I'm jealous of members who are in private groups.***
Even without the siggies you can tell who they are. I don't know how they were founded or how new members are/were added. I'm just jealous you all have a safe haven together outside of TTGP. Plus, I'm sure there are grads in there I'd love to keep in contact with. I get not everyone can join/is invited to join/would be welcome/would fit in. It still kinda sucks sometimes.
Now for those of you who may say "Well LoveInDC, why not just make your own group?" Please read my above ^^^^ I know there are already groups that are essentially who I'd want, and I don't want to be the girl who throws a tantrum and says "I'm going to make my own secret club!" Not to mention that I would be in charge of deciding who's in and who's out which is not something I'm keen on. Just not my style. I suppose I'll just keep up with PMs and be bummed with TTGP gets slow. But this is FFFC, so I'm confessing something that may rub some people the wrong way.
*** I love all my TTGP friends. I have nothing against private groups or those who are members of them. I'm not begging for an invitation. But when you're in your normal hangout spot, no one's there, and you know your friends are all somewhere else hanging out together, it kinda sucks.
Me: 23 | DH: 30
Married November 2016 TTC #1 November 2016
Dx Anovulatory/NIR PCOS April 2017 50mg Clomid June 2017 BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
I threw a temper tantrum this morning and kicked the door to my laundry room out of anger for my washing machine flooding my house last night (which I already bitched about in WTO). I also am angry that I cannot drown myself in the sorrow of alcohol since I triggered last night and I'm a rule follower when the interactions say no alcohol.
My third confession is I'm already planning my meal of misery later to just eat away my sadness
@charlestonchew Things get pretty revealing here! Just be prepared that if it's a politically/morally charged confession, you may get flamed (but mostly flamed with love!). There have been some really good threads within the last several weeks; you can always go back and check them out to get a feel for the vibe
@LoveInDC - Are there secret Bump groups?? I was just recently invited to join a secret FB group and it's weird and cool at the same time.
@beachbunnyxo123 - I have also done embarassing things when irrationalling angry. What are you going to eat later!?!?
FFFC #1: Similar along the lines of @LoveInDC, there are certain people that I would really like to move onto a BMB with. Moreso than others. In sure we're all like that, though.
FFFC #2: I couldn't wait until I got home to poop this morning, so I took a big green dump at work. I've been eating a lot of broccoli and green beans this week.
Me: 29 | DH: 29
Married 12/2016 DSS born 01/2016 TTC since 01/2017 Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
@pebbledam There are private groups on TB. I wouldn't necessarily call them "secret" because you can see them all listed and you can request to join any of them. The only catch is that you need mod approval. One of the "less hidden" ones is Lisa Frank and Friends (LFAF). You might recognize some regs here have Lisa Frank stickers in their siggies. That would be why. Drama Llama is another one that archives all the drama threads (very entertaining from what I've heard). I know some spun off from BMBs. Others have a number of members who went through loss around the same time. Like I said, I don't know much more because I'm not in any of them, but that's the gist of it.
Me: 23 | DH: 30
Married November 2016 TTC #1 November 2016
Dx Anovulatory/NIR PCOS April 2017 50mg Clomid June 2017 BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
Can we start a secret group just for us who want to be in a secret group??
If someone wants to step up and make a new group, go at it. I already said why I don't want to be in charge of those efforts.
But I'd also like pointing out that an open call private group kinda negates the point of having a private group in the first place. At some point it just becomes TTGP2 with a bunch of people who don't necessarily know each other very well. If someone wants to do it, I say you get 1 or 2 partners in crime, come up with a list of names together, and let it grow organically from there.
Me: 23 | DH: 30
Married November 2016 TTC #1 November 2016
Dx Anovulatory/NIR PCOS April 2017 50mg Clomid June 2017 BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
My FFFC: If I had a baby today, my child would be the first grandchild on both my side and DH's side, and I will be a little upset if it doesn't turn out that way in the end. I fully recognize how selfish and ridiculous that is, and I would never let it cause drama. I'm not even sure why I find the idea upsetting.
@Cricket648 that's why I want to beat my older brother and his wife to the punch. Also because I don't want my parents to spend all their money buying things for my brother's kids when I want them to buy things for my kids.
I swear I'm not a totally terrible human.
Me: 28 DH: 29 Married: 6/2016 TTC #1: 12/2016 Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
@pebbledam I totally poop at work all the time. It's to the point where my body is used to the timing. It sucks when my schedule gets changed and then I have no break when nature calls. It also makes me think of this.
Me: 28 DH: 29 Married: 6/2016 TTC #1: 12/2016 Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
I'm upset that @looeeze from the newbie thread hasn't come back to tell me how to make a gif my profile pic.
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
@jsnakehole - I usually poop right when I get home from work! Speaking of which, I usually get a little irregular after O which is why I think I've already O'd this cycle even though I couldn't turn an OPK. I hadn't pooped since Tuesday, I think and that's super weird if I'm really pre-O.
@LoveInDC - That sounds like a lot of work and you make a valid points. You're always the voice of reason and i love/hate that about you!
Me: 29 | DH: 29
Married 12/2016 DSS born 01/2016 TTC since 01/2017 Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
FFFC: Reading y'all's FFFC from a couple of weeks ago (the one that went pretty after dark) was most of what convinced me to do an intro and start posting. Keep up the good work ladies!
TW
Me: 33 DH: 32 Started Dating: 2003 Married: 2013 Started TTC August 2016 BFP: 2/1/17 MC: 2/8/17 BFP: 3/8/17 MMC: 5/1/17 BFP: 7/23/17 EDD: 4/5/18 BFP: 2/27/20
@Cricket648 - Maybe it's the middle child syndrome I have, but I'm glad that my child (assuming that happens) won't be the first grandchild. My DSS gets soooo much attention being the first grandchild on both sides and I worry about how that will affect him long-term. Obviously, I never say anything to that effect to DH or his family.
Me: 29 | DH: 29
Married 12/2016 DSS born 01/2016 TTC since 01/2017 Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
I always start to feel a bit yucky when private groups are discussed because it seems it always ends in drama, but @LoveInDC , you're being so respectful and it doesn't seem drama filled this time, so I'll bite. A lot of groups actually do begin as an open invite. And then you just get to know each other. Sometimes it's closed to new members, sometimes it's not, but the original group has to approve the newcomers after the initial open invite. Logistics aside, I can see why you feel like you want to be a part of it. It's safer than facebook, say, and it's easier to stick with the same people than watch people move on and always getting a fresh group of doe-eyed newcomers on TTGP. It's pretty exhausting sometimes. All that to say, if you want a private group, I say get in cahoots with some people like you suggested, or just start it with an open call and invite/request to join at will.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
My own FFFC: leggings are pants. JK. JUST KIDDING IF FRIENDS. JUST KIDDING. I think I'm hilarious, but I know I'm not.
Anyway,
FFFC, To take this AD, I get kinda sad and take it personally if H "takes care" of himself, but I do myself all the damn time. Hippocratic.
TTC #1 since September 2014 Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI
(count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low
progesterone Check out my Infertility blog Check out my Infertility Instagram
Loss History (TW):
BFP: 3 May 2015, loss confirmed 4 June 2015 BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015 BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015 BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018 BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
TTC History (TW):
3 losses in 2015 Met with OBGYN in January 2016 Me: all clear, H: OAT November 2016: HSG = All
Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt
#1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17 December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC) Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA) FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018 May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus" FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo. BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019 Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two! Lost Baby A 02 July 2018 Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018 Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
Next Up:
TTC Naturally, possibly IUIs for remainder of 2018. ER#2 ~Jan 2019
If you guys start a private group and don't invite me I'll be super sad!!
@pebbledam I'm with you on the wanting to go to a BMB with familiar faces and secretly preferring certain ones! But at the same time, I'd be happy to go to a BMB with anyone who I've had positive interactions with here. I just hope if I'm lucky enough to get to a BMB at all, that I have SOMEONE there I already know fairly well from here to chat with.
@hedgepig I'm glad the dirty FFFC inspired you to join
My rather tame FFFC for today: up until 3ish weeks ago I thought "QFP" meant Quit Fucking Posting and I couldn't figure out why there was always a quote when people said that.
I'm upset that @looeeze from the newbie thread hasn't come back to tell me how to make a gif my profile pic.
Zoinks! Busted. I didn't really know what to do there, cause I didn't want to post a casual fun how-to thing right after someone had written a heartfelt post about their struggles. Is there a typical way to handle something like that?
I just uploaded a gif I already had downloaded to my profile under My Account. It has to be under 10mb I think. Also I use a laptop, not a phone, so that might make a difference?
@LoveInDC -- I totally put in a request to join LFAF a couple months ago, but no love. However, I'm down to join a super-secret group with you fabulous ladies!
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
My FFFC is that I think Twitter is having a seriously negative impact on DH and my non-TTC sex life.
Also, if/when I get KU, I'll probably just bounce without saying anything (which sorta sucks because I like "hanging out" with y'all). I'd love to say that it would be out of respect for anyone's feelings, but it's really just selfish. TW - while I was not particularly sad about my MC (disappointed, sure, but DH did all the crying), I just don't think I'll feel comfortable celebrating a potential BFP until at least 8 weeks. Like, I don't think I'll join a BMB until after that (or, uh, come back here if I MC again?). While I was benched/TTA I didn't think I'd feel this way, but now that I'm (probably? 2 more days to confirm) in the TWW for the first time in like 9 months, I think that's how I feel. We'll see.
My own FFFC: leggings are pants. JK. JUST KIDDING IF FRIENDS. JUST KIDDING. I think I'm hilarious, but I know I'm not.
Anyway,
FFFC, To take this AD, I get kinda sad and take it personally if H "takes care" of himself, but I do myself all the damn time. Hippocratic.
All of this is awesome. ALL. OF. IT.
Yeah, I'm not delusional. I know that DH still occasionally 'takes care' of himself, and I know that it's totally normal. Buuuuuuuut if he did it when there were plenty of opportunities for us to bang, I take it personally too.
And, I guess this is my FFFC, I'm looking forward to tomorrow morning because I don't have to work, but DH does. So he'll leave by 6:30am, and then I'm free to dig out my vibe and buzz myself to a great morning.
@LuND H was gone Monday night so I took Kristo's advice and found erotic gifs on Tumblr and had an amazing night, like I used to have before I moved in with H and lost some privacy.
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
Me: late 30s | H: early 30s TTC #1 since April 2015 RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016 IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal Polyp removed May 2017 FET May 2017 - BFP! Baby boy born 2/2/18
I kind of view TTGP like high school (in a good way), or maybe like college. You get to "meet" all of these awesome, wonderful ladies and get to know them and then some graduate and move on to different "colleges/a job" (a BMB) and you lose touch. It would be nice to have a place where you can get to know people and stay in touch despite going off to different boards. I, for one, am terrible at keeping in touch with ppl IRL once we're in different situations, I don't want to "bother" people.
AFM, FFFC: I really want to buy myself the book Sh*tty Mom because it sounds hilarious and fits my sense of humor, but secretly wish someone else would buy it for me, but no one IRL knows that we're even TTC. I have it, and a bunch of other LO related stuff, on a secret list on Amazon
TTC#1 10/2016 TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each. BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021 planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks, some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
@charlestonchew we danced the chocolate cha-cha on Sunday. It's definitely not my favorite thing on the menu, but get enough cocktails in me and it's a possibility. Although, even though it was like CD5, I was annoyed to 'waste' his swimmers. If you see a new butt baby thread, it might be mine.
ETA I entered Sunday's 'BD' in FF and then was like....
Re: FFFC
Even without the siggies you can tell who they are. I don't know how they were founded or how new members are/were added. I'm just jealous you all have a safe haven together outside of TTGP. Plus, I'm sure there are grads in there I'd love to keep in contact with. I get not everyone can join/is invited to join/would be welcome/would fit in. It still kinda sucks sometimes.
Now for those of you who may say "Well LoveInDC, why not just make your own group?" Please read my above ^^^^ I know there are already groups that are essentially who I'd want, and I don't want to be the girl who throws a tantrum and says "I'm going to make my own secret club!" Not to mention that I would be in charge of deciding who's in and who's out which is not something I'm keen on. Just not my style. I suppose I'll just keep up with PMs and be bummed with TTGP gets slow. But this is FFFC, so I'm confessing something that may rub some people the wrong way.
*** I love all my TTGP friends. I have nothing against private groups or those who are members of them. I'm not begging for an invitation. But when you're in your normal hangout spot, no one's there, and you know your friends are all somewhere else hanging out together, it kinda sucks.
TTC #1 November 2016
50mg Clomid June 2017
BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
My third confession is I'm already planning my meal of misery later to just eat away my sadness
My confession is I rarely do dishes or laundry. DH is a full time student so he is at home more and does the majority of the household chores.
Please, by all means, get weird.
@beachbunnyxo123 - I have also done embarassing things when irrationalling angry. What are you going to eat later!?!?
FFFC #1: Similar along the lines of @LoveInDC, there are certain people that I would really like to move onto a BMB with. Moreso than others. In sure we're all like that, though.
FFFC #2: I couldn't wait until I got home to poop this morning, so I took a big green dump at work. I've been eating a lot of broccoli and green beans this week.
DSS born 01/2016
TTC since 01/2017
Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
ETA @charlestonchew - I def recommend doing some lurking in some FFFCs from the past month or so.
DSS born 01/2016
TTC since 01/2017
Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
TTC #1 November 2016
50mg Clomid June 2017
BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
Married: 6/2016
TTC #1: 12/2016
Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
But I'd also like pointing out that an open call private group kinda negates the point of having a private group in the first place. At some point it just becomes TTGP2 with a bunch of people who don't necessarily know each other very well. If someone wants to do it, I say you get 1 or 2 partners in crime, come up with a list of names together, and let it grow organically from there.
TTC #1 November 2016
50mg Clomid June 2017
BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
@pebbledam I'm totally with you on the BMB thing.
My FFFC: If I had a baby today, my child would be the first grandchild on both my side and DH's side, and I will be a little upset if it doesn't turn out that way in the end. I fully recognize how selfish and ridiculous that is, and I would never let it cause drama. I'm not even sure why I find the idea upsetting.
Married: 10/2013
TTC #1 Since: 02/2017
I swear I'm not a totally terrible human.
Married: 6/2016
TTC #1: 12/2016
Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
It also makes me think of this.
Married: 6/2016
TTC #1: 12/2016
Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
I'm upset that @looeeze from the newbie thread hasn't come back to tell me how to make a gif my profile pic.
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
@LoveInDC - That sounds like a lot of work and you make a valid points. You're always the voice of reason and i love/hate that about you!
DSS born 01/2016
TTC since 01/2017
Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
Started Dating: 2003 Married: 2013
Started TTC August 2016
BFP: 2/1/17 MC: 2/8/17
BFP: 3/8/17 MMC: 5/1/17
BFP: 7/23/17 EDD: 4/5/18
BFP: 2/27/20
DSS born 01/2016
TTC since 01/2017
Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
A lot of groups actually do begin as an open invite. And then you just get to know each other. Sometimes it's closed to new members, sometimes it's not, but the original group has to approve the newcomers after the initial open invite.
Logistics aside, I can see why you feel like you want to be a part of it. It's safer than facebook, say, and it's easier to stick with the same people than watch people move on and always getting a fresh group of doe-eyed newcomers on TTGP. It's pretty exhausting sometimes.
All that to say, if you want a private group, I say get in cahoots with some people like you suggested, or just start it with an open call and invite/request to join at will.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
Check out my Infertility Instagram
BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
EDD: March 24, 2018 - angel baby at 21 weeks
leggings are pants.
JK. JUST KIDDING IF FRIENDS. JUST KIDDING.
I think I'm hilarious, but I know I'm not.
Anyway,
FFFC, To take this AD, I get kinda sad and take it personally if H "takes care" of himself, but I do myself all the damn time.
Hippocratic.
Diagnoses: RPL, Endometriosis, MFI (count, morph, DNI, DNAS, multiple bilateral subclinical varicoceles), low progesterone
Check out my Infertility blog
Check out my Infertility Instagram
BFP: 15 August 2015, loss confirmed 23 August 2015
BFP: 16 November 2015, loss confirmed 22 November 2015
BFP: 18 July 2016, loss confirmed same day
BFP: 04 March 2018, loss confirmed 23 March 2018
BFP: 12 June 2018, TWINS; D&C 06 July 2018
Met with OBGYN in January 2016
Me: all clear, H: OAT
November 2016: HSG = All Clear!
January 2017: H tested again, High DNA fragmentation and stainability
February 2017: Clomid + TI + Progesterone = BFN
March 2017: Clomid + HCG + IUI + Progesterone = SA/wash: zero count on attempt #1, <1,000 on attempt #2= BFN
Varicocele Embolization- 5 May 17
December 2017 SA: Zero improvement after embolization
January IVF- 25 retrieved, 11 mature, 8 fertilized, 3 frozen day fives (3AA, 3AA, 3AA), 1 frozen day 6 (5BB), 1 frozen day 7 (3CC)
Three PGS normal (3AA, 3AA, 5BB), one inconclusive (3AA)
FET #1: 27 February 2018, 3AA & 5BB, one stuck! BFP 04 March 2018.... Loss confirmed 23 March 2018
May 2018: SHG/SIS = all clear "beautiful uterus"
FET #2: 04 June 2018, 3AA PGS normal embryo, 3AA PGS hatching inconclusive embryo.
BFP: 12 June 2018, EDD 20 February 2019
Ultrasound, 25 June 2018: There are two!
Lost Baby A 02 July 2018
Baby B not growing, D&C 06 July 2018
Laparoscopy, hysteroscopy, chromotubation: 23 July 2018: blocked right tube, heavily inflamed, covered in endo. Removed right tube. Removed more endo from uterus, tubes, ovaries. Endo remains on bladder and bowel.
ER#2 ~Jan 2019
@pebbledam I'm with you on the wanting to go to a BMB with familiar faces and secretly preferring certain ones! But at the same time, I'd be happy to go to a BMB with anyone who I've had positive interactions with here. I just hope if I'm lucky enough to get to a BMB at all, that I have SOMEONE there I already know fairly well from here to chat with.
@hedgepig I'm glad the dirty FFFC inspired you to join
My rather tame FFFC for today: up until 3ish weeks ago I thought "QFP" meant Quit Fucking Posting and I couldn't figure out why there was always a quote when people said that.
I just uploaded a gif I already had downloaded to my profile under My Account. It has to be under 10mb I think. Also I use a laptop, not a phone, so that might make a difference?
Give it a whirl!
Started Dating: 2003 Married: 2013
Started TTC August 2016
BFP: 2/1/17 MC: 2/8/17
BFP: 3/8/17 MMC: 5/1/17
BFP: 7/23/17 EDD: 4/5/18
BFP: 2/27/20
DSS born 01/2016
TTC since 01/2017
Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
Also, if/when I get KU, I'll probably just bounce without saying anything (which sorta sucks because I like "hanging out" with y'all). I'd love to say that it would be out of respect for anyone's feelings, but it's really just selfish. TW - while I was not particularly sad about my MC (disappointed, sure, but DH did all the crying), I just don't think I'll feel comfortable celebrating a potential BFP until at least 8 weeks. Like, I don't think I'll join a BMB until after that (or, uh, come back here if I MC again?). While I was benched/TTA I didn't think I'd feel this way, but now that I'm (probably? 2 more days to confirm) in the TWW for the first time in like 9 months, I think that's how I feel. We'll see.
Yeah, I'm not delusional. I know that DH still occasionally 'takes care' of himself, and I know that it's totally normal. Buuuuuuuut if he did it when there were plenty of opportunities for us to bang, I take it personally too.
And, I guess this is my FFFC, I'm looking forward to tomorrow morning because I don't have to work, but DH does. So he'll leave by 6:30am, and then I'm free to dig out my vibe and buzz myself to a great morning.
Married: 2/1/2012
TTC #1 since August 2016
DH SA Dec 2016: Low count (11.7 mil total motile), 5% morphology, 73% motility
Blood work June 2017: AMH 1.1 (ugh), FSH 8.4, LH: 5.2, estradiol 28 pg/ML, progesterone 7.4
HSG July 2017: tubes clear
BFP 7/24/17 - EDD 4/5/2018
@KristoKekerooni Lularoe is ugly. You're amazing
@LuND H was gone Monday night so I took Kristo's advice and found erotic gifs on Tumblr and had an amazing night, like I used to have before I moved in with H and lost some privacy.
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
@looeeze Look I did it!
TTC #1 since April 2015
RE Dx: Fibroids, surgery Jan 2016
IUI #1 and #2, Nov/Dec 2016, BFN
IVF March 2017: ER - 5R/3M/3F, 1 PGS normal
Polyp removed May 2017
FET May 2017 - BFP!
Baby boy born 2/2/18
I kind of view TTGP like high school (in a good way), or maybe like college. You get to "meet" all of these awesome, wonderful ladies and get to know them and then some graduate and move on to different "colleges/a job" (a BMB) and you lose touch. It would be nice to have a place where you can get to know people and stay in touch despite going off to different boards. I, for one, am terrible at keeping in touch with ppl IRL once we're in different situations, I don't want to "bother" people.
AFM, FFFC: I really want to buy myself the book Sh*tty Mom because it sounds hilarious and fits my sense of humor, but secretly wish someone else would buy it for me, but no one IRL knows that we're even TTC. I have it, and a bunch of other LO related stuff, on a secret list on Amazon
TTC#1 10/2016
TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each.
BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021
planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks,
some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
PS guys don't google "surprise anal gif" and expect to find anything even remotely appropriate to post here.
ETA I entered Sunday's 'BD' in FF and then was like....
Married: 2/1/2012
TTC #1 since August 2016
DH SA Dec 2016: Low count (11.7 mil total motile), 5% morphology, 73% motility
Blood work June 2017: AMH 1.1 (ugh), FSH 8.4, LH: 5.2, estradiol 28 pg/ML, progesterone 7.4
HSG July 2017: tubes clear
BFP 7/24/17 - EDD 4/5/2018