@Turbotastic I’m sorry you have been experiencing bleeding,
but YAY about hearing a heartbeat!
I had my second bloodwork appointment today. Everything still looks good! My levels are rising like they should, so
now, I just have to wait until next Wednesday to get my blood drawn one final
time before I have an ultrasound. It was such a relief that my levels were still rising. With my loss, even though my levels were really high, they were dropping each time my blood was drawn.
I've been lurking for almost 2 weeks now, so scared to post in the general check-in. I think this is where I belong with my PGAL sisters.
Introduce yourself if you haven't yet. Hello, I'm Yoly. I've been mostly active in the TTCAL board. My story: I am Peruvian but I live in Chile with my gringo husband from Oregon. We got married in 2014 and started TTC a year ago. I had 2 MC this year (February and May), they were my first pregnancies. I was benched for some months to do testing, and found out to have insulin resistance and hyper prolactinemia. I started being treated for both in July, with medicines and diet. I was out of the bench in September, and that's when I got pregnant. I got a BFP on Oct 2.
How far along are you? Currently 5w3d - EDD June 11th
How are you doing? I am feeling pretty well (which is not reassuring for the PGAL brain). I am tired all the time though, I am sleepy and have to nap often. My nipples are sore and sensitive too. My appetite is pretty ok, but I am bloated. I don't think I've had nausea (morning sickness), but sometimes I don't know if I'm disgusted (nauseated) or hungry... does that make sense? I am taking progesterone supplements, it's messy...but anything for my rainbow.
When is your next appointment? Next Tuesday, oct 18th, I will get an U/S and hopefully get to see a heartbeat! that would be a dream for us and will bring us (me) some peace of mind.
Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: I am feeling very optimistic really. Sometimes the fear creeps in, but I am doing my best to keep it under control.
GTKY: Do you have any pets? Feel free to tell of about them and share pictures if you'd like. We are the proud parents of a rescued fur-baby, a miniature poodle dog, called Luke Skywalker. He's been with us for 3 years now, and next month we will celebrate his 4th birthday! nicely groomed
Married 06.21.14 / TTC since 11.15 / BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16 Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky. BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017 DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate. Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017. Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
Intro: I had an ectopic/miscarriage over this past summer while on vacation with extended family.
How far along are you? 5w3d
How are you doing? I'm feeling cautiously confident. I will probably POAS a few more times before my ultra sound.
When is your next appointment? 10/26... 2 weeks!!!
Rants/Raves: I went to a wedding over the weekend to the same spot I miscarried over the summer. It was a weird feeling being there and I was greatful I was away from home during the loss because the memories certainly linger.
I'm Brij. We have a 20 month old daughter and I'm now pregnant with #2 after 16 months of trying and 2 losses. We TTC'd for 17 months with DD and had 1 CP and 1 MC. I'm an avid traveler. We have a trip to Hawaii booked for February, and we just went this past February. We're addicted.
How far along are you? 6w1d
How are you doing? Okay. Just taking it 1 day at a time. Tell myself every day "today I'm pregnant and need to enjoy it." Very nauseous and sick this time.
When is your next appointment? Next Thursday. Ultrasound Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes:
GTKY: Do you have any pets? Feel free to tell of about them and share pictures if you'd like. 1 cat and 1 dog (collie)
TTC 1.0 17 months TTC and 1miscarriage, 1 chemical pregnancy, rainbow baby born 2/16/15 TTC 2.0 16 months TTC, 2 chemical pregnancies, EDD 6/3/17
Hey hey! I have 2 live children and I've had 3 miscarriages, all first trimester losses
How far along are you? I'm 4 weeks 1 day
How are you doing?
Ummm this baby was a surprise. I'm nervous, every pregnancy I lost was one where I got pregnant not on clomid. So I'm extremely nervous that this baby won't stick.
When is your next appointment?
Going for blood test on Monday.
Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes:
GTKY: Do you have any pets? Feel free to tell of about them and share pictures if you'd like. I have two crazy dogs. 1 8 year old Chihuahua/whippet and a 8 month old beagle Dotson mix
Mom to Madison- 5 and Lillian 2....and now surprise baby #3!
@semicolon I know that "I'm so sorry for your loss" doesn't go too far but that's all I've got because words fail me for your story. The heartbreak you have experienced is something you should have never known and I am so sorry you don't have your son today. My thoughts and prayers will definitely be with you for the next 9 months!!
Thank you. ❤️ It's a surreal thing to have happen.
How is everyone holding up this week? Currently, I'm finding myself being hyper aware of how I feel with each symptom I think is happening. Also, I'm trying so hard just to let it happen and realize I'm doing everything I can for this pregnancy.
I am finding that I am not giving my pregnancy much validity. It doesn't feel real, but I recall feeling that way with every pregnancy at first. This is different, though, I guess it's just like I am not allowing myself to think about it. I don't look at any of the threads about future pregnancy stuff because I can't think that far ahead. I am experiencing bouts of extreme exhaustion but otherwise nothing. I can't take much comfort in symptoms anyway since I had a lot of symptoms all the way up to my d&c, even though baby's heart stopped 2 weeks prior. And for the same reason I cannot give myself comfort by saying "I am pregnant today". Ugh...I think this is why I am avoiding thinking about it. I really hope I can change my attitude.
Me: 36; DH: 38 DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17! **TW** MMC & D&C Aug 2016
@JAGinMI I totally get what you're saying. Only a couple of people know, one being my best friend, and when I was telling her it was hard to get excited because of the fear of devastation she reminded me that whether or not I allow myself to feel excited I'll be devastated. Thinking about it, it is completely true. Nothing could prepare me for that terrible news again. So for now, I am choosing to be excited and optimistic. I have moments where I freak out and Google statistics for back to back miscarriages, but I am trying very hard to keep the negative away.
@JAGinMI I know exactly what you mean. My last MC (last month) I just had a feeeling something wasn't right but I still got a little excited ... it's just so hard emotionally and physically to go through. I've had minimal "symptoms" as well with this one. Fingers crossed for some piece of mind!! These weekly posts have def helped to ease my mind and just vent!
@HookEmNelson Agreed, that's the hardest part just letting it happen!!
@MKRLTX@bbbee414 Thanks, ladies. There is comfort in knowing you are not alone, even though I hate that any of us are dealing with this! I can tell already that this PGAL group is going to be helpful.
@MKRLTX It really is so true that we will be devastated either way!
Me: 36; DH: 38 DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17! **TW** MMC & D&C Aug 2016
So I'm 5 weeks and it's been a bit hard for me my miscarriage happened at 5 weeks. My midwife sent over for me to have a dating ultrasound since I never had a period in between the miscarriage and this pregnancy they told me to call the place thirsday/Friday to set the appointment so I called today hoping we could get in early next week for them to be a little rude on the phone earlier saying no you need to wait 3 full days to call, I was like I'm sorry they just told me to call thrusday or Friday, she was Ike well that's wrong as they would have sent it on a Sunday or the holiday which they didn't so you need to call back Monday... I just want my ultrasound to be able to go and see the Abby to know everything is good... sorry I just needed to vent.
@HookEmNelson and @thankfully, I'm also hyperaware. My occasional cramping has started much earlier than my last pregnancy, which was a missed miscarriage diagnosed at 10 weeks in July (sac was 6 or 7 weeks). It's not period-type cramping, it feels more uterine--maybe my uterus is just more sensitive this time around?
I got some great news this morning that's giving me a little hope. My first hcg level on Tuesday at 16dpo was 1188, and my second level yesterday at 18dpo was 2496, "rising beautifully" the nurse said! I know I'm not out of the woods yet--and I never had my levels checked with my last pregnancy because it seemed normal--but I feel some relief. First U/S is 10/28, when I'll be 6 weeks and 4 days. Hoping to see a little bean with a nice heartbeat then!
I think I might be out, ladies. My HCG was 112 on Saturday and only 320 yesterday. There's some free fluid near my leftover ovary, now they're worried about ectopic. I go back on Tuesday for a follow up ultrasound and another beta. I'm just sort of numb right now.
@a2003tiger I'm so sorry. ❤️ I don't even know what to say. You are always welcome to just "be" here, if you need a tribe during this time.
I am so grateful to hear from other loss moms. I'm hoping for a beautiful ultrasound, because well...it's still not fully real. And the shitty part is following my stillbirth, I will never fully feel out of the woods. I'm not super symptomatic, I'm just tired and smell sensitive.
@a2003tiger I'm so sorry. I'm right there with you.. numbers rose but started to slow, ultrasound today showed nothing. Been bleeding the past 10 days so was sort of expecting it, but this is a back to back m/c for me so a part of me was in denial .. I'm so sorry for you in this time and thinking about you and yours.
@NamelessAria thank you- it's been a mental whirlwind but this group has given me comfort (this thread, most specifically). Looking forward to when it's my turn to be a mom, and trying to use these experiences for perspective and gratitude in the future. Good luck to everyone these next few months! I'll be thinking of you guys.
Well ladies, I just woke up from a horrible vivid dream (can you guess?) and just had to go to the bathroom to POAS to make me feel better. The last clear blue digital at least said 3+. I feel like a crazy person.
Introduce yourself if you haven't yet. I'm Kendra. I have a 15 mo old daughter and then had my first loss 2 months ago. I was about 6 wks.
How far along are you? Just 4 wks!! I had my annual exam yesterday and they tested for pregnancy while I was there. My cycle wasn't due for a few days so I was going to wait another week to test.
How are you doing? I'm anxious. I also hate that I'm kind of too afraid to be excited. Last time, I told my husband the night I found out and our parents and siblings the next day. It was hard only getting to share in that joy for a week before breaking the news that we had a loss (and a sister in law who had her 3rd loss days after us). This time I haven't told my husband yet, and I can't decide when I will.
When is your next appointment? I had blood drawn yesterday to check hcg levels and go again next week to check them again. I don't do well with needles, but I did request this for some reassurance that levels are rising appropriately. Then in 3 weeks we will go to listen for the heartbeat.
Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: Like I said, I am hesitant to get excited, so I already feel a little detached to this baby. It's not fair to the baby, but I guess I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high.
GTKY: Do you have any pets? Feel free to tell of about them and share pictures if you'd like.
No pets here, but my baby girl is obsessed with dogs, so we go outside to hopefully see neighbors' dogs any chance we get.
@eahayes I am so sorry that you're in a similar situation. For me, the limbo is the worst part. Praying that we both get through this as quickly as possible and that we both get our rainbows soon.
@eahayes and @a2003tiger my heart is aching for you both! The purgatory state is the worst. You will both be in my thoughts and I hope you get your rainbow babies very soon!
This thread is such a comfort. It's so nice not to feel alone. Everyday I grow my attached to our lil miracle, and that scares the crap out of me.
Anyone else have "check points" they have to meet that give them comfort? For me I officially missed my period, then hitting 6 weeks (I've had two miscarriages before 6 weeks), then finally hearing the heartbeat.
Mom to Madison- 5 and Lillian 2....and now surprise baby #3!
I too had some spotting / bleeding this week which started quite similar to last month (which turned into a CP). A trip to my OB showed my lining is nice and thick but it's too early to see anything, and no bleeding since Thursday morning. We decided to skip blood draws to check for rising HCG levels, and I'll go back at 6 weeks for an ultrasound to see if this little one decided to stick. It's tough to wait, but the anxiety of constantly waiting on blood results was really hard on me last month. Fingers crossed...
Married 06.21.14 / TTC since 11.15 / BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16 Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky. BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017 DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate. Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017. Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
@awoodruff27 My checkpoint has been met this time around - Knowing that I'm pregnant more than a week. Each day I have count my days from my last period, just because I am that happy and need all the reassurance that I can get.
Re: PGAL Check-In Week of Oct. 10
@Turbotastic I’m sorry you have been experiencing bleeding, but YAY about hearing a heartbeat!
I had my second bloodwork appointment today. Everything still looks good! My levels are rising like they should, so now, I just have to wait until next Wednesday to get my blood drawn one final time before I have an ultrasound. It was such a relief that my levels were still rising. With my loss, even though my levels were really high, they were dropping each time my blood was drawn.
Me: 25 | DH: 29
MC: March 2016
BFP #2: October 2016
Our fur-baby is a black Labrador Retriever.
https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/5a8aa2/
Introduce yourself if you haven't yet.
Hello, I'm Yoly. I've been mostly active in the TTCAL board.
My story: I am Peruvian but I live in Chile with my gringo husband from Oregon. We got married in 2014 and started TTC a year ago. I had 2 MC this year (February and May), they were my first pregnancies. I was benched for some months to do testing, and found out to have insulin resistance and hyper prolactinemia. I started being treated for both in July, with medicines and diet. I was out of the bench in September, and that's when I got pregnant. I got a BFP on Oct 2.
How far along are you?
Currently 5w3d - EDD June 11th
How are you doing?
I am feeling pretty well (which is not reassuring for the PGAL brain). I am tired all the time though, I am sleepy and have to nap often. My nipples are sore and sensitive too. My appetite is pretty ok, but I am bloated. I don't think I've had nausea (morning sickness), but sometimes I don't know if I'm disgusted (nauseated) or hungry... does that make sense? I am taking progesterone supplements, it's messy...but anything for my rainbow.
When is your next appointment?
Next Tuesday, oct 18th, I will get an U/S and hopefully get to see a heartbeat! that would be a dream for us and will bring us (me) some peace of mind.
Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes:
I am feeling very optimistic really. Sometimes the fear creeps in, but I am doing my best to keep it under control.
GTKY: Do you have any pets? Feel free to tell of about them and share pictures if you'd like.
We are the proud parents of a rescued fur-baby, a miniature poodle dog, called Luke Skywalker. He's been with us for 3 years now, and next month we will celebrate his 4th birthday!
nicely groomed
being playful
And OF COURSE, with his daddy... LOL!
BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16
Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky.
BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok
Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017
DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate.
Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017.
Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.
DS #1 born 05/25/2012
BFP#2: 06/12/2013 ---- loss
DS #2 born 4/08/2014
BPF#4: 2/1/2016 --- 2/23/2016 suspected molar pregnancy--- 3/15/2016 D&E - diagnosis MM
BFP#5 - 9/22/2016
* formally bornmommy
How far along are you? 5w3d
How are you doing? I'm feeling cautiously confident. I will probably POAS a few more times before my ultra sound.
When is your next appointment? 10/26... 2 weeks!!!
Rants/Raves: I went to a wedding over the weekend to the same spot I miscarried over the summer. It was a weird feeling being there and I was greatful I was away from home during the loss because the memories certainly linger.
How far along are you?
6w1d
How are you doing?
Okay. Just taking it 1 day at a time. Tell myself every day "today I'm pregnant and need to enjoy it."
Very nauseous and sick this time.
When is your next appointment?
Next Thursday. Ultrasound
Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes:
GTKY: Do you have any pets? Feel free to tell of about them and share pictures if you'd like.
1 cat and 1 dog (collie)
17 months TTC and 1miscarriage, 1 chemical pregnancy, rainbow baby born 2/16/15
TTC 2.0
16 months TTC, 2 chemical pregnancies, EDD 6/3/17
Introduce yourself if you haven't yet.
Hey hey! I have 2 live children and I've had 3 miscarriages, all first trimester losses
How far along are you?
I'm 4 weeks 1 day
How are you doing?
Ummm this baby was a surprise. I'm nervous, every pregnancy I lost was one where I got pregnant not on clomid. So I'm extremely nervous that this baby won't stick.
When is your next appointment?
Going for blood test on Monday.
Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes:
GTKY: Do you have any pets? Feel free to tell of about them and share pictures if you'd like.
Mom to Madison- 5 and Lillian 2....and now surprise baby #3!
Me: 36; DH: 38
DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17!
**TW**
MMC & D&C Aug 2016
@HookEmNelson Agreed, that's the hardest part just letting it happen!!
@MKRLTX @bbbee414 Thanks, ladies. There is comfort in knowing you are not alone, even though I hate that any of us are dealing with this! I can tell already that this PGAL group is going to be helpful.
@MKRLTX It really is so true that we will be devastated either way!
Me: 36; DH: 38
DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17!
**TW**
MMC & D&C Aug 2016
I POAS this morning in celebration of hitting 5w and the line was super darkand the control line was light light pink, so that was nice.
Positive vibes to everyone as we make it through these tough early weeks. I'm so happy seeing people start to hit milestones.
I got some great news this morning that's giving me a little hope. My first hcg level on Tuesday at 16dpo was 1188, and my second level yesterday at 18dpo was 2496, "rising beautifully" the nurse said! I know I'm not out of the woods yet--and I never had my levels checked with my last pregnancy because it seemed normal--but I feel some relief. First U/S is 10/28, when I'll be 6 weeks and 4 days. Hoping to see a little bean with a nice heartbeat then!
M/C #2 - October 2016
MMC #1 - April 2016
Me: 25 | DH: 29
MC: March 2016
BFP #2: October 2016
Our fur-baby is a black Labrador Retriever.
https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/5a8aa2/
@yolandamunoz Welcome.
TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017 ❤️
Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
Me: 36; DH: 38
DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17!
**TW**
MMC & D&C Aug 2016
I am so grateful to hear from other loss moms. I'm hoping for a beautiful ultrasound, because well...it's still not fully real. And the shitty part is following my stillbirth, I will never fully feel out of the woods. I'm not super symptomatic, I'm just tired and smell sensitive.
TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017 ❤️
Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
M/C #2 - October 2016
MMC #1 - April 2016
Anyone else have "check points" they have to meet that give them comfort? For me I officially missed my period, then hitting 6 weeks (I've had two miscarriages before 6 weeks), then finally hearing the heartbeat.
Mom to Madison- 5 and Lillian 2....and now surprise baby #3!
I too had some spotting / bleeding this week which started quite similar to last month (which turned into a CP). A trip to my OB showed my lining is nice and thick but it's too early to see anything, and no bleeding since Thursday morning. We decided to skip blood draws to check for rising HCG levels, and I'll go back at 6 weeks for an ultrasound to see if this little one decided to stick. It's tough to wait, but the anxiety of constantly waiting on blood results was really hard on me last month. Fingers crossed...
Have a great Saturday, all!
BFP #1 6/13 DD 3/14
Mirena 10/14-5/16
BFP #2 9/2/16, CP confirmed 9/8/16
BFP #3 10/10/16 EDD 6/22/17
Thank you @NamelessAria for the warm welcome!
very much like @awoodruff27 I've had 2 MC at 6weeks so this is my first checkpoint. I will be 6w this Sunday and I have an appointment next Tuesday.
I am scared but at the same time I am trying to enjoy this and love my baby from the start.
It is so nice to have s group of supportive ladies who know what we are going through. I hope we continue to be strong and get good news very soon for each Of us!!
hugs
_Y
BFP 01.03.2016 / MMC 6w5d D&C 02.2016 // BFP 05.06.16 / natural MC 05.12.16
Benched 06.2016-08.2016 / TTC again 09.2016! On a diet. Cranky.
BFP 10.02.2016 / NT scan at 12w looked normal / Anatomy scan at 20w everything ok
Team blue! / EDD June 11th 2017
DAVID ROGER was born on May 23rd at 37 weeks.
Architect, Peruvian living in Chile. I love art, opera and good chocolate.
Started PhD studies in Architecture on 2017.
Fur mom of a rescued miniature poodle called Luke Skywalker.