@Ekzerr Sorry to hear about your kitty! Losing pets is so hard. @SnarkasaurusRex oof! You are having quite a rough time! Try to take it all day by day. If you need to take time of before baby, then so be it!
@KirstinH88 I am on the struggle bus for sure! I just hit that wall of, "oh sh*t; this is happening" and I'm so type A that I need things to be a certain way for maternity leave before I go. If I could afford to take more time off, I would (but then I'd have to make a week's worth more of lesson plans! ). We'll see what the doctor says on Thursday, but maybe I'll have my life back together by then, haha.
@SnarkasaurusRex what an awful day. I'm sorry. I hope you can get some rest and feel better soon.
I cried last night as I was folding baby clothes to put away because I kept holding them up for DH to see how cute they were. And he looked at me and said "you are going to be so in love with this baby that you won't even think about work, aren't you?" He's probably right. Not totally, but for a few months at least I probably won't care or have thoughts for anything else. But I just cried the most thinking about the first part of his statement and how I'm already so in love with my rainbow baby already and I'm just so excited to meet her. It's been hard to love her this much the entire pregnancy because of fear. But I just can't help it anymore.
I just teared up as I accidentally spilled part of my Kraft Mac and cheese in the sink while straining. DH sang "in the arms of the angels" while running the garbage disposal.
I feel so miserable today that everything is making me cry. I feel so overwhelmed at work and there still is no sub lined up for me either. I am overwhelmed at home too. I just would like some extra help from DH to ease the work load.
This morning was the last straw. DS spilled water all over the bathroom floor when brushing his teeth, but didn't tell anyone. DH was in the bathroom at the time and didn't notice. I ended up stepping in the water, had to clean it up, and change my socks all while running late for work when it's already impossible to bend over...DH seemed pissed that I was upset....the whole thing was stupid, but I just can't take the little stuff anymore.
@Nolegirl1185 Physically I don't feel as terrible anymore, haha. My cough is hanging around but not as dramatic as it was before so I've actually slept decently the last couple of nights. I still can't hear well out of one ear (everything sounds tinny and obnoxious), so I genuinely wonder if I ruptured my ear drum (it popped super painfully one day) and it's still healing...we'll see what my PCP says this afternoon. DS hasn't had any more issues since then (fingers crossed) and I managed to get the rug to smell normal again after steam cleaning it 3 more times and using baking soda, haha. I still feel completely overwhelmed with work, but DH and I agreed last night that it's probably worth it for me to take off a few days earlier than we planned on (so I am now planning to work through next Tuesday, then have a week off before RCS day) so I can finish up my sub plans at home and just not be as stressed. I don't want to have to eat that week financially, but I think my sanity needs to win out right now, haha. My sub plans are almost completed I just need to get stuff organized before I head out.
I've managed to get my life (somewhat) together which means I should totally go into early labor or something soon to throw it all off again.
@SnarkasaurusRex I'm glad you are starting to feel better...those coughs always linger forever and also for DS not having anymore episodes. Yay to saving the rug!! And YES, take off at least a few days before! My situation is so different, and even though I had 4 days of work off before my c section, it definitely was not relaxing or stress free. I didn't get to plan anything or do sub plans etc. I stressed so much in the hospital over everything I didn't get to do. I'd say for your sanity, definitely take those days!
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying 3/16
@SnarkasaurusRex oof! You are having quite a rough time! Try to take it all day by day. If you need to take time of before baby, then so be it!
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
Baby Boy due 04/07/17
I cried last night as I was folding baby clothes to put away because I kept holding them up for DH to see how cute they were. And he looked at me and said "you are going to be so in love with this baby that you won't even think about work, aren't you?" He's probably right. Not totally, but for a few months at least I probably won't care or have thoughts for anything else. But I just cried the most thinking about the first part of his statement and how I'm already so in love with my rainbow baby already and I'm just so excited to meet her. It's been hard to love her this much the entire pregnancy because of fear. But I just can't help it anymore.
DD #2: May 2020
Baby #3: EDD May 2023; MC October 2022
This morning was the last straw. DS spilled water all over the bathroom floor when brushing his teeth, but didn't tell anyone. DH was in the bathroom at the time and didn't notice. I ended up stepping in the water, had to clean it up, and change my socks all while running late for work when it's already impossible to bend over...DH seemed pissed that I was upset....the whole thing was stupid, but I just can't take the little stuff anymore.
I've managed to get my life (somewhat) together