Thanks for the votes of confidence, everyone. I'm still really really torn about auditioning. I haven't performed since college, and in high school I always had leads and solos. I used to be one of the leading sopranos in my school's chorus and chamber chorus. I know teaching has done a number on my voice, and I wouldn't be able to sing the lead part in Showboat (even though I used to be able to!). I'm just scared of how not even getting put into the chorus might impact my self esteem.
I still have a few days to think about it, and to think of audition pieces (I know I can still rock 'When I Marry Mr. Snow' from Carousel).
Me: 28 DH: 29 Married: 6/2016 TTC #1: 12/2016 Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
@jsnakehole - As someone who is super shy and struggles with self-esteem, I understand your hesitation. BUT - It would suck to always wonder if you could have made it on the cast! I think you should give it a try since it's something you would love to do!
I changed my username to something more relevant to me since my last username was so out-dated and I don't even speak Spanish. Pebble Dam was one of my favorite places growing up. It was about a mile and a half from our house and I have so many wonderful memories of catching tadpoles and crawdads with my little brother down there.
Me: 29 | DH: 29
Married 12/2016 DSS born 01/2016 TTC since 01/2017 Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
Ok, seriously, did we tick someone off recently or something??? What is going on with these posts?!
I have no idea, but the random posts and accusing us of being bitches is out of control this week...
Especially when it's on a post that 2 1/2 years old!!!!
Yes! Because those people are obviously still here :eyeroll: not to mention she was being so counter productive. Her message was "if you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all" so she comes out of nowhere and calls us all mean? Like we had anything to do with it? She should have taken her own advice.
This shit isn't even entertaining anymore. I'm done with the drama this week.
Me: 23 | DH: 30
Married November 2016 TTC #1 November 2016
Dx Anovulatory/NIR PCOS April 2017 50mg Clomid June 2017 BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
This is bananas! It was so quiet for a while and now it's an explosion of randos.
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
Not gonna lie - as a newbie who has read the rules, is really trying to follow the rules, and is attempting to actively engage in the community, I'm annoyed by people not following the rules. Last I checked Google was still up and running and making billions of dollars answering random questions.
@lulu1180 ditto!! My hair was thrown on the top of my head each day. Who the hell was I trying to impress?? The one young but ugly male teacher that everyone hung all over bc he had a penis?? Nothankyou
@Pinky917 Seriously WTF?! I only came in here to ask that very question. It's like they all coordinated an attack at the same time just to keep us on our toes.
Omg at that zombie thread. I started reading it and didn't notice how old it was at first and I was thinking to myself "who the hell are ALL these people?". Serious facepalm. WTF is going on here lately though?!
I'm having a terrible fucking day and I can't vent anywhere else.
**TW** so I've hidden it in the spoiler box.
I have a really good friend who is an addict. She's been clean for about 7 years after a stint in jail and rehab. She has two young kids (almost 6 and 4). Today I found out that she's relapsed and is in the hospital with a blood infection. She'll be getting an ECG in the morning to find out if the infection has spread to her heart. I live 5hrs away and feel like a total failure of a friend. I haven't been checking in with her like I usually do because life has been hectic here with DH traveling so much and then my grandfather getting diagnosed with terminal cancer. I'm just feeling really shitty and down and can't talk to anyone I know because the family is keeping it quiet to try and shelter the kids. Ugh. Addiction can eat a dick.
I'm so sorry that your friend relapsed. I cannot imagine what it is like to struggle with addiction like this and to wind up with a blood infection, especially with children. That being said, please do not blame yourself for what has transpired! The fact that you have been there for your friend is wonderful. Many times, people completely abandon others due to addiction, so the fact that you have been there for her, especially when you have burdens of your own, is to be applauded. I know it's hard to have to keep quiet about these sorts of struggles when all you want to do is be able to talk through it with someone who understands. I agree: addiction can totally eat a dick.
Me: 35 DH: 28 TTC since June 2016 Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016 AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017 Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017 October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total) Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen 12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP 2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone Abnormal SIS Oct 2018 Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis. 12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN Our journey has come to an end.
I can tell you are a wonderful friend because of how much this relapse is affecting you. Don't blame yourself. Be there for your friend in whatever capacity that you can/want to right now, but don't dwell on the what-ifs. Don't feel guilty for living your life. Addiction is a b*tch.
Me: 29 | DH: 29
Married 12/2016 DSS born 01/2016 TTC since 01/2017 Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
@mschanandlerbong1214 Hugs I'll just say this, the pain of the situation is more than enough, don't add guilt into the mix. You are not responsible for her or her actions. Feel sad for your friend. Keep in contact with her family and offer support as you can. I know you feel like you should sacrifice all the time you have to support the people you love. I was raised the same way. But you need to learn that kind of love and devotion is too much to ask of anyone. It always ends in irrational guilt like you're feeling simply because you could not be all things for all people. You have nothing to feel guilty about. Put that aside. You have so many things going on in your life now. Re-evaluate. Prioritize. And be there for people as you can. But make sure your top priority is your emotional and mental health. Everything else is secondary. I'll be thinking of you and your friend over the next few days. Keep us updated.
Me: 23 | DH: 30
Married November 2016 TTC #1 November 2016
Dx Anovulatory/NIR PCOS April 2017 50mg Clomid June 2017 BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
@mschanandlerbong1214 I can't imagine how this must feel. You seem like a wonderful friend. Don't beat yourself up, becasue you are truly not to blame. *hugs*
omg these rando posts all over the board today are just amazing. I don't know who we pissed off to have such a coordinated attack, but I'm loving how we're all dealing with them lol I'm NOT happy about the no mobile giffing. That's some bullshit.
Thanks ladies I needed to hear all of that. Being so far away from "home" just sucks lately between this and my grandfather. Blah. Today will end with lots of wine.
@mschanandlerbong1214 - I can't figure out how to do a spoiler box but always remember that what your friend is going through is ultimately an illness. You couldn't have prevented it. I'm so sorry for what you (and your friend) are going through. Hugs. Have a good cry in a hot shower. Drink all the wine. Eat all the cheese (or chocolate, or both).
@mschanandlerbong1214 I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. I know it is so much easier said than done, but don't beat yourself up. Just do what you can to be there for her and her family however you can. Sorry to hear about your grandfather as well. All the hugs coming your way
@mschanandlerbong1214 so sorry you're having to go through this with your friend! It is so rough, but you can't blame yourself. Sending you all the creepy interenet hugs.
Sorry for bringing it up again, but I just got done reading through all the drive by posts and need to vent for a minute. All these randoms just need to stop! The first post on the TTC specifically says, newbies read this first. When I first started lurking, it didn't take rocket science for me to figure out that's which post I should start with and to actually follow the guidelines. Sigh... it is really a shame because you ladies are amazing & supportive and if these drive bys actually followed the rules, they would get to experience the awesomeness of this community. Okay, I feel a lot better now. Thanks for putting up with my rant.
@darkrose88 Well said! I have to admit I was actually sort of amused at how outlandish the drive bys were. I mean the girl talking about her SIL... I told DH that story on our walk last night and he said "that HAD to have been someone trolling." I told him I didn't think so. Just what in the world...
@MJDsquared@Pinky917 Haha I do the same thing! I actually try to watch the exclamation marks now to tone it down a little. I always seem overly excited about everything. <-- This is also my favorite face
@MJDsquared I do the same thing! That exclamation point wasn't on purpose...I would have just naturally put it there and wasn't about to delete just bc of the topic
@mschanandlerbong1214 I can't say anything more useful than people have already said here, but I hope things work out with your friend. Being a good friend is important, but living your own life is too. If you need distance from the whole thing in order to maintain your world, then that doesn't make you a bad person.
Re: Weekly Randoms- 4/17
@icecubeinthedesert sounds like an opportunity for you to get creative!
TTC#1 10/2016
TTC/IF:included medicated cycles, IUIs and 2 rounds of IVF with 1 embryo each.
BFP finally in 12/2018
TTC#2 06/2021
planning FET
"Some days are diamonds, some days are rocks,
some doors are open, some roads are blocked"
I still have a few days to think about it, and to think of audition pieces (I know I can still rock 'When I Marry Mr. Snow' from Carousel).
Married: 6/2016
TTC #1: 12/2016
Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
I changed my username to something more relevant to me since my last username was so out-dated and I don't even speak Spanish. Pebble Dam was one of my favorite places growing up. It was about a mile and a half from our house and I have so many wonderful memories of catching tadpoles and crawdads with my little brother down there.
DSS born 01/2016
TTC since 01/2017
Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
Married 9/2015
TTC #1 6/2016
Dx Unexplained IF 6/2017
Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI 7/2017 - Cancelled (overstimulated)
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #1 - BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #2 -BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI#3 - BFP! EDD July 15 2018
Baby Girl H - July 22 2018
TTC #1 November 2016
50mg Clomid June 2017
BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
Married: 6/2016
TTC #1: 12/2016
Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
This shit isn't even entertaining anymore. I'm done with the drama this week.
TTC #1 November 2016
50mg Clomid June 2017
BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
Married: 2013
TTC #1: 2/2017
Dx: mild/borderline NIR PCOS
May TTGP Siggy Challenge - Awkward Prom Photos:
"It's time to try defying gravity."
Married 6/11/16
TTC Since 6/2016
12/2016 RE appt; 1/2017 SA & HSG results - all normal
3/2017 Dx Hyperprolactinemia; 5/2017 Prolactin levels normal; 8/2017 Low Ovarian Reserve
8/2017 TTA for personal reasons; 10/2017 NTNP; 12/2017 Re-start TTC
7/2018 Clomid+IUI
11/2018 Letrozole+TI
12/2018 Letrozole+IUI
2/2019 NTNP
5/2019 Stopping all TTC efforts; living Childfree
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Edit to add gif
**TW** so I've hidden it in the spoiler box.
DS1: 9.6.12**DS2: 12.22.14
CP1: 6/17 @4w4d
CP2: 9/17 @4w3d
CP3: 2/18 @5w
Rainbow Baby On Board
<a href="https://babysizer.com/geeky"><img src="https://babysizer.com/geeky-2019-03-08.jpg" alt="Babysizer Geeky Pregnancy Tracker"></a>
TTC since June 2016
Azoospermia diagnosis (zero count) Dec 2016
AZFc chromosome microdeletion discovery March 2017
Unsuccessful TESE for DH in August 2017
October 2017 IVF with donor sperm
29R, 24M, 16F, 2d5, 4d6 (6 embryos total)
Only 3 could have PGS. 2/3 normal. 5 embies frozen
12/15/17 FET #1 (1 embryo)--CP
2/7/17 FET #2 (2 embryos)--BFN
Chronic endometritis diagnosis May 2018
ERA Sept 2018--borderline receptive--12 more hours of progesterone
Abnormal SIS Oct 2018
Repeat hysteroscopy Nov 1. Treated recurring endometritis.
12/4/18 FET #3 (2 embryos)--BFN
Our journey has come to an end.
DSS born 01/2016
TTC since 01/2017
Letrozole + TI = BFP 01/30/2018 | EDD 10/11/2018
TTC #1 November 2016
50mg Clomid June 2017
BFP June, 21 2017 | EDD March 4, 2018
TTC #2 - August 2016
MFI
IUI #1-3 BFN
BFP 4/21/18 MMC 6/11/18
Married: 10/2013
TTC #1 Since: 02/2017
@mschanadlerbong1214
omg these rando posts all over the board today are just amazing. I don't know who we pissed off to have such a coordinated attack, but I'm loving how we're all dealing with them lol
I'm NOT happy about the no mobile giffing. That's some bullshit.
Married: 6/2016
TTC #1: 12/2016
Benched due to deployment- Off the bench 8/8/17!
DS1: 9.6.12**DS2: 12.22.14
CP1: 6/17 @4w4d
CP2: 9/17 @4w3d
CP3: 2/18 @5w
Rainbow Baby On Board
<a href="https://babysizer.com/geeky"><img src="https://babysizer.com/geeky-2019-03-08.jpg" alt="Babysizer Geeky Pregnancy Tracker"></a>
Married: 2013
TTC #1: 2/2017
Dx: mild/borderline NIR PCOS
May TTGP Siggy Challenge - Awkward Prom Photos:
Sorry to hear about your grandfather as well. All the hugs coming your way
Sorry for bringing it up again, but I just got done reading through all the drive by posts and need to vent for a minute. All these randoms just need to stop! The first post on the TTC specifically says, newbies read this first. When I first started lurking, it didn't take rocket science for me to figure out that's which post I should start with and to actually follow the guidelines. Sigh... it is really a shame because you ladies are amazing & supportive and if these drive bys actually followed the rules, they would get to experience the awesomeness of this community. Okay, I feel a lot better now. Thanks for putting up with my rant.
DD1 EDD 9/29/2015, Born 9/24/2015
DS1 EDD 1/3/2018, Born 12/26/2017
BFP #3 3/21/2019, EDD 11/29/2019, MMC/D&C 5/7/2019
BFP #4 6/28/2019, EDD 3/12/2020
DD - 12/28/17
TTC #2 3/2019
BFP 5/2019 || MC - D&C 5/2019
BFP 2/2020 || EDD 10/10/2020
Married 9/2015
TTC #1 6/2016
Dx Unexplained IF 6/2017
Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI 7/2017 - Cancelled (overstimulated)
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #1 - BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI #2 -BFN
Letrozole + Ovidrel + IUI#3 - BFP! EDD July 15 2018
Baby Girl H - July 22 2018
Me: 36 DH: 41
OMG SAME. I feel like a 12 year old sometimes with the exclamation points.