Because
@waterfall213 is probably spending time with her brand new rainbow baby, I thought I'd give her a break and post this myself. (If you want us to have someone take over now,
@waterfall213, let us know).
How far along are you?
How big is baby?
Appointments this week?
Symptoms?
Rant/Rave/Questions?
GTKY: Is there someone in your life who's an anchor during PGAL? (SO/DH, mom, friend, doctor/midwife, etc.) If so, share about how awesome they are here! If not a person, what's your go-to mantra?
Re: PGAL Check in 10/17
BFP #2: 4.14.16 CP: 4.17.16
BFP #3: 6.10.2016 CP: 6.17.16
RE appt: 6.27.2016- saline sono all clear
Progenity: + carrier Tay-Sachs, Gaucher's, hemachromatosis. DH: carrier Alpha 1 anti-trypsin
PCOS, hypothyroid, MTHFR, hx of LEEP in 2006
Clomid + TI Cycle #1: 50mg Trigger 8.24.2016- BFN
Clomid 75mg + IUI#1 9.25.2016- BFP #4 10/6
Beta #1 15 Beta #2 38 Beta #3- 71 beta #4 171 Beta # 5- 21 Natural MC 10/21
HSG- clear
IVF Jan 2017
Egg Retrieval 1.22.17: 32 eggs retrieved,29 mature, 24 fertilized, 14 to blastocyst for biopsy
PGS results: 4 PGS normal 2 XX, 2 XY
FET: 3.13.2017 for 2 PGS embryos
Beta#1: 3.24.2017......... 78; Beta # 2 241; Beta #3 4198
Baby BOY due 11.29.2017
Then in week six I had daily pink spotting that freaked me out. But it eventually went away and a few days after I got my ultrasound and they saw no bleeding. It hasn't come back. And then finally I lost my nausea and breast tenderness in weeks 8 and 9 and panicked. My doc kindly gave me an extra a ultrasound and all was fine. Then the nausea came back times ten.
All that to say, yes. Several panic moments that kept me really pessimistic. It wasn't until week 11 I think that I really calmed down. I'm still nervous but it's starting to feel easier.
My my hubby is the best, and so is my mom. They remind me that I have two kids and am an awesome mom. My other go to people are the 62 women left from my DD's BMB. They are amazing.
A
2010: son born 9/1
2013: 2 miscarriages + d&cs, both at 10 weeks: April & July
2014: son #2 born 6/29
2016: Baby girl stillborn at 21w6d 4/29 and baby boy stillborn at 20w 3d 11/16
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yes-appointment tomorrow morning. First I meet with the prenatal nurse to do bloodwork, medical history and get the run down on what to do and not do (which I'm actually happy to do since it has been 5 years since I was pregnant with my daughter- I'm sure some things have changed?) Then my followup ultrasound with OB. I'm beyond nervous. I keep running different scenarios through my head driving myself crazy! Praying for good growth and a strong heartbeat!
Symptoms: nausea seems better this week which is freaking me out of course. Sore breasts come and go. Less low cramping in last week too. Food aversions are awful right now. Fatigue seems a little better and shortness of breath too.
R/R/R/Questions: Just freaking out about my appointment tomorrow. I feel so frustrated sometimes that our experience with my ectopic pregnancy has taken almost all the joy out of this pregnancy so far. Instead I'm full of anxiety. I don't feel as connected to this baby as I feel I should- I think I'm trying to guard my heart- just anticipating the worst so I don't dare get attached. And that makes me sad.
GTKY: my DH has been my rock. The ectopic rocked us in a way we never imagined. We've made a point to go through everything together even though we grieved in different ways and now are anxious about this pregnancy in different ways. He gives me a reality check when I need it and comfort when I need that instead. Sometimes I feel frustrated when he's seemingly so calm about everything but I know I need that. Also this board! And 3 close friends who check in frequently to see how I'm doing.
@DungeonTrollMel the panic hits me seemingly out of nowhere too sometimes. With feelings of just dread that something bad has happened. I hate it. Yoga has helped me some.
How far along are you? 33 weeks 1 day
Rave: I packed my hospital bag yesterday AND having my baby girl beat me up from inside!
I had two mmc (9 & 10wks), after the first I was very cautious who I shared my pg news, so only DH knew about this third pg early on. I relied on him a lot! Not sure if it was because he was the right person or because he was the ONLY person haha. But he did great and got me through end of first trimester when I started sharing it with others.
BFP1 04/24/2015 EDD Dec 2015 MMC 10W5d;
BFP 2 09/25/2015 EDD June 2016 MMC 9wks;
BFP 3 03/22/2016 EDD Dec 6th 2016
Last night i was really struggling with my anxiety about today's appointment and as I was driving I saw the most beautiful rainbow! I know it sounds cheesey but it calmed me about this rainbow baby. I teared up. I'm hoping now I can relax a little more and enjoy this pregnancy- of course I'll be on edge until I get out of 1st tri at least but I'm feeling much more positive now. I can't keep something bad from happening nor can I jinx anything so I need to try to relax and enjoy the fact that today I'm pregnant. Thank you everyone for your thoughts and well wishes during the wait from my last ultrasound!!
Not cheesy at all! A friend of mine said she saw a rainbow over the hospital as they were on their way to deliver their rainbow baby. How amazing is that. Love that and your story. God is good.
A
2010: son born 9/1
2013: 2 miscarriages + d&cs, both at 10 weeks: April & July
2014: son #2 born 6/29
2016: Baby girl stillborn at 21w6d 4/29 and baby boy stillborn at 20w 3d 11/16
Of all the boards I am on I feel like I need the support of you ladies the most. How do I let myself be hopeful and enjoy this miracle of a pregnancy? I'm so scared to let myself get excited in fear that if something bad happens I won't be emotionally prepared.
OCT. 27th we have our first ultrasound, i will be about 7w5days so hoping to see heartbeat.
For myself, there's a mental difference between excitement and hope. I hold on to hope because hope is powerful and it's a gift I give this little one. But excited? No, not yet. And that's ok.
Thinking of you today, @amwangel
semicolon I have ultrasound in the morning, I can't wait. I actually was guessing on my EDD based on my LMP but I am not sure when I ovulated. I could be anywhere from 6 weeks to 7 weeks, guess we will find out tomorrow! I will let everyone know how it goes.
I am so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine losing a baby at 37 weeks and that is full term, how sad for you. My heart hurts for your loss, I so hope this pregnancy and delivery go smoothly!