3 Times A Charm...I pray!

choosinghope2

Hi all! I finally found the courage to post on here. I see your stories of strength, love, and support and thought that I would be in great company.  Tomorrow I have my FET. I am trying really hard to just "be". I don't want to be overally optimistic or pessimistic...so I'm coasting this time around, praying, laughing, and really try to be stress- free. I had a failed fresh IVF cycle and then a positive FET with a miscarriage and D&C at 7 weeks. It's amazing how I was almost snarky and thought this would be a cake walk as I had so many follicles initially. All the follicles and only 5 made it to day 5 blastocyst. Humility as it's finest sink in. After tomorrow, the quality of the other two decreases a lot. So I wish I could not think about it, but my progesterone sore lumps makes that pretty impossible. I going to dwell on a simple acronym- P.E.A.C.E. "Positive Energy Activates Constant Elevation." Trusting Him and Hoping. 

Hopeful_mom

I'm sorry for your loss! Ivf sucks period! Its a rollercoaster of emotions for sure! Its not easy and the longer I am here the more I see each person has a journey.  Hopefully this FET gets you closer to the end of your journey.  Just want to send you extra sticky vibes for ur transfer, best of luck to u!!

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GL with your FET!!!!  Stay positive!  ❤❤

choosinghope2

Thank you ladies! Much appreciated!  I'm up at at them headed there now. 

choosinghope2

Transfer is over, now the TWW of torture begins....

nmd9168

@choosinghope2 Good luck and prayers for you! TWW is tough, but try to keep yourself busy. It will go by before you know it. 

nmtay

Good luck! Pretty much same story here but swapped order of NP and MC. I have to wait another month for my FET, but hopefully third time's the charm for both of us! Hugs and sticky baby dust to you!

kaseycoco

Sorry to hear about your loss, IF is a difficult journey for sure. Glad your transfer went well, hoping you get lucky this month! Good luck coasting and staying positive during the dreaded TWW.

krenee124

Good luck!! I love your acronym for PEACE! It's perfect & so true! I hope your two week wait flies! Rest rest & rest! Is RE doing anything diff this time around because of the MC the first time? 

choosinghope2

@nmtay Awww I'm sorry to hear that! It is absolutely torture. This is our time! Fingers crossed! 

choosinghope2

@nmd9168, I fine myself comparing each cycle and how I was feeling with each, especially that resulted in MC. I had the night sweats, frequent urination right after implantation and now I'm hoping for those symptoms as a good sign....definitely driving myself crazy!

choosinghope2

Thank you kaseycoco! 

choosinghope2

@ krenee124, I am resting and trying not to worry myself! RE isn't doing anything different although it is a different doctor this time around. He was on leave the first two cycles. I have a great rapport with both REs but I feel more comfortable with him. 

Hopeful_mom

choosinghope2 when is your beta scheduled - hoping ur beans are getting all cozy in there!

choosinghope2

Hi Hopeful_Mom beta is scheduled for 6/10. You and me both! Where are you at in the process? 

Hopeful_mom

I believe i'm Day 6 of meds and tomorrow is my US so hoping the 4 follies i had 3 days ago are growing together and a couple more popping up would be great - so we shall see....

kmoore6886

@choosinghope2 I wish you the best of luck and I'm sending positive vibes your way! My transfer was also on the 31st! How many embryos did you transfer? 

choosinghope2

Hopeful_Mom that's exciting to watch the follies grow! No doubt I'm sure they are growing in sync

choosinghope2

@ kmoore6886, I wanted to transfer two but my RE was adamant and practically refused to put in two. He states the one good one that was transferred might be hindered by another embryo of a lesser grade. So I'm putting all my energy in this one! How about you how many did you transfer? Is your beta test Sat like mine? 

kmoore6886

@choosinghope2 I transferred two this time, my first FET I transferred one. My beta is on the 12th but I'll POAS some time this week. 

choosinghope2

Hi all! I got a BFP today! So excited! Praying this time really is the lucky charm all the way! 

Hopeful_mom

Thats great news congrats!! what was your first beta?  next on monday?

kmoore6886

@choosinghope2 congratulations! 

choosinghope2

Thank you

choosinghope2

Hopeful_mom, my first beta was 85.5, i wasn't sure about the number but my RE said anything over 50 for a first reading is good. My last beta from the miscarriage was 46. So I'm feeling really positive this time.  Yes, my next reading is on Monday.

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GL with your next beta tomorrow! :)

choosinghope2

Thank you BuisnessWife!

choosinghope2

Third time wasn't a charm...will be miscarrying soon. I guess third time is a charm in IVF not working

Hopeful_mom

oh no i'm so sorry to hear!  What happened?  Sending you big hugs!

[Deleted User]

Oh no.... I am so very sorry to hear this... ((hugs))

choosinghope2

My betas were 85.5, 100, to 25. I swear I much rather have implantation not work than to have the disappointment of a failed pregnancy and miscarriage. 

Hopeful_mom

ugh thats just awful - that false hope.  I'm so very very sorry! The emotional pain is tough hoping physically you wont have to suffer!  big hugs!

choosinghope2

Thank you! Mother Nature is taking soooo long to start the process! I just want it to be over with. 

kmoore6886

@choosinghope2 I am so sorry, sending hugs your way!