PGAL Check In 7/25

Spartanrd4

This is for all our March moms who have experienced a loss- we are here to support one another! 

1. How far along are you?

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to?

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes:

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? 

Spartanrd4

1. How far along are you? 7 weeks 6 days- EDD 3/7/17 

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? I have my first OB appointment with the doctor in 2 weeks! 

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: I had my first ultrasound yesterday and saw my little nugget with a heart beat. Everything looked great. It definitely took a sad memory from my last ultrasound experience and made it into a happy one....it is something I will never forget and now this pregnancy definitely feels more real to me- there is a real baby in there!! This might really be happening! I hopefully can ride this emotional high until my next appointment. I am also really happy that DH could be there too and we could share that moment together. 

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? I've always wanted to go to Australia- I've met a few Australians and they are just the most fun and nicest people. The scenery looks beautiful and you are literally on the other side of the world. I also like that you can see animals and things there that you can't find anywhere else. Maybe one day when DH and I are retired

***Good luck to everyone that has appointments this week!!!***

JustAnotherUsername16

@Spartanrd4  CONGRATULATIONS! That sounds like such a wonderful experience and I'm so happy you got to change your U/S experience!

1. How far along are you? 6w3d

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? Still no ultrasound until 8.5 weeks which is frustrating... Trying not to panic...

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: Still forever complaining about the lack of ultrasound. I just want some reassurance that everything is ok... And I don't want to wait another 2 weeks to get that. 

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? My mom's family is Filipino and has some strong political ties there, yet I have never been to the Philippines. I'd love to visit and meet the family that remained there after my grandparents sought political refugee in America. 

irishrose54

@Spartanrd4 congrats on your U/S! I saw your pic in the thread up top before this and was so happy for you!! may your two weeks go quickly...
@DaniBanani16 I hope your two weeks go quickly too!! Waiting for the first ultrasound can make the days feel slow so I get why you're frustrated.


1. How far along are you? 8 weeks today!

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? My next scan next Tuesday. Then my appointment w the ob that weds. They do the scan on a different day which I don't get but whatever. 

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: pregnancy hormones are making me so cranky. We have two dogs and one is a puppy. He keeps waking me up in the middle of the night and I'm just imagining no sleep ever again. I thought I would get the pregnancy time to sleep but NOPE! I knew we signed up for this with a puppy though so I can only blame myself but I'd like to think the hormones are making this harder than it needs to be.

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why?  If sitting on a plane for 18 hours didn't matter to me I would go to Japan! Everything there just seems nicer and way cooler. At least that's how DH makes it seem, he never stops talking about how we need to go there. 

BelcherEars

@spartanrd4Glad your ultrasound went well and your DH was there to experience it with you!

@danibanani16Hoping time flies by till your US! I know waiting can be tough. 

@irishrose54Japan sounds like it would be interesting to visit. Plus eating amazing sushi... YUM! 

1. How far along are you? Approximately 6 weeks and 5 days.

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? First ultrasound/visit on 8/16

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: Having to put one of my dogs down Wednesday, so I’m kinda bummed right now. I’m not obsessing over PGAL though, so there’s that.

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? Hawaii. DH and I went there about 6 years ago. I would love to go back and spend some time island hopping. Definitely a relaxing, beautiful place to visit. We also felt safe traveling in a rental car at our own leisure. Other islands we have visited (non US territories, etc.) have not afforded us the opportunity to travel that way and feel safe. (i.e. our honeymoon was in Jamaica, and they had a barbwire fence around the resort… we did not venture out on our own)  Plusalso, the pineapple in Hawaii is to die for!

JustAnotherUsername16

@BelcherEars I am so very very sorry. I know how difficult putting a dog down can be. I will be sending you thoughts and prayers. 

irishrose54

@BelcherEars I am so sorry about your dog. I can't imagine how hard that must be. I'll be thinking of you today. 

BelcherEars

@DaniBanani16 @irishrose54 Thanks ladies, I appreciate it. It is definitely tough, but something that DH and I knew was around the corner. Our little mini dachshund has DDD, and has taken a really bad turn, so it's just time. TB is my distraction today. 

Spartanrd4

I'm sorry about your dog @BelcherEars My parents had to put one of our family dogs down a month ago...its so hard!!

BelcherEars

@Spartanrd4 Thanks, and I am sorry to hear about your family dog.  It is a terribly sad thing. 

Saracp78

@BelcherEars so sorry about your pup. That sounds hard.

1. How far along are you? 6 weeks today!

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? Ultra sound on 8/2

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: well I had my first signs of morning sickness Saturday night, then it started again Sunday afternoon. With DD and my angel baby I found that I was sick from around 11:00 as early as 10:00 am on every day.
i am not looking forward to this but I know it is part of the journey and means I am preggo so.


 As for travel:  if I wasn't pregnant I would say Italy or Spain but I can enjoy any of the delicious wines at the save that for another time. I think it be fun so beautiful and again during the Guinness factory would be the same without being the taste it. 
so I think it goes back to Greece. Figuring he was simply stunning there was amazing! As was Crete. See you in those areas never got tired and was so fresh and delicious..  So I think it goes back to Greece! Santorini was simply stunning and the food there was amazing! As was Crete. The food in both areas never got tired and was so fresh and delicious.  The views were amazing and the pace it's nice and slow just with a pregnant lady needs. 

dubcompanion

@BelcherEars I'll be thinking of you this week. Having to put down a fur baby is so hard. They're members of our family.
@irishrose54 That is odd they do the scan on a different day. ::head scratch:: But ah well. At least there will be one soon!

1. How far along are you? 6w6d

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? The first OB appt with U/S is on Friday! Guys, I'm freaking! DH is simply excited though, so I will try to soak that up with him. Go away, PgAL brain!

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: DH worked a very unusual semi-overnight shift last night and didn't get home until 3 AM. I'd joked I'd stay awake until he got home. I was out by 2:20. For some reason, the house key didn't work so he ended up waking me up by calling me to ask me to let him in. I was SO grouchy. Holy crap. Then this morning I was woken up by the crop dusting plane next door. (I live in a suburb, but there's a cornfield here also. Ah, the Midwest.)

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? I'd love to go to the Philippines also! @DaniBanani16 I was adopted from there when I was a baby. I don't know my biological family, but according to the adoption papers, my mother sounded like an amazing, wonderful person. She was all of 16 when she put me up for adoption, and I was about 7 months old. At the time, I had an unclosed bilateral cleft lip and palate. She had no money, and I was a sickly baby who was starting to struggle to eat. I'd love to go back there one day, and even if it's not to necessarily search for her, to see my ethnic roots. It would be neat to meet her though, and thank her for literally everything!

irishrose54

@dubcompanion The woman on the phone said something about the dr. not wanting patients to wait in the office for a while for results. I don't even know what that means. I will only be 9 weeks so that is too early for any testing. I really need to call back and figure out what the heck she was talking about lol. 

dubcompanion

@irishrose54 Maybe just some routine blood tests? At my 8 week appt. is when they test your blood for counts, RH, STD's, etc., though none of that is anything I would feel anxious to wait for (then again, everything is available online as soon as results are in). Maybe if patients have concerns (particularly if they feel they are RH-negative), they're inclined to wait. Be that as it may, that's a weird reason to schedule things on different days.

MrsBinPA

1. 4+5 today

2.  I have another set of labs and first ultrasound tomorrow.  

3.  I feel guilty even saying this based on so many of your frustrations at having to wait for ultrasounds, but I am admittedly not looking forward to my appointment tomorrow.  It seems so so early.  All they want to do is confirm gestational sac is in my uterus.  Their rule of thumb is HCG level 1200-1500 should show a sac.   I have a retroverted ute & the last time they couldn't find anything when my beta was 2050.  It just caused a ton of alarm and multiple checks over the course of a few days.   I really hope that doesn't happen again, but I think once we have this appointment I am going to have a lot of stress & anxiety for the next few weeks.  I have been able to keep it mostly at bay for the now 11 days I have known I am KTFU.   In all my losses development stopped in early week 6 after we saw HB on US, so unless/until we have a confirmed solid HB and GROWTH in to Wk7 I am not going to be able to relax in the least bit.  I'm trying to do my best to be as distracted as possible with other things.  I wish I could workout.  I'm on pelvic rest as a precaution.  Some CrossFit, even dramatically modified, would help my anxiety for sure.  Sorry for a whiny rant!

4. Right now the top destination on my list is Iceland.  I've heard so many great things about it!  I really want to go & it doesn't have ZIKA! 

Spartanrd4

@MrsBinPA I hope you see something on your ultrasound and it doesn't make you more nervous. I have a tipped uterus too. The doctor originally wanted me to have the ultrasound last week but I waited until this past weekend because I knew I was only 6+ weeks based on O and LMP edd was wrong. And low and behold I was right! I was only off by 1 day 

FX for you!!

sarahbobby

1. How far along are you? 5 weeks 5 days

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? I have my confirmation appointment on Wednesday. I'll be 6 weeks.

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: My nerves have not been so great today and yesterday but I think I'm getting nervous about being close to 6 weeks and my first appointment. I haven't had many symptoms except cramping, sore breasts, headaches and extremely tired.

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why?  Probably an Asian country because I would love to experience that culture!

@belcherears I am very sorry to hear about your dog.

@spartangirl24 Great to hear about your U/S!

MrsBinPA

Thanks @Spartanrd4!   The tipped ute makes things even more interesting.   I found my betas & progesterone's from the last loss and this one is much different (in a good way).  Trying not to go down a rabbit hole but it's so hard!!  I don't want to get my hopes up, but also don't want to be horribly pessimistic either.

GoldenTMama

@MrsBinPA I feel you on not being able to relax until successfully passing the end of a previous loss. We had a successful and heathy US at 7weeks, but now I am getting close to 9 weeks and I am starting to get nervous again. In our 1st MC the baby stopped growing after 7weeks, so i don't think i will be able to relax until we see a healthy growing baby at our 11weeks appointment on 8/10. Two and half weeks sounds so far away!! On a completely different note, my brother and his wife are returning to Iceland for the 2nd time next month and I am jealous that I have not been before. Sounds amazingly beautiful! 

1. How far along are you? 8weeks 6days

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? 11week US on August 10th!! 

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: Trying to keep positive, but every day that my symptoms aren't in full force I get scared. I tell myself that I am doing the best I can and to trust my body. 

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? I think it would have to be to travel around the middle east. I have always wanted to visit Tehran in Iran because that is where my uncle was born. And I have always wanted to visit the beautiful cities in all of those countries, like Cairo and Istanbul. It makes me sad that these places are crumbling under years of war.  

Spartanrd4

I had an opportunity about 5 years ago to go to Jordan but it didn't pan out.....I've been told it's one of the safer and friendlier countries for Americans but now with what's going on in Syria still makes me nervous because they are so close to each other @GoldenTMama

dubcompanion

@MrsBinPA My sis-in-law visited Iceland this summer, and the pics she shared are breathtakingly gorgeous! She and a friend of hers backpacked around the land. I'm convinced that's the way to travel in that country!

GoldenTMama

I wasn't sure where else to post this, but I didn't want to start a new post. So I hope it's okay that I put this here.

My OB is the best and can apparently read my mind. I was freaking myself out this weekend because it felt like my symptoms were gone (got a little bit of them back today) and was wondering if I should call and try to get my U/S pushed up. My OB has been out of the office for the past month and she is coming back early (this week instead of next month). When she saw my name in the appointment book she decided to give me a call to congratulate me and to ask me if I wanted to come in early for another U/S this week. I of course sad YES! She knew that I wouldn't get piece of mind until I was able to see a healthy baby past our first M/C (at 7 weeks). I love her so much and am so excited and nervous about having the U/S. FX everything looks good at the U/S on Thursday! 

dubcompanion

I'm so glad you're in good hands, @GoldenTMama! FX for a beautiful sight of healthy, happy LO on Thursday!

GoldenTMama

Thank you @dubcompanion !

Spartanrd4

It's good to have OBs who understand and are caring about our situation @GoldenTMama ❤

Scarlett830

That's great @GoldenTMama! So glad you have such a good and understanding OB!

PurpleDaisy12

1.8 weeks 5 days
2. My 10 week ultrasound, a week from thursday!
3. I had a private ultrasound on Saturday and saw the baby's heart beating which was magical♡. My symptoms have decreased pretty significantly since a week ago and have been in and out which is messing with my brain, but I'm trying to stay hopeful and positive (easier some days than others). Reminding myself that my mother never had ms helps.

4. I would love to go to Iceland and to Hawaii. Mountains, volcanoes, amazing scuba, northern lights...

Sugargirl1019

1. How far along are you? 6 weeks

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? I want to hear the heartbeat and measure on target next week!

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: I've got symptoms woot woot!

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? I'd love to go to Ireland to see the scenery, and Fiji for the over water bungalows.

chrstna618

1. How far along are you? 8w5d EDD March 1st

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? Big scary ultrasound on Wed, I'll be 9wks... I'm so scared! But my DH this afternoon said "I get to see my child in a couple days" and I melted... So glad he's going with me!!

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: Our AC drips and I can't tell you how many times I've woken up in the middle of the night thinking I wet the bed! lol

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? Toss up between Ireland (countryside, castles, antiques, and pubs!) And Jerusalem (what a blessing it would be to see the Holy Land)

dubcompanion

Best of luck at your scan on Wednesday, @chrstna618!

liepertsm

@dubcompanion Will be thinking of you this week! FX all goes well! 
@GoldenTMama It's great to have an OB who is so understanding! Mine is awesome too and it has been so helpful to me knowing I'm in good hands. 

1. How far along are you? 8w3d

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? Holding on for that 12 week appointment! 

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: We had a super busy weekend. One day spent washing walls at my husband's grandparent's house, one night spent volunteering in the beer tent at the fair (closing shift. UGH!), and yesterday a baseball game. Fun for the most part, but you guys. I am so tired. 

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? I would love to go to Ireland. I just think it would be so incredibly beautiful. I also love Irish music and accents.  

GoldenTMama

@chrstna618 FX for good news at your appointment tomorrow! 

Thank you @dubcompanion @Spartanrd4 @Scarlett830 and @liepertsm

JustAnotherUsername16

I love all the Irish love (especially considering my baby is due on St. Patrick's Day, haha)!! @Sugargirl1019 @chrstna618 @liepertsm I had the pleasure of living there for about 6 months courtesy of the Irish Government when I was learning how to speak Irish Gaelic. If you ever do get the chance to go, definitely check out the countryside and the Inish islands and if you're looking for the "big" city feel, choose Galway over Dublin. I hope y'all all get to experience it's beauty one day! 

Saracp78

I am freaking out!! My morning sickness is gone and I have been cramping since 5 it is now 7:30.  

MrsBinPA

@Saracp78 how are you feeling this morning?  Thinking of you.  I hope all is OK!

BaylieGirl

1. How far along are you? 6 weeks 3 day

2. Next milestone you're looking forward to?
First ultrasound on Monday. It can not get here fast enough. I'm an anxious wreck.

3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: having some spotting today. Like I needed another thing to worry about! I also have my first review with my boss after starting my new job. Really hoping the morning sickness stays away today, although I'm also hoping it doesn't go away Because I'll worry less about the spotting if I still feel pregnant.

4. GTKY: If you could travel anywhere in the world- where would it be and why? New Zealand. I love outdoor adventures and wine. 

Saracp78

@MrsBinPA I have had few moments or small times of sockness that I welcome. No cramping or bleeding so... But with my other loss I had no signs or symptoms either. Baby was measuring a little small at 8 weeks but had a great heartbeat so they had me come in at 10 and there was no heartbeat. No cramping, no spotting nothing. I had been sick until the day before. I am probably over thinking it but I am just so scared to do that again.

BaylieGirl

@saracp78 I'm over thinking everything too! I had a teeny bit of spotting this am and have had no symptoms all day. With my loss I had horrible symptoms up untill I found out. My first ultrasound isn't till next weekend so not much I can do but wait. I wish someone could invent am easy ultrasound app. This waiting is killing me!

JustAnotherUsername16

I gotta say... the PGAL anxiety is the absolute worst. If my pregnancy symptoms disappear for like ten minutes (as symptoms sometimes do, because they have no mercy and are huge jerks), then I spiral into the terrible thoughts of loss again. 

Sometimes I wonder if it's a coping mechanism... Like, not allowing myself to get my hopes up too high so they don't get crushed. Or, last time the loss completely blindsided me - perhaps I'm trying to feel like if it does happen again that I saw it coming this time? 

Regardless... the PGAL anxiety is the worst symptom of them all. 

MrsBinPA

@danibanani16 I definitely think it is a coping mechanism.  After 3 losses I am pretty much at the point where I have to believe that this pregnancy will be no different than the last.  Hopefully maybe it will crush me a little less.  I feel like I will feel foolish if I believe anything different.  Next week will be worse than this week is for me because all my losses are in Wk6.  I am just expecting no development again at my Wk7 appointment.

Hugs to you.  It definitely helps me feel less alone having the support of all you other PGAL ladies.  Knowing other people feel the same way I do is a comfort to me.

I'm also struggling with feelings of guilt about not allowing myself to be hopeful.  Like I am robbing myself of joy or something.  I've said it before, but RPL just steals joy from this time.

dubcompanion

@DaniBanani16 @MrsBinPA I'm so sorry that we have been robbed of the joy that comes with the miracle of pregnancy. I have my first u/s later today, and although I enjoy posting here, I keep wondering if this is my last day getting to know you all.