::Hugs:: to @DaniBanani16@MrsBinPA and any other PGAL-er who needs it (which is probably everyone posting on here).
@dubcompanion ::Hugs:: to you as well. I know you're nervous about your US today, but I do so hope it goes well for you. I am keeping my fingers and toes crossed and sending a bunch of T&Ps your way today.
Me: 27 - DH: 33
Married: June 2011
TTC #1: January 2016
BFP #1: February 22nd
2016 MC w/ Misoprostol: March 21st 2016 -Blighted Ovum
Ugh you ladies just get me way more than anyone else right now. So lucky to have this group...
@dubcompanion keep us updated about that US today! If it doesn't go well, you know we will support you. If it goes fantastically, it's a win for all of us! Crossing everything for you and saying a little prayer (because I happen to be a person who believes in prayer - promise to not try to convert anyone else or anything) for you and your little one.
You are in my T&P today too @dubcompanion! I will be anxiously awaiting an update.
I have a rotten headache today & I am still hungry AF constantly. I keep obsessively doing beta calculations to see when I might be over the hightest level I have ever known I had to try to squash the worry about lack of symptoms. I've never had MS but have never had a sucessful week 6 when everyone says it usually starts.
I have headaches, indigestion, sore boobs/nips (but not terrible), very frequent indigestion, & maybe am starting to be more tired in the PMs which seems totally normal for week 5.
@DaniBanani16 I agree that it is a coping mechanism. I am still between excitement and assuming the worst is going to happen. I actually started therapy after my loss (I really just could not handle it on my own) and we talked about this exact thing. I feel like it protects me from getting blindsided, too.
@MrsBinPA I am so sorry you've gone though so much. I really don't have words but that I can only imagine how painful that must be. You are a strong woman and I have fingers and toes crossed for you that everything will go well.
@dubcompanion sending prayers your way that your U/S goes well today!! Keep us posted.
My emotions are much of what you ladies describe above. I'm high risk with a uterine abnormality as well that gives me a higher risk of miscarriage than normal so that has been hanging over my head as well. I keep saying things like "if I make it till then". I hate to say that but after two losses I think it's impossible to ignore those thoughts. Sometimes I feel like I'm doomed to not have this work out for me but then I keep reminding myself it's a new pregnancy. I had my first loss at 12 weeks and I am 6 weeks 2 days so I think the next couple weeks are going to be the hardest for me until I get into the second trimester.
Hugs to all of you! @dubcompanion I hope your ultrasound goes well today!
When I had my appointment on Wednesday the PA told me to try to enjoy this pregnancy. I've been trying to enjoy each day even though I'm unsure what the outcome may be. Some days are harder than others but I'm trying my best.
PGAL brain definitely messes with you- I was freaking out the past few days because I didn't feel as nauseous and yesterday I had horrible gas pains that almost doubled me over. Now here I am today gagging/dry heaving all day at work again and I wore a different bra today which isn't as supportive and my boobs hurt SO much. I just need to accept that symptoms are just going to come and go.
I get that anxiety too but I just keep thinking to myself that I am not going to live in fear, whatever will happen will happen. So I try my best to stay optimistic. At first I didn't want to tell anyone I was pregnant (I was seriously considering telling everyone but close family until after the baby was born) but I've changed my mind because I want to celebrate life regardless.
My midwife said it best "miscarriage robs us of our innocence"
I get all of these feelings you all are sharing. My first pregnancy I took for granted that I would have a baby at the end of it... now I don't assume anything. I don't feel that inherent promise of a child, but I'm trying to. If you think about it, even if you distance your heart and don't get too excited to avoid being blindsided, if you lose this child it won't hurt any less, it won't help you grieve...it's really a bad coping mechanism if that's what it is.
I say no. This child will have all the JOY I can give, for as long as he or she lives! All I can do is try today, and tell bean "I love you"
Thank you all for your words of comfort and kindness. While I was waiting for the OB to arrive, I reread this thread with tears in my eyes (not ashamed of my emo)! Then when I saw the baby on the screen, I cried even harder. It's still a long road ahead, but it's nice that another milestone has been passed. Baby's on track according to ovulation date (not LMP), so win for me. Heartbeat is a strong 158, is not ectopic and not molar. FX for a smooth 5-week-wait until the NT scan!
Re: PGAL Check In 7/25
@dubcompanion ::Hugs:: to you as well. I know you're nervous about your US today, but I do so hope it goes well for you. I am keeping my fingers and toes crossed and sending a bunch of T&Ps your way today.
Me: 27 - DH: 33
Married: June 2011
TTC #1: January 2016
BFP #1: February 22nd 2016 MC w/ Misoprostol: March 21st 2016 -Blighted Ovum
BFP #2: July 6th 2016 EDD: March 15th 2017
M17 October Siggy Challenge: Animals in Costumes
@dubcompanion keep us updated about that US today! If it doesn't go well, you know we will support you. If it goes fantastically, it's a win for all of us! Crossing everything for you and saying a little prayer (because I happen to be a person who believes in prayer - promise to not try to convert anyone else or anything) for you and your little one.
I have a rotten headache today & I am still hungry AF constantly. I keep obsessively doing beta calculations to see when I might be over the hightest level I have ever known I had to try to squash the worry about lack of symptoms. I've never had MS but have never had a sucessful week 6 when everyone says it usually starts.
I have headaches, indigestion, sore boobs/nips (but not terrible), very frequent indigestion, & maybe am starting to be more tired in the PMs which seems totally normal for week 5.
Me: 39 DH: 40
Married: 12/6/2014
BFP#2: 10/28/15 MC: 11/24/15
BFP#3: 3/20/16 MC: 4/26/16
BFP#4: 7/15/16 DD: 3/18/17
BFP#5: 5/1/18 EDD: 1/12/19
@MrsBinPA I am so sorry you've gone though so much. I really don't have words but that I can only imagine how painful that must be. You are a strong woman and I have fingers and toes crossed for you that everything will go well.
@dubcompanion sending prayers your way that your U/S goes well today!! Keep us posted.
My emotions are much of what you ladies describe above. I'm high risk with a uterine abnormality as well that gives me a higher risk of miscarriage than normal so that has been hanging over my head as well. I keep saying things like "if I make it till then". I hate to say that but after two losses I think it's impossible to ignore those thoughts. Sometimes I feel like I'm doomed to not have this work out for me but then I keep reminding myself it's a new pregnancy. I had my first loss at 12 weeks and I am 6 weeks 2 days so I think the next couple weeks are going to be the hardest for me until I get into the second trimester.
Hugs to all of you! @dubcompanion I hope your ultrasound goes well today!
When I had my appointment on Wednesday the PA told me to try to enjoy this pregnancy. I've been trying to enjoy each day even though I'm unsure what the outcome may be. Some days are harder than others but I'm trying my best.
Me: 33 Hubs: 34
TTC since 5/2014
BFP: 7/27/14 MC: 9/20/14
BFP: 6/29/15 MC: 7/6/15
BFP: 7/17/16 EDD: 3/22/17
I get all of these feelings you all are sharing. My first pregnancy I took for granted that I would have a baby at the end of it... now I don't assume anything. I don't feel that inherent promise of a child, but I'm trying to. If you think about it, even if you distance your heart and don't get too excited to avoid being blindsided, if you lose this child it won't hurt any less, it won't help you grieve...it's really a bad coping mechanism if that's what it is.
I say no. This child will have all the JOY I can give, for as long as he or she lives! All I can do is try today, and tell bean "I love you"
Edit - it's a 5 week wait, not 4. Poo.
Me: 27 - DH: 33
Married: June 2011
TTC #1: January 2016
BFP #1: February 22nd 2016 MC w/ Misoprostol: March 21st 2016 -Blighted Ovum
BFP #2: July 6th 2016 EDD: March 15th 2017
M17 October Siggy Challenge: Animals in Costumes
Me: 39 DH: 40
Married: 12/6/2014
BFP#2: 10/28/15 MC: 11/24/15
BFP#3: 3/20/16 MC: 4/26/16
BFP#4: 7/15/16 DD: 3/18/17
BFP#5: 5/1/18 EDD: 1/12/19
Me: 33 Hubs: 34
TTC since 5/2014
BFP: 7/27/14 MC: 9/20/14
BFP: 6/29/15 MC: 7/6/15
BFP: 7/17/16 EDD: 3/22/17