Crying because today my body feels miserable. Pregnancy is a lot harder on the body than I realized it would be. I feel tired but nauseated but also my head hurts and let's not even talk about my boobs...bleh. I'm thankful I have the ability to carry this baby, and I feel guilty for complaining when overall things have been fine. I just am going to keep crying until I feel better. Good plan.
This was me this morning. And I am not even having a bad pregnancy! I think it is just feeling so different in my body and worrying what the second half is going to be like. If I'm having trouble sleeping and feeling discomfort now how is it going to be in 10 weeks or 15 weeks?
I cried earlier today because a friend asked me to meet her at a place for dinner so we can talk about my baby shower she's throwing in October. DH was at a hobby store playing games.
Got there and realized I forgot my phone. I used her phone to let him know I was going to bring a salad home for my dinner and that I was ok. So me and friend talked for a little bit, and thought to myself, "Don't forget to grab DH something." I ordered as she was still talking to me.
Drove home with my bag of food, and DH had stopped by Fresh Market to get me some of my favorite snacks, and went to another store to get me a specific brand of cherries I like. He asked me if I picked him up anything, and my heart dropped: I forgot to order him food. I felt so bad. He always is thinking of me, and I couldn't remember a sandwich? Cue water works.
I called my husband at work (via my computer) today sobbing. He says, "What's wrong?" "So many things," I reply. I proceed to explain that I can't find my phone and was wanting to call him, the Amish girl's father in a book I'm reading cut down the new mailbox her suitor put up for the family because the father didn't like him. I was so upset because they're in love, etc. Lastly, I wanted shrimp linguini from Red Lobster and was sure he wasn't going to go for it.
He told me we could have Red Lobster, helped me find my phone by calling it, and reassured me the couple would be happily married by the end of the book. I eventually stopped crying. Most of my crying usually revolves around food and me wanting it so much that tears start falling. Last night I started sobbing for hershey's kisses and a blow pop. Fortunately, I was ushered to bed before I could eat that.
I cried today after making two rescues back to back within a minute of each other. ( I am a lifeguard ) I didn't need to get in the water but I was so frustrated by the stupidity of children and getting my shirt wet and I don't feel well today that it all came out.
... Fortunately, I was ushered to bed before I could eat that.
I was sent to bed on Monday at 8:15. I wanted to protest but 1) I was so tired that I kept falling asleep sitting up, and 2) even I needed a break from my grouchy attitude at that point.
@DiFazette You are totally okay in feeling overwhelmed! I too am expecting twins and and am overcome sometimes by how this is going to change everything. It is okay, and at times it will be hard, but when I get overwhelmed I try and just think about the babes inside of me, and I couldn't imagine it any other way. I recently saw a video on YouTube of a song by Nichole Nordeman titled "Slow Down" and it made me sob. Check it out! And then right after that I saw a link to an article about a mother who overheard an elderly man say to his wife, while looking at her and her family, "those were the days, weren't they?" So every time I get overwhelmed I try and tell myself that these days and the ones coming up are THE days! They are going to be amazing, hard but amazing, and you are going to be amazing to your twins, evidenced by you already worrying and caring about how they are and what will happen!
Thanks @Knottie1427847452. I'm already living the days with my 3 year old. My level of concern comes from a different place already having a child that's the center of my world. I worry what kind of impact it will have on him, and how I will possibly give these babies as much love and attention as DS received the past 3 years. I love being a parent, there's nothing better. Adding ONE child to a family is stressful, two feels overwhelming some times.
DH was at work yesterday from 6am-10pm working on some project they have, and basically left it at where they started do some issues. So, I was home alone all night and watched some Gilmore Girls on Netflix. There were quite a few times that tears just started rolling... for no reason!
Me: 37 years old
DH: 39 years old
Married: October 17, 2014 TTC Since: November 2015 BFP: March 31, 2016 DS: November 21, 2016
December'16 December Siggy Challenge: Elf on the Shelf Fails **winner**
I seriously have the best/most supportive group of girl friends. Last night I sent them links to my Target and Amazon baby registries to review. I am so overwhelmed by what we need vs. what we don't and brands and Ah!! This morning I got a list of what to add, what to take off AND a list of things they're giving us. And it's big/nice stuff too - Britax infant seat with extra base, Ergo baby wrap with infant insert, a Bumbo, a jumper, gym mat and activity walker/exersaucer, a swing that also converts to a bouncer, infant bath seat. Holy cow. It saves us about a $1,000!
ETA because I just told SO about it and he wants to send them a video-recorded thank you. What a guy.
@ajstevenson That is awesome! We are getting some stuff from my SIL and BIL which we are so grateful for! And many of it is stuff you mentioned, which will save a lot of money. We only want to buy what we have to.
Me: 37 years old
DH: 39 years old
Married: October 17, 2014 TTC Since: November 2015 BFP: March 31, 2016 DS: November 21, 2016
December'16 December Siggy Challenge: Elf on the Shelf Fails **winner**
Watched a sad video on Facebook and just lost it. DH just shook his head and said "You did it to yourself, I don't want to hear it." I'm also still banned from watching TV because those commercials still get me.
Married 4/12/13 TTC since 6/13 Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016 SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
Stress. I'm close to having a daily cry being overwhelmed by everything that needs doing, and by the fact that we are in a super tight financial spot right now but still trying to buy a house. DH is amazing and supportive, but also has a lot on his plate and can't manage his time well, so his stress gets to me too.
I know everything's going to work out, and baby just kicked a little while I was crying, as if to say "cut it out, mama". So I'm going to go out and till a bunch of new vegetable beds and stop being all pregnant and emotional.
I'm trying to write wedding vows...it's not going so well because I can't get more than a line in without crying. Our wedding is in two months, so I had better smarten up soon!
We took our dog to the vet last night for a routine appointment. Everything is absolutely fine and she and our other dog and healthy and beautiful. So on the ride home I look back at her in the car and start crying, then tell my husband how hard it is going to be to deal with it when she dies. She is two. She has so much of her life left. I was being ridiculous.
DH is playing this game he just downloaded. It doesn't look realistic at all (hand drawn instead of computer generated, almost comic looking). It takes placed during WWI (he's a history buff) and is based on actual stories. At one point, the dog that saved one of the character's lives during a bombing gets caught in barbed wire and there's a tank rolling down a hill directly in the dog's path. I jut started crying saying Nothing had better happen to that dog!!! I couldn't stop crying (dog was saved, btw). I ended up calling my pup onto the couch and crying some more. DH can't play that game with me around anymore because I get so stressed about the dog.
Also today has been a real shitty day. I made DH upset, my boss was being an ass and I got bitched out over the phone by an unhappy contact. At break I just curled up on my bed and cried.
Married 4/12/13 TTC since 6/13 Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016 SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
@mysteryship I want you to know that I have been there and it majorly sucks. Lots of spaghetti and cheapie meals with a side of crying...sometimes we'd get donated groceries. It will get better! I know it doesn't feel like it and very overwhelming, but there will be better days ahead--and it's ok to cry about. It took almost a year for our situation to get better a few years ago, but but we got through it and now we're doing great. Many positive vibes and thoughts coming your way!
I'm just having a bad day. My side is pinchy/achy from RLP, I guess (or just achy because), and I have a headache because I'm trying to eat better again and cut out meat and dairy (I had been vegan for 3 months when I got pregnant, my doctor knows and gave me the okay).
I'm also unreasonably upset because I'm plus size and don't have a cute baby bump. I just look like I've been hitting the buffet particularly hard in my lower gut, which is tough since I lost about 95 pounds prior to getting pregnant. I know I'm thickening again for a good reason, but it's hard to tell that to my emotions when none of my clothes look right and I need to wear maternity shorts.
I know I'm being crazy, but I had worked hard for my size 16 jeans and now? Will I get back there again?
I'm probably going to start crying about the piglets being sent to bacon camp up thread too. I'm just pouty and ridiculous today.
@caseyewhitaker: I totally get what you mean about having no cute bump. I lost 40lbs right before getting pregnant. I'm worried I just look like I'm gaining back the weight I worked so hard to lose. My DH and good friend both tell me I still look like my pre-pregancy self, but I've been in maternity pants since memorial day. I'm pretty sure I'm going to go from looking like me to looking absurdly pregnant and just skip all the cute bump stuff in the middle.
You will be able to get back into your pre-pregnancy jeans!
This morning I started crying because I have no work pants that fit. We just moved and I know I had more work pants somewhere but couldn't find them to see if they would. My sock drawer was extremely full and wouldn't close right when I tried to shut it so I had a temper tantrum and threw the socks everywhere while crying. Think it's time to tell my boss I can't wear the pants anymore and stick to maternity pants or regular pants with a belly band (my work pants have no buttons or zippers so can't wear the band with them).
Almost every night I cry about something lol Lately it will be over my precious boston terrier Bella. She just turned 10 this year and for some reason every night when I lay down in bed I think about what life would be without her and I bawl my eyes out My husband probably thinks I've lost my marbles. Then last night I accidently pulled one of my husband's heart monitor probes and hurt him, I cried (He's hooked up to a heart monitor for 24 hours, he has about 8 probes stuck to his chest) Wonder what tonight will bring.
@MrsGreco143 - I love Bostons! Yours is beautiful! I completely understand - it is hard to know they won't live forever. But Bostons can live a very long time. My Uncle had one that lived to almost 17! Here's hoping that Bella has many more good years in her.
@MrsGreco143 - I love Bostons! Yours is beautiful! I completely understand - it is hard to know they won't live forever. But Bostons can live a very long time. My Uncle had one that lived to almost 17! Here's hoping that Bella has many more good years in her.
Thank you!! I think she does have several years left. She's super healthy, We live on a 4 acre farm so she definitely stays active. I just hate having bad thoughts about losing her. Don't know why my brain is thinking like that lately. (Happy thoughts Happy thoughts Happy thoughts)
@mysteryship I want you to know that I have been there and it majorly sucks. Lots of spaghetti and cheapie meals with a side of crying...sometimes we'd get donated groceries. It will get better! I know it doesn't feel like it and very overwhelming, but there will be better days ahead--and it's ok to cry about. It took almost a year for our situation to get better a few years ago, but but we got through it and now we're doing great. Many positive vibes and thoughts coming your way!
Thank you for this, I needed to hear it. I know that we'll find a way through this but sometimes it's hard in the moment to not beat myself up over past choices. Thanks for the encouragement
We're under contract for a house, with the closing date set, but now the sellers want some extra days in the house. In theory, this is good because we can get some extra things originally not included in the deal, but I'm upset over it. I like to see progress, and there is no progress happening until we move so delaying our moving has me crying. This is my first time buying a house, and it's not for the weak (or maybe just my sensitive self lol).
I cried about an hour ago because DD(6 yrs) was practicing being a big sister. She got her baby doll and stroller, and was pushing the doll around. She also rocked her baby to sleep, and fed the doll a bottle. She then told me, as she has numerous times before, that she's so excited to be a big sister.
I almost cried tonight because I drank almond milk that had turned. My first instinct was fear that it might hurt the bean. DH talked me off the ledge but I'm still thinking and fretting. Rationally, I know half a cup of almond milk isn't going to hurt me, but irrationally I wanted to panic.
I started crying last night because DH finally used Squish's name. I was telling him baby was kicking me in the side when I was trying to sleep and he jokingly says "Bad [name]". I just lost it. He's so weird about this whole pregnancy. It's not really real for him until Squish is here, so he's only felt my belly once to feel a kick, won't talk to baby or use their name in conversation. This was huge and I cried for a good 5 minutes while he laughed.
Married 4/12/13 TTC since 6/13 Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016 SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
I cried when I realized my mom had only taken one terribly lit picture of me at my baby shower yesterday, and none of me and DH, or our family. I got so mad because my dad is terminally ill and I started thinking, I have no recent photos of my future baby's grandparents with me and DH, and they live hours away so it's unlikely we'll all get a photo together while I'm still pregnant. And then I got really mad thinking when my sister had her baby shower a few months ago, my parents took about a billion of her and her DH and had big family photos taken, where I was asked not to be in some of the photos. I started taking it really personally and crying again, even though I realize my mom was probably just too drunk at the party yesterday to remember to take photos and I'm being irrational about how important photos are. Ugh, still crying though.
I'm crying because my16 year old step daughter is acting like a total brat today. And I can't handle it. Rationally, I know she's just being a teenager. But my pregnant self is over her teenage shenanigans today.
Starting packing for our move today. I cried putting all the baby stuff into a box. Somehow my brain jumped ship and made me feel like I was packing it all away because something terrible had happened. Then I started feeling so bad for all the people who really do have something horrible happen. FI came in the room and was totally confused...
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying...
Got there and realized I forgot my phone. I used her phone to let him know I was going to bring a salad home for my dinner and that I was ok. So me and friend talked for a little bit, and thought to myself, "Don't forget to grab DH something." I ordered as she was still talking to me.
Drove home with my bag of food, and DH had stopped by Fresh Market to get me some of my favorite snacks, and went to another store to get me a specific brand of cherries I like. He asked me if I picked him up anything, and my heart dropped: I forgot to order him food. I felt so bad. He always is thinking of me, and I couldn't remember a sandwich? Cue water works.
He wasn't mad, but I just felt so shitty.
DD- 11/2016
He told me we could have Red Lobster, helped me find my phone by calling it, and reassured me the couple would be happily married by the end of the book. I eventually stopped crying. Most of my crying usually revolves around food and me wanting it so much that tears start falling. Last night I started sobbing for hershey's kisses and a blow pop. Fortunately, I was ushered to bed before I could eat that.
TTC Since: November 2015
BFP: March 31, 2016
DS: November 21, 2016
ETA because I just told SO about it and he wants to send them a video-recorded thank you. What a guy.
TTC Since: November 2015
BFP: March 31, 2016
DS: November 21, 2016
TTC since 6/13
Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change
BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016
SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
I know everything's going to work out, and baby just kicked a little while I was crying, as if to say "cut it out, mama". So I'm going to go out and till a bunch of new vegetable beds and stop being all pregnant and emotional.
routine appointment. Everything is absolutely fine and she and our other dog and healthy and beautiful. So on the ride home I look back at her in the car and start crying, then tell my husband how hard it is going to be to deal with it when she dies. She is two. She has so much of her life left. I was being ridiculous.
Also today has been a real shitty day. I made DH upset, my boss was being an ass and I got bitched out over the phone by an unhappy contact. At break I just curled up on my bed and cried.
TTC since 6/13
Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change
BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016
SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
I'm also unreasonably upset because I'm plus size and don't have a cute baby bump. I just look like I've been hitting the buffet particularly hard in my lower gut, which is tough since I lost about 95 pounds prior to getting pregnant. I know I'm thickening again for a good reason, but it's hard to tell that to my emotions when none of my clothes look right and I need to wear maternity shorts.
I know I'm being crazy, but I had worked hard for my size 16 jeans and now? Will I get back there again?
I'm probably going to start crying about the piglets being sent to bacon camp up thread too. I'm just pouty and ridiculous today.
You will be able to get back into your pre-pregnancy jeans!
TTC since 6/13
Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change
BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016
SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
BFP#1 & MC:August 2015 BFP: #2 10/01/2015 MC: 10/09/2015 BFP #3: 12/22/2015 @ 5 weeks MC/CP: 12-23-2015
Fertility Appointment: Feb 23/16, Hysteroscopy 03/02/2016,
BFP #4: 03/31/16 EDD 12/01/2016
I looked at Rowdy's face and started crying because he is so cute.
I started crying last night because DH finally used Squish's name. I was telling him baby was kicking me in the side when I was trying to sleep and he jokingly says "Bad [name]". I just lost it. He's so weird about this whole pregnancy. It's not really real for him until Squish is here, so he's only felt my belly once to feel a kick, won't talk to baby or use their name in conversation. This was huge and I cried for a good 5 minutes while he laughed.
TTC since 6/13
Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change
BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016
SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18