My firm has its annual picnic outing today. With help (not going to deny that) I was a major planner of said event. All was well until our office manager got all busybody about it yesterday and questioned many of my decisions. (She is the typical planner each year but pitched a fit recently about having to shoulder all the work so some of us stepped up to assist/do it). My volunteerism was before my pregnancy status changed a bit but I still did my best chick so back TF off and let it be.
I had weird dreams because of it last night. Here's hoping today isn't a sh!tstorm because it kiiiiiinda seems like she wants it to be?
WTF bus driver for running red lights. Not yellow lights but lights that were red for awhile before we got to the intersection. I'm thinking of switching bus routes although this one picks me up from my street.
WTF emotions. I've just been in a funk this week. Feeling disheartened from all the terrible crap going on in the world and sadness at how many people promote hate and prejudice still. Having trouble breaking rumination on this to the point where I started getting flashbacks from when a former professor sexually harassed me, which then devolved into me worrying about all that my girls will face in this world. Ugh. Sorry to be a downer. I'm hoping this is a temporary emotional blip because usually I'm pretty good.
@LinziLoo09 yesss to all of this. I watched the Netflix documentary "Audrie & Daisy" and I was wrecked. I was sexually harassed hardcore at an old job.. the man told me he wanted to rape me. I reported it to my boss, to my parents, and to a couple of very close friends. My father was so indifferent in his response and my employer did nothing to protect me. Hearing all of these stories come to light has brought back a flood of emotions and H and I have had some serious conversations about our daughters and how we will always believe them and fight for them. Its really a scary time to be raising girls... I mean, this type of abuse has been happening forever, but everything is so public now. Dont feel like a downer.. as much as this stuff has been hard to digest, it has opened up some great dialogue. I'm thankful my girls have a dad who would never be indifferent or uninterested in defending them.
WTF me. Still puking and nauseous so now they have me taking Dramamine at night.. it knocks me out and gives me weird dreams and broken sleep. Im thankful that I'm finally officially in third tri and can soon count down the weeks in single digits.
Wtf has time stopped? I feel like it's been October forever already. And wtf to my DH and kids. I'm tired of them in my bed staying up late! I moved to the couch last night and as soon as I fell asleep DH was in the kitchen getting a snack at like freaking 11:30 and woke me up.
WTF to me also - DH was getting my lunch ready Monday and pulled out blue cheese salad dressing and I said "ahh.. I'm feeling ranch lately, thanks babe!" Then yesterday our lazy butts ordered out and he got me a side salad with ranch.. and I proceeded to say "I do really like the blue cheese they have there just for future reference." Then proceeded to laugh aloud for a while. I can't even predict myself, how is he supposed to?!
Ditto @Linziloo009 on feeling funky & disheartened this week. Misery loves company?
@temmetime That sounds just like me! As soon as I figure out what I want and tell DH my body says "nope!" Since he does most of the cooking it was extremely frustrating for him at first. At least now he makes it into a joke and knows I'm not doing it on purpose.
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My misery appreciates your company @temmetime and @ChristinaRuruth74- though I wish we could all feel better about it. I think I need to avoid FB for a while. It just makes me realize how crappy some of my friends and family are prejudice-wise...not to mention the world. I miss the times when I didn't know what a-holes they all were lol
WTF 1: Dog has decided that he doesn't like to poop outside anymore. Husband tells me that one of them pooped in the laundry room (at least it's cement flooring in there - this is the second time in 2 weeks), so I walk in to see what he's talking about. He is looking at a different area of the laundry room, so I assume that's where the poop is...NOPE, it's right where I decide to walk. So then I am gagging at the smell of warm dog poop all over my foot while my husband is trying to clean it off since I can't bend over that far. Lovely morning! Side note: landlord had some new grass seed laid about a month ago, so we have to be outside with the dogs when they go potty to make sure they stay off the growing grass areas. So they don't get to take their time as much anymore, or get out all of their pent up energy by running all over the yard in the morning like they use to. I can't wait for the grass to be fully grown so that they can have their freedom!
WTF 2: I can't concentrate at all. I can't stop thinking about EVERYTHING that needs to get done. We have set up a deadline of November 18th to get our projects done and out of the way so that my mom can come over that weekend to help DEEP clean the house. Then she will come again in December to do another clean before the evacuation (my mom LOVES to clean). We never really unpacked when we moved into the house in December 2015 because we didn't know if we were going to stay, so we just kind of did bare minimum living/cluttered living, but now that we decided to stay (within the last month), we have a lot to unpack, move around, and organize - augh.
WTF 3: My dear dear dear husband...It's football and hockey season. He loves football and hockey. So much so that very little is getting done because the games are on (On Monday, Thursday, Saturday, Sunday -- and hockey hasn't officially started yet). This is starting some arguments because when I get my bursts of energy, I want to get things done - but he wants to wait until the game is done.
I'm sorry @LinziLoo09 and @Christinaruth74 and anyone else that has been sexually harassed. It's such a frightening and hopeless feeling--one experience that I hope to never repeat. Happens too often, which is a shame...especially when it's reported and nothing is done.
My WTF is pretty petty today. We got a good chunk of our Halloween display up sans finishing touches and lights, but Hurricane Matthew is hitting us this week. Contemplating taking some of the decorations down until it passes so they don't blow away...but at the same time...I'm lazy.
WTF body. I'm not sure if there is a correlation but I got my flu and tdap shots yesterday and I feel terrible today. Like hit by a mack truck terrible. And my hormones are apparently in overdrive as well because all I want to do is literally cry about it. And it's 10AM...
WTF motivation?! This is "fall break" where our school district has a week off. I made a list of a zillion things I need to do, and I can't seem to motivate myself to do any of it. It's not like these are optional things either, and SIL is flying to town Friday to throw us a baby shower Sunday so I have even less time than I'd like.
Also, our black lab decided he forgot how to walk yesterday and has not been bending his paw and refuses to walk on it. He has had joint pain before, but always with crying or whining. He doesn't make a sound this time, just limps around the house... guess I'm calling the vet when they open.
WTF DH... he sits and makes fun of my family for how they do stuff, or just everything they do in general cos he doesn't understand but it's whatever. They're not bad, he just gets annoyed at little things. BUT, when it comes to his family... he can defend them until the end although I hope deep down he knows how truly weird his family can be with what they do. Like yesterday, his sister asked if we could pick up birthday cards for my MIL and one of their aunts to give them this weekend... as she was picking up the gifts. Um, can't you pick up your own cards from your own family when you're out buying that stuff? She also doesn't have to pick up her kids from daycare anymore, as her hubby works closer so he just gets them (both at the same one), so it's not as if she can't do that on her way home from work. She also acts like they never get out to do things due to time, yet have a sitter once a week for their kids so they can go on a date night, watch the hubby play softball, run errands like this, etc. Makes no sense.
Me: 37 years old
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WTF whoever stole my in-laws pool. They have/had an above ground pool but just came back from a trip and it is gone... Who steals a pool full of water??? That must have taken some effort.
WTF previous owners of my house! Three years ago, we bought a 100 year old house. The house is small, but it came with a completely remodeled HGTV quality bathroom with a tile shower and a bathtub with jets. Sounds great right? Except for the fact that our 100 year old house is not built on a concrete foundation with fancy city plumping. It's built on stacked stones with well water. Since it was installed, our tile shower has cracked in a thousand places because a stacked stone foundation naturally shifts more. That means out fancy tile shower is filled with mold and mildew that lives deep in the cracks, AND the bottom of the shower has shifted to where it no longer drains correctly. Plus, the water pressure from our well is so low that by the time you fill up the bathtub enough to use the jets, the water is already cold. So we have a MASSIVE tub that doesn't work that fills up 1/3 of the space in our only bathroom in the house.
The worst part? We saw the house before the renovations, and we begged the owners not to renovate because we wanted a lower price. But the wife of this family had serious control issues (we were her neighbors before we bought the house so we knew her), and instead, she plowed ahead with the renovations, installed a whole bunch of stuff that doesn't work, spent close to $100,000, and yet all that work only raised the price of the house about $30,000 (a 100 year old house is still a 100 year old house after all). And now, on my one day off this week, I have to spend a good two hours cleaning our beautiful but completely dysfunctional bathroom. Seriously, previous owners- WTF?!
Edit: I should add that the bathtub and the tile shower are a stand-alone shower and a stand-alone tub. So close to 70% of my bathroom floor space is taken up by stuff that does not work.
WTF goes to my IRL friend that is due the same time as me. A mutual
friend is trying to throw us a little joint baby celebration and the
pregnant friend is just awful at ...well... being a friend. First, she
was in my wedding, which I regret, and then promptly dropped off the
face of the earth after she got married. I'd try to hang out and she'd
always have some BS reason that she couldn't do that time or whatever.
She made zero effort to the point that I concluded she just doesn't like
me as much as I'd thought and I sort of just let it all go- let her go.
We do have very different personalities. But now she acts like we are
still friends when we get together but continues to make zero effort and
every time our other friend is trying to schedule this, something
"comes up."
It's just annoying. I didn't explain it well but
she's in her own little bubble and just isn't a good friend. Which is
fine. I should just continue to let her go. It just annoys me that she's
being difficult for this other friend that's trying to do something
nice for both of us.
@LinziLoo09 One day a week for the last month I've been like extra depressed. I already deal with depression, and I'm on meds. But there's just this one day a week where I can't shake it.
WTF my sleep streak ended last night! ah! Why! Spent most of the night coughing, and peeing and puking because I'm coughing, and peeing just to pee. Finally fell asleep around 2:30, and the alarm went off at 3am because DH has to be at work at 4am today and tomorrow, instead of just the weekends. Up at 6am for work! Babies are crowding my lungs...that's all I can think of as to why I'm always coughing at night...I wheeze when I lay on my left side...forget taking a deep full breath without having a coughing fit.
@brittnic86 I Misread 'babies are crowding my lungs' as 'babies are crowding my lumps'. I actually snorted in the waiting room. Thank You for that inadvertent boost to my morning.
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WTF, how did it take me 7.5 months into pregnancy to realize there's a Shake Shack within walking distance of my office? Gonna go get a delicious milkshake now...
So I've taken two doses of the thyroid medication and I'm a mess. I'd been feeling so much better since they gave me some anxiety medication a couple of weeks ago. Now today I have a headache, I'm depressed, I have no energy. I'm hungry and I can't even bring myself to go into the kitchen and make lunch. I'm angry and I'm sad. I just started crying thinking about it. I know you check my levels and say I have thyroid issues, but I don't have symptoms that I can perceive. But you put me on medication and it makes me feel so awful and miserable. How is this helping me?
I'm going to try to get my doctor on the phone this afternoon and see what she wants me to do. I can't believe she will leave me like this, surely there's something else we can do.
@Austenista Starting new meds is hard. I'm sorry you are so miserable. My BP meds were very hard to adjust to because I was so exhausted and listless, and my gums would bleed because my mouth would get so dry. Now that I've been on them a little bit, it's gotten a lot better. I still get tired, but not as bad, and my mouth isn't as dry. Besides knowing my BP was high and having anxiety, I didn't really have symptoms--but I think that's where it can get dangerous. I'm headed towards another increase which will trigger the adjustment symptoms again, but right now I feel ok.
I don't know much about thyroid meds, but I hope your experience is similar to mine and your body adjusts quickly.
WTF stomach. Everything sounds delicious until I start eating and you're like "yeah, how about no?" And if I ignore you and eat anyway, you make me pay by making my stomach feel even more like Bodhi will explode out alien style. So thanks.
Also, WTF employees. If you've been here for less than 6 months, you probably shouldn't rate yourself as "exceeds expectations" on anything in your self-evaluation. Cause, chances are, you're meeting expectations, not exceeding them. Exceeding would mean you're already working at the next level. Surprise! You're not. This just makes our conversation about your performance awkward when I have to explain why my rating is lower than yours. Pro tip: always rate yourself as meets expectations (unless you know you suck at something), let me be the one to raise your rating.
WTF body? Why can't you handle 100 grams of glucose? Just got word that I failed the GTT test. Really hope they offer the nutritional course at night or on a weekend because I need all my PTO for when baby girl arrives. And I'm furious at my body for not being able to do its job - really hope this doesn't have any affect on my LO, that's my main concern.
Also, WTF desktop Bump? Your auto-play ads that keep making the page jump all over the place are totally rude and unnecessary! I'm going back to mobile Bump.
So I've taken two doses of the thyroid medication and I'm a mess. I'd been feeling so much better since they gave me some anxiety medication a couple of weeks ago. Now today I have a headache, I'm depressed, I have no energy. I'm hungry and I can't even bring myself to go into the kitchen and make lunch. I'm angry and I'm sad. I just started crying thinking about it. I know you check my levels and say I have thyroid issues, but I don't have symptoms that I can perceive. But you put me on medication and it makes me feel so awful and miserable. How is this helping me?
I'm going to try to get my doctor on the phone this afternoon and see what she wants me to do. I can't believe she will leave me like this, surely there's something else we can do.
Really sorry you're feeling so off. Generally speaking, thyroid medication should make you feel more stable, not less. That said, they are hormones. What brand are you on? I've had thyroid issues since 19 and I do not handle Synthroid well - and it's the most commonly prescribed thyroid medication. Also, make sure your pharmacist didn't sub in a generic for whatever prescription your doctor wrote - the generics aren't regulated terribly well. I have been on Naturethroid for the last couple of years and I do much better on it than on synthetic thyroid. You might ask your doctor if it's an option - they sometimes don't like to prescribe the natural stuff but my endocrinologist is on board with it.
@gowenc I have taken synthroid in the past and wont take it again. It made me feel like a literal psychopath. Locked my husband out of the house or lying on the floor sobbing over trash kind of psychopath.
Doctor gave me armour thyroid yesterday and I have taken two doses and already feel awful. Thing is, I don't have any hypothyroid symptoms. I'm not constipated, don't have a low sex drive, my period is like clockwork, I don't have a loss of appetite, no hair loss, no exhaustion (outside of pregnancy), nothing outside of being heavy. And I've always been heavy - I was a five year old with a double chin so that's not a symptom in my book. There's nothing to "make better" because I felt fine. Now? I feel like I might lose my mind. I've been sitting on the couch sobbing, trying to get up the will to make myself lunch. Every time they try to put me on something I turn into a raging emotional psychopath.
I called my doctor because the internet says to call doctor if I have any side effects they listed and I definitely have some of them - like headache and mood changes. I'm currently waiting on a nurse to call me back.
@Austenista I had similar issues with Armour - it made me break out like a teenager and I just felt more hormonal. I'm much more stable on Naturethroid, so that might be worth taking a look at. Symptoms aside, if your bloodwork is showing you're hypothyroid it's important to be on medication to avoid potential birth defects. Finding the right one can be challenging - good luck to you!
@Austenista - Regardless of symptoms if your TSH levels are high you are hypothyroid, so it needs to be treated especially in pregnancy. I never have actual symptoms when my tsh levels are even off the charts. Do you have an endocrinologist? I've always had much better luck being taken seriously with symptoms with an actual endo. They just understand it all so much better than a PCP/OB.
@Austenista - Regardless of symptoms if your TSH levels are high you are hypothyroid, so it needs to be treated especially in pregnancy. I never have actual symptoms when my tsh levels are even off the charts. Do you have an endocrinologist? I've always had much better luck being taken seriously with symptoms with an actual endo. They just understand it all so much better than a PCP/OB.
Second this. My GP treated my hypothyroidism for years with Synthroid and blew off my continuing symptoms simply because the bloodwork was back to normal. My endo has been much more open to testing out other options.
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I had weird dreams because of it last night. Here's hoping today isn't a sh!tstorm because it kiiiiiinda seems like she wants it to be?
Wtf.
good luck today @swhiddon33 ! Try to have fun!
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WTF DD 445 is not an acceptable wake up time (alarm is at 5). Then to be a super grump until we leave for work at 6 is just not cool.
WTF body. My legs feel like I ran a marathon yesterday...all I did was walk 1.8m with my mom.
WTF it's only 610am and I have this many WTFs. It's gonna be a long day.
I watched the Netflix documentary "Audrie & Daisy" and I was wrecked. I was sexually harassed hardcore at an old job.. the man told me he wanted to rape me. I reported it to my boss, to my parents, and to a couple of very close friends. My father was so indifferent in his response and my employer did nothing to protect me. Hearing all of these stories come to light has brought back a flood of emotions and H and I have had some serious conversations about our daughters and how we will always believe them and fight for them.
Its really a scary time to be raising girls... I mean, this type of abuse has been happening forever, but everything is so public now.
Dont feel like a downer.. as much as this stuff has been hard to digest, it has opened up some great dialogue. I'm thankful my girls have a dad who would never be indifferent or uninterested in defending them.
WTF me. Still puking and nauseous so now they have me taking Dramamine at night.. it knocks me out and gives me weird dreams and broken sleep.
Im thankful that I'm finally officially in third tri and can soon count down the weeks in single digits.
Ditto @Linziloo009 on feeling funky & disheartened this week. Misery loves company?
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EDD: 11/29/18
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WTF 2: I can't concentrate at all. I can't stop thinking about EVERYTHING that needs to get done. We have set up a deadline of November 18th to get our projects done and out of the way so that my mom can come over that weekend to help DEEP clean the house. Then she will come again in December to do another clean before the evacuation (my mom LOVES to clean). We never really unpacked when we moved into the house in December 2015 because we didn't know if we were going to stay, so we just kind of did bare minimum living/cluttered living, but now that we decided to stay (within the last month), we have a lot to unpack, move around, and organize - augh.
WTF 3: My dear dear dear husband...It's football and hockey season. He loves football and hockey. So much so that very little is getting done because the games are on (On Monday, Thursday, Saturday, Sunday -- and hockey hasn't officially started yet). This is starting some arguments because when I get my bursts of energy, I want to get things done - but he wants to wait until the game is done.
My WTF is pretty petty today. We got a good chunk of our Halloween display up sans finishing touches and lights, but Hurricane Matthew is hitting us this week. Contemplating taking some of the decorations down until it passes so they don't blow away...but at the same time...I'm lazy.
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Also, our black lab decided he forgot how to walk yesterday and has not been bending his paw and refuses to walk on it. He has had joint pain before, but always with crying or whining. He doesn't make a sound this time, just limps around the house... guess I'm calling the vet when they open.
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Oh my innocent eyes!
The worst part? We saw the house before the renovations, and we begged the owners not to renovate because we wanted a lower price. But the wife of this family had serious control issues (we were her neighbors before we bought the house so we knew her), and instead, she plowed ahead with the renovations, installed a whole bunch of stuff that doesn't work, spent close to $100,000, and yet all that work only raised the price of the house about $30,000 (a 100 year old house is still a 100 year old house after all). And now, on my one day off this week, I have to spend a good two hours cleaning our beautiful but completely dysfunctional bathroom. Seriously, previous owners- WTF?!
Edit: I should add that the bathtub and the tile shower are a stand-alone shower and a stand-alone tub. So close to 70% of my bathroom floor space is taken up by stuff that does not work.
It's just annoying. I didn't explain it well but she's in her own little bubble and just isn't a good friend. Which is fine. I should just continue to let her go. It just annoys me that she's being difficult for this other friend that's trying to do something nice for both of us.
But seriously, what douchebags.
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WTF my sleep streak ended last night! ah! Why! Spent most of the night coughing, and peeing and puking because I'm coughing, and peeing just to pee. Finally fell asleep around 2:30, and the alarm went off at 3am because DH has to be at work at 4am today and tomorrow, instead of just the weekends. Up at 6am for work! Babies are crowding my lungs...that's all I can think of as to why I'm always coughing at night...I wheeze when I lay on my left side...forget taking a deep full breath without having a coughing fit.
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Twin B lost 11/22/2017, Twin A doing well.
I am a worthless, worthless human these days. (baby-making aside)
I'm going to try to get my doctor on the phone this afternoon and see what she wants me to do. I can't believe she will leave me like this, surely there's something else we can do.
I don't know much about thyroid meds, but I hope your experience is similar to mine and your body adjusts quickly.
Also, WTF employees. If you've been here for less than 6 months, you probably shouldn't rate yourself as "exceeds expectations" on anything in your self-evaluation. Cause, chances are, you're meeting expectations, not exceeding them. Exceeding would mean you're already working at the next level. Surprise! You're not. This just makes our conversation about your performance awkward when I have to explain why my rating is lower than yours. Pro tip: always rate yourself as meets expectations (unless you know you suck at something), let me be the one to raise your rating.
Also, WTF desktop Bump? Your auto-play ads that keep making the page jump all over the place are totally rude and unnecessary! I'm going back to mobile Bump.
Doctor gave me armour thyroid yesterday and I have taken two doses and already feel awful. Thing is, I don't have any hypothyroid symptoms. I'm not constipated, don't have a low sex drive, my period is like clockwork, I don't have a loss of appetite, no hair loss, no exhaustion (outside of pregnancy), nothing outside of being heavy. And I've always been heavy - I was a five year old with a double chin so that's not a symptom in my book. There's nothing to "make better" because I felt fine. Now? I feel like I might lose my mind. I've been sitting on the couch sobbing, trying to get up the will to make myself lunch. Every time they try to put me on something I turn into a raging emotional psychopath.
I called my doctor because the internet says to call doctor if I have any side effects they listed and I definitely have some of them - like headache and mood changes. I'm currently waiting on a nurse to call me back.