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3 Times A Charm...I pray!

choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
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Hi all! I finally found the courage to post on here. I see your stories of strength, love, and support and thought that I would be in great company.  Tomorrow I have my FET. I am trying really hard to just "be". I don't want to be overally optimistic or pessimistic...so I'm coasting this time around, praying, laughing, and really try to be stress- free. I had a failed fresh IVF cycle and then a positive FET with a miscarriage and D&C at 7 weeks. It's amazing how I was almost snarky and thought this would be a cake walk as I had so many follicles initially. All the follicles and only 5 made it to day 5 blastocyst. Humility as it's finest sink in. After tomorrow, the quality of the other two decreases a lot. So I wish I could not think about it, but my progesterone sore lumps makes that pretty impossible. I going to dwell on a simple acronym- P.E.A.C.E. "Positive Energy Activates Constant Elevation." Trusting Him and Hoping. 
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Re: 3 Times A Charm...I pray!

  • Hopeful_momHopeful_mom member
    I'm sorry for your loss! Ivf sucks period! Its a rollercoaster of emotions for sure! Its not easy and the longer I am here the more I see each person has a journey.  Hopefully this FET gets you closer to the end of your journey.  Just want to send you extra sticky vibes for ur transfer, best of luck to u!!
    History of TTC in spoiler box
    TTC since 2014
    Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
    7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN 
    IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle :( RE thought I would get at least 10.
    IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
    IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F,  3DT)-BFP  with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks  :'( 
    IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP  (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal  :'( 
    IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! :)
    IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! :)
    IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!

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  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] member
    GL with your FET!!!!  Stay positive!  ❤❤
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Thank you ladies! Much appreciated!  :) I'm up at at them headed there now. 
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Transfer is over, now the TWW of torture begins....
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  • nmd9168nmd9168 member
    @choosinghope2 Good luck and prayers for you! TWW is tough, but try to keep yourself busy. It will go by before you know it. 
    Me: 28 DH: 29
    Married: 4-25-2014
    TTC: March 2015
    BFP: 2-18-16
    Confirmed MMC: 3-31-16
    D&C: 4-2-16
    TTCAL: May 2016
    IUI: 5/13/17-Femara and Trigger, POAS 5/27/17 BFP 5/27/17



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  • nmtaynmtay member
    Good luck! Pretty much same story here but swapped order of NP and MC. I have to wait another month for my FET, but hopefully third time's the charm for both of us! Hugs and sticky baby dust to you!
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  • kaseycocokaseycoco member
    Sorry to hear about your loss, IF is a difficult journey for sure. Glad your transfer went well, hoping you get lucky this month! Good luck coasting and staying positive during the dreaded TWW.
    TTC #1 since Aug 2015 (unexplained infertility)
    10/16-12/16 -3 IUI, all BFN
    2/17 IVF #1 froze 5 five day blasts
    5/17 FET#1 BFN  
    6/17 FET #2 BFP :)  EDD 2/27/18

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  • krenee124krenee124 member
    Good luck!! I love your acronym for PEACE! It's perfect & so true! I hope your two week wait flies! Rest rest & rest! Is RE doing anything diff this time around because of the MC the first time? 
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    @nmtay Awww I'm sorry to hear that! It is absolutely torture. This is our time! Fingers crossed! 
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    @nmd9168, I fine myself comparing each cycle and how I was feeling with each, especially that resulted in MC. I had the night sweats, frequent urination right after implantation and now I'm hoping for those symptoms as a good sign....definitely driving myself crazy!
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Thank you kaseycoco!  <3
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    @ krenee124, I am resting and trying not to worry myself! RE isn't doing anything different although it is a different doctor this time around. He was on leave the first two cycles. I have a great rapport with both REs but I feel more comfortable with him. 
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  • Hopeful_momHopeful_mom member
    choosinghope2 when is your beta scheduled - hoping ur beans are getting all cozy in there!
    History of TTC in spoiler box
    TTC since 2014
    Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
    7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN 
    IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle :( RE thought I would get at least 10.
    IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
    IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F,  3DT)-BFP  with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks  :'( 
    IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP  (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal  :'( 
    IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! :)
    IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! :)
    IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!

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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Hi Hopeful_Mom beta is scheduled for 6/10. You and me both! Where are you at in the process? 
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  • Hopeful_momHopeful_mom member
    I believe i'm Day 6 of meds and tomorrow is my US so hoping the 4 follies i had 3 days ago are growing together and a couple more popping up would be great - so we shall see....
    History of TTC in spoiler box
    TTC since 2014
    Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
    7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN 
    IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle :( RE thought I would get at least 10.
    IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
    IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F,  3DT)-BFP  with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks  :'( 
    IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP  (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal  :'( 
    IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! :)
    IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! :)
    IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!

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  • kmoore6886kmoore6886 member
    @choosinghope2 I wish you the best of luck and I'm sending positive vibes your way! My transfer was also on the 31st! How many embryos did you transfer? 
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Hopeful_Mom that's exciting to watch the follies grow! No doubt I'm sure they are growing in sync
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    @ kmoore6886, I wanted to transfer two but my RE was adamant and practically refused to put in two. He states the one good one that was transferred might be hindered by another embryo of a lesser grade. So I'm putting all my energy in this one! How about you how many did you transfer? Is your beta test Sat like mine? 
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  • kmoore6886kmoore6886 member
    @choosinghope2 I transferred two this time, my first FET I transferred one. My beta is on the 12th but I'll POAS some time this week. 
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Hi all! I got a BFP today! So excited! Praying this time really is the lucky charm all the way! 
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  • Hopeful_momHopeful_mom member
    Thats great news congrats!! what was your first beta?  next on monday?
    History of TTC in spoiler box
    TTC since 2014
    Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
    7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN 
    IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle :( RE thought I would get at least 10.
    IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
    IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F,  3DT)-BFP  with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks  :'( 
    IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP  (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal  :'( 
    IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! :)
    IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! :)
    IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!

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  • kmoore6886kmoore6886 member
    @choosinghope2 congratulations! 
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Thank you
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Hopeful_mom, my first beta was 85.5, i wasn't sure about the number but my RE said anything over 50 for a first reading is good. My last beta from the miscarriage was 46. So I'm feeling really positive this time.  Yes, my next reading is on Monday.
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  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] member
    GL with your next beta tomorrow! :)
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Thank you BuisnessWife!
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Third time wasn't a charm...will be miscarrying soon. I guess third time is a charm in IVF not working
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  • Hopeful_momHopeful_mom member
    oh no i'm so sorry to hear!  What happened?  Sending you big hugs!
    History of TTC in spoiler box
    TTC since 2014
    Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
    7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN 
    IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle :( RE thought I would get at least 10.
    IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
    IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F,  3DT)-BFP  with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks  :'( 
    IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP  (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal  :'( 
    IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! :)
    IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! :)
    IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!

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  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] member
    Oh no.... I am so very sorry to hear this... ((hugs))
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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    My betas were 85.5, 100, to 25. I swear I much rather have implantation not work than to have the disappointment of a failed pregnancy and miscarriage. 
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  • Hopeful_momHopeful_mom member
    ugh thats just awful - that false hope.  I'm so very very sorry! The emotional pain is tough hoping physically you wont have to suffer!  big hugs!
    History of TTC in spoiler box
    TTC since 2014
    Unexplained Infertility - but I am 40...Low AMH .30
    7 - IUI (50mg-150mg Clomid) Feb - August 2016 all BFN 
    IVF#1 August 2016 (Antagonist protocol 4/5 eggs) Cancelled cycle :( RE thought I would get at least 10.
    IVF#2 Sept 2016 (microdose luporn pro - disappearing follies, ONLY ONE, convert to IUI) BFN
    IVF#3 November 2016 (4 ER, 3 F,  3DT)-BFP  with TWINS // MC both at almost 10wks  :'( 
    IVF#4 March 2017 //EPP  (10 ER (1 wonky so 9 ER) 7F, 3B (5AB, (2)5BB) PGS tested- ALL abnormal  :'( 
    IVF#5 April 2017 // EPP (7 ER, 7F yes! 6B) 2/5 day 4/6 day - 2 PGS normal! yes!! :)
    IVF#6 May 2017 // Antagonist didn't have time for Estrogen Priming...(4 ER, 3 F, 3B) (5AB, (2) 5BB) 2 PGS normal, yes!! :)
    IVF#7 June 2017 // EPP praying this is it and then on to an FET!

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  • choosinghope2choosinghope2 member
    Thank you! Mother Nature is taking soooo long to start the process! I just want it to be over with. 
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  • kmoore6886kmoore6886 member
    @choosinghope2 I am so sorry, sending hugs your way! 
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