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TTTC Checkin 03/07/2017

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  • @GoldenKeys welcome back! And thank you for doing this every week and keeping track of things :smiley:
    @hoffmanr7 excellent signature! 
    @MJDsquared hooray for O'ing!
    @pawcall FX... I'm guessing you've POAS by now?
    @Bababatty darn for the month off :/ 
    @SoonToBeMommaHowe ARGH! That's a tough situation - your feelings are totally understandable, once you have a little insight into the world of IF.
    *TW* I have 5 sisters... since I started TTC all of them have either had a baby or become pregnant. SIL too (that one was the hardest). The most recent KU-sis told me on the same day she got a BFP, not aware of the stats for MC - it was hard not to roll my eyes and say wait a few weeks based on my own experiences (she's still going strong) *end TW*
    @funkykey hahahaha not quite the traditional toaster gift! It really does sound like your DH is a keeper, despite the kooky family :D
    @vintageandrea90 oh lord that lucky co-worker... I live in dread of my co-worker getting KU'd before me, as I'd have no-one to cover me if I needed mat leave (Self-employed). Hugs & don't judge yourself too much for the jealousy - you are in good company!
    @notamyrtle I'm so sorry - it sounds like you've had a rough week. Positive thoughts going your way. Is it possible for you to get a little sunshine on skin where you live (real or artificial)? I always find it gives me a bit of a lift, especially living in the cold white north. 

    AFM: WTO for my1st IUI... I'm estimating tomorrow or the next day. I've been insanely anxious all week about it. Clinic called to tell me they raised their rates from $400 to $500 this month... just in time for me, fun! (especially annoying as we missed last months planned IUI)

    DH and I are still debating whether to do a second IUI or skip directly to IVF - I have so little faith in IUI, the success rates seem so low. We need to decide before my CD1 so we can order the prescriptions - the joys of living in the middle of nowhere!

    Me: 34 DH: 32
    TTC #1: Oct 2015
    DX: Unexplained - all tests normal
    TXX:
    Jan '17 - 1st round of Letrozole 25mg CD1-9... BFN
    Feb '17 - 2nd round of Letrozole 25mg CD1-9... BFN
    Mar '17 - 3rd round of Letrozole 25mg CD1-9 + IUI... BFP!!!!!! 


    Lilypie Maternity tickers
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  • @pawcall wooooooo! Oh that is too exciting - you must be going crazy! FX for Monday. 
    Me: 34 DH: 32
    TTC #1: Oct 2015
    DX: Unexplained - all tests normal
    TXX:
    Jan '17 - 1st round of Letrozole 25mg CD1-9... BFN
    Feb '17 - 2nd round of Letrozole 25mg CD1-9... BFN
    Mar '17 - 3rd round of Letrozole 25mg CD1-9 + IUI... BFP!!!!!! 


    Lilypie Maternity tickers
  • Going for a CD 2 ultrasound tomorrow and starting first month of Clomid Saturday. Trigger shot was ordered as well. Can try those by themselves or do IUI with it which does put a dent in the wallet.  not sure if Clomid will help my progesterone levels but hoping it does. Really hoping this month will work out. Took money out of my thrift savings plan for this. Prayers and fingers crossed! 


  • Blarg! I want to comment on everyone's posts but so so tired! (woot to @pawcall !! and @MountainLady - honestly, I did a ton of research on IUI and knew we should have just pressed to move to IVF faster, but I waffled and we did 3 before moving on. I wish we'd just gone right to IVF after we'd spent a year (at AMA) trying with no success and a dx of unexplained.) 

    Today was day 4 of stims and the begining of crazy headaches and hot flashes. yay!! Tomorrow we have bloodwork and an u/s to see how things are progressing. Here's to hoping my poor SO (and coworkers!) can manage to be around me for the next 6 days. I am NOT a pleasant person to be around when I have a headache :(
    Me: 39 SO: 36

    Dx: low progesterone, possible DOR - officially "unexplained"

    TTC#1 since November 2015
    9/16/2016 IUI#1 - BFN
    10/12/2016 IUI#2 - BFN
    1/21/2017 Clomid/IUI#3 - BFN
    March 2017 IVF: BFP! (beta#1 191, beta#2 378!) - it's a boy! DS born 12/6/2017

    TTC #2 since July 2018
    May 2019 IVF #2: BFP! (beta#1 346, beta#2 646) - vanishing twin at 8 weeks. Baby B still going strong - due 2/8/20!
    Pregnancy Ticker
  • Thanks @Bababatty :) My RE appt is on the 3rd of April. So still 3 and a half weeks away
    Me: 26, DH: 26
    TTC #1 since July 2016
    Dx: PCOS, on Metformin since Feb 2017
    • June 17 - Letrozole - BFN
    • July 17 - Letrozole - BFP - MMC confirmed 30/08
    • November 17 - Letrozole - BFN
    • December 17 - Letrozole - BFP!

    Pregnancy Ticker



  • @pawcall Congratulations!!! FX for you!!!
    Me: 29 || DH: 29
    TTC #1 4/2016 || dx NIR PCOS 7/2016 || BFP 4/2017
    DD - 12/28/17 <3

    TTC #2 3/2019
    BFP 5/2019 || MC - D&C 5/2019
    BFP 2/2020 || EDD 10/10/2020
  • @hoffmanr7 - good luck with the ultrasound today!

    @MJDsquared - yay for ovulating!

    @pawcall - congratulations on your BFP! fingers crossed your next beta is nice and high!

    @Bababatty - I always wonder why the doctors aren't more concerned about short LP.  Glad yours agreed to the progesterone with your next IUI regardless!

    @SoonToBeMommaHowe - you've still got time this cycle for a positive. stay hopeful!

    @MooFish2364 - it sucks when these things aren't covered!!

    @funkykey - haha we also feel that if only it was a competition or based on merit!  We would totally beat other people at getting our baby...

    @notamyrtle - sorry to hear you're feeling down.  definitely look into therapy/meds - it's more important that you feel better!  

    @MountainLady - we've had this discussion too because the success rates of IUI are so low! but it's hard to beat the price and my husband wants to "try the more natural ways" first so that's what we're doing.

    @PoeMasque - good luck with the stims and managing the side effects!  why do you say "possible DOR" in your siggy? have you had an AMH/FSH/antral follicle count done?


    AFM, just took my last dose of letrozole last night and have my first ultrasound scheduled for Monday morning. Hopefully there are some good sized follicles there and I can get my first trigger shot over and done with! can't wait for this first IUI!

    I'm trying hard to stay calm, drink tea, listen to meditation tracks.  Found out an old classmate of mine is pregnant with her second (got pregnant and had her first while we were starting to try in 2015).  These things always hit me so hard - I always wanted a big family (3-4 kids) and now I have trouble picturing us with even a single child.



    Married since 2011

    TTC since Oct 2014
    DOR + MFI
    3 failed IUIs; IVF August 2017
    FET January 2018 - BFP
  • @hoffmanr7 That is so frustrating. It really still is a "man's world" and it's really absurd.
    Me: 29 || DH: 29
    TTC #1 4/2016 || dx NIR PCOS 7/2016 || BFP 4/2017
    DD - 12/28/17 <3

    TTC #2 3/2019
    BFP 5/2019 || MC - D&C 5/2019
    BFP 2/2020 || EDD 10/10/2020
  • @hoffmanr7 - that would make me livid! 
  • @hoffmanr7 Uggghhhhh it really is ridiculous the disparity in coverage. :s And another big uggghhhh to all the healthcare BS going down. So I'm guessing the next four years will NOT be when we all get full IF coverage. 

    @seethosestars Good luck with the IUI! I also agree with you and @funkykey that we would totally win that competition. I've got all my financial documentation in order!  B)

    Congratulations, @pawcall!

  • @hoffmanr7  - reminds me of this picture I saw earlier this week! https://pbs.twimg.com/media/C6allZwUsAEkC13.jpg

    I know it's abortion related but I feel the same can be said about IVF/infertility treatments.

    Married since 2011

    TTC since Oct 2014
    DOR + MFI
    3 failed IUIs; IVF August 2017
    FET January 2018 - BFP
  • Forgot to mention I'm feeling so hopeful and excited at times this cycle. I hate when I feel that way because I'm so used to getting that BFN and shattering all my hhopes and dreams. But I haven't felt hopeful in quite a while. I'm not sure if I should just embrace the joy or let myself be anxious. I dunno. It's almost like gambling at the casino. Lol. 
  • Ugggggggggggggggggg, well this cycle is a bust. They think I may have developed a cyst so no IUI this cycle. I have to go back in for another ultrasound at the start of my next cycle.
    Me:33, DH:38 Married: 8/2/2014
    TTC #1 Since: April 2015
    Unexplained Infertility

    Cycle 1&2 : Clomid 50mg- BFN
    Cycle 3: Letrozole 2.5mg- BFN
    Cycle 4: Letrozole 5mg- BFN
    Cycle 5: HSG-normal
                  Clomid 100mg+ Estrace- BFN
    Cycle 6: Letrozole 5mg+Trigger shot+IUI+Progestrone- BFN
    Cycle 7: Letrozole 5mg, Cyst found during follicle check
    Cycle 8: Birth control to treat left ovary cyst
    Cycle 9: Letrozole 7.5mg+Trigger shot+IUI+Progesterone- BFN
    Cycle 10: Letrozole 7.5mg, 2 Cysts found during follicle check
    Cycle 11: Clomid 100mg+Estradiol+Trigger shot+IUI+Progesterone- BFN
    Cycle 12: Clomid 100mg- BFN
    Cycle 13-16: Natural attempts while awaiting IVF 
    Cycle 14: IVF-BFN

  • @hoffmanr7 - Nnnnnnoooooo! I'm sorry. :( 
  • @hoffmanr7 No! So frustrating! I'm sorry!  :s
  • @hoffmanr7 Ugh, so sorry about this cycle!
    Me: 29 || DH: 29
    TTC #1 4/2016 || dx NIR PCOS 7/2016 || BFP 4/2017
    DD - 12/28/17 <3

    TTC #2 3/2019
    BFP 5/2019 || MC - D&C 5/2019
    BFP 2/2020 || EDD 10/10/2020
  • limeburstlimeburst member
    edited March 2017
    @pawcall yesss! Congrats! FX FX!! 


    @whenwillieversleep  I totally understand that battle between being hopeful/optimistic and still trying to be realistic and not let yourself get too excited. I try to embrace the positive feelings when I have them, because so much about this has me feeling down a lot of the time. FX for you this cycle! 


    @hoffmanr7 Noo!! So sorry!!  That is so frustrating!! :(
  • @hoffmanr7 hugs! Sorry about the cyst, this stuff is just ridiculous :( 

    as for me, playing the waiting game before ovulation and I'm boooored. As weird as it is, at least in the TWW there's some hope. I will try to post more and lurk less, but thank you to everyone who does post regularly - helps me feel connected even when I am just lurking :) 
  • @seethosestars all my hormone levels were normal, but my afc was 12 (CD3) then 21 (baseline for IVF). My RE was really surprised and said those counts were unexpected for my age and hormone levels. It's not an official diagnosis of DOR because I'm on the "low end of normal" I guess, but to me all signs point in that direction. 

    We also had our monitoring u/s today, day 5 of stims, and only 4 measurable follicles (>10mm) and one 9.1mm follicle. There were only 16 total and the fact that the remaining 11 showed no signs of growth from baseline makes me think we will be lucky to get 5 eggs next week. Kind of a rough way to start the day. 
    Me: 39 SO: 36

    Dx: low progesterone, possible DOR - officially "unexplained"

    TTC#1 since November 2015
    9/16/2016 IUI#1 - BFN
    10/12/2016 IUI#2 - BFN
    1/21/2017 Clomid/IUI#3 - BFN
    March 2017 IVF: BFP! (beta#1 191, beta#2 378!) - it's a boy! DS born 12/6/2017

    TTC #2 since July 2018
    May 2019 IVF #2: BFP! (beta#1 346, beta#2 646) - vanishing twin at 8 weeks. Baby B still going strong - due 2/8/20!
    Pregnancy Ticker
  • kaitlink33kaitlink33 member
    edited March 2017
    @whenwillieversleep I always try to embrace the positive feelings when I have them as well since I feel down and depressed more than anything. It's nice to feel good about IF once in a while.
    NTNP since 2012
    Officially TTC #1 since January 2015
  • Everyone - thanks so much for your support. You guys are awesome. I'm definitely going to stick with the therapy and the meds, at least until the next treatment cycle. 

    Ironically, I'm feeling way better after getting AF. Big surprise. Kind of amazing.

    Much more to say... will be back later.
    Me - 35 (DH - 33). 
    TTC since May 2015.
    Saw RE in July 2016.
    11/16: IUI #1=  BFN.
    1/17: IUI #2 = BFN.
    5/17: IVF #1. 'long lupron' protocol. E2 = 4800, 'freeze-all', 8R, 7M, 4F, 4B.
    8/17: FET #1.
    Thus far - 'unexplained'.
  • @hoffmanr7 uggghhh about the cyst!!

    @PoeMasque - makes sense. I've only ever had one ultrasound and I had a total of 6 measurable follicles so I was curious!  What was your AMH?  sorry to hear you might not get many eggs at your retrieval =(

    Married since 2011

    TTC since Oct 2014
    DOR + MFI
    3 failed IUIs; IVF August 2017
    FET January 2018 - BFP
  • @seethosestars my AMH was 2.5 we have another's u/s tomorrow morning, hoping some of the smaller follicles have decided to join the party. 
    Me: 39 SO: 36

    Dx: low progesterone, possible DOR - officially "unexplained"

    TTC#1 since November 2015
    9/16/2016 IUI#1 - BFN
    10/12/2016 IUI#2 - BFN
    1/21/2017 Clomid/IUI#3 - BFN
    March 2017 IVF: BFP! (beta#1 191, beta#2 378!) - it's a boy! DS born 12/6/2017

    TTC #2 since July 2018
    May 2019 IVF #2: BFP! (beta#1 346, beta#2 646) - vanishing twin at 8 weeks. Baby B still going strong - due 2/8/20!
    Pregnancy Ticker
  • @seethosestarsThese things always hit me so hard - I always wanted a big family (3-4 kids) and now I have trouble picturing us with even a single child. - 100%! I said to DH the other day, I actually do not know that I can do this again. Say we're lucky enough to eventually get a BFP, I'm really not sure I can do it again 2 years later. And I used to be like: "5 is such a nice number". NOPE. Absolutely not.

    @whenwillIeversleep - I am hopeful for you too! FX! :) I know what you mean about not wanting to hope, but I say embrace it while you can. I let myself talk to DH about baby names the other night, and it was sooo nice not to think: "we're wasting our time."

    @PoeMasque - ugh re: follies. Dammit! I would be so upset. I am going to keep my FX that you see some more growth - and also that you get at least 5 good eggs! I am really hoping this goes well for you. 
  • Also, an update from me: 

    The SIL I mentioned earlier this week - I saw her after I posted my thoughts. And she was so sad and sweet and funny, and I immediately felt like such an extra, extra b*tch for having had any any any thoughts about her getting KU-ed so much quicker than me.

    This whole thing, it is SUCH a mindf*ck. The guilt and the jealousy and the anger and frustration mixed with gratitude and then crushing disappointment. Ugh. It's hard to take time to be kind to yourself when you're on such a rollercoaster!
  • This is probably too last minute but anyone have any advise for me? I'm going for my ultrasounds at the RE today. I've already had an HSG - how does that compare to a saline sonogram? I'm getting that and a 3D u/s so I'm guessing they are using the wand. I'm so sick of people all up in my bits! 
    Pregnancy Ticker
  • notamyrtlenotamyrtle member
    edited March 2017
    Just wanted to respond to other people's posts:

    @MooFish2364: My clinic recommended 800 mg ibuprofen before the saline sonogram. It wasn't that bad. Haven't had an HSG so can't compare.

    @funkykey Will respond in the other thread, but totally agree, IF is a mind**** and a rollercoaster. I've gone from optimistic to depressed within a single day. Crazy. And I totally agree about the one kid thing.. maybe it's the bargaining stage, but I think, 'one kid is good enough for me... if I can just have one kid, I won't try again... promise....!'

    @PoeMasque: Good luck with the ER. Follie counts freak me out since I've had a huge variability in my AFC. I had one read of 19, then next read was 9, then next 17 (13 of which were in one ovary - more than my combined count for the prior cycle!) then 9 again...  My AMH and FSH were fine, so I'm not sure what to make of it. I'm not sure how much stock I even put in AFC now - it seems subjective.

    @hoffmanr7 : Sorry about the cyst... I had a cyst after my 1st IUI cycle. It's really frustrating having to wait a cycle. 

    @seethosestars Good luck with your letrozole cycle...!
    Me - 35 (DH - 33). 
    TTC since May 2015.
    Saw RE in July 2016.
    11/16: IUI #1=  BFN.
    1/17: IUI #2 = BFN.
    5/17: IVF #1. 'long lupron' protocol. E2 = 4800, 'freeze-all', 8R, 7M, 4F, 4B.
    8/17: FET #1.
    Thus far - 'unexplained'.
  • @Bababatty @mrswifeytoad @kaitlink33 @Kim41313 Thanks guys for the encouragement regarding antidepressants and therapy. One has gotta do what one has gotta do...

    Me - 35 (DH - 33). 
    TTC since May 2015.
    Saw RE in July 2016.
    11/16: IUI #1=  BFN.
    1/17: IUI #2 = BFN.
    5/17: IVF #1. 'long lupron' protocol. E2 = 4800, 'freeze-all', 8R, 7M, 4F, 4B.
    8/17: FET #1.
    Thus far - 'unexplained'.
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