My oldest is going to Middle School next year and I had to go to a parent information night this week and I cried my eyes out. Now, every time I think about my baby(yes, he's still my baby) going to that big school with the big kids, I cry again. I have no idea where the years have gone. It happens so quick.
Day #4 in a row of crying. This time Miranda Lambert was talking about her dog charity's adoption event on the radio. She said, "All these babies without homes..." and I almost lost it. I made myself snap out of it and stop fast. These second trimester hormones are no joke!!
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
My friend's husband is about to deploy and this week is their daughters first birthday and she took her first steps. It was so special that he got to be a part of that moment before he leaves for a year. She sent me video and I was full out sobbing at work.
My friend asked if I wanted to meet a 4 month old baby and I bawled. I was like BABIES ARE SO SMALL AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH . And she was like .... what am I supposed to do right now. It was awkward. I didn't meet the baby
Thursday night DH and I watched "Sully". I bawled. Friday night we watched "Hacksaw Ridge". I bawled. We were planning on watching "Patriots Day" last night, but I just couldn't do another night of crying!!
My friend asked if I wanted to meet a 4 month old baby and I bawled. I was like BABIES ARE SO SMALL AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH . And she was like .... what am I supposed to do right now. It was awkward. I didn't meet the baby
Omg I laughed so hard at this that I almost cried!! Just add that to the 100 other reasons I've cried the last few days. Today I read about a lady giving birth to her quad daughters at only 23 weeks pregnant. The babies only weigh a pound a piece and are on ventilators. It's great that they're alive! They have a long road ahead of them, bless their little hearts!
@tashandma I recently read something about a woman giving birth super early like that and I freaked out and cried because I want to keep my baby in there until they're a bit more ready. That being said I cried happy tears because how lucky are we that medicine is at a point where you can deliver a baby that early and the baby can survive
On the micro-preemie topic: it's crazy how early they can save a baby now. My sister and 2 of my SILs had preeclampsia so we have a few preemies that were in the 31+ week range that had a varying degrees of NICU time. But we have a 25 weeker in my family, she has a few medical conditions but nothing super serious. Mainly vision issues. Seeing pictures of her when she was born it blows my mind that they were able to keep her alive and thriving until she was strong enough to go home.
Typing that I had a "holy crap that's 5 weeks from now for me" moment. I feel like this pregnancy just started. Now I'm crying thinking of how her poor mom must have felt!
And we watched Patriot's Day tonight. Being from the Boston area and being an EMT made this a really difficult watch. I was nowhere near the marathon when this happened, but I have numerous coworkers and friends who were there and even a few who ran in the marathon and lost one or both of their legs. I cried through this entire movie.
All the Pulse tributes everywhere have been hitting me hard today. A friend of mine from high school used to be a manager there. Yesterday he married his longtime boyfriend and left open seats for the friends he lost. Right in the feels.
Husband called me at work during lunch to hash out vacation details which should be fun...but we ended up deciding we can't logistically take our dog on vacation. I wasn't even sad really more disappointed... But I had to go hide in the bathroom and cried for several minutes!
I was craving angel food cake the other day so bad. I came home after a crappy 12 hour nightshift (I'm an RN) and the hubby had bought me angel food cake. I sat on the couch and bawled my eyes out because it was so sweet
Yes!! And he still has the nerve to complain that he has my brown eyes instead of his blue eyes. Dude, the kid is your carbon copy otherwise. Deal with it!
And we watched Patriot's Day tonight. Being from the Boston area and being an EMT made this a really difficult watch. I was nowhere near the marathon when this happened, but I have numerous coworkers and friends who were there and even a few who ran in the marathon and lost one or both of their legs. I cried through this entire movie.
I cried through this entire movie too @cmessamore . I found it extremely difficult to watch (in fact there were parts I could not watch) but I would recommend it to anyone. It truly shows how strong and amazing people are in the face of something so terrible.
My mom just told my grandad that we're giving the baby his name for a middle name. He's so excited. She said he keeps repeating the full name over and over. As soon as she told me how happy he was, cue the waterworks!
I started crying in the car thinking about how terrible it would be to receive a phone call that your husband had been shot by a lunatic while playing a baseball game. Ugh I can't even with all the mass shootings.
While I was talking to my husband while he was at work, he got sent on a really bad call involving a child. I immediately started crying. He called me after to tell me there was a language barrier with the caller and it wasn't at all what he was dispatched to and the child was totally fine. I then cried again because I was so thankful the child was okay.
*TW* This whole thing is one big *TW* so if you're at all anxious about your pregnancy, you might want to avoid. I'm even going to put it in a spoiler so no one has to read it that doesn't want to.
[spoiler]One of my coworkers has a son/daughter in law that were expecting, just a few weeks ahead of me. I ran into her last week on the way out of the building to ask how she was and she told me this whole story in the lobby of our building with me crying in front of who-knows-who. Her DILs water broke at just shy of 22 weeks. She was admitted and she was slightly dilated, but hadn't been feeling any pain or having any contractions. Baby appeared to be doing ok. From what I understand, this next part all happened in the space of a few days. They were keeping her there trying to figure out what was going on when she felt something on her leg. It was the umbilical cord. They kept her there, obviously, and couldn't put the cord back because of bacteria, but the baby appeared to still be doing ok. A day or two later (I think) she felt something else on her leg. It was her baby, already halfway out. They scrambled to get the doctors, and delivered the baby, but he was so early that I guess they didn't even try to save him. I guess they stayed another night (the docs were trying to send her home THAT DAY, what??) and then packed up an RV to get away for a while and heal.
I've literally never heard of something like this, she felt no pain/contractions whatsoever. They don't know what went wrong. I'm just so heartbroken and hearing stories like this is hard on my PGAL brain. Also, this woman also just lost her father as well as a couple other personal tragedies, and now she lost a grandson. I'm just so heartbroken for her and for her son and DIL. I sent her some support group resources in the area (for her DIL) and talked with her a little about how people can be so weird/say weird things during time like this and everyone should just take time to heal and be kind to themselves and ignore what people say. But gah. I wasn't going to share, but I can't stop thinking about it. And I'm crying again. I can't wait to see my little girl in our A/S next week just for peace of mind.[/spoiler]
My DS1 found the baby doll we got him when his brother was born to help him understand and transition to being a big brother and he instantly started playing with it and calling it his baby sister and how much she needed him to feed and rock her and put her to sleep. All of the tears! DS2 watched his big brother doing all these things and started to do them too in his sort of gentle 1 yr old way. All of the rest of the tears!
Because a poor girl was brutally murdered and then someone had so much hate in their heart that they drove from South Carolina to DC just to set fire to her memorial. How are people so awful.
My step son graduated grade 8 today. He and I have had a hard time because he was born addicted to drugs and has a difficult time connecting with people ( especially females) he couldn't care less about his mother and has no maternal bond with her. Because of that our relationship has really struggled but now ( 5 years later) he's actually the one that I am closest with. He ran to me when I arrived and gave me the biggest sweetest hug. I just can't believe how much/fast he's grown these past years. All the tears.
I feel super disconnected from DH lately. Like we had a few really fun days together and now he's super distant. Idk if it's because I haven't been in the mood to fool around lately, or if it's all in my head, or what. I just feel a lot of space there. He's not even done or said anything that I can put my finger on, but tonight when I got home from work he usually sits in the bathroom with me while I take a bath and we talk about our day and instead he just went to bed. Now I'm sitting in the tub crying and knowing damn well it's probably just the hormones talking.
@BayCamp that's the worst, even if it's all in your head and just the pregnancy feelings talking. Maybe he's just feeling extra tired. No matter what it is, I'm sorry you're going through it and I hope it passes soon.
@BayCamp That's really tough and I'll tell you that the bigger my belly, the more distance I feel between me and DH. We used to spoon in bed, but between me using a pregnancy pillow and it being super hot, we don't touch in bed. I hope they snap out of it soon!
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
@BayCamp I'm sure he was just tired. That being said I hate the feeling of being upset over something and then questioning whether you're valid to feel upset or if it's just hormones. Your feelings are always valid, even if it is hormones. And thanks I love my kids the best I can
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TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
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It was awkward.
I didn't meet the baby
Just add that to the 100 other reasons I've cried the last few days.
Today I read about a lady giving birth to her quad daughters at only 23 weeks pregnant. The babies only weigh a pound a piece and are on ventilators. It's great that they're alive! They have a long road ahead of them, bless their little hearts!
That being said I cried happy tears because how lucky are we that medicine is at a point where you can deliver a baby that early and the baby can survive
Typing that I had a "holy crap that's 5 weeks from now for me" moment. I feel like this pregnancy just started. Now I'm crying thinking of how her poor mom must have felt!
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[spoiler]One of my coworkers has a son/daughter in law that were expecting, just a few weeks ahead of me. I ran into her last week on the way out of the building to ask how she was and she told me this whole story in the lobby of our building with me crying in front of who-knows-who. Her DILs water broke at just shy of 22 weeks. She was admitted and she was slightly dilated, but hadn't been feeling any pain or having any contractions. Baby appeared to be doing ok. From what I understand, this next part all happened in the space of a few days. They were keeping her there trying to figure out what was going on when she felt something on her leg. It was the umbilical cord. They kept her there, obviously, and couldn't put the cord back because of bacteria, but the baby appeared to still be doing ok. A day or two later (I think) she felt something else on her leg. It was her baby, already halfway out. They scrambled to get the doctors, and delivered the baby, but he was so early that I guess they didn't even try to save him. I guess they stayed another night (the docs were trying to send her home THAT DAY, what??) and then packed up an RV to get away for a while and heal.
I've literally never heard of something like this, she felt no pain/contractions whatsoever. They don't know what went wrong. I'm just so heartbroken and hearing stories like this is hard on my PGAL brain. Also, this woman also just lost her father as well as a couple other personal tragedies, and now she lost a grandson. I'm just so heartbroken for her and for her son and DIL. I sent her some support group resources in the area (for her DIL) and talked with her a little about how people can be so weird/say weird things during time like this and everyone should just take time to heal and be kind to themselves and ignore what people say. But gah. I wasn't going to share, but I can't stop thinking about it. And I'm crying again. I can't wait to see my little girl in our A/S next week just for peace of mind.[/spoiler]
@bcashaw I'm glad he has you as a positive role model/mother figure!
@SweetMelissa4 So sorry that was triggering for you and I will send some prayers for her. I can't imagine.
@bcashaw I am so happy for you and him.
@BayCamp That's really tough and I'll tell you that the bigger my belly, the more distance I feel between me and DH. We used to spoon in bed, but between me using a pregnancy pillow and it being super hot, we don't touch in bed. I hope they snap out of it soon!
@DuchessOfCambridge I saw that. So sad.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
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