It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
I was so shocked to see April's pregnancy loss. It was so sad and unexpected.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
Update: hcg on Tuesday was 13 and dropped to 6 by Thursday. Sadly I'm out with another chemical pregnancy. Prayers and luck to all of you to welcome sweet babies in November! I'm hopeful to be back on the boards again one day.
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling? 4 weeks tomorrow. I'm really tired but I've been on PIO shots so that isn't helping!!
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? I had a MMC at 11 weeks in August. The worst thing I've ever been through. I'm so nervous it will happened again and my body won't know. Trying to stay positive- Dh is so good at that!
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? beta was today so feeling good! Repeat beta on Monday.
4. How is your SO handling everything? super positive. He always always is. Love that.
5. GTKY: Favorite flavor of ice cream! (If you hate ice cream, what is another sweet treat you enjoy?) pistachio but is has to be GREEN!!
Update: hcg on Tuesday was 13 and dropped to 6 by Thursday. Sadly I'm out with another chemical pregnancy. Prayers and luck to all of you to welcome sweet babies in November! I'm hopeful to be back on the boards again one day.
@Laurie - Welcome! FX everything will go well and you have a happy and healthy nine months.
@NYTino24 - I don't - is it on Hulu or Netflix? We don't have cable so I just watch a few shows usually after the kids go to bed while I'm cleaning or unwinding (or bumping). The only medical type show I watch is Grey's Anatomy. Started watching it when it first started and it's like a train wreck I can't look away from, lol.
@JDW0325 - Welcome! Will keep fx for good betas and quick doubling. Hope they can get back to you quick on Monday so you don't have to wait too long!
29 y/o Married 6.26.11 BFP 12.23.13, EDD 9.2.14 - baby girl, born too soon at 22w6d due to a placental abruption on 5.5.14 BFP 8.4.14, EDD 4.15.15 - rainbow son, born at 30w4d due to a placental abruption on 2.8.15, healthy 3 y/o now! BFP 2.28.17, EDD 11.8.17 - baby girl, miscarried at 11 weeks on 4.21.17 BFP 11.28.17, EDD 8.8.18, delivering in July - another rainbow baby boy!
So sorry @Duckybears. Please take the time to grieve. Hope things turn around quickly for you!
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
@kschref It's on cable. There are 4 Chicago shows: Fire, PD, Med, and Justice. That is the order in which they started. Cross-overs are common as some characters appear on multiple shows. I LOVE them. The creators were super smart because they know people like me will watch all. I usually catch up on DVR on a weekend.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
Hey everyone I introduced myself on the regular board and wanted to go ahead and start posting on these posts too. I am having a really hard time enjoying this pregnancy so support would be great to have!
1. How far along are you today? 5w2d How are you feeling? I'm feeling pretty good, anxious that my u/s appointment isn't for another two weeks...
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? In 1/16 I had a miscarriage around 6 weeks then I got pregnant again in 3/16 and it they ended up calling it an ectopic, the pregnancy wasn't right from the start. We then spent the last year trying to get pregnant with no luck... we were supposed to start fertility appointments this month but I got my BFP about a week and a half ago. Once I hit the 6-7 week mark I think I will feel better.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I'm feeling okay, trying to keep positive and not analyze every little thing.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He is handling it good, just keeps saying what happens is meant to happen, I just tell him I don't like to talk about anything to do with the pregnancy until I go to the dr.
5. GTKY: Favorite flavor of ice cream! (If you hate ice cream, what is another sweet treat you enjoy?) I have recently found Halo ice cream it's a healthy version and I love the peanut butter chocolate!
@SRB130 Welcome. Hopefully you are in for a long stay this time!
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
@NYTino24 DH and I watch all the Chicago shows. We are a bit behind though. I think we have 4 or 5 of each on the DVR right now. Of course I couldn't resist your spoiler box. I'm kind of surprised they did that too. I'll have to catch up soon.
Me: 26 | DH: 26
Married: 08/23/2014
TTC Baby #1: August 2016-February 2017 BFP 02/25/2017, EDD 11/07/2017
Hi all, I'm new to this board and am glad to have a community for support
1. How far along are you today? Right at 5 weeks today. Found out I was pregnant on Tuesday, confirmed blood test on Wednesday, now sitting with the news and trying to let it settle.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? This is my second pregnancy. During my first, I had very mild symptoms but everything seemed to be going fine. My ultrasound at 8 weeks looked good, I saw and heard my baby's heartbeat, took the picture home. I felt confident enough to announce to friends and family shortly after. At around 10 weeks (and a week before Christmas) I started lightly spotting and went in for an emergency ultrasound the next day where we were told there was no longer a heartbeat. The following day I was in the hospital for the D&C surgery. It was a really, really rough Christmas for me. In all honesty, this pregnancy is sort of a surprise. I didn't feel emotionally ready to be pregnant again, and we certainly weren't trying. I had one light period following the miscarriage and then immediately got pregnant. We did have testing done after the surgery and discovered that it was a genetic abnormality that resulted in the first miscarraige- Trisomy 9 I believe which my doctor described as "not compatible with life." There was nothing we could have done, and it wasn't due to anything with me or my husband specifically which felt somewhat relieving.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? It's a unique mix of happy, terrified, sad, hopeful, and tired. I move in and out of disbelief that I'm pregnant again and what this means, but am so happy to have another chance to have a child. I cried this morning thinking about taking "bump" photos, having done that the first time and feeling devastated after. I definitely look for blood all the time, anticipate waking up to spotting and the sinking feeling that I've lost another one. I feel scared to buy baby books, and don't know when or how I should tell my family. But at the same time, I'm hopeful that I get to meet my little apple seed in November.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He was devastated after the first loss. Lots of tears and holding each other, but he seemed to bounce back faster. He is excited about this pregnancy, seems more hopeful than I am. It's nice to have that, he's a good stabilizing force for me.
5. GTKY: Favorite flavor of ice cream! (If you hate ice cream, what is another sweet treat you enjoy?) I'm partial to ice cream that tastes like cake, actually. I love Red Velvet ice cream.
Welcome @hcosgrov! A couple of people who knew about my loss told me they believe those babies keep trying to come back. Maybe this one just couldn't wait any longer to meet its parents and to heal your hearts!
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
@hcosgrov - Hello! I hope that this will be your rainbow baby. I think your description of "happy, terrified, sad, hopeful, and tired" is exactly right. PGAL can bring such a host of conflicting emotions simultaneously! Glad you are on the November BMB and hopefully this check-in can provide some extra support as we go along.
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling? I'm 6w2d and can't quite put into words how I'm feeling. I'm really excited, but also really nervous and keep overanalyzing each symptom or lack of symptom and each pain I feel. I've had some nausea and sore breasts along with just an overall sense of drained, which I keep telling myself are all good things, but then each time the nausea goes away for a bit of I don't feel as tired, I and up getting worried. 2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? I've had two losses previously. After getting pregnant with my son really easily and having a "normal" first pregnancy resulting in our son in Feb of 2013, we were surprised to struggle to get pregnant again. After a year of trying we finally got pregnant in March of 15, but had a MMC in May at 11w (baby stopped growing at 8w). Then we struggled again but finally got pregnant again in Sept16. That one had bad numbers from the start and we lost the baby around 5w. 3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? Excited but scared. I have had blood drawn and the numbers looked "good" and they started me on progesterone, but the waiting for my appointment next week is really testing my patience and my faith. I feel like I keep saying "if" more than I did in the past and almost won't allow myself to say "when" out of fear. 4. How is your SO handling everything? As well as I can expect. I think he is afraid to get too excited, just like I am and doesn't want to really talk about it. I know he wants another, but I think he is afraid to admit it because it means he would be vulnerable to the pain of the losses. 5. GTKY: Favorite flavor of ice cream! (If you hate ice cream, what is another sweet treat you enjoy?) Pistachio. I allowed myself some this weekend and it was amazing.
I had my blood test this morning, but haven't gotten the results yet, but I've asked for a 48 hr repeat for Wednesday. I started having spotting and cramping over the weekend. Neither is too severe, so I'm still just trying to stay positive, but I'll want to see those numbers go up on Wednesday. Them just being high today won't reassure me, because my last test was over 2 weeks ago and if something bad started happening this weekend, the numbers would still be high and wouldn't really tell us if the spotting is concerning or not. I'm a data person and need all the numbers, lol. So, on pins and needles. And H told me this morning that I can't just live my life in fear all the time and to stop overreacting, so....I'm feeling pretty alone in this right now. He apologized right away and I'm not sure it came out how he meant it, but it still stung.
ETA: Just got the results online. Not sure how to interpret them, but progesterone went down from 2 weeks ago, so this is not good. Waiting for a call from the nurse....
@SweetMelissa4 I hope they get you on progesterone fast! Fingers crossed for you!!
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
I'm gonna start a new thread for this week since this one is long.
It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most...not where you live, or what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes... There's no dollar sign on a piece of mind, this I've come to know! *ZBB*
Re: PGAL (Pregnant after Loss) Check-in | Week of March 7
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
Prayers and luck to all of you to welcome sweet babies in November! I'm hopeful to be back on the boards again one day.
1. How far along are you today? How are you feeling?
4 weeks tomorrow. I'm really tired but I've been on PIO shots so that isn't helping!!
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I had a MMC at 11 weeks in August. The worst thing I've ever been through. I'm so nervous it will happened again and my body won't know. Trying to stay positive- Dh is so good at that!
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
beta was today so feeling good! Repeat beta on Monday.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
super positive. He always always is. Love that.
5. GTKY: Favorite flavor of ice cream! (If you hate ice cream, what is another sweet treat you enjoy?)
pistachio but is has to be GREEN!!
@NYTino24 - I don't - is it on Hulu or Netflix? We don't have cable so I just watch a few shows usually after the kids go to bed while I'm cleaning or unwinding (or bumping). The only medical type show I watch is Grey's Anatomy. Started watching it when it first started and it's like a train wreck I can't look away from, lol.
@JDW0325 - Welcome! Will keep fx for good betas and quick doubling. Hope they can get back to you quick on Monday so you don't have to wait too long!
About me:
Married 6.26.11
BFP 12.23.13, EDD 9.2.14 - baby girl, born too soon at 22w6d due to a placental abruption on 5.5.14
BFP 8.4.14, EDD 4.15.15 - rainbow son, born at 30w4d due to a placental abruption on 2.8.15, healthy 3 y/o now!
BFP 2.28.17, EDD 11.8.17 - baby girl, miscarried at 11 weeks on 4.21.17
BFP 11.28.17, EDD 8.8.18, delivering in July - another rainbow baby boy!
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
1. How far along are you today? 5w2d How are you feeling? I'm feeling pretty good, anxious that my u/s appointment isn't for another two weeks...
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones? In 1/16 I had a miscarriage around 6 weeks then I got pregnant again in 3/16 and it they ended up calling it an ectopic, the pregnancy wasn't right from the start. We then spent the last year trying to get pregnant with no luck... we were supposed to start fertility appointments this month but I got my BFP about a week and a half ago. Once I hit the 6-7 week mark I think I will feel better.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes? I'm feeling okay, trying to keep positive and not analyze every little thing.
4. How is your SO handling everything? He is handling it good, just keeps saying what happens is meant to happen, I just tell him I don't like to talk about anything to do with the pregnancy until I go to the dr.
5. GTKY: Favorite flavor of ice cream! (If you hate ice cream, what is another sweet treat you enjoy?) I have recently found Halo ice cream it's a healthy version and I love the peanut butter chocolate!
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
BFP 02/25/2017, EDD 11/07/2017
1. How far along are you today?
Right at 5 weeks today. Found out I was pregnant on Tuesday, confirmed blood test on Wednesday, now sitting with the news and trying to let it settle.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
This is my second pregnancy. During my first, I had very mild symptoms but everything seemed to be going fine. My ultrasound at 8 weeks looked good, I saw and heard my baby's heartbeat, took the picture home. I felt confident enough to announce to friends and family shortly after. At around 10 weeks (and a week before Christmas) I started lightly spotting and went in for an emergency ultrasound the next day where we were told there was no longer a heartbeat. The following day I was in the hospital for the D&C surgery. It was a really, really rough Christmas for me.
In all honesty, this pregnancy is sort of a surprise. I didn't feel emotionally ready to be pregnant again, and we certainly weren't trying. I had one light period following the miscarriage and then immediately got pregnant. We did have testing done after the surgery and discovered that it was a genetic abnormality that resulted in the first miscarraige- Trisomy 9 I believe which my doctor described as "not compatible with life." There was nothing we could have done, and it wasn't due to anything with me or my husband specifically which felt somewhat relieving.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
It's a unique mix of happy, terrified, sad, hopeful, and tired. I move in and out of disbelief that I'm pregnant again and what this means, but am so happy to have another chance to have a child. I cried this morning thinking about taking "bump" photos, having done that the first time and feeling devastated after. I definitely look for blood all the time, anticipate waking up to spotting and the sinking feeling that I've lost another one. I feel scared to buy baby books, and don't know when or how I should tell my family. But at the same time, I'm hopeful that I get to meet my little apple seed in November.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
He was devastated after the first loss. Lots of tears and holding each other, but he seemed to bounce back faster. He is excited about this pregnancy, seems more hopeful than I am. It's nice to have that, he's a good stabilizing force for me.
5. GTKY: Favorite flavor of ice cream! (If you hate ice cream, what is another sweet treat you enjoy?)
I'm partial to ice cream that tastes like cake, actually. I love Red Velvet ice cream.
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
I'm 6w2d and can't quite put into words how I'm feeling. I'm really excited, but also really nervous and keep overanalyzing each symptom or lack of symptom and each pain I feel. I've had some nausea and sore breasts along with just an overall sense of drained, which I keep telling myself are all good things, but then each time the nausea goes away for a bit of I don't feel as tired, I and up getting worried.
2. Share any part of your loss history you feel comfortable sharing. What are your loss milestones?
I've had two losses previously. After getting pregnant with my son really easily and having a "normal" first pregnancy resulting in our son in Feb of 2013, we were surprised to struggle to get pregnant again. After a year of trying we finally got pregnant in March of 15, but had a MMC in May at 11w (baby stopped growing at 8w). Then we struggled again but finally got pregnant again in Sept16. That one had bad numbers from the start and we lost the baby around 5w.
3. How are you feeling today? Struggles? Successes?
Excited but scared. I have had blood drawn and the numbers looked "good" and they started me on progesterone, but the waiting for my appointment next week is really testing my patience and my faith. I feel like I keep saying "if" more than I did in the past and almost won't allow myself to say "when" out of fear.
4. How is your SO handling everything?
As well as I can expect. I think he is afraid to get too excited, just like I am and doesn't want to really talk about it. I know he wants another, but I think he is afraid to admit it because it means he would be vulnerable to the pain of the losses.
5. GTKY: Favorite flavor of ice cream! (If you hate ice cream, what is another sweet treat you enjoy?)
Pistachio. I allowed myself some this weekend and it was amazing.
ETA: Just got the results online. Not sure how to interpret them, but progesterone went down from 2 weeks ago, so this is not good. Waiting for a call from the nurse....
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility
TTC 9/2016 BFP 12/9/16 EDD 8/21/17 NMC 1/8/16 at 7w6d
TTC 2/2017 BFP 3/6/17 EDD 11/17/17 DS born 11/25/17 via ECS
TTC 12/2018 BFP 6/2/19 EDD 2/12/20 NMC / BO at 7 weeks, low progesterone
TTC 7/2019 BFP 8/21/19 EDD 4/22/20 CP at 5 weeks
TTC 8/19 IUI #1 w/ Clomid + Ovidrel + progesterone BFN, IUI 2 and 3 w/ Letrozole + Ovidrel + progesterone,
IUI 4 Follistim + Ovidrel + progesterone BFP 1/9/20 EDD 9/18/20
AMA, ITP in pregnancy, vWD type II - low Factor VIII, unexplained RPL and secondary infertility