5d; discovered 8w2d- September 2016
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
My loss milestones were very early.
We had a early miscarriage /CP at 4+2 in August 2016
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Ectopic pregnancy confirmed with blood work and ultrasound between 5-6 weeks in September 2016
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
I feel a lot better now after seeing her on the screen yesterday. She is measuring right on track and the doctor said everything looks perfect which has helped my anxiety come down. DH even commented on how much more at peace I seem (referring to me being too high strung about everything).
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He is on cloud 9. He was itching for another girl and his dream came true yesterday.
5. GTKY: How are you feeling about approaching or getting to the midpoint of pregnancy? Does it feel like it has flown by or taken forever?
When I look back at how far we have come I think it has flown by fast but when I look at how much farther we have it feels like forever.
17+5
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
MC at 11 weeks October 2016. Baby was measuring 7 weeks.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Physically I feel great, mentally I still struggle with worry. My doppler has been reassuring me but for some reason my mind keeps reminding me that I could have a still birth. I have no idea why I would think this, but I do.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
Same as always, positive and chill.
5. GTKY: How are you feeling about approaching or getting to the midpoint of pregnancy? Does it feel like it has flown by or taken forever?
I feel like the days are going by fast, but the weeks are going by slow, if that makes any sense.